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2020-12-27 11:44:16"Making amends is not only saying the words but also being willing to listen to how your behavior caused another's pain, and then the really hard part changing behavior."
~David WOnce at the table, Rogue pulls out my seat for me and I settle back in.
Melissa clears her throat immediately we sit down and begins to speak, "It's nice to have you all here, especially you Rogue and Alex and we've got good news to share with the family. It's been a few years since we felt we should start trying to have a baby..."
A few years? How old was she when Remi married her? My mind asks inquisitively.
Don't judge, Alex, you know what that feels like.
She pauses and stares at her husband as though eagerly waiting for his permission before giving the new that she's giving so much hint that we already know what the news is. Remi sighs exasp
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