Let me care for you so you forget the monsters,
Let me warm you up so you forget the cold,
Let me kiss and caress every inch of you so I can erase the scars,
Let me dive into those eyes so I could forget myself. ~ A. Gupta
Cole
I fûcking hated this helplessness I was feeling.
It had been more than three hours since we got locked in this refrigerator room and each minute that passed was bringing us closer to hypothermia or serious lung problems. I had tried everything I could, my right hand was numb from trying to punch the gate in because I couldn’t sit in and do nothing. Violet was stan
I kept my words to myself because they mattered not to anyone before, but with you, looking in your sherry eyes I believe if I gave you a word you would understand a sentence and that’s why I allow you to have them, as many as I could give. ~ A. GuptaVioletHe pressed the softest kiss in the middle of my palm and then settled my hand on his shoulder. He did that with his eyes closed, his dark lashes touching his cheek and those sherry eyes hidden on my demand.With precise movements he tugged down the straps of my overalls, while his other hand stayed at my back as if to provide me comfort and stability. His hands were soothing, his touch warm and electric as it made my skin break out in goosebumps. His thumb caressed my collarbone an
Family is not always the one we are born into, sometimes we find people that make us a family we long for. ~ A. GuptaVioletI was curled into a ball in his lap with his arms wrapped around me, feeling warm and protected. My body was still humming from the pleasure he had introduced me to. My heart was still beating it’s excited rhythm. I was limp like a warm gooey noodle with the sacks covering me whole and then the plastic sheet that he had doubled over for me.I must’ve dozed off a little after Cole tugged my clothes into place like nothing happened between us and then asked my permission to open his eyes, because when I looked up he was asleep too, only I frowned when I felt that his breathing was shallow and his upper half was uncovered as he had neglected
If you give someone the power to make you then you’re giving them the same power to break you. ~ A. GuptaVioletI blinked my eyes open, something had woken me up and then my gaze fell on my cell phone on the bedside drawer which pinged with another incoming message. I scooted over to pick it up thinking that it was probably Daisy once again checking up on me and the hot bodyguard/gorgeous-overprotective-bear, like she describes Cole now. Or at least I tried to pick my phone as an arm was banded around me and it tightened when I shifted.I looked down and remembered everything. After Carters had brought us home, they had fawned over us like mother hens. I was just tired and still felt like I was cold to my bones, but Cole was shivering a
In this world there are only two tragedies. One is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it. ~ Oscar Wilde.ColeI turned to her, she sat on the bed with her phone in her hand typing at it. Everyone downstairs asked us how we got trapped in that freezer and when I turned to Violet waiting for her to answer as I couldn’t particularly tell them that I was trying to cool down and control myself before I could’ve lost it and taken her in the dark store room. And also, I was curious too because I had heard voices before I had rounded the line of shelves and seen her on the floor.But she hadn’t answered— not the one I wanted to hear. She had shrugged and signed, ‘The door must’ve locked from outside on its own.’ When her eyes had collided with mine, she had quickly looked away, giving away the fact that she was hiding something.Now as I walked toward her, I decided to get my answer
I suppose men are made that way, always wanting something they can’t have or something that others have.~ A. GuptaVioletHe looked up just as I stepped out of the building with Daisy by my side. His deep brown eyes tracked me like a tiger monitoring his next target. Oh, how I would like to be the only target for his intense gaze.Daisy sighed beside me. “Damn, he looks at you like you are his next meal.”I bit down on my bottom lip as the urge to smile like a stupid loony toon took hold of me. When we neared him, Daisy said, “I will be waiting by my car.” For a moment I was lost as to what she was talking about until she said, “I am sure your bear there would love to know where you’re planning to go
They say it’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. In my opinion that’s total bullshît because they didn’t tell you that losing was worse than never having loved. At least if I hadn’t loved I wouldn’t be feeling this constant emptiness and unending pain where my heart used to be. ~ A. GuptaVioletI didn’t understand why he was behaving like this but it was starting to make me uncomfortable. His fingers clasped my wrist in a tight hold as he tugged me out of the diner, practically dragging me all the way to the car. He pulled open the passenger side door and when I didn’t slide inside, he let out a low growl.I tried to jerk his hold away, my skin stretched tight as old memories started to resurface. He had never made me feel this way but his energy was affecting me. The fine tension in his body was making me nervous. “Enough!” I croaked out.
I’m in love with the shape of youWepush and pull like a magnet doAlthough my heart is falling tooI’m in love with your body. ~ Shape Of You by Ed Sheeran.Violet“I am going to change into fresh clothes.” Cole said as he turned around to go back to his room. It was late at night as dinner at Mad and Bree’s house had gone for a long time because both Brandon and Alex had come after a while now. But I wanted something from him before he went to his room. I grabbed his arm to stop him. His eyes came back to me in question. “What?”“You said that I could’ve all my firsts that
Some things are better left behind.Violet“Hey, are you alright?” Daisy asked as she sat down beside me, sliding the glass of chocolate milkshake that she swore was the best in town, though I think it had more to do with the fact that we were in her brother’s diner. Again.Even though Cole had been reluctant and all growly, he hasn’t made a big deal out of it except on a condition that I text him every ten minutes and tell him that I only want him. It was cute. Everything with Cole felt perfect and... Cute. I felt all giddy and warm.The other day when he had walked out of my bedroom, I understood what he meant by not being able to control himself and I liked that I could do that to him. But the problem was as much a
Eight hours later...I held the most beautiful boy I had ever seen in my arms. He was so small. So fragile. And so trusting of the arms that held him. “We decided that you should name him.” Bree said as Mad sat beside her, his arm protectively curled around her shoulders.I blinked at them, my eyes filling with tears that I hated anew. It seemed that day, eighteen months ago a dam broke and it didn’t stop. I looked at Mom and Dad, who gave me encouraging nods. Turning back to Mad, I asked, “You don’t mind?”He looked at me like I was mad. “Are you crazy? Why would I mind? He is your nephew, and we want you to name him.” His blue eyes softened as he said, “We want you to be an important part in our sons’ lives.”I looked around the room as my mind felt overwhelmed. My eyes fell on Dominic who had fallen asleep in the past hour and then on Alex who winked at me. Brandon had slipped out shortly after the little boy was born and the doctors declared that both the mother and son were fine.
PrologueEighteen months later...Violet‘You should stay for dinner with us.’ Hailey signed as I picked up my purse when I saw it was already six in the evening.I ruffled her hair and signed back, ‘Maybe some other day.’She narrowed her eyes at me, because as sweet as she was, she was also smart. She recognised my words for what it was. Excuses. ‘You always say that.’“Stop pestering her, munchkin.”We both turned to look at Kevin, who entered the house in dark blue jeans and white polo shirt. He was like a typical father figure we watch in daily soaps and even though he was gentle and always respects the boundaries I have set for our friendship, I couldn't make myself feel what I once felt for the man that should not be named. I liked him enough but not as much as he liked me. Maybe I should try harder, if I shouldn’t hold onto my dark past then I shouldn’t hold on to those feelings as they were in the past too.Coming toward us, he bent down and greeted his daughter with a hug an
Two months later...ColeI slid the aviators up my nose, they have become a necessity considering I was unable to sleep without drinking myself into stupor nowadays. I picked up my phone from the centre console and dialled the number that I had been dialling compulsively since the last two months like an alcoholic searching for one last beer can in the kitchen.“Did you find him?”“No. There’s no sign of the boy you gave us a picture of.”I gritted my teeth, my hand going to the back of my neck as tension gathered in my shoulders. “You all are incompetent fucking arseholes. You can’t find a teenage boy, what can you even do?” I growled into the phone.“Mr Bianchi, we are trying our best. We checked the city surveillance, there’s no sign of that boy.” The P. I. my father had hired, said into the phone pressed to my ear, his voice hesitant because he didn’t want to disappoint me. But he was.I wasn’t temperamental like my last name was famous for but maybe it had changed because right n
Two weeks later...ColeI sat in the darkness that was only punctured by a low fluorescent lamp on the other side of the sofa on which I was sitting. The heavy silence surrounding me felt suffocating, the kind where every breath stabs in the lungs. And as I struggled to breathe, the world around me seemed to be peacefully sleeping. Along with the woman on the hospital bed.I wrenched my gaze from her sleeping form and looked up at the ceiling. I was on the eighth floor of the hospital that was considered to be the best and yet they couldn’t wake her up. Like the rest of the world she was sleeping too, but unlike the rest of the world she has been sleeping for a long time now. Coma. The first letter word with a power that put the one person’s life on hold, affected others who were close to them, while the whole world around moves at their regular pace like nothing happened.She hasn’t woken up since the last time I left her— six years ago, except she did fifteen days ago and as fate ha
We belong together, And you know that I am right,Why do you play with my heart? Why do you play with my mind?Said we’d be forever, Said it’d never die,How could you love me and leave me and never,Say goodbye? ~End of the road, Boyz II MenColeI looked down at her beautiful face as a single tear rolled down my face, sitting this close to her I already felt the pain of being separated. She looked so peaceful while sleeping like a fallen angel, a princess broken by the monsters of our real world. Her pretty face was still flushed pink from our earlier activities. After the way we had made love, the intensity of it hadn’t vanished before we were attacking each other once again like hungry animals. Every part of my body, every cell in my body had wished to gorge on her. It felt like it was my last meal before a life sentence. And I wanted to have every last morsel I could.And now as I sat beside her, fully clothed, my whole body trembled and I didn't think I’d ever be able to overcom
The Very first moment I beheld him, my heart was irrevocably gone. ~ Jane Austen, Love and Friendship.There could have been no two hearts so open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison. ~ Jane Austen, Persuasion. VioletHe tasted like mine and yet he wasn’t. I didn’t know how that could be possible but it was and if all I could ever have of him was this connection between us then it’ll be what I’ll have.I slipped my fingers into his hair and his hands slipped around my waist, pulling me into him. Our bodies pressed into each other like they were glued or we were born to fit like this. Two pieces of the same puzzle. He picked me up and I wrapped my arms and legs around him like I had done millions of times before or like it was just an act I remembered from my past life. His sherry eyes were dark with emotions that I knew mirrored in mine, so many unspoken words remained between us but all our lips could do was kiss each other and we hoped the other person understood the un
Pain was something I was used to but there with him for a moment it was gone, my heart was healed. But broken things don't stay put together for long and he taught me that the hard way. ~ A. GuptaColeI fûcked up.And I have no idea what to do now. The one thing I wanted to do most was to kill Alex. The arsehôle knew how to push everyone’s buttons and this time he did it with me. And I fell for it, did something that I shouldn’t have. I spoke the words that made me the bad person, or just the jealous one. Fûcking Alex!And now the time was running out and she was still not talking to me. Well, she hadn’t been talking to
The words are there on my lips, But I don’t know how to say them,I’m in love with you, But I don’t know how to tell you that,I don’t know how to hide it and I don’t know how to express it.{It’s a very beautiful song from Bollywood. Chupana Bhi Nahi Aata}VioletIt was Alex and Mad who entered the house and Cole stood up, not hearing what I had asked of him. I was disappointed and glad in equal measures. I stood up too when I saw that Mad was holding baby Ivan in his arms but Bree wasn’t there.And as if I had voiced my confusion aloud, Mad walked to me and
You and I are not a mistake. Destiny brought us together and I hope one day it will again for the sake of the love we wished for and then I won’t let anyone take you away from me. ~ A. GuptaColeEverything seemed to be falling apart in the Carter house and I wanted to make it right for the family who gave me a home and Dominic who was a brother like Maddox, but I didn’t know how. I have done everything I could, hacking into every street camera I could and given Alex all the information I got, wherever or whenever I got a glimpse of Kiara.And then there was she. Violet has been ignoring me but at night when I’d slip into her bed and under the covers behind her, she lets me hold her