"Ava, we need to talk," a figure of a man sitting at the edge of the bed appears as soon as I enter my bedroom half-naked. With the tension headache I have had and being so tired from the long flight, I decided to hit the bed without taking the shower. So I remove my clothes on my way to the bedroom, leaving just my undergarments on me.But hearing this man scares the hell out of me. I quickly open the light and find something I could use as a weapon. Right there and then, I find Seid sitting, still wearing the same clothes. He must have probably gone straight here."What are you doing here, Seid?", I ask him upset by the awkward situation."I came here to talk to you since that man didn't have the intention of letting you go, and I just want to say I've missed you, he bluntly responds to my question.I scoff hearing his answer, "Miss me? Really? For your information Seid, we already broke up a few weeks ago. So don't ever come into my apartment without my permission. And we don't hav
He forces his way between my legs while caressing my breast with his other hand. His biceps and arms keep pressing my hand sideways so I can't struggle or do anything. Seid may be harsh with his words at times, but he hasn't not a single time used brute strength against me. But tonight is different. He is different. He isn't Seid at all. He is demonstrating his strength against me, dominating my fragile body with his masculinity."Seid please," I beg him, but he keeps forcing himself on me, then he pins me to the huge glass pane in my bedroom where the moon can witness everything he's been doing. He forces his two fingers, then three thrusts me with it multiple times.I groan in too much pain, "Uh," I cry and plead but Seid doesn't seem to hear me. "Please stop, -Uh, Ahh, Uh-".Then he speaks full of rage, "Did he touch you like this, huh, Ava?" He clamps my clitoris between his fingers and then squeezes it hard. I scream in pain, "Did he do this to you, huh? Did you like it, huh? The
"K, I told you, just let it go. I didn't tell you that so you can come here and make a scandal," I ask her to leave feeling uncomfortable with all the eyes prying on us from the other side of this thin glass wall with curtain blinds."Are you kidding Avery, you've been raped. Even spouses could go to jail because of marital rape. That fucking Seid, portraying as a gentleman, well, in fact, nurturing some seeds of Satan inside his crotch," she endlessly curses at Seid with her eyes trembling in anger. I look down and say nothing. Instead, I pull her hand asking her to stand up and leave Seid's office, but Kendra, being a best friend, won't back down.She firmly says, "No, shut the hell up and sit tight. You, why are you being so naive, A? He took advantage of your weakness and your love for him.""But, I-I, it's true, I slept with another guy," I shyly remind her."When you, two, had already broken up, remember? He no longer has any hold on you, Ava. Sue him," she argues her point with
Desperation and determination are two words that keep popping into my head as I bit my thumb in confusion, circling my office for almost half an hour now. I gulp at the sight of my laptop screen. "Should I do it? Should I re-register to SEXONITE or find a new community like that? Or should I go hunt Dmitri instead?" I ask myself hundreds of times now. My delusional mind is interrupted when someone knocks on my office door. I find my composure and answer with a firm voice, "Yes? Come in!"Right after I answer, the door opens heavily and Ms. Dale's blonde head appears, "Ms. Anderson, Mrs. Cohen is currently waiting at the lobby."“Barbara? “ I jump out of my seat and surprisingly ask, “Hasn't she heard about our break-up?" I murmur to myself, then instruct her this, "What is this about? Could you tell her I’m in a meeting right now?”. She slightly scratches her head then replies, “But she said it is urgent and she’s a little bit upset.”I sigh and motion Ms. Dale to let her in, “You can
She is taken aback. She straightens her posture and crosses her arms, her tattooed eyebrows flick and rise, but she knew I am not completely wrong, so she unexpectedly agrees with me, or so I thought, “You’re right! But you see-”, she’s not willing to back out, “He's been busy for your future. Maybe you should at least give him a little slack, no?”, she says as if her recommendation sounds more like a demand. Her words echo repeatedly, and my heart retaliates. For the first time, I think I need to put her in her place. I just can’t let it pass. She doesn't even know what I've been through. She doesn't even know what his son did to me. I am just not anyone. I am not a pushover. And I know my self-worth, so with my head held high, “I think there's something you're not aware of, Barbara. You may think that given the fact that Seid and I dated almost a decade now, err, will ensure our future together. You see, your son made a terrible mistake, which you could ask him later by the way, an
A few months after the break-up, Seid and I never cross paths. I fulfill my promise not to sue him for what he did, and he keeps his word to stop Barbara from visiting my office. There are times that Seid would send me messages, saying hello. In fact, he sends me messages now much more often than he used to back then. It is true, you only realize someone's value when they no longer exist in your world. Do I still love him? Maybe it isn't that easy to forget a decade of romance, and sometimes, I think of giving us a second chance. But when I think about my worth, I guess he doesn't deserve me at all. So I always block the idea before it seeds in my heart.And another reason is Dmitri. When I think about our time together, I felt we are compatible with each other, but I don't believe in a long-distance relationship. And, I was just a woman who passed by his life. I sigh and lay my back on the backrest of my executive seat while blankly staring at my laptop screen."Dmitri Sullivan, shou
As this woman leads me to the conference room, all I could hear is my racing heartbeat either because of humiliation or probably anger. When the conference room reaches my vision, I can see Dmitri's frustrated face while listening to the men's report across from him. I don't speak the business language but I can tell that the reports aren't satisfying. Once again, I hear Dmitri's stern voice after a while, "You call this thing bullshit," throws the file in the middle of them, and leans forward then rests his elbows on the table while his fingers are held together, then he speaks in a calmer but scarier voice, "Can anyone give me anything that this horseshit?"Approximately ten people in the meeting room murmur as Dmitri holds his position. I, on the other hand, feel much pressure upon seeing him upset, "Uh-oh, I think I chose the wrong day to visit."Then the lady excuses her presence, "Hold on, Ms. Anderson, let me tell Mr. Sullivan, that you're here."So I immediately respond to her
He chuckles, "Well, is that the reason why you are being so distant right now? Well, Ava, I have my reasons, and besides, I wanna get out of that meeting so bad, so I need you here as an excuse," then he slides his chair forward in front of my chair, and pulls my chair closer to him that soon makes me loses my balance. So I grab both his shoulders to keep still, then he continues to caress me with his words, "And I want to see you soon so bad, and do things like this to you," he brushes my nose with his fingers as he did back then.My heart pounds and wouldn't stop racing. Just feeling his minty breath as he speaks, and his gorgeous smell like a soothing aroma turns me on."Oh god, Ava, you need to control yourself," I remind myself. So I immediately remove my hands from his shoulders and look on the right instead to avoid his gaze, but his hand gently moves my head forward again, where I can clearly stare at his green eyes, high nose, and sexy lips."I already told you, I always want
(Avery’s Thoughts) (Two Years After The Divorce)I am standing backstage at one of the famous morning talk shows here in NY.I don’t know why I feel so nervous, well, it is my first TV appearance nationwide.Then I look at the mirror and fix myself, “Well, I am not yet ready to reveal my personality so I think of a way to hide my identity, and that is to use a pen name and a sophisticated mask, like the ones you wear in a masquerade ball.”A staff finally reaches out to me and says, “Miss Sparks, in a minute they are going to call you on stage. And your cue is the dimming light, okay?”“Uh-huh,” I hesitantly answer.But she is there to boost and cheer me up, “Take a deep breath, relax, and remember, you are good, and you definitely got this!”The sound from the crowd suddenly dies down and the voice of the host is heard. I look up at their gigantic spotlight and wait for the cue.I take a deep breath and say to myself, “You got this, Avery. You got this!”“Let us all welcome with a ro
(Avery’s Thoughts) “Dear Avery - My Loyal Wife, When you came into my life and agreed to be my wife, that was the best day of my life. That day, on our sudden wedding day, I promised that I would cherish you more than anyone else.I swore to protect the smile on your face, a smile so genuine when I first met you at that hotel five years ago. Avery, I know you’ve been trying so hard, and you never once failed to fulfill your duty as my loving wife, even if it means putting your heart aside. You’ve been so good to me, and you’ve been faithful to me like you promised me. But sometimes kindness and compassion aren’t enough when love is forced. Eventually, the true feelings will immerse.With so much regret, I’ve seen you fell right in front of my eyes. I’ve witnessed how your bright spark faded when you married me. I’ve become the reason why you lost yourself.I let it happen. And I can’t forgive myself for that ever again. You were forced to love me. I forced you to love me. And
(Avery’s Thoughts)“Babe, did it come out now?” Jeff yells behind the door. While I am damn nervous to even peek at it. “It is only a minute, it needs another minute, babe. Please, don’t stress me out,” I yell back at him. “I’m sorry. I just feel so excited about the news. I can’t wait to tell mom and dad about our baby!” he says exhilaratingly. “Don’t jinx it!” I scream angrily. “Okay, okay, I’ll wait here patiently,” answers Jeff. I am here sitting on the bathroom floor, waiting for the result to come out from the pregnancy test kit. It has been almost three years since we got married and there was never a time that we didn’t try having a baby. But until now, there’s still nothing. I hug my knees and start crying silently, “What if it fails again? Am I infertile?” I ask myself. The kit finally ticks and now I have to face the truth. God knows we’ve been trying so hard that’s why I even ask Kendra to take full charge of the business for now. I stop all my physical activities
(Avery’s Thoughts) Our El Nido, Palawan experience was splendid. And of course, I still can’t believe it. I came there single, “And now, I am officially Avery Tales. I am now married,” I murmur as I stare at both my and his wedding ring while he’s holding my hand in his sleep. It’s been a week since we came back here to America. Of course, the honeymoon stage has just begun and Jeff wants to make love to me almost every time. And me, being a good wife, always give him what he wants. Although, right now, I think I am still a little swollen down there. I go to the bathroom to clean myself up and wash my face as I promised Kendra I’ll be meeting her so we can talk about our new business venture. After brushing my teeth, I wake Jeff up, “Hey, babe. Didn’t you say you have an interview at Kirkland’s Best?”He groans and instead of getting up, he pulls me into the bed and showers me with morning kisses. I giggle as his kisses tickle me, “Babe, stop it. We have a lot of things to do tod
(Avery's Thoughts)Even though the wedding is sudden, Jeff managed to pull it off, and he has planned it all along. So after the wedding ceremony, we stayed for a little bit, I got to finally meet his parents. And for the longest of times, I once again felt the warm embrace of a parent. It made me cry because I knew that I am no longer alone, and no longer an orphan. Because now that we are married, his parents became my parents, too. And I can’t deny, my heart is full. After that, we stayed to talk to our guests for some time, and then we ate and enjoy the party, too. And now I am here standing on the balcony staring at the moonlight, while Jeff is still cleaning. I don’t know why. It isn’t the first time we are going to have sex, but for some reason, now that we are married, there’s this tension inside me, a feeling of hesitation, a feeling that I am officially owned by him. And unexplainably, I feel afraid. And now, my heart almost stops as I hear the gushing of the water fina
(Avery’s Thoughts) Later this evening, all four of us will meet Jeff’s parents. And because of it, I am so dead worried and I can’t get this nervousness out of my system. So while Jeff is away meeting his parents ahead of time, I rush downstairs and go to our neighboring villa. I knock ceaselessly, but Kendra and Nik aren’t coming out. I move back to look up, and I see that the light is on, it means they are there, so I continue to rampage on their door. “Kendra, Kendra,” I knock nonstop, “Open up, please!” I scream a little loud. Then after five minutes of almost breaking their door down, someone finally opens the door for me. “Thank God you finally come out, what took you so l–” I am about to complain but when I see her glaring at me with her hair a little bit frizzy and wrap in a blanket, I know that I should be more careful with my next words. Then later on Nik comes down with a little sweat on his forehead. “Uh-oh, definitely bad timing, Avery,” I say to myself. Then Kend
(Avery’s Thoughts) “Hey, we are going to be late for our flight!” I yell when I notice Kendra still struggling with how to put all her stuff in one big luggage. “Wait up! This stupid luggage just won’t listen to me!” she frustratedly yells back at me. Kendra is not a patient and she hates dealing with this kind of stuff. So I go to her room to check up on her. And there I see her leg wrestling with her luggage just so she can close it up. “Stupid-little-luggage!” she yells and kicks before she pounds it hard in the end. And then she sits beside it looking at me with so much energy wasted. “Help me out, A?” she begs. I smile at her and then gently hit her on her forehead. “That’s why I’ve been telling you to pack a week ago,” I nag at her a little and she sticks her tongue out for a moment. “Hmm, let’s see what unnecessary things you put in here,” I tease her. Then I begin to take out some clothes and things she can’t wear to our destination. “Nope!” “–But I need it.” “–It’
(Kendra’s Thoughts)Then a slight touch on my shoulder and a breathy apology are enough to get hold of the situation, “I am sorry, Kendra. Let me fix this,” is all he says. And even without looking, I know this one is definitely Dmitri’s voice since it triggers the hatred hidden deep within my bones.And as he passed by me, he steps up and grabs the arms of that tallest guy, “Let go, Luke, please,” he calmly says.Then the man who fell suddenly stands up continuing his tantrums like a child, “Why are you siding with them, Dee? He punches me first, you should get mad at that bitchy Heather’s husband” then scowls at Dmitri. But Dmitri is true to his words for the first time in his fucking life, he is trying to fix the situation. He glares at him and Luke, “I said Let go, Luke. Don’t make me say it for the third time, and you, I told you to be more careful with your words, this is my city, they know me here as a businessman, you should have thought of me more before creating a scene. T
(Kendra’s Thoughts)Avery finally got discharged from the hospital and in the meantime, I invite them over to stay in my apartment instead of wasting all their money paying for a hotel room. I have two more spare rooms in my apartment so I guess it is fine. Kervin is still here, so they will look after him while I go out with Nik and enjoy our anniversary. I am about to finish dolling up when A enters my room. “Hey there, gorgeous,” she says while leaning on the side of the door. I am currently wearing my earrings when my side zipper comes undone. So she goes to me and says, “Here, I got this,” she says and helps me out. I can’t stop smiling. I am just happy to know she’s here. I am happy we get to do this again. I hear the zip sound finishes, “Okay, you are good to go, sexy K. Are you going to bring the house down tonight with your fiery red velvet bodycon dress?” she pokes my side. “Oh god, no. We will just eat and then go home since that bitchy wife already knew our annivers