"Sometimes you don't see the people who accept you for what you are. But you notice the people who don't. Sometimes you want love from those people who will never accept you for what you are. That's what toxic love is. And it always results in destruction." [Jacqueline]
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Jacqueline's POV:
I knew I shouldn't have let him intervene with his fingers. I knew it was a dangerous step considering how he had already taken my first kiss. But desperation led me to it.
My Sister always warned me,
"Boys are bad news. All they want is their hormones satiated. We should stay away from them far away."
Dear Reader, Don't forget to comment on what you think Rohan will now do to Jacqueline who is wasting his first-time kindness?
"For Him, I altered my behavior, For her, he reduced the punishment. However, Together they were still lethal." [Writer] ....... The Sky was the loveliest shade of yellow, and there were no clouds. As if The sunlight wanted to make me faint. Few kids have now focused their attention on us. While few were still busy eating their food without a care in the world. He was Quite loud in yelling a single syllable 'You' but I felt the intensity of his tone. The trembling in my hands didn't go unnoticed by me. My headache was getting worse while my neck was burned by craning it so much. "I. I. I am. I am." I tried to apologize as I walked a little backward to maintain distance between us without actually turning.
"Sometimes you need to attach your heart to the things that make you happy, so you may realize that everything that makes you happy isn't good for you." [Jacqueline] ......... [Jacqueline's Pov] Or I was getting controlled by someone else's soul. I didn't understand how he could always bring out the revengeful side in me. But it wasn't the time to think about it because Rohan's eyes had started to fill with killing intent. Everything around us has turned quiet. So quiet that even I could hear his harsh breathing. A pin-drop silence ensued. I kept my eyes glued to his pale cheeks that were now stained with white vanilla ice cream. I would have laughed at it if I wasn't the one who had rubbed his face with it. I knew he would not leave me after what I have done. His face contorted into a distortion. His black eyes seemed to be lit up
"If the hurt comes, so will the happiness. So don't ever lose hope." [Jacqueline].....[Jacqueline's POV]I stared at him stunned. His words were spoken with so much determination that I felt the intensity of his emotions behind the words. His eyes were throwing daggers at me. I had never explained this much to anyone. Neither did I ever warn anyone. It wasn't me. What's wrong with me? Now I seem to have made another enemy? I should have stuck to my mantras of channeling my emotions with a behavioral alteration. I shouldn't have yelled it aloud. I shouldn't have screamed myself hoarse. I glanced down at myself feeling heavily embarrassed, my white kurta had a shoe print on them, a gift from His best friend. My clothes were drenched in sweat. I was on the verge of crying. A mess. A total mess. I was bu
"Kindness is crying with someone who is crying and smiling with someone who is smiling. Kindness is being there for the person." [Jacqueline's Pov] I felt a hand on my shoulders. My sister. I turned towards her, smiled, and turned back again towards the window. Children were playing hide and seek. Every kid was trying their best to hide themselves and I felt resonated with it. Isn't my life the same as the game of hiding and seeking? I heard my sister saying, "What's wrong Jacqueline?" My brain replied, "Nothing." I saw her standing numb behind me listening to my reply as if speechless. "Your eyes are red." She sat beside me uttering those words. "I accidentally touched it with
"Close your eyes and think with your heart. How many advantages you forgot just because of few disadvantages." [Remo][Third Person's POV]:Jacqueline's one eye filled with tears and the other leaked with salty lotion."I am fine Now. Thank you."Remo frown at her formal answer, he thought they were past that formal stage. His fingers pressing on the words rapidly as he sends her another text in few seconds.Despite her puffy eyes, she smiles as another message pops up on the screen."Don't you trust me, Jacqueline?""I do.""Then why don't you want to share your pain with me? What could I even make use of it Hon? I just want to know. You know. And I heard that sharing the pain can reduce the effect it has on the mind. Don't you think I deserve to know? Even a little bit about you?"She takes the tissue from the table blowing her nose, looking more like a terrible honk, a goose."A New Student arrived
"You can't see people's struggle, Be kind to every mind. So that when they rewind they only find moments of happiness behind them. Don't ever be blind to someone's tortures. Maybe it will also be better for our mankind." [Author] ....... [Jacqueline's POV] I wait with a watchful eye staring at my phone. For some reason, It doesn't ping. Looks like he had other issues to attend to. Of course, he had, it's not like I am paying him to talk to me. After pacing back and forth across the room. I give up and focus on my diary. I needed to add colors to it. I needed to depict his beautiful smile. I needed to make sure his hair was blowing in the wind. Maybe I can add a little sing-song poem for him too since he is so m
Make sure you know your process of healing. And you love it." [Jacqueline] …….. 'Gosh! What's wrong with me? Did I just hug him?' The chattering of people made me realize we were having an audience who were now gawking at us or just me. My cheeks turned redder and I glanced up awkwardly to gauge his reaction. He didn't seem angry at all, instead, he just gave me his signature smile. A smile that creeped me out. Because hugging a boy was wrong to do so. I backed up. At that instant, I looked him up and down. Noticing his white shirt was now colored in red. Even his grey pants had few red stains on them. The most glaring stain was that my palms had his black snake-like eyes narrowed at me. It seemed that he wasn't happy because I left him. 'Fuck what I am thinking? Why would he be sad? I have just ruined
"Be your own beautiful, even when others tried to define you by their standards." [Jacqueline].......[Jacqueline's POV]I looked back at the crowd who were looking at us and whispering with each other. I heard a girl whose face was covered with thick makeup, say excitedly to her friend, "Does Nina know this fatty?""It seems like that." The other teenager who was standing with her on the oval-shaped girl said to her. I focussed on Rohan again. His cheeks were slightly hot, he looked down and pointed at me and said something to Nina. As soon as she heard him. she scoffed at him and glanced back at me. She walked towards me with a kind smile although he tried to grab her hand she shook him away. She seems to be walking towards me. This seemed odd. I glanced back at Rohan and noticed his cheeks seemed a little red and it wasn't because of the red paint. He seems blushing.What do they want to do? Nina is Rohan's best friend. She even had kicked me in the canteen
"Life is a series of unfortunate incidents, so don't always wallow in life's unfairness. Instead, do something even if it's little." [Author][Jacqueline]Jacqueline: You can be.Remo: Jacqueline Please, if you don't want to be my friend. Just say so. You don't have to force me to become your brother.Jacqueline: I think you are overreacting. Why can't you be my brother?Remo: Because God already gave me one sister. I don't want more.There was a reason I was calling him brother again and again. It was because I wanted to irritate him. Though our future was still uncertain since I didn't know if I could forget his words or not.Jacqueline: Okay. Fine. Good night.Remo: Good Night.I didn't send another message to him and left our conversation at that. After all, I was a mere time past. Why should I try to be more than that? Switching off the phone, and the lights. I went to sleep.But the noise of my parent's fight didn't let me sleep. I walked down and saw mommy on top of daddy as sh
Dear Readers, In the last few chapters, I made a mistake and Nina and Tina's names were swapped. I apologize for that, please remember wherever you see Tina behaving nicely with Jacqueline, that just means it's her friend Nina, not that bully Tina. Hope you have a good time reading it. If you like the chapter, don't forget to leave a review.Your author,Ifveen"There will be a beautiful time, and then there will be hard times, people, places, and feelings, and your way of dealing with them will change, but what won't change is how you feel. So always stay true to yourself and others." [Jacqueline] Jacqueline:Jacqueline: It's Okay. Please don't do this again. Also, I wanted to ask you what you meant about you talking to me as a time-Pass. Am I a time-pass to you?I sent another text to him, just to clear my misunderstanding or maybe if I was understanding it right.'I mean, who in their right mind would want me?' I rolled my neck and flung my hair to the side. My heart pounded in m
"Forgiving a person, who is not at all apologetic is good for yourself. But giving the same person a chance to hurt you again, is the worst thing you will do to yourself." [Jacqueline]*******[Jacqueline]It's been Four days since I and Remo talked, he didn't send me any messages, nor did I. His words, even though he didn't say them, were still ringing in my ears. It was a feeling I didn't want to feel again. Though I did have thought about his words and concluded that he was just being brutally honest with me. And it wasn't like he said it because he wanted to hurt me, it was me who pushed him to answer me like that. "Hey who are you dreaming about?"Rohan questioned me, with furrowed brows. He had been missing school for a few days. It was a surprise for him to come to school today. I didn't think he would come today. Now that I looked at him, he looked rather haggard. "No one, you tell me where have you been these past days?" I questioned him back. His fingers are drumming on
There was no future of mine with them, my paternal cousins, yet I loved them with all my heart. They were bad most of the time in all of the memories we had. There was this once when the same girl who Remo identified as I used her foot to make me fall from three feet high stairs. I remember it very vividly, I think we were playing run and catch. Where she had to catch one of us, between me and my sister. And since it was her second time as the one to catch someone. She was angry to the point she pushed me down. Of course, the damage wasn't that great. I got wounded on my knees and elbows since the place where I fell was an area of small stones.Mom at that time wasn't depressed. So she raised a question against my paternal aunt and demanded that my cousin Jenny apologize to me. However, the arrogant aunt took it as a threat and made a drama out of nothing. First, she was adamant about how her daughter didn't push me, and I was lying which proved to be a wrong move. Since the people in
Jacqueline: "Well, I thought you don't want to talk to me, since you never replied to my apology."Remo: "What are you talking about? I forgot about it a long time ago."Jacqueline: "Then maybe you could have texted me."Remo: "I assumed that you were busy, so I didn't."Jacqueline: "Oh, okay. I get it."There was a strange pause in my breathing, I did not know why I felt like he didn't miss me. Because if he would have, he would have texted me. Without giving it much thought, I asked him directly."So, Did you miss me?""Nope."His response saddened me to the point I asked myself if I even meant something to him. Or was I just a time pass? 'You are thinking too much Jacqueline, it's just your insecurities playing with you.' My reasonable side gave me a reason that I did feel somewhat acceptable. So instead of telling him how I am feeling. I asked him a single question just to kill my curiosity. Jacqueline: "Why?"Remo: "Well, I was pretty busy."Jacqueline: "Oh. Okay. I understand.
"Don't make one person; Your everything. Instead invest in your goals, dreams." [Jacqueline]********[Jacqueline]Sweat was ticking down my back. The nervousness I felt today was like pressing me to dig a hole in the ground and hide in it. Finally, I heard the title track play out. We were lined up just behind the curtains all dolled up on our stance. Our dance teacher was a complete sucker for this show and so she was instructing us to perform well from the last fifteen minutes. It was a big day for her, and I thought it would be a big day for me as well. After all, this would be the first performance of my life. I never did anything that involved stage.Of course, I had my insecurities about messing it all up but t
"A Bad guy with trust issues, will love you more." [Remo] [Rohan] The day was finally here. Today was the massive annual function day. And I was looking forward to dancing with Jacqueline. After those gruesome practice sessions where she practically pressed my ankle with her weight millions of times before learning the right step. I was her counselor for days and I should not have been thinking about her; there should be rules against that kind of thought. I believe. But I still did. She was stripping in my dreams and gyrating to a dirty song, eliciting emotions even more than I have. Our families would be attending the function, not that mine would be coming but many students were excited for the same reason. The Celebrations were bound to be grand considering the stage was well equipped and beautiful
"When your mental health isn't in the best state. Give yourself a break. And don't feel guilty about it."[Author] ******* Jacqueline: I felt bad for Tina. Like real bad! But I was sure she didn't need my empathy. I looked at her face once more, she looked terrible. Blood, blood, everywhere on her face. I could feel that her bleeding had not stopped despite her friends filling her nose with tissues. Her friends helped her up as they took her away shouting profanities in a much lower tone than I would have expected from them. Unexpectedly Rohan's head popped in front of me blocking my view of her back. I grabbed the corner of the table to balance myself. Hi
"You have to learn to be alone. Learn to do everything individually, people are going to leave you sooner or later anyway." [Jacky]*******[Jacqueline] It's been three days since Remo talked to me. Aside from sending me a two-word text, after my apology "it's okay" there was nothing. He didn't chat with me. Not even for once, he tried even though he was online most of the time. As if he specifically wanted to show me that he was online, he changed his display picture. I scrolled through his pictures like a souvenir, like trophies on the shelf. Watching as one by one his friends, beautiful girls commented on his pictures and he replied to each one of them nicely. I honestly had no idea what I should do. I wanted to talk to him but I didn't want to come out as a bother. I wanted to ask him if he was still angry, but I didn't know I should. 'Did I say something that touched his borderline?' Sometimes it was better for