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Heart of blood and roses Behind the door
My eyes opened once again. Everything was still the same...the same darkness, the same bulb on the verge of death but still trying to lighten up the room, the same sound of water droplets hitting the ground but there was one thing different,I was alone in the room.I quickly got out of bed and walked toward the broken door. I knocked on it, "Alpha Orion, are you inside?"There was no response.I waited for a few seconds before opening it. No one was inside, my heart started beating loudly in my chest, I could feel the sweat forming on my forehead.Did he leave me alone in this place?What if he decided he did not want to wait here with me and I was just holding him back?I gulped as the various thoughts started swirling inside my head.I started looking around thinking about what I should do next when a whimpering sound fell into my ears.I stopped pacing around the room and froze in one place.At first, I thought my ears heard something wrong but it came again. Reluctantly I sta
Last Updated : 2023-03-07Heart of blood and roses You are not my Alpha
"Are you hurt?"He was still on the ground but he was now staring at me, he was a werewolf.His eyes drifted to the man towering over us in a protective manner. Alpha was standing right behind me, challenging the man to make any wrong moves even though the man looked harmless."He looks fine, let's go...NOW."I ignored Alpha's words, a wrong move, and could easily get my life in danger. He could leave me with the man here to die but for some reason, my heart was not allowing me to leave the man on his own. "I have no words to thank both of you," the man thanked us in his frail voice that was barely audible, "but I am fine now, you should not stay here any longer because of me."I let out a breath not wanting to leave but knew I could not ask Alpha to take the man with us when we were not safe here either."Take care of yourself," I smiled at him before standing up to face a cold looking Alpha glaring at the poor man.He held my hand and started dragging me out of the room. He did no
Last Updated : 2023-03-08Heart of blood and roses Shot in the dark
"I should leave, thank you once again miss for showing me kindness and saving my life, if I could return the favor in this life I would not hesitate."I stood like a fool on the door frame, holding the door with one hand and the wall with another hand. "What did you just say?"He looked at me with a confused expression on his face. "I should leave, the rogue would not show mercy on me if he returned and you should be careful as well. They don't hesitate before killing anyone."I shook my head. I could not focus on what he was saying my entire focus was on what he had said earlier. It could not be a coincidence. His pack died 50 years ago and I know only one pack that vanished around the same time but there were no survivors. Maybe it was shot in the dark."No, about your pack."He blinked a few times, looking right and left in the corridor. "My pack was killed almost fifty years ago," he repeated once again in his frail voice. "Where did your pack reside?"He once again looked a
Last Updated : 2023-03-20Heart of blood and roses One chance
Arwin stood up immediately and started looking at the floor while shivering in fear. Alpha was about to walk towards him but I jumped in front of Arwin putting both my hands on Alpha's chest."Please listen to me."He was still glaring at Arwin."What is he doing here?" "I called him here," Alpha's eyes moved toward me and the color changed quickly. "WHAT?" he growled.I held his face between my hands, an action I did not know I was doing."Listen to me," his jaw tensed but he did not move or say anything.I took it as a sign to start explaining myself."He is Arwin, he was a member of the Green alp pack."Unlike me, Alpha Orion's eyes got bigger for a brief moment before the same cold expression returned to his face. "You know about his pack," I whispered."I have heard of it.""His pack was destroyed by the red moon fifty years ago.""And you believe him?" He asked, "how are you so sure he is not lying to you? There were no survivors from the pack. How can he be a part of that p
Last Updated : 2023-03-20Heart of blood and roses You can never trust a rogue
Silence.It was loud in the car as we moved toward the pack.The silence was filled with loud disagreements, questions, and anger."We don't know anything about the attackers?""Not yet," Alpha answered Bernadette as she sat beside me with her eyes stopping on the new man every once in a while who was clearly intimidated by the presence of all powerful wolves in the car. I wanted to reassure him but thought it was better if I did not say anything. "Do you think they were sent by some Alpha?" Bernadette's questions were not stopping, she looked ready to fight."They were rogues," Alpha answered in his usual calm tone.Arwin's entire body stiffened like a corpse.He was not looking at anyone but at his hands, or the tiny bony fingers that were showing out of his long sleeves. Once again Bernadette stared at Arwin, not being subtle at all. She was reminding him continuously he was not a member of the pack, but neither was I."So they just happened to be there?" she once again asked
Last Updated : 2023-03-30Heart of blood and roses It was something else
Walking out of the room was not a task, the main task was to find the man who turned into a stranger after we reached the pack. Alpha Orion became cold again, Bernadette kept checking up on me but Alpha did not talk to me once.It should not bother me, I reminded myself again.I was supposed to focus on my work. Arwin was staying in the mansion too, Bernadette was not hiding her hatred toward him and showing he was unwelcomed in the pack. He was not allowed to leave the mansion, he could taint the image of Alpha Orion just by walking outside freely. "Don't you ever stop?"I did not bother turning around. "How can I help you today, Mia?""Don't act dumb, oh wait, maybe you are dumb," she smirked as she stood in front of me.I folded my arms and kept looking at her."Why did you return?" she asked, "why do you always have to ruin everything? You even brought filth into our pack like you were not enough.""You do not know him.""I don't want to know him, all I know is that you are c
Last Updated : 2023-04-02Heart of blood and roses Where are they?
"I have seen cases, where wolf fails to show up because of trauma but it is still present."I kept staring at Arwin blankly, not knowing how to respond, it was big. I could have a wolf. But I could not let my expectations get high, this happened already when I was at Nora's house, I thought I was not so different after all but I only got the taste of disappointment, maybe Arwin was wrong too. "It is a long shot and there are many things to prove this whole theory wrong," I shook my head.Arwin was looking around the room making me wonder if he was listening to me at all. "I never said I am right, Luna. This is just what I have seen over the years.""You do not have to call me that."He frowned, "Luna?"I nodded, not saying anything else. It was not the right term for me, the position of Luna was meant for Chelsea or someone else from the pack, someone who could guide them...who could protect them. It was not just a title, it was a responsibility, I was not worthy of the title."But
Last Updated : 2023-04-04Heart of blood and roses She should know
The hands of the clock kept moving forward but I stayed in the same position for hours, with my eyes glued to the front door. People kept walking inside and out, watching me with curiosity at first but then I turned as interesting as the cushion right next to me.I let out a sigh as another hour passed.Arwin volunteered to keep an eye on the door and even inform me if Alpha Orion returned, but I knew it would be useless. I was not going to get any sleep. The sun said goodbye a long time ago, no news entered my ears. I was waiting to hear a word about the body that was found. Was it a sign?I tried to shake the thought out of my head. The door opened after what felt like years. I stood up and ran to stand in front of Alpha Orion. It was difficult to read what was going on inside his head from the expression on his face...as usual. I scanned the faces of Bernadette and Kai, Bernadette lifted her lips to pass a reassuring smile and Kai walked ahead ignoring me. I looked at Alpha a
Last Updated : 2023-04-17
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Heart of blood and roses Coven is like a tree
I froze as soon as I entered the house. "What...?"Orion stood next to me, "We need to talk to you about something."My heartbeat increased, did something bad happen? Celia was sitting with no smile on her face, next to her was Ruth with a similar expression accompanied by Oliver and Rose. "Is everything alright?" I asked Orion, "Is it about the red moon?"He shook his head, "No, everything is fine, love, just calm down and have a seat."Bernadette gave a sharp nod to Orion, "I will be outside." She was in her beta mode, something was not right.Did they know about what happened near the river? I gulped thinking about it but tried not to show the fear on my face as I sat down in front of the witches. Orion was holding my hand the entire time while his other hand was on my back rubbing circles. "The resemblance..." Celia shed a tear which she wiped quickly."What is happening here?" The silence was making me feel suffocated. "It's best if Celia starts from the beginning," Orion g
Heart of blood and roses I will not tell a soul about it
My feet kept moving, I knew where I had to stop. Orion and I were in the middle of our conversation when he said he figured something out but he had to leave before he could explain anything. We were not getting much time to talk or discuss anything, the red moon was above our heads and even though no one was showing it, we were all scared. I was breathing hard from taking two steps at once and my heart was racing but no matter how much I tried I could not shake the feeling away. A smile made its way to my lips when I saw the girl's long brown hair touching the ground as she sat on the edge of the river. "Flora.""You are late, Ruhee."I paused, her words had no emotions."Are you alright, Flora?" I sat down next to her to take a look at her face. Her skin looked pale as she stared into the distance. I followed her eyes she was staring at the other side of the forest. Everything about her was the same except there was no glow on her face, her eyes had lost their spark. I felt
Heart of blood and roses Forbidden forest
I woke up with a heavy feeling in my head, it was like I had not slept in days which would not be wrong. The nagging feeling inside my stomach was not leaving, the dream I had was too real to be a nightmare. Something was not right, it was not about the blood moon. I rubbed my head and looked at Orion's side of the bed only to find it empty. With a sigh, I picked up the note that he had left on the table, 'I had to make some preparations for the ritual, will be back soon.'The ritual.What was the ritual anyway? How could Orion trust these witches so much?I knew what I was going to do next. I quickly got ready and ran towards the place where the witches were staying. Before getting closer I put on the smile I had mastered in years. The man who came with Celia last night was sitting on the ground, he threw me a look but did not say a word and continued his work. He was carefully removing petals from a plant I had never seen before in this pack. The flowers were blood red and whit
Heart of blood and roses Prevent it from becoming reality
I did not know what I was expecting, maybe someone old, cruel-looking with wrinkly skin and evil eyes but I was not expecting the happy lady in front of me followed by a few others.A woman who appeared to be in her late thirties entered first, she was the shortest out of all but had the biggest smile. Her dark maroon, almost black dress touched the ground as she walked, she had jet-black hair pulled back tightly, and not a single hair was out of place. Her green eyes were barely open from the wide smile she had on her round face. "Oh, my dear, Orion, what a lovely welcome.""Celia, this is my Luna, Ruhee."Celia, the lady who appeared to be their leader stood in front of me."Ruhee," she repeated my name."Thank you for coming here to help us," I said in a soft voice.I highly doubted she heard my words as she almost touched my face with her hand, "You.""Mother, I think we should get some rest and start our work without wasting any time," a girl interrupted Celia before her hand co
Heart of blood and roses Welcome to our pack
"Why would you do that?" I welcomed Alpha Orion with the question as he entered the room. He did not answer and closed the door. "I am talking to you," I repeated, not letting my eyes wander from his face. He did not reply once again and put the phone on the table. I got out of the bed and stood in front of him blocking his path with my hands crossed over my chest. "Alpha Orion, care to explain why you announced about us in front of the entire pack?" My voice was still not loud, I wanted answers but it did not mean I had to be loud. "I did the right thing, princess." He started searching for something. I held his arm with my hand firmly which was surprisingly new for me as well and the action was unusual for him too based on the look on his face. "I think I deserve some answers." He licked his lips and guided me to sit on the bed. "I am fine," I was getting annoyed by his actions. "I was not telling anyone the truth because of your safety, people of this pack had accepted C
Heart of blood and roses I was not a good friend
There was a loud growl that made the ground beneath my feet shake as I tried to stand. I quickly moved my eyes toward the two wolves but only one of them was standing now. It was a large brown wolf, it was the darkest shade of brown I had ever seen with some streaks of black between the fur. This wolf was different as compared to the mustard-brown wolf that was on the ground...not moving at all.The brown wolf kept staring at me as though making sure I was fine. "I am okay, Orion."Orion's wolf let out a low sound. My eyes fell on the other wolf once again and I quickly looked away. Soon the sound of the cracking of bones entered my ears. After a few more minutes Alpha Orion was standing in front of me with a cold expression on his face. "I..."He did not let me say anything else and just scooped me in his arms like I weighed nothing.I gulped."I have no idea who that wolf was."Silence."I do not know why he thought I was taking their Luna's place."Once again no response.But
Heart of blood and roses Our pack
"Hey, I need to talk to you about something."Orion put his phone away and turned to give me his full attention, "I was just coming to find you, I wanted to talk to you as well."I frowned a little but nodded as a sign for him to continue."You go first.""It is fine, I know you must have something important to say about the red moon or the pack," I smiled. Orion returned the smile while shaking his head a little bit but all of a sudden his face became serious. "Witches will be in our pack soon.""What?"He nodded, "I know we don't have much time left and they have decided to help us. We need to make sure everything goes fine here. Witches could be hard to deal with, they don't like to be a part of others' issues."I inhaled a breath. Soon I found his hand on my cheek, his thumb caressing my skin very gently in a circular motion, "Hey, it's okay. I am here with you."I licked my lips and put my hand over his, "I...I had a nightmare."His face hardened and a dark look appeared in hi
Heart of blood and roses Always be mine
I sat silently gazing at the sky, birds had started chirping a melodious song but it sounded like the tone of death to me. No matter how much I tried to convince myself I could not act normally or focus on the blood moon. What if it was just the beginning and I could not stop others from dying either? "I can not protect these people," I said out loud as the reality started sinking in. My breaths started getting heavy and I started feeling uneasy. No matter how much I tried to take deep breaths, I felt like drowning in the ocean. "No," a voice entered my ears, "we are going to protect everyone together.""I want to be alone.""No, you don't. I know you lost a friend and you're mourning his death.""Murder," I said through gritted teeth, "it was a murder.""Princess," he held my wrist but I pulled my hand away from him, "I know you are hurt and angry. You have all the rights to be. I am with you, tell me what you want.""You are not with me, you have no idea what I am feeling righ
Heart of blood and roses I want to be alone
I held the stem attached to the flower tightly, luckily there were no thorns to pierce through my skin. I opened the drawer and put it with the other yellow rose, but today it was red. Orion had been leaving a flower on the table next to my bed every day with a sorry since I stopped talking to him. The blood moon was only 5 days away and we had no progress so far. A knock on the door startled me before I could respond the door burst open and Bernadette stood in front of me."What happened?" Sudden fear rose inside my chest. She kept one hand on the doorknob as she stood silently."Bernadette?" I questioned again taking a step in her direction while getting dark thoughts inside my head. "It's Arwin..."My heart stopped."What about him?" I took another step, "where is he?"She once again fell silent but this time I did not wait and tried to get past her but she held my arm."Listen to me, he's no more."I let out a humorless chuckle, "What are you saying? Have you gone insane? He
