It's the monsters of the past that ruin my present.
Violet
For a moment I was suspended in time. I was floating in the state where my mind was blank and my body was warm. Where it felt nice to touch another human, knowing that I won't get hurt in return. And everything felt right.
The words I whispered for him were sincere, coming from a place where I was grateful to have him, for what he did last night and today. But a bigger part of me that prompted me to hug him was Maddox’s words that were ringing in my mind when he had said, 'I’m sure if he wanted he could have a number of women baking him treats’, and I was sure he was right. I had seen how that girl was looking up at him, touching h
Sometimes a hint of light at the end of the tunnel is enough to give the strength you thought you didn't have. ~A. GuptaSix Months Later...Violet“It’s beautiful...” I whispered softly as I laid my palm on Bree’s swollen stomach. She was almost reaching her full term and I was fascinated by the way her baby was letting everyone know that he was ready to come out in the world.Brenna looked at me, her own brown eyes were wide in amazement but unlike me her wonder was for me speaking those two words. Slowly, but I was starting to feel comfortable with the Carters. These people have become a part of my life that brings me nothing but safety. Until now I was a family m
Every time someone falls in love, there's another person who is wishing that he hadn’t.~ A. GuptaColeFuck.I shouldn’t have drunk that last bottle.Or one before that.Or the one before that.But who was fucking counting to stop me.I stumbled out of the bar, third of the night as in the last two the bartender thought I’d had enough for the night. The stupid fucking bastard didn’t know anything about enough.The only thing I’d had enough was...Enough was the pain I had been try
Still water runs deep. ~ProverbVioletI couldn’t sleep.I tossed and turned on the bed, the blanket warm and comfortable on me but it felt heavy and smothering. The light in my room was on, it was as bright as it could be and still I was tense like I was engulfed in the dark. And there were monsters to drag me back into my past.I glared at the empty chair by my bed and couldn’t help but curse him for making me so dependent on him.I didn’t realize or maybe I didn’t care as long as he continued to give me what I wanted, but now as he was glaringly absent, taking away the silent crutch that he was to me, I realized how much I’d come to depend on
She was the beautiful dream I had been searching for. The one to wake me up. ~Atticus.ColeI woke up with a banging in my head and one on my bedroom door. “Go the fuck away!” I grumbled but instead of going away, whoever was on the other side of the door entered my room.I slipped my head under the blanket, snippets of last night coming back to me and I groaned inwardly. I wanted to go back to the awesome fucking dream I was having. Those blue eyes were peering down at me and her fucking lap was the best mattress I had ever slept on. I wanted to jump back into that dream and forget about the reality.I heard the footsteps coming closer and squeezed my eyes shut. Fuck. I said, &l
Sometimes life gives you a second chance because maybe the first time you weren’t ready for it. ~UnknownViolet“You look tired...” Mrs Carter said as I sat down on the kitchen counter.“Couldn’t sleep.” I mumbled as I crossed my hands on the counter and laid my head down.First, I was unable to sleep without him being there in my room. And then when I went to his room, it was impossible for me to sleep with him looking so lost and hurt. I had spent four hours sitting on his bed with his head in my lap. It was only when I had heard Dominic and Maddox out in the backyard, playing basketball that I had slipped out of his room. Normally, Cole joined those two, but Maddox must’v
“According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four arms, four legs and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves.”ColeAs Maddox and Mrs Carter left the kitchen, leaving me alone with her, I turned around to look at her. She sat with her palms wrapped around her coffee mug. Her profile was to me as she glared down at her coffee like somehow that caffeinated drink had offended her.I sat down on the stool beside her and shifted. My mind replayed the words Maddox had said to me. He wasn’t the one who had taken care of me last night when he had brought me home, which made it clear who was. And it also highlight
Obsession.If it’s both ways, it’s not crazy madness. It’s a love language. ~A. GuptaVioletI sat in my bed and looked down at him. Like the other night, he looked beautiful as he slept. For me, I could not sleep. I was restless and even though my eyes were tired and my body needed sleep, I couldn’t seem to fall asleep.And it made me wonder if one could be addicted to touch. Specifically his.I sighed.When he had entered my room, I had pretended to be asleep as I didn’t want to look at him and see his expression for what I had done. I hadgone to Brandon’s room and
Quandary (noun)A state of perplexity or uncertainty over what to do in a difficult situation.Violet“What are you thinking?” Brenna asked as she tried to adjust the pillows behind her back. I stood up and did it for her, it was getting difficult for her to move around even a little with her pregnancy at its final stage. “You have been awfully quiet.”I rolled my eyes at her. ‘I am always quiet.’She made a face at me and said, “I meant you haven’t even talked to my son. I’m sure he misses his auntie Vi.” I looked up at her in surprise. She gave me a soft smile and said, “Everyone of
Eight hours later...I held the most beautiful boy I had ever seen in my arms. He was so small. So fragile. And so trusting of the arms that held him. “We decided that you should name him.” Bree said as Mad sat beside her, his arm protectively curled around her shoulders.I blinked at them, my eyes filling with tears that I hated anew. It seemed that day, eighteen months ago a dam broke and it didn’t stop. I looked at Mom and Dad, who gave me encouraging nods. Turning back to Mad, I asked, “You don’t mind?”He looked at me like I was mad. “Are you crazy? Why would I mind? He is your nephew, and we want you to name him.” His blue eyes softened as he said, “We want you to be an important part in our sons’ lives.”I looked around the room as my mind felt overwhelmed. My eyes fell on Dominic who had fallen asleep in the past hour and then on Alex who winked at me. Brandon had slipped out shortly after the little boy was born and the doctors declared that both the mother and son were fine.
PrologueEighteen months later...Violet‘You should stay for dinner with us.’ Hailey signed as I picked up my purse when I saw it was already six in the evening.I ruffled her hair and signed back, ‘Maybe some other day.’She narrowed her eyes at me, because as sweet as she was, she was also smart. She recognised my words for what it was. Excuses. ‘You always say that.’“Stop pestering her, munchkin.”We both turned to look at Kevin, who entered the house in dark blue jeans and white polo shirt. He was like a typical father figure we watch in daily soaps and even though he was gentle and always respects the boundaries I have set for our friendship, I couldn't make myself feel what I once felt for the man that should not be named. I liked him enough but not as much as he liked me. Maybe I should try harder, if I shouldn’t hold onto my dark past then I shouldn’t hold on to those feelings as they were in the past too.Coming toward us, he bent down and greeted his daughter with a hug an
Two months later...ColeI slid the aviators up my nose, they have become a necessity considering I was unable to sleep without drinking myself into stupor nowadays. I picked up my phone from the centre console and dialled the number that I had been dialling compulsively since the last two months like an alcoholic searching for one last beer can in the kitchen.“Did you find him?”“No. There’s no sign of the boy you gave us a picture of.”I gritted my teeth, my hand going to the back of my neck as tension gathered in my shoulders. “You all are incompetent fucking arseholes. You can’t find a teenage boy, what can you even do?” I growled into the phone.“Mr Bianchi, we are trying our best. We checked the city surveillance, there’s no sign of that boy.” The P. I. my father had hired, said into the phone pressed to my ear, his voice hesitant because he didn’t want to disappoint me. But he was.I wasn’t temperamental like my last name was famous for but maybe it had changed because right n
Two weeks later...ColeI sat in the darkness that was only punctured by a low fluorescent lamp on the other side of the sofa on which I was sitting. The heavy silence surrounding me felt suffocating, the kind where every breath stabs in the lungs. And as I struggled to breathe, the world around me seemed to be peacefully sleeping. Along with the woman on the hospital bed.I wrenched my gaze from her sleeping form and looked up at the ceiling. I was on the eighth floor of the hospital that was considered to be the best and yet they couldn’t wake her up. Like the rest of the world she was sleeping too, but unlike the rest of the world she has been sleeping for a long time now. Coma. The first letter word with a power that put the one person’s life on hold, affected others who were close to them, while the whole world around moves at their regular pace like nothing happened.She hasn’t woken up since the last time I left her— six years ago, except she did fifteen days ago and as fate ha
We belong together, And you know that I am right,Why do you play with my heart? Why do you play with my mind?Said we’d be forever, Said it’d never die,How could you love me and leave me and never,Say goodbye? ~End of the road, Boyz II MenColeI looked down at her beautiful face as a single tear rolled down my face, sitting this close to her I already felt the pain of being separated. She looked so peaceful while sleeping like a fallen angel, a princess broken by the monsters of our real world. Her pretty face was still flushed pink from our earlier activities. After the way we had made love, the intensity of it hadn’t vanished before we were attacking each other once again like hungry animals. Every part of my body, every cell in my body had wished to gorge on her. It felt like it was my last meal before a life sentence. And I wanted to have every last morsel I could.And now as I sat beside her, fully clothed, my whole body trembled and I didn't think I’d ever be able to overcom
The Very first moment I beheld him, my heart was irrevocably gone. ~ Jane Austen, Love and Friendship.There could have been no two hearts so open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison. ~ Jane Austen, Persuasion. VioletHe tasted like mine and yet he wasn’t. I didn’t know how that could be possible but it was and if all I could ever have of him was this connection between us then it’ll be what I’ll have.I slipped my fingers into his hair and his hands slipped around my waist, pulling me into him. Our bodies pressed into each other like they were glued or we were born to fit like this. Two pieces of the same puzzle. He picked me up and I wrapped my arms and legs around him like I had done millions of times before or like it was just an act I remembered from my past life. His sherry eyes were dark with emotions that I knew mirrored in mine, so many unspoken words remained between us but all our lips could do was kiss each other and we hoped the other person understood the un
Pain was something I was used to but there with him for a moment it was gone, my heart was healed. But broken things don't stay put together for long and he taught me that the hard way. ~ A. GuptaColeI fûcked up.And I have no idea what to do now. The one thing I wanted to do most was to kill Alex. The arsehôle knew how to push everyone’s buttons and this time he did it with me. And I fell for it, did something that I shouldn’t have. I spoke the words that made me the bad person, or just the jealous one. Fûcking Alex!And now the time was running out and she was still not talking to me. Well, she hadn’t been talking to
The words are there on my lips, But I don’t know how to say them,I’m in love with you, But I don’t know how to tell you that,I don’t know how to hide it and I don’t know how to express it.{It’s a very beautiful song from Bollywood. Chupana Bhi Nahi Aata}VioletIt was Alex and Mad who entered the house and Cole stood up, not hearing what I had asked of him. I was disappointed and glad in equal measures. I stood up too when I saw that Mad was holding baby Ivan in his arms but Bree wasn’t there.And as if I had voiced my confusion aloud, Mad walked to me and
You and I are not a mistake. Destiny brought us together and I hope one day it will again for the sake of the love we wished for and then I won’t let anyone take you away from me. ~ A. GuptaColeEverything seemed to be falling apart in the Carter house and I wanted to make it right for the family who gave me a home and Dominic who was a brother like Maddox, but I didn’t know how. I have done everything I could, hacking into every street camera I could and given Alex all the information I got, wherever or whenever I got a glimpse of Kiara.And then there was she. Violet has been ignoring me but at night when I’d slip into her bed and under the covers behind her, she lets me hold her