It has been a week, and I have heard nothing from Serena. I had thought she would message, but she didn't. I paid like a good little pup on time and the full amount.
Still, nothing. I'm not sure what else to do? Rooster says slow, Mel is telling me to run for it, and taunt her. Taunting is fun. Yet, Rooster is right. If I continue to taunt Serena and she is broken, it will drive her away.
"Diesel." I look up and see Rooster.
"Hey, everything good?"
"No idea! Jessie has a job but won't tell me shit! I tried following her but I lost her."
"You sure she isn't lying?" It wouldn't be a first for Jessie.
"I'm sure. I know you don't want to but can you talk to her? She won't tell me Diesel, and I am hoping she tells you."
Oh great, I stare at him.
"Are you fucking crazy? This week has been silent! Not once as she tried stripping around me." I laugh.
If I contact her it starts all over again!
"Okay, forget it!" I watch as
I sit annoyed at myself for letting it happen. More that I did, I was the one who leaned forward and kissed him.I'm even more annoyed at myself that I then freaked out and shouted at him, which makes me look like some crazy woman. I need to keep my distance from Diesel, I have no idea what he is trying to gain or wanting to gain from me.He wouldn't be the first man to proposition me since my dad died, and most of them just wanted in and to gain power. To lose their debt and forever have immunity. None of them actually wanted to be with me. Sure, they liked that it meant they got to share a bed with me, but not one took their time to find out who I am.No, they went straight to business talk, asking about things they had no rights to. They tried to find out information from my point of what they would do if I was to accept their proposal of marriage.I can't let just any man in, I would rather marry someone who I hated and wouldn't have a relationship wi
I watch amazed, while some people see Serena as weak and nothing more than a woman. So many respect her. So many follow her rules and see her as a woman of power.A woman. Those words scold me.I'm not a woman, not to Diesel. I am seen as a child. So maybe if I follow Serena's lead, that will change?Okay, so coming to Serena was partly because I knew she got into Diesel's head. So, if I spend time with her, surely, I will learn how she did it?She made Diesel want her. Not want, crave, and need. I hadn't seen Diesel that affected by a woman before. All my efforts were thrown in the trash.His words are still in my mind. Selfish, whore, child. I tried space, I tried to be cute, I tried to act badass. I tried to pursue him by stripping. Nothing works!I keep telling myself that maybe I am wrong, but if I was wrong and he really doesn't like me, why would almost fuck me twice? Somewhere in his mind, he likes me.That makes me think of m
I woke to a headache; I drank too much last night, but it was a fun night.The way Diesel is and everything he said to Jessie made it sound like she is childish. She isn't. I could tell that last night.She is wild and crazy, sure, but not childish. I guess her wild and crazy side just comes across as that to him.It was a good night, she spoke a lot about Diesel, and it gave an insight into him that I didn't know. To her, Diesel is a man who is looking for love but has a dark past that no one knows.She has no idea I know the guy she means is Diesel. Yet, she wouldn't mention his past, which has me wondering just who Diesel is?She told me he never does serious relationships. Just fucks random women for fun and a release.Everything she said has me wondering if he pushes Jessie away through fear? Then uses the excuse he sees her as his little sister? He tried getting me into bed using his charm and directness.Is that also a cover? D
I storm out of the building, my body shaking.I'm more than hurt by her words. Everything she said is wrong, she assumes she knows the truth, but not many people do know the truth.Climbing onto the bike I kick it started and ride to the club. I need a drink, I walk straight through and grab a drink, before sitting opposite Rooster. His head instantly shakes and I know the look on his face."What did I say?" His words are harsh although I know he doesn't mean them to be. "I told you." He looks at me smugly, and all I can do is nod."It's nothing. What is the plan with Jessie?" I look at him waiting."No idea I can't find out anything it is like whoever she works for holds enough power for no one to say where she is working."I nod while considering it my eyes glancing up to him. "You don't think she would work somewhere stupid again do you?""No! Come on Diesel, you know Jessie." His words are loud yet there is doubt in th
I still can't believe what happened between me and Diesel. I hurt him, the words I said were cruel. sure he is a whore. The issue is I mentioned his past, I said he is punishing women because of his ex. I was wrong, I saw the pain. I saw the tears, I don't blame him for ignoring my apology. The knock pushes me from my thoughts. "yes" I call out and watch as Dwayne walks in. "Have you seen Jessie? She didn't come in today." "No, she had mentioned having today off, I'm guessing she decided to. It's her dad's birthday. She spoke to me last week. I told her she could have today off. She was reluctant." "Let me guess, she is still avoiding them as much as possible." He laughs and I nod. "Other than a quick check-in to say she's alive she doesn't see them. Seems she has realised that working and having her place, gives her freedom, she's no longer restricted by her dad and Diesel's rules." She has changed these past few weeks. Grown-up. "Yeah, but it didn't work. She's still going thro
I watch as she rushes past me. Grabbing my phone, I hit the number.“Anything?” I hear Rooster's worried voice.“No sight yet. Rooster, she has been working for Jessie!” I hear him swear, moving I walk to her desk. Maybe there is something here that will help me find her?“Don’t leave there without Jessie, whatever you had going on with Serena clearly fucking came at us!” He hangs up, I don’t blame him, I did something and Serena wanted revenge, is Jessie the revenge?I look at the screen, and as I go to close the file I stop seeing Serena’s name. I have two options. I search for something about Jessie and hope I get lucky, or I read this. Maybe there is something I can use to get Serena to tell me where Jessie is?Closing my eyes, I click the files, slowly flicking through the images I stop. It is the same picture of Serena I saw. The guy, the ring everything is the same. I keep scrolling, stopping at a picture, and my eyes widen.“Shit.” I know I should stop, fuck, this is too close
I walk back into my office and sit down. I freaked out, I saw that file open and my heart burst into flames. He had no right to look at it, even if it was his name! No, he didn’t. It is my personal stuff, and he just went straight ahead and opened the file and looked through it all.Even in my annoyance and anger for Diesel, I couldn’t just ignore Jessie. I saw the panic and worry in his eyes, I know she is missing. So I plan to do everything to get her back safe. Hell, I have every single person looking for her and helping in some way.I removed my own guards so that there would be more people to help. Foolish, especially Diesel mentioned Rooster is on his way. I just hope he can see past his own bullshit excuses and beliefs to see I wouldn’t ever hurt Jessie.My head falls forward onto the desk, I need today to end. I need a break. Glancing back up I look at the image, guilt, and sadness flood through me. Slowly I scroll through the photos my hand stopping as I see one.My dad and J
I stay quiet, just waiting. Then I hear him, the sound of his boots hitting the floor, he isn’t going slow. Moving, I glance to look up. My eyes met his. “Look, she has everyone searching, literally everyone Rooster, it isn’t her.” I hope, hell I can’t even say it and be confident. “Someone has her Diesel, and that is my little girl.” He stands glaring at me. I go to speak but he stops me. “Weird isn’t it? You get caught up with Serena, right around the same time Jessie goes awol, no one willing to tell us where she worked, where she lived nothing. Can you say with one hundred per cent confidence Serena has no idea where Jessie is, or what is happening?” He looks at me waiting. “I can tell you Rooster, I had a glimpse into Serena’s past, the truth, and I don’t think she is anything like her father.” “You didn’t answer, so you’re not sure, there is still some doubt left?” He looks at me waiting. We turn hearing the smashing, followed by Serena’s screams. Rooster looks at me confus
I gaze down into the crib, watching Lilly-Bell sleep, and a sense of peace washes over me. Seeing her brings a sense of healing as if parts of me have been rebuilt. Suddenly, I feel Diesel's arms wrap around my body, and I lean back against him, seeking comfort in his presence. His words, claiming me for the night, offer reassurance, but I can't shake off my fears that someone might try to harm her. Sensing my worry, Diesel continues speaking."She will be the most protected princess in the world," he assures me. "She has her guards around her, and Rooster is here."I know he's right, but the anxiety lingers. "But what if Rooster gets distracted or too busy with Lucas?" I voice my concerns, looking up at Diesel."Rooster has been a father far longer than us. Trust him," Diesel responds calmly. "Both babies will be asleep in here together. Just trust him, Serena, like you trust me, and I trust him."I feel the urge to argue, to come up with another plan to ensure Lilly-Bell's safety. M
Diesel walks away, leaving me alone with Rooster."I'm here to apologise," I begin, my voice filled with remorse. "I considered trying to save her from Jake, but I couldn't risk myself and the baby."Rooster looks at me, a mixture of surprise and concern on his face. "You have nothing to apologise for," he says, his voice sincere."To you, I do," I reply, my words filled with conviction. "You did nothing to hurt me, Rooster. Leaving your daughter in his hands could have put her life in danger. Diesel sees you as family, and I don't want anything to jeopardise that. I don't want to be the cause of any friction either."He listens attentively as I explain my reasoning. "Me and Diesel will never truly fall out, Serena. Despite everything, you did for Jessie, I am disappointed in her behaviour, but I am also ashamed of everything she has done. Right now, she hates me, and I can't blame her because I caused all of this."His words catch me off guard. "You are an amazing father, Rooster. Je
I lose my week doing everything that Serena usually would be doing. I don’t mind though, I know while I am out doing these things she is safe, away from anyone who may want to cause her to hurt.Dwayne has been at my side constantly, I guess to ensure everything goes to plan. I have no idea how Serena ran this city, who she knew, trusted, or who the troublemakers were. So having Dwayne there was a benefit as he could guide me when I was lost.This week I have seen those who respect Serena, and then I have seen the other side, the ones who were just waiting for a chance to make her fall or wait for someone to come take over. Many expressed to me how they knew she would fail and hand over the city eventually.They were shocked when I explained it was her city, she simply was recovering. They will learn not to try to make Serena sound weak around me.I find my week mostly explaining the situation to people, that Serena is healing and I am merely a stand-in. I keep it quiet that she is pr
I woke up to see a cast on my foot, Diesel sat beside me in bed, just staring at the wall."What happened?" I point to my foot, I can't remember going to a hospital."Dwayne got your doctor here. You seemed to sleep through everything. The baby is fine, here." He holds out the phone, a small video playing. I feel myself relax, the baby is fine, and that is all that I care about. "I'm sorry Diesel, for not telling you what was threatened. I thought I would be safe if you had known you wouldn't have left me alone." "This isn't your fault." How can she think it was?"Diesel, I should know not to pass it off as nothing. I watched my father lock this place down when there were threats. I just didn't want to lose our weekend together.""Let's leave it for now. Concentrate on getting better, that is all that is important right now. I have a replacement at my garage so I don't need to leave your side." "I need to get things sorted Diesel, yesterday, everything. I can't just leave everythin
The last few hours have been awful, Jake keeps hitting me because I refuse to leave Diesel and marry him. Maybe if I agreed I would be okay, but I can't. I can see Jessie is shocked, she didn't expect this, but it is her fault. She went along with him, all because he promised I would be gone and she would get Diesel. I don't even try and plead or beg him as I know from the past that won't work. Instead, I sit quietly, taking the hits when he gives them and acting like it is nothing. He seems to be getting more frustrated, his phone vibrating constantly."He is on the warpath!" He screams at Jessie. "You said he wouldn't, what the hell?" He turns back to me, and I get ready for the next hit but his phone vibrates again."He's taking over the city, fewer people are willing to stay quiet now." He turns to Jessie and hits her. "I thought he would just give up! I didn't know at that point she was pregnant!" She looks at me and then at him. "I'm getting a drink." I watch as he walks out
Waking, I move carefully trying not to wake her. The room now beginning to get chilly. I was meant to refill the alcove with wood. Grabbing my jacket I walk out and begin to gather more wood. The only downfall to this place, the fire needs wood constantly or it dies and the cold builds. Other than that though it is perfect. The silence and only sounds of wild animals can be heard. We needed this weekend, I learnt more about Serena, but I also learnt more about me, things I didn't know.I can't help but smile and feel happy, all I want now is peace, but I know peace for us will never happen, or if it does, it won't last long. Serena has the city, and nothing will make her give that up, not even a peaceful life with me. It is something I need to learn to live with.Walking back in I see the sofa empty, placing the wood on the alcove I call out to Jess, stopping as I see the backdoor open slightly, my eyes glance down and see her shoe. Panic builds as I rush out, calling her name but
I find myself trying to distract myself from everything. Diesel has messaged and said he will pick me up tomorrow. Apparently, he is giving me space until then.So, that means no Diesel tonight, which feels weird, we have spent every night together since we slept together almost. He is right though, we need a break from each other.We're the cause, the reason we fight so much. I use the time to work and plan what I want to say as I know if I don't nothing will get solved. After finishing work I go home, and just hide away. Trying not to think about the mess that no doubt is waiting for us.If Jessie is pregnant and Diesel is the dad, then what? Part of me hopes it is a lie, just so I can relax and know he isn't. How will it work? Jessie seems crazy, and that isn't something I want around me. I somehow manage to fall asleep.Waking a message from Diesel tells me to pack a weekend bag. I guess that means we're not staying here? As I get ready, I glance at the ring on my finger. That fee
I collapse into the bed. Frustrated at Diesel and how he reacts. I understand though, he was hurt over and over by everyone he loved. So his reaction is to expect the worst from people.All I wanted was a day without the shit, but it has come just as quickly as the morning sun rises. Part of me wants to hide away in here, just pretend the world doesn't exist.Actually, I feel like screaming and killing Diesel, he is so blinded by his own past, his own pain and fears he hasn't even realised or thought how I feel.Jake is still out there. Fear burns through me and has since the moment I thought I could be pregnant. Every day the past is on replay, and with how volatile Diesel is, I am afraid of the ending.Sure he wouldn't hurt me on purpose, but I have seen how quickly he loses control, how angry he gets and forgets to get all the information. Like today.He just assumed it was Jessies, assumed that it meant I knew and kept it hidd
I walk away, knowing that she needs time to calm down, I have my own plan this week and Jessie and her announcement have messed it up.Yet now I feel like I need to do it sooner rather than later. I reach into my pocket feeling the box, knowing that I will do it, tonight.I just need to figure out the situation with Jessie first. Getting to Roosters I walk in, his head turns and he looks towards me."Didn't expect you so soon, only just saw you." He laughs and holds out a glass."You don't know, do you?" Hell if he doesn't know it is likely to be a lie."What now, seriously can I not have one fucking day?" He looks at me stressed and I wish I could take away the stress but I am just about to add to it."Jessie showed up this morning at the garage." I watch as he rolls his eyes at my words, going to speak I put my hand up. "Not to try and fuck me Rooster, she is pregnant.""She can't have a fucking baby! She can't even look