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Chapter 36
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Aira
I had been doing everything to occupy and busy myself but I couldn't help but feel my eyes sore and heavy.
I couldn't help and stop the echo of Virat's harsh words in my ears.
I couldn't help and pacify my maimed heart.
It all ached my soul, the allegations, the false perceptions, my previously broken heart and my heart breaking again.
I just couldn't fathom how shallow and spineless my marriage was.
I thought we had become stronger, I thought we had moved past the history but I never realised we were still stuck in the swamp.
I was tired of blaming and accusing myself.
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