WHERE IS my daughter? Where is Dalmi?" A thunderous yet worrying voice echoed from the entrance of the school hospital.
Mabilis kaming tumayo ni Clavis nang marinig iyon at makita ang mabagsik na pagdating ni Miss Heichel… lalo na noong bumaling siya sa gawi namin.
"Si Ma'am!" Si Katlego.
Umayos din at tumuwid siya ng tayo kasama sina Jirario at Lachlan. Sabay pinanood naming lima ang paglapit ng ina ng nag-iisang Shanta.
"Clyde, where is your cousin? How is she? Is she conscious now? Kanina pa kayo rito? What did the doctor in charge tell you?"
Her heels clinked as she bombarded him with endless questions. Then, I saw my friend flinch
MACINE narrated yesterday's incident and revealed every detail. Sa bawat pagbigkas niya ng salita ay tumatagos sa puso at may yanig.Pero may napansin ako na isang kakaibang bagay. She kept closing her eyes and biting her lips, as if someone was whipping her back with a scourge."Tapos… tapos... p-pinalo siya! Pinalo si Dalshanta ng bat sa likod." Macine sobbed and covered her mouth in despair.I cussed with the hot air."Hoy, ikaw!" sigaw ng akusado at dinuro siya. "Hindi ako ang gumawa niyon! Hindi ako ang may hawak ng bat. At lalong-lalo na… Hindi lang dapat ako ang sinisisi niyo!""Quiet, Ms. Quizon! I am not tolerating your be
WE LEFT the two for privacy. Naiwan sina Shanta at Macine sa loob. They asked for a space for girl talks. And, obviously, we’re not allowed. Dahil diyan, napagkasunduan naming magtungo sa malapit na convenience store sa school. Bibili kami ng jumbo hotdog at chocolate drink na paboritong-paborito ni Shanta. But, believe me, going all the way to buy it was not voluntary. She asked for it, so we granted her requests. Siguro, magiging mabigat ‘yon dahil anim kaming bibili niyon. Parang ano… parang nagdadala lang kami ng papel at dahon. "Yes naman! Gising na ang tropa natin!" pagdiriwang ni Katlego. Nanguna siya kasama ni Lachlan sa hallwa
TEKA LANG, SI EUART BA ‘YON?” Luckily, that question came from Clavis because it would be a total disaster kung galing iyon kay Shanta.I diverted my gaze at him and simply replied, "Yeah, you're right. It's him."He chuckled at my surprise. "Kawawa ka naman, Mariposa. Hindi ka niya pinansin?"I rolled my eyes and opened my car door. "Huwag kang ano dyan, Umbok. Nagmamadali siyang umalis. Baka hindi ako nakita. Baka may pupuntahan.""Madaya 'yon! Siya lang mag-isa?" He asked when I was about to enter the car. But I paused. Umayos ako ng tayo mula sa akmang pagkakaupo.Natulala ako sa mukha ni Clavis. I observed his little actions. Na
STAY HERE. Press the bell if you need something." Tumango si Kaden noong abisuhan ko siya. I scurried outside as I heard my brother called out. Nagpapahabol siya ng mga bilihin. Fortunately, his demanding voice melted away noong tuluyan akong makalabas ng kwarto. "Shanta!" tawag-pansin ko sa babaeng naglalakad sa pasilyo. "Wait!" Alam kong siya iyon because of her all-black outfit, looking like an emo, a rockstar, or a hipster. I could not be wrong. Tumigil siya sa paglalakad saka lumingon sa akin. Her brows intertwined as she looked at me. "Bakit? Anong kailangan mo?" sigang tanong niya at mas lalong nagtaka. "Hoy. Ba't ka lumalabas? Sinong
YOU ARE damn… wasted," I uttered breathfully as her head fell and rose at every move she made."Hmm… Shh!" Nagtaas ng daliri sa ilong si Shanta habang tumatawa sa sarili. "I'm not lasing, you asshole!"Then, she chuckled at her stubbornness. Pumikit ako nang mariin sa bawat mabibigat na kilos niya."Come on. Get up now and let's leave this place." I gripped her arms and carefully lifted her up."Hey! What the fuck! Let go, I wanna stay here!" pagrarambo niya at ibinagsak ang pwet sa upuan."You are such… a mess that I've got no freaking choice but to clean all of your nasty things. So, get up."
SHANTA WAS brought home safe. I also made sure na makakabalik nang ligtas ang kanyang kotse. I wanted it to be parked in their carport once she wakes up and gets down for school. Gusto ko kapag kagising niya ay wala na siyang poproblemahin. Another week in Sande University, our mornings were spent tackling new lessons and finishing seatworks with today's due activities. Tapos ko na ang sa akin kahapon bago ako nagbasa ng nobela. That's why I have more free time today. Lalo na dahil inipon ko ang aking enerhiya kagabi para ngayon. No one's going to escape my interrogations until they give me a reasonable and sufficient answer. "Wh
MAGKITA-KITA na lang tayo doon,” sabi ni Clavis noong matapos ang klase sa araw na ito. After hearing the sad news about Macine’s father, napagdesisyunan naming dumalo sa lamay. Since she’s also a friend to us and to Shanta, it’s best to mourn with her and to make her feel that she’s not alone in these lonely times. “Egis, egis! Bibili muna kami ng bulaklak,” anang Katlego at itinuro si Lachlan. I looked around our space in the parking lot. Kumpleto kaming anim. Euart was checking his watch. Nasa loob na ng kotse si Jirario pero nakabukas ang kanyang bintana. Clavis and the other two were beside their car and still conversing with each other. Habang ako, may hinahanap pa rin na isang taong kukumpleto s
RAIN POURED as Shanta and I stood beneath a wall arc almost outside the hallway. Saktong pagbaba namin kanina ay ang pagbuhos ng ulan. Till now, we watched as the rain water splattered on the sloped pavement. “Yes, yes. I have seen her. You can stop searching now,” I told Clavis from the other end of the line, and he was relieved I found his cousin. Umirap ako dahil sa kanyang reaksyon. “Just go back to where we separated, alright?—Oo nga, parang bingi!—Ewan ko sa ‘yo, pare. Bye. Need to hang up now.” At ibinaba ko na nga ang linya dahil ayaw ko nang marinig pa ang mga biro niya na may halong malisya. After I kept my phone, just like t
BADTRIP. Nababadtrip ako kay Avancea. Bakit hindi na lang siya lumayas sa mamanahin kong mansyon? Bakit kailangan pa niyang makipag siksikan sa pamilya namin? Bakit napaka s****p niya simula bata pa kami? Our family would have been better, stronger, if she and her leech mother Amadena hadn’t appeared in our life. Pero may magagawa ba ako sa desisyon ng Papa ko? Meron. But, bullshit, not on this matter. He won’t let me, her genius daughter, dictate his heart. Not even Kuya Dallas who’s vocally against it but is silent when the two leeches are present. Wala rin naman kaming maaasahan kay Mama kasi iniwan niya kami kay Papa at sumama sa lalaki niya. To make matters worse, nagkaroon pa sila ng anak. But all of my mother’s desires faded when she lost everything she fought for. One, her partner who I never met. Second, her son, my step brother. And third, kami ng orihinal na pamilya niya. But serious matters aside, bwisit na bwisit na ako kay Avancea. Sinumbong niya ako tungkol sa pambubu
WHAT’S THAT?” I asked Shanta the moment she entered our bedroom with a book in her hand. Nilapitan ko siya at hinawakan ang bewang niya saka hinalikan siya sa balikat. “Saan pumunta ang Baby Love ko? Hmm?” “Hulaan mo…” biro niya saka kumapit sa bewang ko bago nangunang naglakad. I grinned, then walked with her with my right arm clinging onto her shoulder. Sinilip ko ang librong hinahawakan niya at naintriga ako. “You don’t recognize this, do you?” tanong niya. “Where did you find that?” Shanta looked up at me. “It doesn’t matter. I found it and I fixed everything back.” Binalik niya ang tingin sa libro… o ang manuskritong sinulat ko… at naupo sa dulo ng kama. I also sat beside her with my eyes pinned on her glowing face. “I have been curious about this lately, alam mo ba ‘yon…” kwento niya at sinimulang buklatin ang libro. “Punit-punit ‘to noong nahanap ko kaya nagpabili ako kay Benida ng scotch tape. She helped me put back every page.” Then, she looked at me teasingly. “Ako p
I SMILED at the guests who greeted me and Shanta as we walked on the red carpeted aisle. Hindi ganoon karami ang mga bisita. Nabibilang lang sa mga daliri ang mga tao sa mesa. I recognized almost all of them. Masaya ako at dinaluhan nila kami para sa gabing ito.Shanta and the Six Packs, which included me, sat down at a very special seat near the mini stage. Pabilog ang mesa at pitong upuan ang naroon para sa isa sa amin. Naunang umupo ang mga kaibigan ko. Lachlan and Katlego sat beside each other. Ganoon din si Euart at Jirario. Clavis, however, chose to sit next to her cousin. Samantala ako, pinagitnaan nina Shanta at Jirario. I pulled my Baby’s golden chair before she took her seat. “Musta ka na?” tanong ko kay Jira nang hayaan ko si Shanta na kausapin ang pinsan niya. I smiled at my cousin when I looked at him. It’s been a long time and we have been very busy with our own lives, so it’s nice if we catch up. “Kumusta ka naman at ng inaanak ko? Damn… I can’t believe you’re a family
ISANG BUWAN na ang nakalipas at unti-unti nang humuhupa ang kaguluhan sa Manila. Tito Kadam is already jailed in the New Bilibid Prison while his case is set for an appeal by his lawyers. While Coolidge Mental Care remained a crime scene, the patients were transferred to a safer and better facility. They will be sent back once the investigation is done and once the mental care has found its new owner. Sa ngayon, we’re trying to fix all the casualties, lalo na sa pagpapagamot ng mga pasyente. After all, Shanta and I both experienced a life inside the mental hospital. Nais naming tumulong. “Sir, Ma’am, nandyan na po ang mga bisita,” pagpapaalam ng kasambahay noong pumasok ito sa kwarto ko. “Susunod na kami. Thank you,” I said. And after telling me some more notice, the househelp left the room. Naiwan kami ni Shanta sa harap ng salamin habang inaayos niya ang necktie ko. Two days ago, we left Bohol for our business here in the Metro. Naisip naming ligtas nang tumira sa bahay ko… na
I DON’T KNOW when was the last time that I was energized to wake up. I remembered waking up with a huge weight in my head and I felt so exhausted at the start of the day, that ending it would mean fatigue for a week. But while my eyes remain closed, my mind is already awake. And I could feel Shanta’s small body still embracing me. Napangiti ako. Dahil diyan, bahagyang isinubsob ko ang aking ilong sa buhok niya. Walang pagbabago. Her hair’s scent is still the same lavender with fresh milk. I sniffed like drugs and kissed her forehead and tightened my embrace because I am never gonna lose her again. This moment could’ve happened two years ago if the incident didn’t happen. We could’ve been living on one roof with our two kids that are one-year-old apart, and we’re still making the third one. But even though we’re two years late, this… the night that I woke up beside her is what matters most. This will keep me from waking up and start my day blissfully. Aaraw-arawin ko ito, and the d
THE NEXT DAY, Shanta and I traveled back to Panglao Island, Bohol to stay in her mansion for the meantime while things subside. Hindi sana doon. It could have been my house, but almost everyone knows about it, so definitely, the place is not safe for us. We decided to take a break after the national newscast reported across the country. It was stressful and… chaotic. Ilang media na rin ang sumubok na kuhanan kami ng panayam, but Shanta, although ready to speak up, is not allowed to give herself another stress. I didn’t permit it because she needed rest after trespassing in Kachina's house. Makita-kita ko pang may benda siya sa noo kaya mas lalong hindi ako pumayag. She got it from her cousin who broke a vase on her head. And even though I wanted to make that woman pay, I didn’t want reporters to exploit my Baby’s condition and people to make a feast out of it. Kahit na kami ang nasa tama at ang biktima, hindi ko ginawa. The right people would see it, especially the court. And I wou
I GRINNED AT my reflection in the mirror surface. Our plan is working and just a little more time, this chaos they started would end. I then reached for the clean towel beside my laundry, then wiped my face. This is the only place where I can be myself besides being in Shanta’s arms. No nurse to watch over my every move. No Kachina to observe me and ask leading questions. Just me and myself, staring at each other. After I wiped my face, I spent my fifteen minutes taking a bath. Hindi man ako komportable sa klase ng banyo na meron sila dito, sinubukan kong hindi madiri. Well, I have lived an ordinary life before with a small toilet and a hand pump. I’d be immune to this, I guess. Pero sana… sana hindi magtagal ang pamamalagi ko dito. I can’t take the owner of this place. Pagkatapos kong maligo, I changed into a more comfy clothing. I didn’t wear my usual asylum gown. I don’t need it anyway because I am done with my mission. This is the day I am finally leaving this hell. Besides, nas
KAGE, DELIKADO ‘yang plano mo…” pagtutol ni Shanta. Nakaupo siya sa kabisera ng lamesa ng kanyang opisina sa mansion. “I’m not liking it. Masyadong mapanganib at… nagmumukha tayong mas masama kaysa sa kanila. Ayaw ko ng ganoon. We’re stooping down to their level… and as you said, violence should never be a choice. So, this one… It’s a no for me.” I bit my lower lip because she has a point. Well, it’s obvious that my ultimate plan is too risky… and brutal. Katabi ni Shanta si Benida, na nakaupo sa kanyang kanan. They were both looking at me with a hint of hesitation in their faces. Bahagya akong nakaramdam ng pagkapahiya. Shanta is right. We’re no different from the people who attempted to kill us. Tulad ni Tito Kadam, I am resorting to violence to get what I want. But this is the only way we could penetrate the Coolidge Mental Care. Kung totoo man, naroon ang mga karagdagang ebidensya para magiit ang tatay ni Kachina. Dahil hindi lang niya kami tinangkang patayin, he was even the ma
Kagan’s POV AYAN, KAGAN…” The psychiatric nurse said in utter softness after I obediently drank the medicine she prepared for me. “You are doing well these days and Doc Kachina must be so proud of you. Let’s just wait for her, okay? It’s past ten and she’s not yet here. But don’t worry. Papasok iyon.” I nodded and grinned just a little bit to make her believe Kachina is my calming pill, even when I don’t care whether she comes to work today or not. I then looked away and stared at the barred window the mental care had just built for me. Kung alam lang ng nars, I lost interest in her doctor the night she’s involved in ruining my life. Makalipas ng ilang sandali, narinig ko ang nars sa gilid ko, nagpapaalam para sa susunod na pasyente niya. I didn’t respond or what, then the door creaked open. Mabilis akong tumingin sa kanya, at nang makitang hindi siya nakalingon, I swiftly barfed the medicine I didn’t swallow and the bitter thing fell on my palm. I clenched my fist as soon as I fel