Pamela's Point of View
The weekend arrives faster than I expected. My nerves twist and tighten as Rowan’s sleek black car pulls into the driveway of a grand estate—larger than even his own mansion. The looming facade is more than intimidating; it’s overwhelming. It feels like I’m about to step into the lion’s den.
My hands are clenched tightly in my lap, knuckles white against the soft fabric of the pale blue dress that had been laid out for me this morning. The dress is beautiful, perfectly tailored, but it feels like armor for a battle to which I am ill prepared.
Sitting beside me, Rowan is impeccably attired in a fitted charcoal suit that accentuates sharp angles and exudes an aura of quiet command. He hasn't uttered a word so far during the ride; his gaze is out the window, lost in thought or perhaps he is just pointedly ignoring me. The tension between us is palpable, a silent war waged with stony glares and curt exchanges since I signed that damned contract.
The car smoothes to a stop in front of the grand entrance, and finally, Rowan turns to me, his eyes scanning me from head to toe with a critical eye.
"Remember what we discussed," he says coolly, with command. “You're to be on your best behavior and play your part convincingly. My family is expecting perfection.”
I swallow hard, trying not to roll my eyes. "Don't you worry, I won't embarrass you," I said, trying to hold in any sarcasm, though a little came out anyway.
His eyes take on a hard edge, but before he can say anything, the driver opens his door and a flood of cool evening air breezes in. Rowan exits the car with fluid ease, turning back to reach a hand into the car toward me. I falter for a moment before threading my shaking hand into his, letting him assist me out of the car.
The double doors of the mansion swing open, revealing a richly decorated foyer with crystal chandeliers and marble floors that glitter under the soft light. A butler stands at attention, his posture rigidly formal.
"Welcome home, Mr. Hamilton," he says with a slight bow. His eyes flicker to me briefly, a flash of curiosity in their depths before his professional mask slips back into place.
"Thank you, James," Rowan says shortly before turning to me. "This is Pamela Jones, my fiancée. See that her things are taken to my quarters."
My heart skips a beat as he utters the words. His quarters? I begin to protest, my mouth opening before the warning gleam in Rowan's eyes seals it shut again. This is all about the show, I remind myself. Just play along.
James nods efficiently. "Very well, sir. Dinner will be served in thirty minutes."
Rowan offers me his arm, and I take it reluctantly as he leads me through the opulent hallways toward what I can only assume is the dining room. My heels click against the polished floor, echoing the rapid beat of my heart as nerves swirl in my stomach.
We approach the large, elegantly ornamented double doors leading into the dining hall. I hear a murmur of voices-intermittent soft laughter and clinking glasses. As we reach the door, Rowan pauses for just a moment, turned to me with a stern expression.
"Remember," he orders softly but firm, "smile and be polite. They will be judging you from the very moment you step inside.”
I nod mutely, forcing a small smile onto my lips despite the anxiety that gnaws at me. With that, Rowan pushes the doors open, revealing a grand dining room bathed in the warm glow of candlelight.
Seated at the long mahogany table are four people who all turn their heads toward us as we enter. An elderly couple sits at one end, their faces lighting up with welcoming smiles. To their right is a statuesque woman with sharp features and impeccably coiffed hair, her eyes slanting as they light on me. On her left is a young woman about my age, her posture casual but her eyes sparkling playfully as she takes me in.
Rowan leads me closer, his hand now resting possessively on the small of my back. He clears his throat, drawing everyone's full attention to us.
"Everybody, I present Pamela Jones, my fiancée," he tells them all a bit pompously, it echoes in the room.
There is a moment of stunned silence and then the elderly woman springs to her feet with surprising agility. On approaching us, her face breaks into a warm, genuine smile.
"Oh, Rowan, this is wonderful news!" she exclaims, her eyes sparkling with joy. She reaches out to clasp my hands in hers, the touch soft and comforting. "Welcome to the family, dear. I'm Eleanor, Rowan's grandmother, but you can call me Grandma Ellie."
The kindness stuns me, and I find myself smiling back at her for real this time. "It's lovely to meet you, Grandma Ellie," I say softly.
"Come, come, let me introduce you to everyone," she says, guiding me toward the table. She points to the elderly man who has also risen from his seat-a gentle smile etched on his weathered face. "This is Harold, my husband and Rowan's grandfather."
His hand extends to me, his handshake firm but soft. "Welcome, Pamela. It is a pleasure. Any woman who can tame our Rowan is a welcome addition indeed."
I chuckle lightly, some of my nerves dissipating under their warm reception. "I'm not sure about taming, but I'm happy to be here.”
Just then, the sharp-featured woman rises from her chair, her eyes assessing me critically. She's smartly dressed, every strand of hair in its place, an aura of sophistication and control exuding from her.
"I'm Lillian Hamilton, Rowan's mother," she says, cool and measured. Her gaze moves over me, lingers a second too long on my plain dress before meeting my eyes again. "This is quite... unexpected."
I force a polite smile and extend my hand toward her. "It's a pleasure to meet you, Mrs. Hamilton."
She takes my hand briefly, the hold delicate, icy. "Likewise," she says, though her utterly lacked warmth told another story.
The younger woman does not rise, merely flashes a sly smile while watching the exchange. She finally stands, sauntering over with a casual grace.
“I'm Rebecca, Rowan's sister,” she says with sparkling eyes that seem to brim with inquisitiveness and with something else which completely escapes me. "Well, well, who would have thought my dear brother would suddenly settle down? Tell me, Pamela, where did you two meet?"
I glance briefly at Rowan, not knowing what story he has fabricated for our supposed romance. Before I can fumble for an answer, the calm and smooth Rowan steps in.
"We met at a charity event several months ago," he says smoothly, his arm wrapped around my waist. "It didn't take me long at all to figure out that she is the one."
Rebecca's eyebrows rise, a wicked tilt to her smile. "Is that so? I find that amusing. I don't recall seeing her at any of the events we attended."
Rowan's fingers tighten on my hip, a silent warning. "Then you must have overlooked her," he says shortly.
Grandma Ellie claps her hands together, her smile never faltering in the face of tension. "Well, no matter how you met, we're very glad to have you here, Pamela. Let's sit down and have dinner as a family."
We all find our chairs, Rowan pulling one out beside him for me. The table is set extravagantly, shining silverware and artfully arranged dishes that smell heavenly.
The first course is a thin, creamy mushroom soup, which I taste tentatively, trying not to look into Lillian's piercing gaze or to let Rebecca's scrutinizing smirk make me nervous.
"So," Lillian finally says, her voice slicing through the clinking of silverware. "Pamela, tell us something about your family. What do your parents do?”
I pause, carefully choosing my words. "My mother passed away when I was young," I say softly, in a hushed tone, the familiar ache surfacing fleetingly. "My father has a small business."
Lillian's eyebrow rises fractionally. "Oh? What business would that be?"
"Import and export," I return, keeping all particulars vague. All I need is to get into messy details of my family life under such scrutiny.
“How unusual,” Rebecca says with an unmistakable hint of sarcasm as she drinks from her glass of wine. “And your education? Where have you studied?”
"I went to State University, and my degree is in Literature," I say, trying not to be rude but continuing to feel discomfort.
"Literature," Lillian says, pursing her lips as she does. “Not exactly a practical field of study, either, is it?”
I feel a flush creep up my neck but maintain my poise. "I believe it has its own value. I've always had a passion for reading and writing."
Grandma Ellie jumps in, eyes sparkling. "Oh, how wonderful! I love literature. Do you have a favorite author, dear?"
I smile sincerely upon her excitement. "I'm quite fond of Jane Austen. Her insights into society and character are timeless."
"Ah, a classic choice," Harold puts in, nodding appraisingly. "Pride and Prejudice is a masterpiece."
Rebecca leans back in her chair, swirling her wine glass reflectively. "Personally, I find those stories a bit dull. All that talk of manners and marriage prospects. Don't you think, Pamela?"
I meet her gaze squarely. "I think they offer sharp commentary on societal norms and the roles of women, many of which are still relevant today."
Rowan’s hand finds mine under the table and squeezes once. I glance up at him, startled, and catch the barest flash of approbation in the stoic mask of his face.
Lillian's eyes dart between Rowan and me, her brow furrowing slightly. "So, Pamela, now that you're engaged, what are you planning on doing? Are you going to keep working, or will you be focusing on being a support to Rowan in his endeavors?”
I take a deep breath, choosing my words with care. "I believe I can do both. My supporting Rowan doesn't mean I have to give up my ambitions."
A flash of irritation flits across Lillian's face, but before she can say a word, Rowan interrupts as smooth as silk. "Pamela is quite talented and driven. I have no doubt she will excel in whatever she chooses to pursue.
I'm so shocked by his words that I turn to him in surprise. Is he standing up for me?
Grandma Ellie beams with pride at Rowan's response. "That's the spirit! A modern couple supporting each other's dreams. I love it.”
The rest of dinner proceeds under the questioning, whatever that is, thinly veiled criticism of Lillian and Rebecca, but with the grands in my corner and the occasional surprising interjection from Rowan, to boot, I hold my own.
Pamela's Point of ViewThe dinner feels endless, a never-ending barrage of thinly veiled insults, passive-aggressive comments, and forced smiles. By the time dessert is served, the tension is so thick I’m afraid I’ll snap. The only thing remotely comforting is Rowan's hand firmly on mine beneath the table, reminding me of where I stand in this twisted arrangement. Every look Lillian gives me feels like a scalpel cutting into me, and Rebecca's smirking only makes it worse.Finally, when we rise from the table, Rowan stands and offers me his arm. I take it, feeling like a player in a play I never auditioned for. We walk in silence down the great corridors of the mansion until we reach Rowan's quarters. The door clicks shut behind us, and for the first time all evening, I allow myself to exhale.I turn to him, watching as Rowan loosens his tie with an air of nonchalance that makes my skin crawl."So," I say, bitterness seeping into my voice, "is this how it's going to be? A lifetime of p
Pamela's Point of ViewThe morning sun is too bright, almost jeering, as I stand on the balcony, staring out at the sprawling estate that feels more like a prison. Reporters are gathering below, cameras already in place, their lenses glinting in the light. This is Rowan's world, a perfectly curated display where everything has its place and purpose.Today, I'm that purpose.I hear Rowan's approach before he speaks. "They're waiting."I don't turn around. I keep my eyes on the horizon, the weight of the day pressing down on me like a heavy cloak. "I know."He doesn't say anything right away, but I can feel him weighing me, as he always does. Everything about Rowan is calculated, premeditated. Even this press conference, it's not about us, it's about the image he wants to portray. I dig my fingers into the railing of the balcony, my knuckles white."I want to know something," I say, my voice low but level. "Do you feel anything at all when you do this? When you drag me out in front of t
Pamela's Point of ViewI wake up to this gnawing feeling in my chest. Joana, is still in the hospital, fragile and in need of care. She doesn't even know half of what has been going on. I need to be there for her. Every minute that passes, stuck in this house, I feel its weight pressing down on me. This news conference, this farce-everything that Rowan expects from me feels like a cage I'm barely holding together.Taking a deep breath, I push the tension building inside me aside and make the conscious decision that today, I'll talk with Rowan. I know he's going to have his opinions, but this isn't up for negotiation: Joana is my sister, and she needs me.I find Rowan in his study, as is most often the case, buried in paper work and on the phone. His expression is as stern as it ever was, calculated, every decision part of some grander scheme. I stand in the doorway for a minute, trying to gather the nerve. And when he finally looks up and sees me standing there, he waves me in."Can w
Pamela's Point of ViewRowan's hand is a firm grasp around my waist, anchoring me when the tension in this room escalates. Lyka and Rebecca exchange a look; their eyes are filled with something I couldn't quite place-calculating, or perhaps amusing, or maybe both. But the weight of their judgment, their sharp words still cuts.I look up at Rowan, his face stern yet protective, but the discomfort coils tightly within me. I just cannot get rid of this feeling that I am not meant to be here in this moment, them standing here like vultures. I breathe in deeply, push the embarrassment and awkwardness swirling inside me downwards.I slowly take Rowan's hand away from my waist. His fingers linger a second longer before falling away, and through that small touch, I can feel his confusion as I step back."I need to leave," I say softly, yet firmly. "This isn't a conversation I need to be part of.""Pamela—" Rowan starts, but I shake my head before he can continue."It’s fine," I interrupt gent
Pamela's Point of ViewI retreat into the mansion, the coolness of the lobby becomes a weight bearing down on me after my tense confrontation with Rebecca. My mind reels over her sharp words, the disdain in her eyes, and Lyka's tension expression. I shake it off, refusing to let them rattle me.As I make my way down the hall, I notice Lyka in a rush to leave Rowan's office. She is running in such haste that she is almost frantic and doesn't even try to mask the malice in her eyes as she sees me. For a second or less, we lock eyes, hers with a dark, resentful expression before she darts off again, completely disregarding me.I remain there, perplexed. What happened in that office? Why is Lyka running away? Just before I can make another step, I see Rebecca running after her."Lyka! Wait!" she calls, voice shrill. As she races past me, she shoots me a withering glare with a face tight full of fury. "We're not done yet, Pamela," she hisses venomously before vanishing after Lyka.Her word
Pamela's Point of ViewWeeks have passed since that unsettling phone call with Sinclair, and to my surprise, he hasn’t called again. Not once. Yet, his words still linger in my mind, shadowing every interaction I have with Rowan. I’ve tried to push it aside, to tell myself that maybe it was just a passing threat, a moment of malice from a man with a twisted grudge. But part of me wonders if Sinclair’s silence is only a prelude to something worse.Rowan hasn’t mentioned it either. In fact, we haven’t talked much at all since that day. It’s like an invisible wall has been built between us, a barrier that neither of us seems willing to cross. He’s busy, or at least that’s what I tell myself. Meetings, phone calls, late nights in his office. But I can’t shake the feeling that he’s deliberately avoiding me.Not that I mind. In some ways, it’s an advantage. The less we speak, the less I must put up with this confusing, awkward tension between us. It was easier, safer, when he was avoided.T
Pamela's Point of ViewThe night of the gala arrives quicker than I expect, and as I stand in front of the mirror, smoothing down the sleek black dress I chose for the occasion, I can’t shake the gnawing feeling in my stomach. I’ve been to a few events with Rowan, but none like this. The elites of the city will be there, the crème de la crème of society, all gathered under one roof. And for what? To judge, to scrutinize, and in my case, to find faults.The dress clings to me in all the right places, its elegance doing little to soothe my nerves. I force a breath, reaching for the necklace Rowan gave me for tonight—another gesture that feels more like obligation than affection. It’s a beautiful piece, diamonds glinting in the low light, but wearing it feels like wearing a chain."Ready?" Rowan's voice cuts into my thoughts.I look up to see him standing in the doorway, dressed to in a tailored fitted suit. His features are unreadable. No warmth in his eyes, only the same cold distance
Pamela’s Point of ViewRowan yanks on my arm, pulling me through the front door. It hurts, but I don't feel as bad as my breathing does. I'm matching his furious step down the hallway, tripping over my own feet a few times, matching him step for step. My breaths are shallow and my heart is racing, not because I'm afraid of him but because I am confused.Why is he so angry?As soon as we enter the house, he shoves me off of him, pushing me to the side a little. I have no choice but to push myself up against the wall, recoiling at the sharpness of his shove."Why in God's name are you pushing me?" I snap, running my arm over where his fingers left a mark on my skin.Rowan doesn't answer right away. He's pacing now, his hand running through his hair in exasperation, his eyes dark and dangerous. Gone is that cool façade, replaced by something wild and volatile.“Are you happy now?” he finally says, his voice low but trembling with barely controlled rage.I take a step closer, daring to co
Pamela’s Point of ViewThe room is quiet now. I lie next to Rowan, my body still tingling from the closeness we just shared. His arm rests over my waist, and I can feel his steady breathing, comforting yet heavy, like there’s something weighing on both of us. I should feel at ease, but I can’t shake the feeling that something is off.I glance over at him. Rowan’s asleep, his face relaxed, looking softer than usual. It’s strange seeing him like this—vulnerable. Normally, he’s so in control, so distant. Now, though, lying here next to me, he seems almost… human.But my mind won’t settle. It keeps racing, going over everything we’ve been through. Part of me wants to believe this is real—that whatever we have is true—but the other part, the cautious part, is whispering something isn’t right.My eyes drift to his phone, sitting on the nightstand. The screen lights up with a notification. I shouldn’t look. I know it’s wrong. But I can’t help it. I reach for the phone, carefully sliding it t
Pamela’s Point of ViewThe room is dimly lit, shadows dancing on the walls as the tension between us crackles like an electric current. I can feel the heat radiating from Rowan’s body, his presence enveloping me, igniting a fire deep within that I have never known before.His gaze, dark and intense, locks onto mine as I press myself closer, every nerve ending alive with anticipation. The air is thick with unspoken words, with the weight of the emotions we have kept buried, and now they surge to the surface like a tide we can’t hold back.Rowan’s hands find their way to my waist, his touch both firm and gentle, sending shivers cascading down my spine. I feel the warmth of his skin through the fabric of my shirt, the way his fingers splay across my back, drawing me nearer until there is no space left between us.As he leans in, the world around us fades away, leaving only the two of us in this moment, this electric connection that pulses with each heartbeat. His breath mingles with mine
Pamela’s Point of ViewI scroll through my phone, the dim light from the screen illuminating the interior of the cab as I head home. My fingers pause over an article, and with an unsettled heart, I open it.[Rowan Hamilton introduced a fiancée three months ago… and it’s not Lyka Stones.]The words blur in front of my eyes. My breath catches as I read on.[Rumors suggest that the woman Rowan introduced was simply a way to provoke Lyka, who had been estranged from him at the time. Lyka herself recently addressed these claims, saying: ‘Rowan was just angry. He used someone to make me jealous, but that woman is nobody. He paid her to act like she mattered.’]Nobody. I feel the word like a punch to the gut. Nobody. My chest tightens, and the more I read, the more my insides churn with a mix of disbelief and fury. The article continues to speculate, throwing in rumors and speculation, each one more damaging than the last. Each one stabbing at me with more precision than the one before.I can
Pamela’s Point of View"I think I like someone."Joana blinks, her wide eyes meeting mine as if I’ve just dropped the most absurd news of the year. She slowly lowers the magazine she’s been flipping through and stares at me in stunned silence. I can practically hear her thoughts as she tries to piece together what I’ve just said. Finally, she speaks.“What? You?” She leans forward, her brows furrowing. “Who?”I shift uncomfortably on the couch, my fingers nervously picking at a loose thread on my shirt. I hadn’t planned to confess this—not even to myself. But here we are."Yeah… I think so," I mutter, avoiding her eyes. “I mean, it’s unexpected. Really unexpected.”Joana cocks her head, her curiosity piqued. “And who is this mystery man? Give me details.”I hesitate, my heart pounding in my chest as I try to form the words. How do I explain this? How do I describe Rowan without actually admitting it’s him? My throat feels tight, but I force myself to speak.“Well... He’s frustrating,”
Pamela’s Point of ViewThe morning sun filters through the kitchen window as I stir the pot of soup on the stove. The aroma of the broth fills the air, a simple comfort on an otherwise heavy day. I glance at the clock—early enough for Rowan to still be sleeping off his hangover, but I’m too restless to stay in bed. Last night still lingers in my mind, his unconscious grip pulling me into the bed, his drunken whispers of my name. But none of that means anything now. It never does in the daylight.I finish cooking, setting the table with a quiet efficiency. Soup, eggs, toast—nothing fancy, just something to help with the hangover I’m sure he’ll wake up with. As I arrange the dishes, I hear footsteps descending the stairs, slow and heavy. I don’t turn around, but I know it’s Rowan.I feel his presence before I see him. He walks into the kitchen, his movements sluggish, clearly feeling the aftermath of the alcohol from the night before. His hair is disheveled, his eyes half-lidded with ex
Pamela’s Point of ViewI can’t just stand here like some helpless spectator. Not tonight. Not anymore.The sight of Rowan, drunk and leaning on Lyka, stirs something deep inside me—a fire that refuses to be extinguished by all the confusion and hurt. I’m not going to be a martyr, sitting on the sidelines while someone else plays the part of the devoted fiancée. No. If he says we’re entering a real marriage, then I’ll act like it.My heart pounds as I follow them upstairs, my footsteps steady and determined. This is my responsibility. Rowan is supposed to be my future husband, and that means I have every right to decide who he’s associating with.Without hesitation, I push open Rowan’s bedroom door. Lyka is already inside, hovering over him as he lies sprawled on the bed, half-unconscious. She’s unbuttoning his shirt, her hands moving with a confidence that makes my blood boil.No. This is not happening.“Step away from him,” I say, my voice firm and unyielding.Lyka turns to face me,
Pamela’s Point of ViewTossing and turning in bed, I can’t find any solace in sleep. My mind keeps replaying that moment at Elysian Threads, where Rowan looked at me with an intensity I hadn’t before. The warmth of his gaze feels like a memory just out of reach, slipping through my fingers like sand. Why can’t I shake it? Did it mean anything? I keep wondering if that moment was real or if I’d imagined it in a desperate attempt to find something genuine in this engagement.I roll onto my back, staring at the ceiling. Shadows from the streetlights flicker through my window, but they provide little comfort. The night feels endless, and I wish it would just take me somewhere far away from this tangled web of emotions. As I flip again, my phone beeps, jolting me from my thoughts.I sit up, heart racing, and grab my phone from the bedside table. The glow of the screen illuminates my face, and I see two notifications. The first one twists my stomach. It’s from my father.[We need to talk. I
Pamela’s Point of ViewWe walk into Elysian Threads, the most renowned bridal shop in the city. The shop is famous for its elegant, handcrafted wedding dresses, each one made with precision and care. I’ve heard the waiting list here is months long, but of course, Rowan’s connections made sure we didn’t have to wait a single day.It’s a beautiful place, adorned with delicate chandeliers and racks of stunning gowns that catch the light as we move past them. The scent of fresh flowers drifts through the air, making everything feel even more surreal. My heart should be racing with excitement, but instead, there’s a strange heaviness weighing it down.Rowan walks in beside me, as calm and composed as ever. His hand rests on the small of my back, a gesture that might seem affectionate to anyone watching, but I know better. It’s just part of the performance. We’re engaged, after all. People are watching.As we are greeted by a woman who introduces herself as Marie, the assistant for today, I
Pamela’s Point of ViewThe credits roll on the screen, but I’m not really paying attention. My mind has been elsewhere the whole time—on my phone, on Rowan, on what happened last night. The buzzing energy in my stomach won’t go away, that strange mixture of nerves and anticipation building up, twisting tighter with every passing minute.Finally, I can’t take it anymore. With shaky hands, I unlock my phone and see it—Rowan’s message.[I’m waiting outside your sister’s apartment.]My breath catches in my throat. He’s here?I stare at the message for a moment, trying to process it, my pulse quickening with both excitement and nervousness. Without thinking, I jump up from the couch, almost knocking over the popcorn bowl in my haste.“I’ll be right back!” I stammer, barely registering Joana’s confused expression as I rush toward the door.“Wait, where are you going?” Joana calls after me, but I’m already out the door, my heart racing as I sprint down the stairs of her apartment building. W