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49: Moving on with family
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2021-02-16 13:21:44"The idea of waiting for something makes it more exciting."
~Andy Warhol"I need to call Ana, you sure you're okay?" He asks carefully looking down at me.
"Yeah sure, go do your thing." I encourage.
"Okay." He says, before leaving the room.
I nod and my eyes drop down to the tapes before me which have numbers from one to five and I pick the one with the number 1 written on it and insert it into the tape player.
I unseal the earpiece and plug it into the small hole on the tape recorder and taking in a deep breath, I press play on the button.
The first voice I hear is the voice of Kemi and she's saying, "Opening up about your bad past will help you heal faster and move on to having a healthier relationship. Like you told me, your friend suggested therapy because of your failed relationship and wedding and I think that mi
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