Chapter 2 "What am I"

Since I was a kid, I never dreamed of meeting the guy that I will marry someday. All because I knew I am different.

Thus, when they asked me who I am dating with, I murmured a name of a person whom I thought will never be a part of my life. However…

“Maxine’s boyfriend, yes, that’s me.”

A guy suddenly came and proclaimed that he is my man.

Holding my shoulder, his fresh mint scent penetrated to my nose. He has an addictive smell which made me off guard for a moment. Before I could notice, I’ve been standing beside him without saying anything.

“He is Chandler?” Britney asked.

I snapped up and woke up in realization that there is no Chandler Wayne in my life, and everything I said before was a lie.

“Oh my god!” Candice gasped. “Your boyfriend is f*cking h…”

Jenny covered Candice’ mouth before she could utter her admiration towards the guy beside me. I once saw his handsome face before so I can understand what made them gape.

However, I could not bring myself to look back at him again as the fear craws over my body, prickling my skin.

My icy cold hands trembled, thick sweats formed inside my  clenched fists. A blind panic blocked my thoughts, I was paralyzed in my spot. My stomach flipped, as if someone punched me hard and I wobbled in shock.

Staring down and watching my shadow, darkness gathered in my eyes and filled it.

‘Who is this guy? Is his name really Chandler Wayne?’

“Nice to meet you, Mr. Wayne. We are just talking about you a moment ago,” I heard Britney greeted him.

“Nice to meet all of you. I guess my girlfriend is so shy that she did not say I attended this party with her,” the man said.

‘What do you mean I attended this party with you!? I do not even know you!’

“Or maybe, Maxine feared of other women seeing a sexy guy like you,” Candice teased with a chuckle.

A bullet of panic rose in my throat. I knew this is the time for me to speak, but I just I couldn’t bring myself to open my lips. If I do, I wonder what would I say.

“Maxine? Are you alright? You look pale,” the man asked as he tightened his hand on my shoulder.

Shaking, I slowly lifted my head and met his blue eyes. They are deep, cold like the vast of Antarctic ocean.

“Do you want me to take you to the comfort room?” he said in husky voice.

Goosebumps appeared on my skin. I don’t how the hell I felt a sense of authority, as if he’s dominating me from head to toe. And like a fool, I nodded my head.

“Y-Yes. I think  I need to go to the comfort room.” I gave the girls a faint smile.

Thinking that I now have the chance to escape, I turned around and about to go alone. However, the man grabbed my wrist and said, “Let me go with you.”

The man placed both of his hands above my shoulders and he began to push me forward, away from the girls.

“Oh sh*t, he’s also a gentleman,” I heard Candice murmured behind me.

If there’s one word from her endearment which I would like to share my sentiment, then it is the word ‘sh*t.’

Yes. I f*cked up.

“W-Who are you?” I whispered quietly while walking along with this unknown handsome guy.

“I introduced myself already. I am your boyfriend,” he whispered with a voice that is like a first snowflakes in the winter, it sent chills even to the last tip of my hair.

Barely breathing, I asked him again. “But I don’t have a boyfriend.”

The two of us stopped walking together. However, I did not dare look into his eyes. It feels like that moment I do, my world will collapse.

“Chandler Wayne,” he whispered. When his breath brushed on my ear, it seems like my skin detached from my bone. It’s intoxicating, how a sharp line electrocuted my spine from down and upward to my itching scalp.

‘Is he really Chandler Wayne?’

 I wanted to shake my head and deny this absurd idea inside my head. But as if an anaesthesia injected into my body, my senses won’t make me move a bit. Like a fool, I stared into nothingness while in deep horrible thoughts.

‘Chandler Wayne is only a name I heard from my mother. I only used that thinking that he’s not existing at all. What should I do?’

“Since you use my name as your trump card to lie from your friends, don’t you think it is better to pretend until the end?” Chandler suggested. Even if I couldn’t see his face, I can imagine the evil smirk painted on his lips.

Chandler tapped my shoulder and pushed my forward until we exited the venue.

‘I can escape from this. I will tell him that this is just coincidence I made the name out of nowhere,’  I kept on telling to myself until we arrived outside the hall, where there is a garden filled with lights and flowers.

I, who loves taking picture of flowers, did not have the chance to enjoy the view. As the shining light from the venue faded, my mind clouded with dangerous thoughts.  

Not long after, we arrived outside the hall. The garden was filled with lights and flowers. But I didn't have time to enjoy the view. Because as the lights from the venue faded while we kept on walking, breakneck thoughts clouded my mind.

 I wanted to tell him to stop. But my tongue twisted and no voice would come from my quivering lips. Soon, he brought me inside the men’s comfort room and pushed my back.

Thanks to my flexible body, I did not fall down on the cold ceramic floor and taint my dress.

Click.

When I heard the click sound of a locked door, I quickly turned around.

“W-What are you doing?” I asked at the guy who is standing in triumph as he lifted his chin and stared at me with cross arms.

The man with brushed up hazel nut hair has a blue icy eyes that can freeze every of my active nerves.

His tanned skin is like a delicate gold. And his lips, it is a lips that would invite anyone to kiss it just by looking at it.

This man looks like a Greek God creature who was molded in perfection, that only few have discovered, and now that he is standing before me, then I was included by the few.

He’s head taller than any men I saw in the party, and his body is firmly built like a knight waiting to rescue a princess in his strong arms.

No. He’s more like an ice prince who seduces all living things in the earth.

‘What’s wrong with me? Why am I thinking like this even in this dangerous situation? I need to snap out!’

"You...! You...! What do you want from me?!” I shouted.

I looked around the toilet room but there’s no other way out aside from the main door behind him and the small window which has barricade outside. In short, it is the dead end.

“This is a crime!” I begged in disguise of a threat, as I stepped backward.

Step.

Step.

Step.

Every time I made a step, the beautiful man, who holds sarcastic aura even without speaking, moved forward, as if matching my pace.

“I told you already. I am Chandler Wayne. Your boyfriend.”

The voice of his sounded sweet, like a marshmallow deep into a melted chocolate syrup. But I sensed a  forbidding gruesome under his tongue, as if I tasted a medicine hiding inside the sweet delicacy.

My breaths were shallow, every time I exhaled I felt my lungs drying. When my hand shook, the bracelet I am wearing clinked its beads.

“The Chandler Wayne I told to my friend is only a name that I made out!” I defended.

Bumped.

Sweat trickled down from my forehead when my back leaned against the wall.

‘Sh*t.’

When I turned my head to my North, this tall man is already standing on my side, with his hand leaning on the side of my head.

‘Is this what you called pinning a girl against the wall?’

If the answer is yes, then I will tell other what I felt with this experience.

‘It’s not as romantic as everyone imagined.’

More than the romantic feelings, it’s more like a horror. Like going alone inside a haunted house with no flashlight on.

Hardly gulping, I looked at his angelic face that is painted with a demonic grin.

“If you said that you only made up that name by mistake, then I might buy your excuse,” he said.

A sweet treacly smell reached my nose. It is addicting, like chocolate.

It did not come from his mouth, but his whole body himself.

‘Since when did I start seeing a person like a food?’

I gulped then stared at his blue eyes.

“However, you said a word that made me believe it is not an accident, little kitten,” he added. “WAYHORIX.”

When he said that word, my eyes widened.

CHANDLER WAYNE.

WAYHORIX.

These are the last words I head before my mother died.

If this man claimed that he is Chandler Wayne and he’s somewhat related from the word Wayhorix, then, is he connected at my mother?

‘I don’t know.’

If my mother said that as her last testament or a way to warn me, I am still not sure. I should have asked her more before her last breath.

‘For now, let’s pretend clueless.’

“I d-don’t know what you are talking about. I just…”

A strong force pulled me, as if he is a magnet and I am pure steel. Then, I felt warm hand wrapping around my waist. In an instant, our lips were pressed against each other.

I got goosebumps.

I wanted to run recklessly, away from the man who just took my first kiss away. But as soon as he extended his tongue and pressed it against the seam of my lips, my mind became a mess.

It feels like it is still me, but I am not me. Like my whole body was going to melt from ecstasy, so extreme it is hard to express it but just words.

The world I had knows seemed shattered into dust, and a new one born as I realized it: this man before me is an unknown stranger. But he’s kissing me.

Unable to contain myself, I placed my hands on his shoulder and pulled my body close to her. I felt his hard chest.

He bent a little, giving support on my back with his hand. I got lost in the moment when he slowly extended his tongue to meet mine and to my surprise, I accepted his invitation.

“Hmmm,” a gentle moan vibrated on my neck.

The beating of my heart pulsed more, I am not sure if the sound ignited the excitement I have, but I wanted to do more.

As if he heard my request, he kissed me deeper, so deep he almost knock out the air in my lungs.

Cannot breath, I tilted my head on the other side and opened my mouth widely, simply to get some air.

“Ahhhh…Hmf!”

But as soon as I opened her mouth, he delved inside of her as if telling her not to escape.

“Argh,” I groaned.

As I let him entered my mouth vigorously, she wrapped her hands around my waist and pulled is lips away. Subconsciously, my urge searched for him again by leaning closer with his half-opened eyes.

Then, he licked the corner of my lips with the tip of his tongue.

Shivers.

That sent me shivers down to his bone.

Unlike the fast french kiss before, the kiss this time is so slow, as if he’s savoring each seconds.  

It drove me crazy.

The way he slowly nibbling my lower lip, the gently bite it as if marking me his,has put me in an ecstasy I didn’t know it actually exist.

“Hmmm,” another moan escaped from me while his left hand reached for my nape and pulled me closer, letting my forehead rest on his as our slow kissed turned fiery at the moment.

In the quiet space, only the sloppy sounds of our lips clashing each other and our mingled saliva resonated in the air.

Every time I opened her mouth, there is him who welcomed ,my heavy breath and hot tongue. We moved in sync, up and down, nibbling every corner of their mouth.

Heat rose in my closed eyes. A thin layer of excitement wrapped around my whole body that I wanted to explore more than tasting that lips.

Throbbing pain of pleasure and fear came out the same time. My body temperature was rising from my lower abdomen and my heart was beating so fast that I could not pull myself together. 

‘Something is wrong with me. Something is really wrong!’

 It felt so weird that I am in current happiness just by kissing a guy whom I just met for the first time.

The way his large physique moves, his large hands, and the sweet smell of him have fueled a beast that I did not know existing in me.

The hand on my nape went down again. He pushed me closer to him, and now, my lower body was in contact with the bare mass of heat. Then, I felt his hand roaming around my back is if planing to touch my bare skin.

Gulp.

I felt a prickling sensation through the fabric and struggled against him, surprised by the sudden contact.

“Wait!” I shouted as I pushed him away.

As if possessed by a ghost and then regained my consciousness afterward, I stared at him with pale face, I am sure I look like a white paper right now.

The man licked his wet lips with a face that looked terribly satisfied.

“It’s weird,” he murmured. “You are not one of us but it feels good, kissing you I mean.”

I was about to answer when suddenly, he held my chin and pressed them hard.

The smile that once disguised as a blooming spring has vanished. When the tail of his mouth soared into a grin, I felt like seeing the door to hell opened. 

"Who are you, really?”

I clenched my fists real hard until I could feel the pain on my palms.

‘That is a question that I’ve been asking to myself.’

Who am I?

Why am I different from normal people?

While thinking about this, I felt the heat on my eyes.

The man loosened his grip on my chin and stared at me with stunned reaction, as if he saw something surprising.

“Your eyes,” he said. “It changed color.”

‘He saw my secret. The secret that I’ve been hiding for many years.’