Convincing yourself that you are ready for something doesn’t always mean that you are. You have to consider not only your thoughts and wants and desires but the mind, body and soul. ~ A. Gupta
Violet
I laid there feeling my heart soaking in the pleasure with its every beat from the way Cole was touching me. His lips kissed my collarbones and then licked the hollow at the base of my throat making me arch up and bite down on my lower lip.
His hands smoothed down my sides, slightly grazing my breásts and making my nîpples pebble up in anticipation. And then he slid his hand on my stomach, his fingers grazing my belly button as he slowly feathered them upward and cupped one of my breàsts in his palm. He squeezed it lightly, making my blood run hot as his touch burned me with pleasu
Sensitive Content. Sèxual Assàult. Don’t read if you’re uncomfortable.PastVioletI miss mommy.I miss Daddy.I hope Daddy is fine and Mommy made him okay. She always makes everything okay.I was sure Mommy and Daddy would come for me. They would save me from this place.This place was scary.The big bad man had brought me here and left me after talking to the other man who looked really mean. He had given the big bad man who had taken me from my home a black bag and then a bald man had come and dragged me into
Everyone of us is broken in one way or the other. We just find a way, a thing or a person that glues us together. And sometimes, we don’t even find that so we learn to live with our broken parts and wait for that day when they will stop hurting. ~ A. GuptaViolet“You look angry.” Daisy chirped as she looked at the black canvas in front of me that was white when I had begun. I didn’t reply as I picked up the small glass with red paint in it and poured it from the top. “You want to share?” She asked as she filled more red when my bottle was empty.I shook my head. She sighed, grabbed my shoulders and turned me around so I faced her. “What is it?” She demanded. And before I could’ve shut down at her harsh d
Saudade : A deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for something or someone that one cares for and/or loves.Violet“Ba... Ba Bi!”My chest squeezed as Ivan slapped my knees with his small hands. Babbling he tried to crawl into my lap. Now at six weeks old, he looked more like Maddox. His blue eyes twinkled in the sun as we sat on a blanket near the pool at Bree’s house.I helped him on his wobbly legs and pulled him on my lap. Bree said, “He is a smart kid. He has started to catch on a few words and tries to speak them even though he can&rsqu
You say we’re just friends, But friends don’t know the way you taste, la-la-la‘Cause you know it’s been a long time coming,Don’t you let me fall, Ooh, when your lips undress me,Hooked on your tongue, Ooh, love, your kiss is deadly. Don’t stop. ~ SeñoritaColeI was in a foul mood.I had two phone calls and both of them left me in a mood that left me brimming with the energy that wanted me to break something or get shit faced. I was halfway to the latter, after having a bottle of whiskey at Mad’s I was definitely buzzed. So, it took me a moment to come to understand the words writte
Healing doesn't mean that damage never existed, it means the damage no longer controls our lives. ~ UnknownColeAfter making a fucking meal out of her and making her come on my tongue two times with my name on her lips, I moved up her body. Unlike before, this time I was able to see her beaded nîpples, the concave of her stomach as she circled her arms around me and brought me up on her body. The most enticing were her lips red and swollen from our kisses and from how she had bit into it.“Are you ready, baby?” I asked as I cupped her cheek, her skin like silk beneath my palm.She nodded. “Yes, Cole. I am ready for you.” I leaned down and took her mouth in another deep kiss. Her fingernails dug into
She was powerful, not because she wasn’t scared but because she went on so strongly, despite the fear. ~ AtticusColeI have a new addiction.It’s wrapped up in a skin as smooth as silk with hair as cold as moonlight.And I’m the lost wanderer that has found the moon and its light, the only way to reach home, after a long time searching for one.Maddox was saying something but I have no idea what, my eyes were glued to her lips that had a drop of honey on the corner which she swiped with the tip of her tongue, making my côck take notice, not that it had forgotten. Considering that we had spent most of
The righteousness of the righteous shall be upon him, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be upon him. ~ BibleVioletCole settled me on the counter beside the washbasin, the cold surface under my arse brought a shiver and I wrapped my arms around myself. I was still wearing half of my clothes, only the lower half of my body was bare to his gaze but I didn’t mind, the need to hide was absent with him. I trusted him.He nudged my legs apart and came to stand between them. I bit down on my lip and closed my eyes as he softly swiped a finger along my core, through our mixed arousàl. He said, “How fûcking perfect you are...” I took his words and locked it somewhere deep in my chest to treasure later.
I wanna be your end game, I wanna be your first string,I wanna be your A- game, I wanna be your endgame. ~ Endgame by Taylor SwiftViolet“You look... Radiant.” Daisy said, rolling up a chart paper as she looked at me and asked, “Do I get to know the reason behind it?”“Maybe...” I whispered but didn’t elaborate it as I mixed more brown in the color palette.She nudged my shoulder with hers and said, “Tell me something at least, my life is lacking in all the exciting departments.”
Eight hours later...I held the most beautiful boy I had ever seen in my arms. He was so small. So fragile. And so trusting of the arms that held him. “We decided that you should name him.” Bree said as Mad sat beside her, his arm protectively curled around her shoulders.I blinked at them, my eyes filling with tears that I hated anew. It seemed that day, eighteen months ago a dam broke and it didn’t stop. I looked at Mom and Dad, who gave me encouraging nods. Turning back to Mad, I asked, “You don’t mind?”He looked at me like I was mad. “Are you crazy? Why would I mind? He is your nephew, and we want you to name him.” His blue eyes softened as he said, “We want you to be an important part in our sons’ lives.”I looked around the room as my mind felt overwhelmed. My eyes fell on Dominic who had fallen asleep in the past hour and then on Alex who winked at me. Brandon had slipped out shortly after the little boy was born and the doctors declared that both the mother and son were fine.
PrologueEighteen months later...Violet‘You should stay for dinner with us.’ Hailey signed as I picked up my purse when I saw it was already six in the evening.I ruffled her hair and signed back, ‘Maybe some other day.’She narrowed her eyes at me, because as sweet as she was, she was also smart. She recognised my words for what it was. Excuses. ‘You always say that.’“Stop pestering her, munchkin.”We both turned to look at Kevin, who entered the house in dark blue jeans and white polo shirt. He was like a typical father figure we watch in daily soaps and even though he was gentle and always respects the boundaries I have set for our friendship, I couldn't make myself feel what I once felt for the man that should not be named. I liked him enough but not as much as he liked me. Maybe I should try harder, if I shouldn’t hold onto my dark past then I shouldn’t hold on to those feelings as they were in the past too.Coming toward us, he bent down and greeted his daughter with a hug an
Two months later...ColeI slid the aviators up my nose, they have become a necessity considering I was unable to sleep without drinking myself into stupor nowadays. I picked up my phone from the centre console and dialled the number that I had been dialling compulsively since the last two months like an alcoholic searching for one last beer can in the kitchen.“Did you find him?”“No. There’s no sign of the boy you gave us a picture of.”I gritted my teeth, my hand going to the back of my neck as tension gathered in my shoulders. “You all are incompetent fucking arseholes. You can’t find a teenage boy, what can you even do?” I growled into the phone.“Mr Bianchi, we are trying our best. We checked the city surveillance, there’s no sign of that boy.” The P. I. my father had hired, said into the phone pressed to my ear, his voice hesitant because he didn’t want to disappoint me. But he was.I wasn’t temperamental like my last name was famous for but maybe it had changed because right n
Two weeks later...ColeI sat in the darkness that was only punctured by a low fluorescent lamp on the other side of the sofa on which I was sitting. The heavy silence surrounding me felt suffocating, the kind where every breath stabs in the lungs. And as I struggled to breathe, the world around me seemed to be peacefully sleeping. Along with the woman on the hospital bed.I wrenched my gaze from her sleeping form and looked up at the ceiling. I was on the eighth floor of the hospital that was considered to be the best and yet they couldn’t wake her up. Like the rest of the world she was sleeping too, but unlike the rest of the world she has been sleeping for a long time now. Coma. The first letter word with a power that put the one person’s life on hold, affected others who were close to them, while the whole world around moves at their regular pace like nothing happened.She hasn’t woken up since the last time I left her— six years ago, except she did fifteen days ago and as fate ha
We belong together, And you know that I am right,Why do you play with my heart? Why do you play with my mind?Said we’d be forever, Said it’d never die,How could you love me and leave me and never,Say goodbye? ~End of the road, Boyz II MenColeI looked down at her beautiful face as a single tear rolled down my face, sitting this close to her I already felt the pain of being separated. She looked so peaceful while sleeping like a fallen angel, a princess broken by the monsters of our real world. Her pretty face was still flushed pink from our earlier activities. After the way we had made love, the intensity of it hadn’t vanished before we were attacking each other once again like hungry animals. Every part of my body, every cell in my body had wished to gorge on her. It felt like it was my last meal before a life sentence. And I wanted to have every last morsel I could.And now as I sat beside her, fully clothed, my whole body trembled and I didn't think I’d ever be able to overcom
The Very first moment I beheld him, my heart was irrevocably gone. ~ Jane Austen, Love and Friendship.There could have been no two hearts so open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison. ~ Jane Austen, Persuasion. VioletHe tasted like mine and yet he wasn’t. I didn’t know how that could be possible but it was and if all I could ever have of him was this connection between us then it’ll be what I’ll have.I slipped my fingers into his hair and his hands slipped around my waist, pulling me into him. Our bodies pressed into each other like they were glued or we were born to fit like this. Two pieces of the same puzzle. He picked me up and I wrapped my arms and legs around him like I had done millions of times before or like it was just an act I remembered from my past life. His sherry eyes were dark with emotions that I knew mirrored in mine, so many unspoken words remained between us but all our lips could do was kiss each other and we hoped the other person understood the un
Pain was something I was used to but there with him for a moment it was gone, my heart was healed. But broken things don't stay put together for long and he taught me that the hard way. ~ A. GuptaColeI fûcked up.And I have no idea what to do now. The one thing I wanted to do most was to kill Alex. The arsehôle knew how to push everyone’s buttons and this time he did it with me. And I fell for it, did something that I shouldn’t have. I spoke the words that made me the bad person, or just the jealous one. Fûcking Alex!And now the time was running out and she was still not talking to me. Well, she hadn’t been talking to
The words are there on my lips, But I don’t know how to say them,I’m in love with you, But I don’t know how to tell you that,I don’t know how to hide it and I don’t know how to express it.{It’s a very beautiful song from Bollywood. Chupana Bhi Nahi Aata}VioletIt was Alex and Mad who entered the house and Cole stood up, not hearing what I had asked of him. I was disappointed and glad in equal measures. I stood up too when I saw that Mad was holding baby Ivan in his arms but Bree wasn’t there.And as if I had voiced my confusion aloud, Mad walked to me and
You and I are not a mistake. Destiny brought us together and I hope one day it will again for the sake of the love we wished for and then I won’t let anyone take you away from me. ~ A. GuptaColeEverything seemed to be falling apart in the Carter house and I wanted to make it right for the family who gave me a home and Dominic who was a brother like Maddox, but I didn’t know how. I have done everything I could, hacking into every street camera I could and given Alex all the information I got, wherever or whenever I got a glimpse of Kiara.And then there was she. Violet has been ignoring me but at night when I’d slip into her bed and under the covers behind her, she lets me hold her