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22: One true family
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2020-11-30 04:20:55"There are people of spirit and there are people of passion but much less common that one might think. Rarer still are the people of passion and spirit. But rarest of all is a passionate spirit."
-- Martin Buber
My failure started when I didn't plan ahead of time, when I didn't think to counter every question and argument Rogue presented my way and never should have given him the ground to throw my ideas out the way he did and since it's my fault and his idea is the one we are now going along with, I should have voiced out that I didn't want to be part of it, but as I tare between the nine faces seated around the table eight of which belong to my board members, I wonder how they'd look at me if I decided to pull out at the last stop. I'd give them more reason to consider me incompetent and unequal to the task of managing and handling things even when under pressure.
"Mrs Paige, do you agree with this decision?" Ivan Bassey a board member asks
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His Dark Desires 23: It's called responsibility
"Take time to accept responsibility. Your life is exactly that--it's your life. It is created by you. You are constantly making choices, constantly creating new experiences. And although we can be affected by circumstances which can seem to be completely out of our control, essentially, we decide the direction in which we walk."~Nicholas WatkinsWe arrive at Chickens Republic ten minutes later and it seems he already made reservations because the waiter meets us on the way and leads us to our table which is already filled with food.Julian draws me a chair and I sit, "Life is filled with unforeseen happening you always tell me, but you went ahead to make reservations even without you being sure I would come." I remark somewhat questionably as I pick up my fork and knife.He takes his seat and clears his throat, "It has to do with faith.""I don't believe in God, Julian," I dismiss before it can get worse and
Huling Na-update : 2020-12-03His Dark Desires 24: It's all about trust
I am there with you. I am all around you. You are surrounded by me. You can feel my presence anywhere you go. I am always near you. Because our love is a passionate love. You and I are parts of one soul. You are incomplete without me. I am incomplete without you.Avijeet Das"You following me or something Rogue?""I've been here for the past two hours, getting fresh air and watching these kids have fun, and you just got here like what? Two minutes ago and I'm the one following you, that doesn't sound right." He doesn't sound offended or like one who just wrongfully got accused, he sounded casual as he walks to me and sits down, "I needed to clear my head and I wandered here and I'm reminded that simplicity is still the best luxury.""It really is..." I agree with him and we drift into silence, just watching the kids dribble, kick and score a goal with 'their ball,' all the while laughing and cheering them on. I feel Rogue's ar
Huling Na-update : 2020-12-04His Dark Desires 25: Before there's pleasure
“To feel aroused is to feel alive. Having great sex is like taking in huge lungfuls of fresh air, essential to your body, essential to your health, and essential to your life.~Fiona Thrust,He takes my lips in his before I can say something that would stop him and he pushes me down onto the bed, "Rogue, I'm not so sure......" I nervous trail off, my heart pounding heavily against my chest."Shhh," he hushes, as he trails kisses down my neck to the valley between my breast and his hands comes up to delicately squeeze and pluck at my nipple. His tongue laps at my left nipples and then he curls his tongue around the hooded peak, earning a helpless moan from me, "We can fight in the morning and you can be in control if you like, but let me do this," he mutters against my right nipple while his hands trail down every inch of my skin until I'm panting and needy for his touch at the centre of my arousal.As if hearing my very
Huling Na-update : 2020-12-06His Dark Desires 26: Sexy hell
"To feel aroused is to feel alive. Having great sex is like taking in huge lungfuls of fresh air, essential to your body, essential to your health, and essential to your life."~Fiona ThrustWe meet up with some of the statesmen at 11 a.m. and we are able to reach an agreement and before the end of the day, we are able to acquire the lands and the document needed for the establishment of the shelter, the hospital and the school.Our accomplishment was possible because we all did our jobs, trying as much as possible to work together. Rogue worked to get the statesmen on board to give us a listening ear, Adewale drew out the plans for the siting of the school, shelter and hospital and presented it to them, while I work to convince them why they needed to be on our team. Rogue was initially supposed to do the convincing, but he changed his mind before we stepped into the room with them
Huling Na-update : 2020-12-07His Dark Desires 27: Her undoing
"It was the wildness of it that got me going: the primal lust, the sheer needs of two people in heat, quickly finding ways to express their sacred hunger to each other in animal passion."Fiona Thrust,Continued...He doesn't respond, instead, my right breast is fondled and its hard nipple is plucked at and I moan out, the intense feeling I've felt seconds ago becoming hyped into a sexual one. He lets go of my breast and his long fingers move upward and his finger in me dives deeper and as I gasp from the pleasure, he inserts two of his other finger into my mouth.The fact that I happen to be one with very high sanitary value flies through the window as his hand invade my mouth and I'm left helpless to the assault, "Weather?" he asks as he begins to move his finger in and out of my mouth rh
Huling Na-update : 2020-12-08His Dark Desires 28: Little moments like these
"Sex is… perfectly natural. It’s something that’s pleasurable. It’s enjoyable and it enhances a relationship." ~Sue JohansonMy eyes open and just like the morning, I'm being held on to by Rogue as his strong arms keep me a prisoner as he asleep peacefully, cuddled up against me. His arms feel secure and warm and I want to be held in them all day long. I wiggle around in his arms until I'm turned around and looking at him. His long hair ruffled up and covering side of his face, his lashes straight and long, resting against his cheeks, He looks peaceful sleep and for a moment I'm not sure if he's hotter awake or sleeping. His brow furrowing as though having a troubled sleep and for a weird cheesy reason I want to ask him what has him upset in his sleep.My hand goes up to brush off the locks of hair on his face and the crease of his brow loosen up but his mou
Huling Na-update : 2020-12-09His Dark Desires 29: A dark night
"You’ve gotta dance like there’s nobody watching, love like you’ll never be hurt, sing like there’s nobody listening, and live like it’s heaven on earth."William W. PurkeyI'm now standing in front of the waterfall with a blue neon lighting, illuminating the waterfall and making it a beautiful sight.I feel a pair of strong arms around me and I almost pull away before I hear Rogue's voice from behind, "I wanted it simple but far from cheap."I smile and glance up at him, "Mission accomplished Rogue, this is the simplest and yet luxurious place I've ever been to."He leans down and takes my lips between his, "I'm glad you like it?" he says before moving me along with him into the restaurant.As soon as we walk in, a tall, dark, probably mid-twenties waitress walks up to us and directs up to the reserved part of the restaurant which is an open air space in which the night sky is on full display
Huling Na-update : 2020-12-10His Dark Desires 30: The aftermath
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."Marilyn MonroeThe elevator door opens to our floor and we step out of it, my hands tightly holding onto Rogue's arm and keeping step with him. He hasn't told me what he plans to do when we reach the room and we were busy fondling and playing with each other to even properly talk about it and now I think that that was not a good idea. I don't want to be the one asking and I feel he should tell me himself because the whole purpose of literally everything he's done today is to make me trust him more and maybe, just maybe I can do a little more of that."Your room or mine?" he asks as we get close to our doors."My room," I an
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His Dark Desires 91: Ever after happily
"Marriage is the highest state of friendship. If happy, it lessens our cares by dividing them, at the same time that it doubles our pleasures by mutual participation."~Samuel RichardsonThree weeks later"How much longer do I have to sit still?" Alex asks impatiently as Martha and George try to get her hair into a perfect curl as if that was even possible. Her hair is curly there's no such thing as perfect curl, at least not for her hair. She remembers, Sarah, her mom constantly having to battle with her hair every day of school when she was younger. It was painful almost every time she touched it, but she had to endure it if she wanted to look neat and pretty for school. As she got older the curls lessened and the pain she usually felt as a child left— or maybe she just got used to it.Her hair has never been the soft and perfect looking one, it was tou
His Dark Desires 90: It was for a good cause
"The pleasure of love is in loving; we are happier in the passion we feel than in the passion we inspire."~François de la RochefoucauldShe feels his touch over her lower lips down, her neck and further down her chest and his fingers find her nipples, delicately strumming it, making her moan and arches her pelvis up, silently telling him where her needs for him is much, but he pushes her back down on the bed and continues his torture on her nipple and she moans out.He watches as her lips part and her tongue lifts between them as she moans out and he knows she's loving being touched, he didn't want to ask anything, he wanted her to communicate to him what she was feeling like he had instructed her earlier.He moves to the other nipple and he stro
His Dark Desires 89: The need to be a good girl
"When a woman submits to a man, it's the most precious gift she can give. Herself. Unreservedly. The man has to respect and honor that gift above all else. Even if he respects nothing else in the world, he must respect the woman in his care. It's his sworn duty to protect, honor and cherish his submissive. To take care of her and provide a safe haven. Someone who would put his own needs above his woman's is no man."~Maya BanksThey step towards their bed and Rogue tilts her head up and snakes his tongue into her delicious mouth, tasting the vanilla flavour of the ice cream she had before they left the restaurant and that mixed with the taste of her mouth drives him insane. He pushes her against the close by window and he takes his time to worship his mouth with his lips as well as her face.
His Dark Desires 88: A long, pleasure-filled day ahead
"I'll come and make love to you at five o'clock. If I'm late, start without me." ~Tallulah Bankhead"Do you miss our scenes?" Rogue suddenly asks midway into their meal and Alex almosts chokes on the food in her mouth as a result of how blunt and unexpected his approach was."Rogue...""I'm sorry if this is taking you by surprise, one of the things about BDSM is talking and I want to know what your opinion is on us resuming our scenes after so long.""Can we have this talk later?" She asks with awkwardness voice and her eyes don't lie.He looks around left and right, "No, there is nothing wrong with talking about it now, no one i
His Dark Desires 87: Not a quitter
"A marriage is a like a house. When a light bulb goes out, you do not go and buy a new house, you fix the light bulb."~Happy Wives ClubThird POVA week laterAlex is at the balcony staring at the stars when she hears the door closing and she turns around and sees Rogue step into the bedroom, he's been out working late again and though she has nothing against him, the fact that tomorrow is the day they both go shopping for what they will need for their wedding makes her think that he may be too tired for it.
His Dark Desires 86: Here he lies
“There is a fine balance between honoring the past and losing yourself in it. For example, you can acknowledge and learn from mistakes you made, and then move on and refocus on the now. It is called forgiving yourself.”~Eckhart TolleWe enter into the building and as we approach the guard, wearing a black trouser and white short sleeve shirt with a badge he gets up and walks over to us,"Buenos dias (Good morning,)" he greets."Buenos dias (Good morning,)" we respond in unison."Estas buscando a alguien? (Are you looking for someone?)""Si, estoy aquí para ver al director de la prisión, señor Edwardo Fernanda. Dile que Rayyan Martin está aquí para verlo (Yes, I'm here to see the warden of the prison, Mr Edwardo Fernanda. Tell him Rayyan Martin is here to see him.)" I reply and he nods and goes away.I've not used the name R
His Dark Desires 85: Leaving the past behind
"The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward."~Steve MaraboliFlashback"I want to go home, I want my mommy! I don't want to be here anymore!" I cried out as Lorenzo got up from beside my bed to put on his clothes. My whole body was dead from what he just did to me and I could barely even move it. I was numb and aching and I could only speak and that was what I did. Tears rolled down my face and go into my ears."I told you before, your mommy left you and she's not coming back because she doesn't want you, no one wants you. Are you happy hearing that?" Lorenzo sneered wickedly."You're lying, you're a liar, you always have been! I don't believe a word you say!" I refused to believe
His Dark Desires 84: Being his father
These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."~Elisabeth Kübler-Ross"Why are you up?" The sleepy voice of Alex calls out from across the room and I turn away from looking at the stars to see her scrunched up but beautiful face. "Come back to bed!" She calls out to me, raising her hand but it drops immediately from weakness and she lay back down in bed.I find myself smiling and I make my way over to the bed and I sit down beside her. "Why are you still up?" She asks with her level of concern high. "You can't sleep?" She adds."Yes, I couldn't sleep, gatita, but I'll be fine," I confessed to her and take her hand in mine."You won't be fine, sleep is important and without it,
His Dark Desires 83: She fell in love with you
"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths."~Elisabeth Kübler-RossFlashbackThree months after meeting Lucas.The door opened and Lucas and I stepped into the hotel room, the trial just ended and I was found not guilty by the judge on the count of first-degree murder of my foster mother Audrey and after the verdict was made, Lucas offered to take me in as my guardian and when the court saw I didn't object they let me go with him. He informed me about the legal process of becoming my guardian and it involves papers works and most importantly my consent. I didn't have so much option or choice in the situation.Lucas
