A new baby is like the beginning of all things— wonder, hope, a dream of possibilities.~ Eda J. LeShan
Violet
We waited outside the hospital room with the rest of the family. Nurses went and came out of the room in hurry as they did the doctor’s bidding.
Dominic was the most stressed one as he raked his fingers through his hair from time to time and paced the corridor. Mrs Carter sat with Mr Carter, his arm was protectively wrapped around her which reminded me of how Cole had helped me just now.
My fingers were tightly knotted around each other as I sat there with Kiara on my one side and Cole on the other. The other two elder Carter brothers were on their way to be here to meet the new addition to the Carter family. Ever
It’s heart-breaking when something you lost is found by someone else. But being happy for them is what makes you worthy for the happiness you deserve. ~ A. Gupta(I was confused which one to write, so added both)It’s heart-breakingly beautiful to carry the loss in your heart and still be genuinely happy for others blessings, knowing you could never have what they have. ~ A. GuptaColeI pushed the glass door and stormed out of the hospital. I walked without any destination, wanting to escape the clawing tentacles of the past and the piercing screams that had tormented me for so long.I closed my eyes only to let out a loud groan and curse as my eyes burned and everything started to blur. Watching Bree in that hospital bed took me two
Knowing what you want and having to step forward to grab it are two different things. It needed courage that I seemed to lack no matter how hard I try.~ A. GuptaViolet“Then, you shouldn’t have walked out of there like this, Cole.” The words scratched at my throat as I said them.I closed my eyes for a moment, savoring his name on my lips. I had said it hundreds of times in my mind but for the first time I voiced it and in front of him no less. It felt intimate to me for some reason and when I opened my eyes and saw him staring back at me with those dark brown eyes I knew he noticed it too. His face was in the shadows as he sat on the divider in the parking lot behind the hospital. He looked dark and severe, but I wasn’t afraid of hi
In the dark loneliness I let my pieces fall apart without anyone to see them. And then I scream out my pain to break the silence around me.~ A. GuptaVioletI knocked on the door and a moment later Bree answered, “Come in.”When I opened her bedroom door and entered, I found her looking at the painting I gifted her a day before. It had been three days since she gave birth to Ivan and two days since Cole up and left without saying a word to anyone.I had slept while looking at him and when I woke up the next day he wasn’t there. He wasn’t anywhere. Maddox had said that he was fine but didn’t tell me where he was and why he left, not that I asked. Unlike me no one was bothered with it, it seemed like this— Cole’s sudden absence— was normal.When Bree saw that it was me, she gave me a wide smile. She said, “Kiara took Ivan. They are in Dom’s room.”I shrug
Her dreams are my nightmares.ColeI groaned as I entered the hotel room I had booked for the night. My whole body was protesting with each movement I was making. Two nights in a row wasn’t a good idea and deciding to fight the man twice my size was something I shouldn’t have done. But adrenaline was high in my veins and people pumping me when I had defeated the prize fighter of the night had clouded my judgment. Luckily I had managed to dodge the killing blow at the right time or instead of just having a busted nose and aching ribs my brain would be plastered on the mat in the underground ring.My phone buzzed in my pocket but I ignored it as I picked up the bottle from last night and drank every last drop from it. My stomach groaned demanding food but I didn't even h
With each day that passes, her beauty baffles me. And all I want to do is to consume her and bask in the light she brings me.~ A. GuptaVioletI opened my eyes and swallowed a gasp. He was sitting in the chair by my bed and staring right at me.“Good morning.” He said and leaned forward. His sherry brown eyes looked tired and dark.His fingers were about to touch me, maybe caress my cheek but before he could I sat up and slid out of the bed, away from him. I glared at him over my shoulder as I made my way toward the bathroom. He had made me call him and say the words but even as I gave him what he wanted he didn’t return the favor. He didn’t come back. And the audacity of this man, to come h
The thought of him with someone else makes me sick and I feel this unexplainable anger that I have no idea what to do with.Violet“So... Are you going to tell me about your handsome chauffeur?” Daisy asked, nudging my shoulder with hers as I helped her with her painting.I wasn’t in the right state of mind. I was upset and angry, and all because of him. The man with sherry eyes and warm touch. And because of it, I couldn’t focus on my own work so I decided to help Daisy.I touched my cheek as I referred to Alex, but I wasn’t sure she even saw him as he hadn’t stepped out of the car and didn’t even wait for me to reach the premises before he sped away. She shook her head. “No. I was talking a
My home is not a place, it is people.Violet“Then you should also know that we don’t take very kindly to bullies like you.”I whirled around at those soft words and even as I recognised the voice I was surprised to see Kiara standing there with her arms crossed over her chest and glaring down at Tara.Kiara stepped closer, towering over Tara and said, “I didn’t know they make bitches like you outside of high school too.”Tara sputtered and started to say something but Kiara waved her hand and said, “Listen here, don’t ever think Violet is alone and don’t mistake her quietness for anything else but her being the bigger person that she i
Falling in love is a process. It happens gradually with the way your heartbeat increases to the way your heart longs for forever with that one person.~ A. GuptaColeMy eyes couldn’t look away from her. She was exceptionally beautiful. Her beauty was too profound, like she should be kept under wraps and locked so no one would touch her and smudge her pure beauty. One touch and she would get dirty. But the man inside me wanted to dirty her up for myself, I wanted to make her mine, despite her being broken I wanted her to be my filthy princess.Monsters take what they can’t have by force but all I wanted was for her to give in to me willingly. The beauty of a woman submitting on her own, relinquishing all control because she wanted t
Eight hours later...I held the most beautiful boy I had ever seen in my arms. He was so small. So fragile. And so trusting of the arms that held him. “We decided that you should name him.” Bree said as Mad sat beside her, his arm protectively curled around her shoulders.I blinked at them, my eyes filling with tears that I hated anew. It seemed that day, eighteen months ago a dam broke and it didn’t stop. I looked at Mom and Dad, who gave me encouraging nods. Turning back to Mad, I asked, “You don’t mind?”He looked at me like I was mad. “Are you crazy? Why would I mind? He is your nephew, and we want you to name him.” His blue eyes softened as he said, “We want you to be an important part in our sons’ lives.”I looked around the room as my mind felt overwhelmed. My eyes fell on Dominic who had fallen asleep in the past hour and then on Alex who winked at me. Brandon had slipped out shortly after the little boy was born and the doctors declared that both the mother and son were fine.
PrologueEighteen months later...Violet‘You should stay for dinner with us.’ Hailey signed as I picked up my purse when I saw it was already six in the evening.I ruffled her hair and signed back, ‘Maybe some other day.’She narrowed her eyes at me, because as sweet as she was, she was also smart. She recognised my words for what it was. Excuses. ‘You always say that.’“Stop pestering her, munchkin.”We both turned to look at Kevin, who entered the house in dark blue jeans and white polo shirt. He was like a typical father figure we watch in daily soaps and even though he was gentle and always respects the boundaries I have set for our friendship, I couldn't make myself feel what I once felt for the man that should not be named. I liked him enough but not as much as he liked me. Maybe I should try harder, if I shouldn’t hold onto my dark past then I shouldn’t hold on to those feelings as they were in the past too.Coming toward us, he bent down and greeted his daughter with a hug an
Two months later...ColeI slid the aviators up my nose, they have become a necessity considering I was unable to sleep without drinking myself into stupor nowadays. I picked up my phone from the centre console and dialled the number that I had been dialling compulsively since the last two months like an alcoholic searching for one last beer can in the kitchen.“Did you find him?”“No. There’s no sign of the boy you gave us a picture of.”I gritted my teeth, my hand going to the back of my neck as tension gathered in my shoulders. “You all are incompetent fucking arseholes. You can’t find a teenage boy, what can you even do?” I growled into the phone.“Mr Bianchi, we are trying our best. We checked the city surveillance, there’s no sign of that boy.” The P. I. my father had hired, said into the phone pressed to my ear, his voice hesitant because he didn’t want to disappoint me. But he was.I wasn’t temperamental like my last name was famous for but maybe it had changed because right n
Two weeks later...ColeI sat in the darkness that was only punctured by a low fluorescent lamp on the other side of the sofa on which I was sitting. The heavy silence surrounding me felt suffocating, the kind where every breath stabs in the lungs. And as I struggled to breathe, the world around me seemed to be peacefully sleeping. Along with the woman on the hospital bed.I wrenched my gaze from her sleeping form and looked up at the ceiling. I was on the eighth floor of the hospital that was considered to be the best and yet they couldn’t wake her up. Like the rest of the world she was sleeping too, but unlike the rest of the world she has been sleeping for a long time now. Coma. The first letter word with a power that put the one person’s life on hold, affected others who were close to them, while the whole world around moves at their regular pace like nothing happened.She hasn’t woken up since the last time I left her— six years ago, except she did fifteen days ago and as fate ha
We belong together, And you know that I am right,Why do you play with my heart? Why do you play with my mind?Said we’d be forever, Said it’d never die,How could you love me and leave me and never,Say goodbye? ~End of the road, Boyz II MenColeI looked down at her beautiful face as a single tear rolled down my face, sitting this close to her I already felt the pain of being separated. She looked so peaceful while sleeping like a fallen angel, a princess broken by the monsters of our real world. Her pretty face was still flushed pink from our earlier activities. After the way we had made love, the intensity of it hadn’t vanished before we were attacking each other once again like hungry animals. Every part of my body, every cell in my body had wished to gorge on her. It felt like it was my last meal before a life sentence. And I wanted to have every last morsel I could.And now as I sat beside her, fully clothed, my whole body trembled and I didn't think I’d ever be able to overcom
The Very first moment I beheld him, my heart was irrevocably gone. ~ Jane Austen, Love and Friendship.There could have been no two hearts so open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison. ~ Jane Austen, Persuasion. VioletHe tasted like mine and yet he wasn’t. I didn’t know how that could be possible but it was and if all I could ever have of him was this connection between us then it’ll be what I’ll have.I slipped my fingers into his hair and his hands slipped around my waist, pulling me into him. Our bodies pressed into each other like they were glued or we were born to fit like this. Two pieces of the same puzzle. He picked me up and I wrapped my arms and legs around him like I had done millions of times before or like it was just an act I remembered from my past life. His sherry eyes were dark with emotions that I knew mirrored in mine, so many unspoken words remained between us but all our lips could do was kiss each other and we hoped the other person understood the un
Pain was something I was used to but there with him for a moment it was gone, my heart was healed. But broken things don't stay put together for long and he taught me that the hard way. ~ A. GuptaColeI fûcked up.And I have no idea what to do now. The one thing I wanted to do most was to kill Alex. The arsehôle knew how to push everyone’s buttons and this time he did it with me. And I fell for it, did something that I shouldn’t have. I spoke the words that made me the bad person, or just the jealous one. Fûcking Alex!And now the time was running out and she was still not talking to me. Well, she hadn’t been talking to
The words are there on my lips, But I don’t know how to say them,I’m in love with you, But I don’t know how to tell you that,I don’t know how to hide it and I don’t know how to express it.{It’s a very beautiful song from Bollywood. Chupana Bhi Nahi Aata}VioletIt was Alex and Mad who entered the house and Cole stood up, not hearing what I had asked of him. I was disappointed and glad in equal measures. I stood up too when I saw that Mad was holding baby Ivan in his arms but Bree wasn’t there.And as if I had voiced my confusion aloud, Mad walked to me and
You and I are not a mistake. Destiny brought us together and I hope one day it will again for the sake of the love we wished for and then I won’t let anyone take you away from me. ~ A. GuptaColeEverything seemed to be falling apart in the Carter house and I wanted to make it right for the family who gave me a home and Dominic who was a brother like Maddox, but I didn’t know how. I have done everything I could, hacking into every street camera I could and given Alex all the information I got, wherever or whenever I got a glimpse of Kiara.And then there was she. Violet has been ignoring me but at night when I’d slip into her bed and under the covers behind her, she lets me hold her