"SINO KA NGA ULIT?" Katlego forwarded as he was trying to remember her. His eyes squinted and massaged his chin with his two fingers. "Parang nakita na kita dati. Hindi ko lang maalala kung kailan."
"Uh… Ako si..."
"She's Macine Herrera,” Euart advanced. “Kaklase ko siya-"
"Deputa ka, ser Eu!” Lego pounded his back like a worker putting down a sack of rice. “Ba’t ngayon mo lang sinabi? Ogag ka! Sabi ko na nga ba, pamilar siya! Siya ba 'yong dinala mo no'ng pool party?" He asked, very intrigued about her real identity.
"Uhh… Ako nga 'yon,” sabi ng mahinhin na babae. Muli siyang yumuko, “Ikinagagalak kong makilala uli kayo..."
FOR THE past few days, Shanta had become more possessive of Euart. Wherever he goes, she’s there, following and guarding her precious gem against potential threats. Imbes na si Euart ang bumibisita sa kanya sa silid-aralan, si Shanta ang bumibisita sa kanya sa kabilang building. One time, she even brought red tulips for him in one of his classes to express how profoundly in love she was. But it didn’t end there. Nagtawag pa siya ng mga kasamahan niya sa kanilang feminist org to make it more special, but they looked more like female gangsters.Hindi ko alam kung bakit mas tumaas ang bakod ni Shanta para sa kaibigan namin. She wasn’t like that before. Sa katunayan, magaan ang pagkakaibigan nila ni Art noon. I was hoping they could click together and have a real score. But when he had brought the girl during the acquaintance party, parang may nagbago kay Shanta. Plus, narinig n
DAHAN-DAHAN akong naglakad sa hallway habang ang mga mata ko'y nakapako sa kanyang kinaroroonan. The wind coming from the river blew some of her hair strands. Habang pinapanood siya, nadarama ko rin ang sakit na nararamdaman niya. The city lights beyond expressed the irony of a woman sitting lifelessly beside a garden of lively green shrubs. Noong makarating ako sa bukanan ng balkonahe, I sat beside her with my hands clasped to each other. "Even if I asked if you're okay, you still don't look fine," bungad ko. Ang pagsama ko sa kanya rito ay isa sa mga paraang naiisip ko upang bayaran ang buhay kong sinagip niya. "I'm sorry my friend hurt you without him knowing it," I said while staring at the imperceivable darkness. Nakita kong gumalaw nang babahagya ang ulo niya, so I thought this was the right time to take a fair
A MONTH HAS PASSED and September has come. Abala ang mga estudyante sa kani-kanilang requirement dahil malapit na ang intramurals. It was a sports event everyone couldn't miss. Hindi magiging masaya ang palaro kung may sagabal na mga gawain. It's better to sweat now and rejoice later than party now and suffer later. But that depends on the person. Pero para sa akin, it's very efficient.I fixed my goggles as I climbed on the platform. Nasa indoor swimming pool ako ng school kung saan gaganapin ang event. The turquoise water below me escalated my blood. Today is the tryouts for potential swimmers who would compete against the higher levels. Kailangan kong ibigay ang lahat ng makakaya ko para maging parte ng SU Swimming Team. This is not just a recreational activity, but to me, it's my burning passion to dive under the freezing water.
BACK TO the intense game, I watched as the fight became deuce. Pinagpapawisan at kinakabahan ako para sa kanya. Gusto ko siyang sigawan na galingan niya at dapat manalo siya.Maybe she heard me kahit na wala akong sinabi. Shanta used her backhand to strategically drive the tennis ball. And as the orange thing bounced back to the opponent's court, it shifted to the left when the senior tried to block it at the right."Yes!" Shanta rejoiced.Kinuyom niya ang kanyang kamao saka sinuntok-suntok iyon sa ere habang bumubulwak na ang mga ugat niya sa leeg dahil sa kakahiyaw.Napatayo at nagsimulang pumalakpak sina Katlego at Lachlan. Nagsusumigaw sila ng papuri kay Shanta sa buong studio. May mga taong na
THE OVERLOADED SWEETNESS was too much to bear between the new couple, Euart and Shanta. Halos maumay kaming magkakaibigan sa tuwing nakikita silang naglalambingan. Or maybe, ako lang. In the past few days, I felt quite uncomfortable around them because, perhaps, I still can’t get over the incident that happened last June. Unti-unti, pinapatay ako. Sinisira nito ang kaayusan ng utak ko. Sometimes, I would wish na sana hindi ko na lang sila makita sa susunod pang mga araw. And the kiss… that one intimate kiss under the moonlight beside the sparkling sea! Kung maaari ko lang basagin ang bungo ko at tanggalin ang natatanging memoryang nakakubli roon ay gagawin ko. Matagal na akong naging pakwan kapag biniyak ko ito.
IT WAS after the dismissal time when we decided to hang out and chill in the nearby global city. Sa parking lot ng school, sumakay si Shanta sa sasakyan ni Euart. Simula noong naging sila, parati na niyang iniiwan ang kanyang dilaw na kotse at sumasabay sa kaibigan namin tuwing pasukan at uwian. Kumbaga, they were inseparable. They shared things like they were a married couple.Nang makarating kami sa mall, parang batang kawala na nagtatakbo sina Katlego at Lachlan patungo sa direksyon ng arcade. Because of their loud and naughty behavior, Jirario kept cussing beside me. Pati ang mga tao sa paligid ay nagtataka sa mga kaibigan ko. Minsan ay lumalayo ako sa pinsan ko dahil ayaw kong masama sa init ng kanyang ulo."Hoy! Ogag! Teka lang, mga erp!" sigaw ni Clavis habang nakataas ang mga braso, then he ran towards them. "Bulaga! Ar
"OH, KATLEGO? Ano ka ngayon? Olats ka ulit sa 'kin…" Shanta teased him Katlego. Pero he just made a face. Sumunod na tumingin si Shanta kay Lachlan. "Ikaw na ang manlilibre, 'tol. Ako na lang ang desisyon sa restaurant na pagkakainan natin. Doon na lang tayo sa BonChon mamaya. Gusto niyo ba ro'n? Masarap 'yong manok dun."Nagtanong pa siya kung siya naman pala ang desisyon."Gesi lang, Insan. Pero maggugulay na lang ako…" ani Clavis, saka tila biglang may salitang nasa dulo ng kanyang dila. "Anong tawag ulit dun? 'Yong gulay na may maanghang na red paste. 'Yong mukhang pechay na medyo may amoy pero masarap pa rin…" he described."I dunno what ya sayin', bruh!" Walang kwentang sumagot si Katlego. "Baka si Lach, alam niya…""Ewa
HINDI KO maintindihan ang mga sinasabi ng babaeng ito na hindi nagpakilala dahil nagsisinungaling siya. She's lying to bring Shanta down, ruin her reputation, and cast her away from school! Hindi na tama ito!"Kaibigan niyo si Euart, 'di ba? Panigurado, alam niyo ang tungkol dito at kinukunsinti niyo ang mga maling gawain niya…" Same boy reacted. "Hindi na nakapagtataka dahil kilala siya bilang isang certified playboy sa school niyo dati. Kinunsinte niyo ang kamalian ng inyong kaibigan dahil isa sa inyo ang pinsan ni Shanta? Tama ba ako, Clavis?""Hindi. Mali ka kasi bobo ka," Jirario was the one who answered him with all seriousness.I didn't expect him to act that way, to defend Shanta from anyone else. Hindi siya iyong tipong magtatanggol sa hindi niya gaano
BADTRIP. Nababadtrip ako kay Avancea. Bakit hindi na lang siya lumayas sa mamanahin kong mansyon? Bakit kailangan pa niyang makipag siksikan sa pamilya namin? Bakit napaka s****p niya simula bata pa kami? Our family would have been better, stronger, if she and her leech mother Amadena hadn’t appeared in our life. Pero may magagawa ba ako sa desisyon ng Papa ko? Meron. But, bullshit, not on this matter. He won’t let me, her genius daughter, dictate his heart. Not even Kuya Dallas who’s vocally against it but is silent when the two leeches are present. Wala rin naman kaming maaasahan kay Mama kasi iniwan niya kami kay Papa at sumama sa lalaki niya. To make matters worse, nagkaroon pa sila ng anak. But all of my mother’s desires faded when she lost everything she fought for. One, her partner who I never met. Second, her son, my step brother. And third, kami ng orihinal na pamilya niya. But serious matters aside, bwisit na bwisit na ako kay Avancea. Sinumbong niya ako tungkol sa pambubu
WHAT’S THAT?” I asked Shanta the moment she entered our bedroom with a book in her hand. Nilapitan ko siya at hinawakan ang bewang niya saka hinalikan siya sa balikat. “Saan pumunta ang Baby Love ko? Hmm?” “Hulaan mo…” biro niya saka kumapit sa bewang ko bago nangunang naglakad. I grinned, then walked with her with my right arm clinging onto her shoulder. Sinilip ko ang librong hinahawakan niya at naintriga ako. “You don’t recognize this, do you?” tanong niya. “Where did you find that?” Shanta looked up at me. “It doesn’t matter. I found it and I fixed everything back.” Binalik niya ang tingin sa libro… o ang manuskritong sinulat ko… at naupo sa dulo ng kama. I also sat beside her with my eyes pinned on her glowing face. “I have been curious about this lately, alam mo ba ‘yon…” kwento niya at sinimulang buklatin ang libro. “Punit-punit ‘to noong nahanap ko kaya nagpabili ako kay Benida ng scotch tape. She helped me put back every page.” Then, she looked at me teasingly. “Ako p
I SMILED at the guests who greeted me and Shanta as we walked on the red carpeted aisle. Hindi ganoon karami ang mga bisita. Nabibilang lang sa mga daliri ang mga tao sa mesa. I recognized almost all of them. Masaya ako at dinaluhan nila kami para sa gabing ito.Shanta and the Six Packs, which included me, sat down at a very special seat near the mini stage. Pabilog ang mesa at pitong upuan ang naroon para sa isa sa amin. Naunang umupo ang mga kaibigan ko. Lachlan and Katlego sat beside each other. Ganoon din si Euart at Jirario. Clavis, however, chose to sit next to her cousin. Samantala ako, pinagitnaan nina Shanta at Jirario. I pulled my Baby’s golden chair before she took her seat. “Musta ka na?” tanong ko kay Jira nang hayaan ko si Shanta na kausapin ang pinsan niya. I smiled at my cousin when I looked at him. It’s been a long time and we have been very busy with our own lives, so it’s nice if we catch up. “Kumusta ka naman at ng inaanak ko? Damn… I can’t believe you’re a family
ISANG BUWAN na ang nakalipas at unti-unti nang humuhupa ang kaguluhan sa Manila. Tito Kadam is already jailed in the New Bilibid Prison while his case is set for an appeal by his lawyers. While Coolidge Mental Care remained a crime scene, the patients were transferred to a safer and better facility. They will be sent back once the investigation is done and once the mental care has found its new owner. Sa ngayon, we’re trying to fix all the casualties, lalo na sa pagpapagamot ng mga pasyente. After all, Shanta and I both experienced a life inside the mental hospital. Nais naming tumulong. “Sir, Ma’am, nandyan na po ang mga bisita,” pagpapaalam ng kasambahay noong pumasok ito sa kwarto ko. “Susunod na kami. Thank you,” I said. And after telling me some more notice, the househelp left the room. Naiwan kami ni Shanta sa harap ng salamin habang inaayos niya ang necktie ko. Two days ago, we left Bohol for our business here in the Metro. Naisip naming ligtas nang tumira sa bahay ko… na
I DON’T KNOW when was the last time that I was energized to wake up. I remembered waking up with a huge weight in my head and I felt so exhausted at the start of the day, that ending it would mean fatigue for a week. But while my eyes remain closed, my mind is already awake. And I could feel Shanta’s small body still embracing me. Napangiti ako. Dahil diyan, bahagyang isinubsob ko ang aking ilong sa buhok niya. Walang pagbabago. Her hair’s scent is still the same lavender with fresh milk. I sniffed like drugs and kissed her forehead and tightened my embrace because I am never gonna lose her again. This moment could’ve happened two years ago if the incident didn’t happen. We could’ve been living on one roof with our two kids that are one-year-old apart, and we’re still making the third one. But even though we’re two years late, this… the night that I woke up beside her is what matters most. This will keep me from waking up and start my day blissfully. Aaraw-arawin ko ito, and the d
THE NEXT DAY, Shanta and I traveled back to Panglao Island, Bohol to stay in her mansion for the meantime while things subside. Hindi sana doon. It could have been my house, but almost everyone knows about it, so definitely, the place is not safe for us. We decided to take a break after the national newscast reported across the country. It was stressful and… chaotic. Ilang media na rin ang sumubok na kuhanan kami ng panayam, but Shanta, although ready to speak up, is not allowed to give herself another stress. I didn’t permit it because she needed rest after trespassing in Kachina's house. Makita-kita ko pang may benda siya sa noo kaya mas lalong hindi ako pumayag. She got it from her cousin who broke a vase on her head. And even though I wanted to make that woman pay, I didn’t want reporters to exploit my Baby’s condition and people to make a feast out of it. Kahit na kami ang nasa tama at ang biktima, hindi ko ginawa. The right people would see it, especially the court. And I wou
I GRINNED AT my reflection in the mirror surface. Our plan is working and just a little more time, this chaos they started would end. I then reached for the clean towel beside my laundry, then wiped my face. This is the only place where I can be myself besides being in Shanta’s arms. No nurse to watch over my every move. No Kachina to observe me and ask leading questions. Just me and myself, staring at each other. After I wiped my face, I spent my fifteen minutes taking a bath. Hindi man ako komportable sa klase ng banyo na meron sila dito, sinubukan kong hindi madiri. Well, I have lived an ordinary life before with a small toilet and a hand pump. I’d be immune to this, I guess. Pero sana… sana hindi magtagal ang pamamalagi ko dito. I can’t take the owner of this place. Pagkatapos kong maligo, I changed into a more comfy clothing. I didn’t wear my usual asylum gown. I don’t need it anyway because I am done with my mission. This is the day I am finally leaving this hell. Besides, nas
KAGE, DELIKADO ‘yang plano mo…” pagtutol ni Shanta. Nakaupo siya sa kabisera ng lamesa ng kanyang opisina sa mansion. “I’m not liking it. Masyadong mapanganib at… nagmumukha tayong mas masama kaysa sa kanila. Ayaw ko ng ganoon. We’re stooping down to their level… and as you said, violence should never be a choice. So, this one… It’s a no for me.” I bit my lower lip because she has a point. Well, it’s obvious that my ultimate plan is too risky… and brutal. Katabi ni Shanta si Benida, na nakaupo sa kanyang kanan. They were both looking at me with a hint of hesitation in their faces. Bahagya akong nakaramdam ng pagkapahiya. Shanta is right. We’re no different from the people who attempted to kill us. Tulad ni Tito Kadam, I am resorting to violence to get what I want. But this is the only way we could penetrate the Coolidge Mental Care. Kung totoo man, naroon ang mga karagdagang ebidensya para magiit ang tatay ni Kachina. Dahil hindi lang niya kami tinangkang patayin, he was even the ma
Kagan’s POV AYAN, KAGAN…” The psychiatric nurse said in utter softness after I obediently drank the medicine she prepared for me. “You are doing well these days and Doc Kachina must be so proud of you. Let’s just wait for her, okay? It’s past ten and she’s not yet here. But don’t worry. Papasok iyon.” I nodded and grinned just a little bit to make her believe Kachina is my calming pill, even when I don’t care whether she comes to work today or not. I then looked away and stared at the barred window the mental care had just built for me. Kung alam lang ng nars, I lost interest in her doctor the night she’s involved in ruining my life. Makalipas ng ilang sandali, narinig ko ang nars sa gilid ko, nagpapaalam para sa susunod na pasyente niya. I didn’t respond or what, then the door creaked open. Mabilis akong tumingin sa kanya, at nang makitang hindi siya nakalingon, I swiftly barfed the medicine I didn’t swallow and the bitter thing fell on my palm. I clenched my fist as soon as I fel