Chapter 2

Chapter 2

I was standing on the balcony of my room, watching the clouds move in the sky. Today is the wedding. I am already wearing the wedding gown that I designed myself. I designed this a long time ago and I never once expected that I would be the one to wear this as well. In a few hours, I will be tied to Elijah. In my entire life, I never once thought that this day would happen. Who would have thought that I would marry the man that was once a lover of Freya?

I don't know if I should be happy or not. Everything just feels heavy ever since Freya died from the accident.

“You still have time to run away,” I was standing alone when I heard her. I didn't waste my time looking at her anymore. I heard her footsteps coming towards me as she went inside the room.

“I won't run away,” I uttered as I heavily sighed.

“Are you okay?” She asked beside me. I glanced at her for a moment, her words warmed me. She was already wearing a sleeveless rose gold semi-gown with a slit on its left side. Of course, I chose Lily to be my maid of honor. She's the only one I have now. She's the only one whom I can trust among all the people around me who despise me.

“No, I was never okay.” But I would be strong for myself.

Everything is just hard for me. I don't know what to do anymore. Whenever I am with the people I love, I always do feel like I don't belong and I was only trying hard to fit in. My parents, they hate me. They are tying the knot so they can get rid of me.

“Why are you doing this, Faith?” Lily asked as I heard her blow out a heavy breath as she eyed the quiet sky as well.

Why am I doing this? That's the same question I have right now. Why am I letting them trample on me? Why am I letting them decide in the life that they do not even own?

“Because I love them,” I replied. My voice almost shattered but I managed to remain strong.

The wind circled to the two of us and I took that chance to feel its embrace. I closed my eyes softly and allowed the soft wind to hug me. As soon as I did, I felt a single tear escaping from my eyes. At that moment, I must have been crazy, but I feel like I felt Freya’s hug once again.

“When Freya died, I also died, Lily. I died with her,” I uttered as I opened my eyes. I failed to refrain myself from crying while holding the bouquet of flowers for my wedding. I couldn't help but burst into tears.

Freya is the only one I have, and yet her life was taken from above. She was the only one I have in our house who never failed to take my side and defend me. Now that she's gone, it feels empty, like I lost half of me.

“Freya, Elijah, you and Lucas…we used to be best of friends, right?” I chuckled bitterly.

We were all friends before the accident. Elijah was once benevolent towards me. He treated me like his girl best friend even though I wasn't able to confess and receive the same feelings I do have for him. However, ever since the accident happened, it seems like the friendship we have has vanished.

“Now, I am marrying Elijah.” Funny, isn't it? How fate plays with the four of us.

“What happened to this?” She asked randomly. When I glanced at where she was looking, I found her staring at the bruise that was made by Elijah last night.

“I was just clumsy,” I replied, concealing the truth.

Lily heavily sighed. “If you need me, I will be there for you even if you're married or not, Faith.”

She smiled softly at me as she shed the tears on my face and held my hands.

“You are the most beautiful bride that I have ever seen,” she uttered. “I want you to know that I do not blame you for Freya's death. You didn't do anything wrong, Faith. Always remember that.”

She gave me a light hug as she left me with those words from her. Right after that, we headed to the cathedral where the wedding will happen.

Everyone was inside, while I was already facing the two doors made of wood. I was holding the bouquet of flowers tightly while I was waiting for the door to finally open and see all their faces.

I wonder if Freya could see us. Is she mad at me for marrying the man he loves? If she does, I hope she understands that I never like this to happen. I never wanted to marry Elijah even if I like him.

“Ready?” The wedding organizer asked as they were about to open the door.

I simply nodded as I heaved a heavy sigh. I waited as they opened the doors. The music invaded me and filled both of my ears as I was revealed to all of them. I froze for a moment as I stared at all of them who were looking at me.

I began to take my steps, accepting my own cruel fate. I have no idea what would happen to me and where this fate would take me. But then, I'm accepting it. I'm accepting it with my wounded heart.

At the end of the aisle, I saw the man that I will marry today, Elijah Luciero. He wasn't happy and his eyes were swollen. He wasn't looking at me with love but with rage. For a moment, I felt like I am not marrying the boy best friend that I used to have. It felt like I am marrying a total stranger that I completely don't know.

A tear fell from my eyes while I was walking. I glanced at my mother who was watching me walk with her cold eyes along with my father. Almost all the people I love who were here weren't happy for me. They all look at me like I deserve this.

Freya, if you can see and hear me, do you hate me as well? Do you blame me for your death, too? If you do, I hope you can forgive me.

I hope this marriage will heal the hearts of the people I hurt. I hope they can forgive me soon.

I stopped in front of Elijah. He offered his hand to me and I quickly held it as we both went in front of the priest. The wedding ceremony began, tying the knot between us.

“Do you accept Elijah Gray Luciero to be your husband?” The priest asked me.

Silence invaded me for a few seconds while I was directly looking at him. I was hesitant to agree and accept my fate to be his wife. That moment, I felt like I was in peril.

“I do, father.” I answered.

“Do you accept Faith Kristen Flamera as your wife?” The priest now asked Elijah. We were both eyeing each other while he was holding both of my hands.

I saw how his jaw clenched, and I knew that it was the hardest for him to say those two words.

“I do,” he said firmly with his blank eyes glued at me.

“I now declare you as husband and wife. You may now kiss the bride,” he announced loudly.

He leaned towards me for a while.

“Are you ready, Faith? Are you ready to experience the wrath of your husband?”

I crumpled my hands and tried my best to hold back all my tears. He glanced closely at me before he sealed the wedding officially.

The moment he invaded my lips in front of everyone who was there, Elijah Luciero tied the knot between us.

I accepted the fate that is meant for me.

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