"Be strong even when your bones feel like they cannot carry the weight of your soul." [Jacqueline]
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[Jacqueline's Pov]
After Rohan's weird words, Mrs. Reina found me and she took me to the principal's office, requesting a half-day for me given my knee as well as elbow wounds. And for that I was thankful. She even helped me to hail an auto-rickshaw for home. She was too kind.
The moment I returned, I found my parents fighting. Again. I looked through the window as daddy slapped her twice resulting in her falling on the cemented floor. Her clothes were disheveled while her eyes filled with tears.
Without my permission, my feet took me over to them and I found myself standing in front of my father. I looked up to his 5'7 form.
"Please Stop Daddy. Don't hit her." The moment my words ended, one slap landed on my jaw and I staggered back.
Another slap landed
"Self-harm is not a disease. It's a spell that is cast on us in the weakest moments." [Jacqueline]....[Jacqueline's pov]Sometimes I love that time passes. That it won't stop for anyone. Because sometimes getting through a night alive is the most audacious thing. Like last night I felt the need to just kill myself. The need to remove the pain of these sufferings. Is death that horrible? Or is it because people have never been able to get through the real hidden secret of it that they blubber against deaths. Have you ever felt that? The feeling of just get the day over. So you won't have to stay in the same place that is hurting you? Huh. What I am even asking, everyone, does feels that. Not just sometimes. But various times.After I returned home, I found Daddy hitting Mummy again. Her cries in agony pierced my heart. Her tears doing nothing just shattering my he
"A day will come when you will realize that not killing yourself is the best feeling in the world because you will realize there is much more in life than the sadness that surrounded you the time you tried to suicide."[Ifveen]..."Sorry?""I was angry" huh. My eyes sharpened reading the text, why was he angry? Just because I declined to send him a picture. Who does he think he is! How can he hurt me and then go back to like it was nothing? As if.'But he saved you today Jacqueline! Otherwise, you might be dead, instead of seeing yourself here.''You could end this in a second Jacqueline. This weird friendship if you want to.''But would you like that? To end your first friendship this miserably? It wasn't like you didn't say anything to him. You did. You have trust issues, Jacqueline. You have insecurities, so you can't force your explanation on him.What if he just wanted to see you?What if he didn't have any
"Your pain isn't just painful prose. It's a novel. So fight those battles and slay." [Jacqueline]..."Jacqueline's Pov:"There was no sound of birds chirping, just the sound of man-made vehicles moving, colliding people or vehicles, the chattering voice of my bus mates, and chaos.My eyes took in the environment around me and then focussed on the phone again. I was doing this for five minutes, just taking everything in that was happening around me.Remo's last text was,"Stop ignoring me Jacqueline Please. I am going to pray for you."The feeling of emptiness was getting killed by the feeling of flattering. 'Someone can pray for me.''A stranger can pray for me.''Someone does worry about me.'I am not lonely, someone does care about me enough to pray for me
"Don't pour your heart in the people who don't even have any idea how to take care of it!"[Jacqueline]....[Jacqueline's POV]:I pinched myself hard on my wrist."Did he just apologized to me?"'Or am I dreaming?''No. No. He can not apologize to me. It must be a dream.'"What's wrong with you Jaan? Did you forgot to have your medicines today?"He smiles. A weird smile that gave me a creepy feeling. One you get when you hear a sound in darkness and you assume it's a ghost."There's nothing wrong with me. And what medicine are you talking about? I don't take any medicine. Fuck. I barely have medicines in fever." He groans in frustration and runs a hand through his black hair that he seemed to had dyed with brown. Gross.
"Love yourself, Like the clouds love rain, love yourself like the moon loves the sky. Or just find the version of how you love people and then shower that same love upon yourself because you are a person too.".....Jacqueline's POV:As I opened my eyes and looked around the white walls of the room made me feel depressed, I found three other girls sleeping on the beds that were placed corresponding to mine with white sheets covering up to their chin. I wasn't sure how long I must have been sleeping here. There seems to be very little light coming from outside. While the room was illuminated by the bluish fluorescent light. The windows were covered with thick heavy blue curtains.'Why am I here?'It suddenly dawned on me that I had blacked out when Jaan was talking to me, or rather when he was harassing me."That stupid jerk." I clenched my hands and wiggled them from the side but immediately
"We all are travelers in each other's lives with our kindness. Take care of those people with this kindness, for them, it will be the most beautiful thing you could do, and they will hold onto you and you will be able to make your life heaven. The most beautiful destination for anyone.....[Remo's Pov]Her enchanting dark black eyes took in my form, from head to toe for a few seconds, and then met mine. I sucked in a breath of air, her eyes seemed to be glimmering with stars holding in the black ink universe. While her body seems to be lit with artificial lights in the grey school uniform. A second later her pupils dilated as she looked away.'Why?''I could guess.'The tears at the corner of her eyes were proof that something must
"Sometimes you don't see the people who accept you for what you are. But you notice the people who don't. Sometimes you want love from those people who will never accept you for what you are. That's what toxic love is. And it always results in destruction." [Jacqueline]....Jacqueline's POV:I knew I shouldn't have let him intervene with his fingers. I knew it was a dangerous step considering how he had already taken my first kiss. But desperation led me to it.My Sister always warned me,"Boys are bad news. All they want is their hormones satiated. We should stay away from them far away."
"For Him, I altered my behavior, For her, he reduced the punishment. However, Together they were still lethal." [Writer] ....... The Sky was the loveliest shade of yellow, and there were no clouds. As if The sunlight wanted to make me faint. Few kids have now focused their attention on us. While few were still busy eating their food without a care in the world. He was Quite loud in yelling a single syllable 'You' but I felt the intensity of his tone. The trembling in my hands didn't go unnoticed by me. My headache was getting worse while my neck was burned by craning it so much. "I. I. I am. I am." I tried to apologize as I walked a little backward to maintain distance between us without actually turning.
"Life is a series of unfortunate incidents, so don't always wallow in life's unfairness. Instead, do something even if it's little." [Author][Jacqueline]Jacqueline: You can be.Remo: Jacqueline Please, if you don't want to be my friend. Just say so. You don't have to force me to become your brother.Jacqueline: I think you are overreacting. Why can't you be my brother?Remo: Because God already gave me one sister. I don't want more.There was a reason I was calling him brother again and again. It was because I wanted to irritate him. Though our future was still uncertain since I didn't know if I could forget his words or not.Jacqueline: Okay. Fine. Good night.Remo: Good Night.I didn't send another message to him and left our conversation at that. After all, I was a mere time past. Why should I try to be more than that? Switching off the phone, and the lights. I went to sleep.But the noise of my parent's fight didn't let me sleep. I walked down and saw mommy on top of daddy as sh
Dear Readers, In the last few chapters, I made a mistake and Nina and Tina's names were swapped. I apologize for that, please remember wherever you see Tina behaving nicely with Jacqueline, that just means it's her friend Nina, not that bully Tina. Hope you have a good time reading it. If you like the chapter, don't forget to leave a review.Your author,Ifveen"There will be a beautiful time, and then there will be hard times, people, places, and feelings, and your way of dealing with them will change, but what won't change is how you feel. So always stay true to yourself and others." [Jacqueline] Jacqueline:Jacqueline: It's Okay. Please don't do this again. Also, I wanted to ask you what you meant about you talking to me as a time-Pass. Am I a time-pass to you?I sent another text to him, just to clear my misunderstanding or maybe if I was understanding it right.'I mean, who in their right mind would want me?' I rolled my neck and flung my hair to the side. My heart pounded in m
"Forgiving a person, who is not at all apologetic is good for yourself. But giving the same person a chance to hurt you again, is the worst thing you will do to yourself." [Jacqueline]*******[Jacqueline]It's been Four days since I and Remo talked, he didn't send me any messages, nor did I. His words, even though he didn't say them, were still ringing in my ears. It was a feeling I didn't want to feel again. Though I did have thought about his words and concluded that he was just being brutally honest with me. And it wasn't like he said it because he wanted to hurt me, it was me who pushed him to answer me like that. "Hey who are you dreaming about?"Rohan questioned me, with furrowed brows. He had been missing school for a few days. It was a surprise for him to come to school today. I didn't think he would come today. Now that I looked at him, he looked rather haggard. "No one, you tell me where have you been these past days?" I questioned him back. His fingers are drumming on
There was no future of mine with them, my paternal cousins, yet I loved them with all my heart. They were bad most of the time in all of the memories we had. There was this once when the same girl who Remo identified as I used her foot to make me fall from three feet high stairs. I remember it very vividly, I think we were playing run and catch. Where she had to catch one of us, between me and my sister. And since it was her second time as the one to catch someone. She was angry to the point she pushed me down. Of course, the damage wasn't that great. I got wounded on my knees and elbows since the place where I fell was an area of small stones.Mom at that time wasn't depressed. So she raised a question against my paternal aunt and demanded that my cousin Jenny apologize to me. However, the arrogant aunt took it as a threat and made a drama out of nothing. First, she was adamant about how her daughter didn't push me, and I was lying which proved to be a wrong move. Since the people in
Jacqueline: "Well, I thought you don't want to talk to me, since you never replied to my apology."Remo: "What are you talking about? I forgot about it a long time ago."Jacqueline: "Then maybe you could have texted me."Remo: "I assumed that you were busy, so I didn't."Jacqueline: "Oh, okay. I get it."There was a strange pause in my breathing, I did not know why I felt like he didn't miss me. Because if he would have, he would have texted me. Without giving it much thought, I asked him directly."So, Did you miss me?""Nope."His response saddened me to the point I asked myself if I even meant something to him. Or was I just a time pass? 'You are thinking too much Jacqueline, it's just your insecurities playing with you.' My reasonable side gave me a reason that I did feel somewhat acceptable. So instead of telling him how I am feeling. I asked him a single question just to kill my curiosity. Jacqueline: "Why?"Remo: "Well, I was pretty busy."Jacqueline: "Oh. Okay. I understand.
"Don't make one person; Your everything. Instead invest in your goals, dreams." [Jacqueline]********[Jacqueline]Sweat was ticking down my back. The nervousness I felt today was like pressing me to dig a hole in the ground and hide in it. Finally, I heard the title track play out. We were lined up just behind the curtains all dolled up on our stance. Our dance teacher was a complete sucker for this show and so she was instructing us to perform well from the last fifteen minutes. It was a big day for her, and I thought it would be a big day for me as well. After all, this would be the first performance of my life. I never did anything that involved stage.Of course, I had my insecurities about messing it all up but t
"A Bad guy with trust issues, will love you more." [Remo] [Rohan] The day was finally here. Today was the massive annual function day. And I was looking forward to dancing with Jacqueline. After those gruesome practice sessions where she practically pressed my ankle with her weight millions of times before learning the right step. I was her counselor for days and I should not have been thinking about her; there should be rules against that kind of thought. I believe. But I still did. She was stripping in my dreams and gyrating to a dirty song, eliciting emotions even more than I have. Our families would be attending the function, not that mine would be coming but many students were excited for the same reason. The Celebrations were bound to be grand considering the stage was well equipped and beautiful
"When your mental health isn't in the best state. Give yourself a break. And don't feel guilty about it."[Author] ******* Jacqueline: I felt bad for Tina. Like real bad! But I was sure she didn't need my empathy. I looked at her face once more, she looked terrible. Blood, blood, everywhere on her face. I could feel that her bleeding had not stopped despite her friends filling her nose with tissues. Her friends helped her up as they took her away shouting profanities in a much lower tone than I would have expected from them. Unexpectedly Rohan's head popped in front of me blocking my view of her back. I grabbed the corner of the table to balance myself. Hi
"You have to learn to be alone. Learn to do everything individually, people are going to leave you sooner or later anyway." [Jacky]*******[Jacqueline] It's been three days since Remo talked to me. Aside from sending me a two-word text, after my apology "it's okay" there was nothing. He didn't chat with me. Not even for once, he tried even though he was online most of the time. As if he specifically wanted to show me that he was online, he changed his display picture. I scrolled through his pictures like a souvenir, like trophies on the shelf. Watching as one by one his friends, beautiful girls commented on his pictures and he replied to each one of them nicely. I honestly had no idea what I should do. I wanted to talk to him but I didn't want to come out as a bother. I wanted to ask him if he was still angry, but I didn't know I should. 'Did I say something that touched his borderline?' Sometimes it was better for