While we entered a deluxe hotel restaurant, a female clerk immediately approached us at the main reception area where she guided us to our reserved seats.
The inside was grand, not the typical romantic diner. It was more of a victorian-style restaurant. The white walls were unbelievably sculpted into a garden of golden curvy blossoms. Even the tables and chairs resembled a throne, with red foams and throw pillows to support our bottoms.
Nanguna ako sa paglalakad habang nakasunod si Shanta. Nang ituro ng clerk ang ekslusibong lamesa malapit sa malawak na bintana, na tanaw ang ilaw ng siyudad, mas binilisan ko ang paglalakad. And as I got there, I pulled the shiny wooden chair for Shanta.
"Why do you think your dad invited me here?" I asked after we both settled down on our co
KRISTOFF Alvar is your father?" I nodded when Tito Dalmaceo echoed what I just told him about my real descent, as if she had known him for so long and he's shocked to discover my true identity. Na hindi ako galing sa dugo at laman ng mga Lombardi kundi sa puno ng mga Alvar at Marchand. I had no clue if what I revealed was a bad thing. Na magiging masama sa imahen nila ang pakikisalamuha sa isang ampon. I thought it would disgust them. Na magiging mailap sila tulad ng ibang taong pinagsasabihan ko niyon. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang mali sa pagiging ampon ko at nandidiri sila minsan sa akin. As if I had come from a cow dung at ang baho-baho ng itsura ko sa mga mata nila. However, that wasn't how Tito Dalmaceo looked at me. It wasn't disgust or what. Mas naging kuryoso siy
NICE, NICE…" sabik na sabik na komento ni Katlego nang marinig niya na pupunta kami sa ancestral house ng mga Heichel. Nakaakbay siya kay Lachlan at Jirario habang abot-tainga ang ngiti. "Sheeet! Where ba is your house, Dalshanta? Is it malayo? Ba't hindi pa kami inaaya ni Clave doon? Pangit ba mansyon niyo?"Sa ilang taon naming pagkakaibigan ni Clavis, wala pa kaming alam tungkol sa buhay niya. Somebody would think he's the type of person that would open up about his personal life, pero hindi ganoon ang kaso sa kanya.Kahit na kaibigan niya kami, we only knew bits about his family. Although he seemed jolly, open, and honest, he's still the secretive Clavis that we all became acquainted with. Kay Shanta ko lang nalaman na apo pala sila ng gobernador dito sa probinsya namin.We had no clue why it was so hard for Clavis to open up, pero hinahayaan na lang namin siyang magsabi ng mga problema. We don't force him to tell us about his whole life, like the most traumatic or
I DON'T KNOW if I was just the only person who noticed, but our reactions were all the same. Our faces were pale white. Pinagpapawisan ang mga noo namin habang namumutla ang mga labi. All of this ruckus happened when Hon. Sherwood Heichel ordered us to come near them.At dahil sa matinding kaba at takot sa lolo ni Shanta, we moved with swift small steps. Kumpol-kumpol kami at nagtutulakan sa maliit na espasyo, na tila tinalian ng lubid sa mga bewang namin, habang naglalakad sa kabisera."Gagi naman, Lach. Bilisan mo. Usad pagong ka," kontra ni Katlego at mahinang tinulak si Lachlan sa harapan. Pati siya ay natatakot at nagtatago sa likod niya. "Diyan ka lang kasi by height 'to. Mauna ka.""Uy, ogag. Si Boss Kagan na lang kasi," pandadamay niya sa akin at nilingon ako s
I STOPPED EATING when I heard of what Lolo Sherwood wanted Shanta to do. My mouth slowly fell open as I shifted my gaze from him to his granddaughter. Akala ko ay sisimangot siya at tututol dahil hindi niya gusto ang pinangungunahan siya. But from what I could espy, she seemed pumped up and delighted. Shanta's pretty smile reached to her ears as she wiped her lips with a clean napkin and paused eating. Her body was leaning forward, obviously showing that she's interested with this grandson of a business partner of his grandfather. I squinted my eyes and followed her every movement. Sumisingkit ang mga mata niya habang nakangiti. I snorted on my seat with her thin figure on the surface of my eyes.
THE MAN WAS GRINNING with his curved bushy brows. My gaze intensified as it remained at him. Even his chinky eyes never left me, which I didn't understand. It was curious all throughout and made me uncomfortable. Pero kahit na magkatitigan kaming dalawa, we both have different ways of looking at each other. His means included teasing and being arrogant whilst mine involved being pissed and vexed. Pakiramdam ko ay sinasadya niya akong asarin dahil may napapansin siya na hindi ko nakikita. And whatever that was, he's succeeding in making me angry. "I have already met Dalmi Shantana before, Lolo Sherwood," he said softly. Ang mga mata niya ay nasa akin pa rin. Mas nagkasalubong ang mga kilay ko. "She's fun to talk with and has a sense of humor, really. I admit that she's making me happy. I hope to spend more time with her."
SHANTA? Is that you?" I asked the woman in black dress walking towards me while I was feeling elevated and ecstatic inside. "I was fucking looking for you! Saan ka ba nagpunta? I'm worried! You should be looking after me first, not the guy! Okay?! Hmm?"Ngumiti ako nang napakaluwag kahit malabo siya sa paningin ko. And as my body swayed and felt heavy, my dearest still managed to lift my soul up. Kung hindi lang mahigpit ang hawak nina Clavis at Jirario sa katawan ko, tumakbo na ako at kinulong siya sa mga bisig ko.And in those times, I would cherish her comfort. I'd never let her go and she would be living inside my heart. She'd be staying only by my side and in between my arms. Because she'll remain protected when she's with me."Dalmi, pumasok ka na sa loob. Kami n
HEY, GOOD MORNING…” I greeted lively as I walked down the stairs. Nagtungo ako sa gate at binuksan mismo iyon kahit na naroon ang guwardiya sa kanyang bahay-bahayan. “Umm… Hi… What brings you here?”Shanta welcomed me with a half grin. She was leaning against the hood of her car when I was on our lawn, but when I got out, she stood up instantly.“Hmm. Good morning…” She murmured.I then slid my hands inside my jagger pocket and looked down stiffly. Her eyes were electric shocks that electrified me. I pursed my lips due to the awkward silence.I only got recovered a few minutes ago by this unwieldy reaction body of mine due to her irresistible and
SA ATIN…” maingat at mabagal na saad ko. “Did something happen… between us… last night?” Silence. Silence lingered with her thin brows involuntarily flickering. The way she stared at me said that something bothering was taking her so long to answer. Ngunit hindi ko ininda iyon. My eyes didn’t leave her sight. The two black stones sank into her shallowest thoughts, searching for that one piece that would halt me from further questioning. “Shanta-” “Wala,” mabilis na tugon niya. “Walang nangyari sa atin kagabi.” “Is that it?” I eyed her. “Hmm.” Tumango siya. Her back straightened and her gaze focused somewhere. “Walang nangyari… Hindi ako ang naghat
BADTRIP. Nababadtrip ako kay Avancea. Bakit hindi na lang siya lumayas sa mamanahin kong mansyon? Bakit kailangan pa niyang makipag siksikan sa pamilya namin? Bakit napaka s****p niya simula bata pa kami? Our family would have been better, stronger, if she and her leech mother Amadena hadn’t appeared in our life. Pero may magagawa ba ako sa desisyon ng Papa ko? Meron. But, bullshit, not on this matter. He won’t let me, her genius daughter, dictate his heart. Not even Kuya Dallas who’s vocally against it but is silent when the two leeches are present. Wala rin naman kaming maaasahan kay Mama kasi iniwan niya kami kay Papa at sumama sa lalaki niya. To make matters worse, nagkaroon pa sila ng anak. But all of my mother’s desires faded when she lost everything she fought for. One, her partner who I never met. Second, her son, my step brother. And third, kami ng orihinal na pamilya niya. But serious matters aside, bwisit na bwisit na ako kay Avancea. Sinumbong niya ako tungkol sa pambubu
WHAT’S THAT?” I asked Shanta the moment she entered our bedroom with a book in her hand. Nilapitan ko siya at hinawakan ang bewang niya saka hinalikan siya sa balikat. “Saan pumunta ang Baby Love ko? Hmm?” “Hulaan mo…” biro niya saka kumapit sa bewang ko bago nangunang naglakad. I grinned, then walked with her with my right arm clinging onto her shoulder. Sinilip ko ang librong hinahawakan niya at naintriga ako. “You don’t recognize this, do you?” tanong niya. “Where did you find that?” Shanta looked up at me. “It doesn’t matter. I found it and I fixed everything back.” Binalik niya ang tingin sa libro… o ang manuskritong sinulat ko… at naupo sa dulo ng kama. I also sat beside her with my eyes pinned on her glowing face. “I have been curious about this lately, alam mo ba ‘yon…” kwento niya at sinimulang buklatin ang libro. “Punit-punit ‘to noong nahanap ko kaya nagpabili ako kay Benida ng scotch tape. She helped me put back every page.” Then, she looked at me teasingly. “Ako p
I SMILED at the guests who greeted me and Shanta as we walked on the red carpeted aisle. Hindi ganoon karami ang mga bisita. Nabibilang lang sa mga daliri ang mga tao sa mesa. I recognized almost all of them. Masaya ako at dinaluhan nila kami para sa gabing ito.Shanta and the Six Packs, which included me, sat down at a very special seat near the mini stage. Pabilog ang mesa at pitong upuan ang naroon para sa isa sa amin. Naunang umupo ang mga kaibigan ko. Lachlan and Katlego sat beside each other. Ganoon din si Euart at Jirario. Clavis, however, chose to sit next to her cousin. Samantala ako, pinagitnaan nina Shanta at Jirario. I pulled my Baby’s golden chair before she took her seat. “Musta ka na?” tanong ko kay Jira nang hayaan ko si Shanta na kausapin ang pinsan niya. I smiled at my cousin when I looked at him. It’s been a long time and we have been very busy with our own lives, so it’s nice if we catch up. “Kumusta ka naman at ng inaanak ko? Damn… I can’t believe you’re a family
ISANG BUWAN na ang nakalipas at unti-unti nang humuhupa ang kaguluhan sa Manila. Tito Kadam is already jailed in the New Bilibid Prison while his case is set for an appeal by his lawyers. While Coolidge Mental Care remained a crime scene, the patients were transferred to a safer and better facility. They will be sent back once the investigation is done and once the mental care has found its new owner. Sa ngayon, we’re trying to fix all the casualties, lalo na sa pagpapagamot ng mga pasyente. After all, Shanta and I both experienced a life inside the mental hospital. Nais naming tumulong. “Sir, Ma’am, nandyan na po ang mga bisita,” pagpapaalam ng kasambahay noong pumasok ito sa kwarto ko. “Susunod na kami. Thank you,” I said. And after telling me some more notice, the househelp left the room. Naiwan kami ni Shanta sa harap ng salamin habang inaayos niya ang necktie ko. Two days ago, we left Bohol for our business here in the Metro. Naisip naming ligtas nang tumira sa bahay ko… na
I DON’T KNOW when was the last time that I was energized to wake up. I remembered waking up with a huge weight in my head and I felt so exhausted at the start of the day, that ending it would mean fatigue for a week. But while my eyes remain closed, my mind is already awake. And I could feel Shanta’s small body still embracing me. Napangiti ako. Dahil diyan, bahagyang isinubsob ko ang aking ilong sa buhok niya. Walang pagbabago. Her hair’s scent is still the same lavender with fresh milk. I sniffed like drugs and kissed her forehead and tightened my embrace because I am never gonna lose her again. This moment could’ve happened two years ago if the incident didn’t happen. We could’ve been living on one roof with our two kids that are one-year-old apart, and we’re still making the third one. But even though we’re two years late, this… the night that I woke up beside her is what matters most. This will keep me from waking up and start my day blissfully. Aaraw-arawin ko ito, and the d
THE NEXT DAY, Shanta and I traveled back to Panglao Island, Bohol to stay in her mansion for the meantime while things subside. Hindi sana doon. It could have been my house, but almost everyone knows about it, so definitely, the place is not safe for us. We decided to take a break after the national newscast reported across the country. It was stressful and… chaotic. Ilang media na rin ang sumubok na kuhanan kami ng panayam, but Shanta, although ready to speak up, is not allowed to give herself another stress. I didn’t permit it because she needed rest after trespassing in Kachina's house. Makita-kita ko pang may benda siya sa noo kaya mas lalong hindi ako pumayag. She got it from her cousin who broke a vase on her head. And even though I wanted to make that woman pay, I didn’t want reporters to exploit my Baby’s condition and people to make a feast out of it. Kahit na kami ang nasa tama at ang biktima, hindi ko ginawa. The right people would see it, especially the court. And I wou
I GRINNED AT my reflection in the mirror surface. Our plan is working and just a little more time, this chaos they started would end. I then reached for the clean towel beside my laundry, then wiped my face. This is the only place where I can be myself besides being in Shanta’s arms. No nurse to watch over my every move. No Kachina to observe me and ask leading questions. Just me and myself, staring at each other. After I wiped my face, I spent my fifteen minutes taking a bath. Hindi man ako komportable sa klase ng banyo na meron sila dito, sinubukan kong hindi madiri. Well, I have lived an ordinary life before with a small toilet and a hand pump. I’d be immune to this, I guess. Pero sana… sana hindi magtagal ang pamamalagi ko dito. I can’t take the owner of this place. Pagkatapos kong maligo, I changed into a more comfy clothing. I didn’t wear my usual asylum gown. I don’t need it anyway because I am done with my mission. This is the day I am finally leaving this hell. Besides, nas
KAGE, DELIKADO ‘yang plano mo…” pagtutol ni Shanta. Nakaupo siya sa kabisera ng lamesa ng kanyang opisina sa mansion. “I’m not liking it. Masyadong mapanganib at… nagmumukha tayong mas masama kaysa sa kanila. Ayaw ko ng ganoon. We’re stooping down to their level… and as you said, violence should never be a choice. So, this one… It’s a no for me.” I bit my lower lip because she has a point. Well, it’s obvious that my ultimate plan is too risky… and brutal. Katabi ni Shanta si Benida, na nakaupo sa kanyang kanan. They were both looking at me with a hint of hesitation in their faces. Bahagya akong nakaramdam ng pagkapahiya. Shanta is right. We’re no different from the people who attempted to kill us. Tulad ni Tito Kadam, I am resorting to violence to get what I want. But this is the only way we could penetrate the Coolidge Mental Care. Kung totoo man, naroon ang mga karagdagang ebidensya para magiit ang tatay ni Kachina. Dahil hindi lang niya kami tinangkang patayin, he was even the ma
Kagan’s POV AYAN, KAGAN…” The psychiatric nurse said in utter softness after I obediently drank the medicine she prepared for me. “You are doing well these days and Doc Kachina must be so proud of you. Let’s just wait for her, okay? It’s past ten and she’s not yet here. But don’t worry. Papasok iyon.” I nodded and grinned just a little bit to make her believe Kachina is my calming pill, even when I don’t care whether she comes to work today or not. I then looked away and stared at the barred window the mental care had just built for me. Kung alam lang ng nars, I lost interest in her doctor the night she’s involved in ruining my life. Makalipas ng ilang sandali, narinig ko ang nars sa gilid ko, nagpapaalam para sa susunod na pasyente niya. I didn’t respond or what, then the door creaked open. Mabilis akong tumingin sa kanya, at nang makitang hindi siya nakalingon, I swiftly barfed the medicine I didn’t swallow and the bitter thing fell on my palm. I clenched my fist as soon as I fel