He blinked like he didn’t hear right, and then his eyes widened and he reached for me again.“No!” I yelled, my voice trembling. “No.” I could not let him do this to me. I had just gotten free. I was trying to get over him!“Myra, I didn’t know-““You did, you had to have known. You knew.” I accused, and sucked in air. “Nobody can be that blind. You just ignored it because it was easier for you. Easier for your big life as a Blackwood heir. And now you’re here with a new tagline. What do you want? What is it, you feel sorry for me? Or did your grandfather give you another condition with my name in it? You can tell him I’m not interested. So you can leave me the hell alone.” He was that willing to dangle something I’ve always wanted right in my face, just so he could keep me as his little pet. It wouldn’t work on me.“Jesus christ.” He cursed under his breath. “I didn't know, I swear. How long?”“How long?” I laughed bitterly, “when have I not? I loved you through every demeaning comm
“I’m gonna go to the restroom.” Lily announced the second we entered the hospital I rolled my eyes but said nothing. Mum had been recovering for a week now and everytime we came here, she would find a reason to slink away and lessen the time she spent around her. Now that she was staying with me, I finally understood what Hannah meant when she said Lily had withdrawn. There were no snappy retorts or even petty fights. She’d been with me nearly a week and not one surface was covered in glitter. I could tell Angie was trying to coax her out of her shell with food but that was not working, which meant I had a lot more to eat and that was a suitable arrangement for me as stress eating had become my new favorite past time. Everytime I caught myself thinking about him, I would shove my face with cookies, enchiladas, gelato or whatever meal Angie had prepared. Even at work. What that meant was that I was eating ALOT,I hadn’t heard from him in a week. I suppose I should be happy about i
“I’m sorry.” “You’ve said that several times already. I don’t care. So go back in there, tell mum good bye, feel free to add an elaborate excuse why you have to leave and don’t come back.” I crossed my arms on my chest and kept my eyes on a nurse as she passed by the both of us with a small smile, nodding to Pierce briefly.He bought a whole ass hospital, and there I was thinking he just gave a donation. Did he buy it because I was going to have his child or he loved me a at that time. No more thoughts about it. Dwelling on it was bad. It didn’t matter what he did to Pierce went into the room and I waited out, tension emanating from my shoulders as I waited for him to come back out.“So this is it, you’re leaving?” I asked when he came back out. “Yeah, you’re getting what you want.”I sigh of relief escaped my lips. “Good.”He turned to go but stopped, facing me again. “When you say loved, how long ago, when do you think you stopped loving me?”I shrugged, “does it matter?”Pierce
My eyes looked like they would pop out of my head with the way I was glaring, and infuriating, he gave in and grinned at me. “How do you manage to make anger look so fucking sexy?” He asked, stepping close to me, “go on a date with me…” “Are you sane?!” I backed away from him, not bothering with subtlety. “Did you perhaps hit your head on your way here?” “I’m perfectly fine, Honestly I’ve never been better.” “And you think you’ll ask me on a date and I’ll say yes?” “With a little more convincing, yes.” So fucking cocky, I-I can’t. I blew air out of my system and turned my angry eyes at him. “If I wasn’t clear enough the last time, I will be clear now. Stay away from my mother, stay away from me, I. Don’t. Want. To SEE YOU…” “AND I completely understand that.” I eyed him suspiciously, “but,” there it was, “you’re a famous actress Myra, you will get invited to a lot of events I get invited to, which means one way or another, we’ll always meet.” Ignoring the space I had put bet
Lily said nothing to me the rest of our stay in the hospital, only shooting me glances when she thought I wouldn’t notice. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs to her that there was nothing going on between me and Pierce! That he had a big mouth, yes, but I wasn’t stupid enough to go back to him. No matter what new love confession he came up with. He likes to watch me…a blush crept on my face and my hands froze over the flowers I was arranging. Every single word he utter flooded into my memory, feeling me with a giddy joy. I could just picture him pacing the office, or looking out the window. He ended a meeting to watch me! I wanted to squeal like a cheerleader! A small object hit the top of my head, drawing me out of my thoughts. “Lily!” Mum scolded. My sister shrugged and flattened another piece of paper she had rolled into a ball, ready to aim at me again. “Mum’s been calling you for hours.” “A couple seconds at best. Are you alright?” No. I was not. I had loved
My alarm went off beside my bed and I groaned, stretching out my arm to turn it off. I would’ve had at least three more hours of sleep if I was going to visit mum, but O’Malley wanted us on set today. There were in post production stages and he had a couple scenes that he wanted us to redo, so we had to get in early. Finally my hand connected with the off button and I clicked it, rolled to the edge of the bed before I swung my feet down and walked to the bathroom. I was a lot more awake after my shower. With my hair held up by a claw clip and body clad in simple jeans and a sweater, I entered the living room. Two bodies lay under the covers in the dark. Lily and…I squinted and moved closer to them. Donna. Makes sense, they were both still watching Tv when I returned by two in the morning. I ran my hand through Lily’s hair affectionately before I left the house. Yawning, I raised my hand to cover my mouth. In hindsight I should not have stayed out that long with Carter, knowing I
Pierce was at the parking lot the next morning. “We had a deal.” I said attempting to cross my arms which was made difficult by the bags I was carrying. “You said not to force you into my car, or threaten you, but you didn’t say I could not come here.” There it was. The loophole. “Is your leather aficionado giving you a ride today, or will you take mine? We don’t even have to talk throughout the ride.” He said in a pleading voice. I frowned at him. The way he insisted on inserting himself into my life now. If he liked me before, then why had he never shown this level of optimism? “I had a better idea.” I answered, as I glanced behind him. I had a feeling that Pierce might show up today too, and when I spilled the beans to Carter about him coming to my apartment, he immediately gave me an offer I couldn’t resist. Just in time, a black Nissan sports car pulled into the parking lot and stopped, blocking the exit of other cars. It didn’t matter how he parked, we were leaving soon
Alarms were a thing of the past for me, and this particular morning, I wanted to sleep in till we had to get dressed and visit mum. She had gotten a lot more better, and was now trusted to use a cane to move around the gardens to look at the daisies and see how they were coming up.One more week had passed since I had last been on set. I had only met with Madame Camille and her assistants to get my measurements and compare the effects of certain fabrics on my skin tone. I knew O’Malley and the press team were working on a system I would use in the following weeks for the publicity interviews and I both dreaded and looked forward to it. Suddenly the doors to my room burst open, snapping me awake. I groaned and rolled, covering the top half of my face with my blanket. “Wake up bitch!” Lily yelled at me. I heard Angie tutting disapprovingly behind her, before I opened my eyes. Lily plopped on the bed and dragged me up before placing a small pointy hat on my head, letting the st
I watched, my body burning under his gaze as his eyes trailed over me. From my heels and higher-slowly, painfully higher, till they stopped at my face. He swallowed, and took another step back. No quite the reaction I was expecting. A lazy smile spread across my face and I took a step forward, to make up for the one he had taken. “Stop.” His voice came out as a strangled whisper, his breath was uneven, pupils blown wide, jaw tight like he was holding back a storm. He refused to look at me. I took another step, blocking him when he cursed and tried to move towards the door. “Hannah told me about your arrangement with her.” He lifted his eyes to me and looked back at the floor just a quickly, not before I caught the awareness in his expression. I took another step again, a dizzy spell taking over. I shut my eyes and took a breath. I didn’t want to talk right now, I wanted him to be doing things to my body that I would forget by morning. “I-It was the only way I could give you
”Maybe it is my fault, I should’ve left the past in the past. Create more time for us? Stopped taking so long to have sex with it.” I rambled on my words tripping over each other to get past my lips. Two hours in a bar with Hannah, and my intoxication levels were up. “Myra! Are you listening to yourself?“ I nursed my fifth drink, while Hannah scolded me. “Damien disappears into his hobbies all the time and he never has to worry about me cheating on him. Carter’s reaction here says more about him. Plus, You did say he said mistresses were normal in his world.”“His words not mine.” And the ease at which he said it. I could already picture it. Married for ten years and knowing my husband had seven mistresses on the side… normal in his world my foot. “That son of a bitch, I can’t believe he had us fooled. But there you go. He would’ve done it anyway.”I sighed, and downed the rest of my drink while Hannah sipped hers like a civilized human being. “Wanna see my outfit?” I asked drunke
I hugged my coat to my body and prayed no strong gust of wind would whip the fabric up and expose my body to the innocent passersby outside of Carter’s apartment building. He was still ignoring my texts and since my visit with Emma a week ago, I had abandoned all efforts to contact him, and focused all my energy on building a case against Ava Baker. I may not be able to get back at Tami directly for Yvette but it would still hurt her if her mum was going to prison, and who knows, there was still time for Tami to slip up in the future. I stood out there and let my gaze float up to the highest part of the building, where he stayed, and swallowed nervously. If our conversation went well, the. Me and him would be making love for the first time. My way to show him that I was committed to him. A big step for both of us. And yet, my mind rebelled, still not ready for the change. It felt like…cheating to have sex with him. I gritted my teeth and stepped into the building, said a quick hel
I adjusted the strap of my handbag and knocked on the door to Emma’s home. It was a suburban place in a corner of the city, I turned my head to the sound of a group of young boys walking their dog as each one tried to speak louder than the last person. The door creaked open, pulling my attention back. A woman in her fifties, just a little taller than me, stood in the doorway with Viking braids, wearing oversized sweats and a cardigan. She smiled at me, a little unsure. “Myra?” “Hi, yes it’s me. Nice to put a face to the voice.” “It is.” Her eyes roamed over my body. ”I see the resemblance.” She stated, getting even more of my attention. “Come right in ..” She stepped aside, giving me space to enter and I hesitated. Up until this point the only feeling in my mind had been excitement, now came the wariness. Maybe it wasn’t such a hot idea to visit a woman I had never met before. “Look, I am as scared of you as you are of me. But then I saw the resemblance and I’m hoping you’re re
I waited till she was in front of me, counting headstones as we wove through them to the one with her mother’s name engraved on it. I remembered what Angie said she had asked and smiled to myself, before I went closer, dropped flowers on the headstone, and stepped back to join Pierce. catching the first bits of her conversation where she mentioned Nicole’s picture on the memorial in my room. “You’re a good mom.” My head snapped to him but his eyes remained trained on Heidi. “I can tell you are because of how she glows.” My eyes fell on Heidi again who was sitting crossed leg on the grass making a bird motion with her hands as she spoke animatedly. “Yeah, I guess I am. Speaking of mothers, did you visit yours?” “I did.” “Did you pass on my message?” From the corner of my eye I saw a grin spread on his face. “I said you sent your regards. She understood.” “Good.” Heidi got up from the ground and wiped her behind.”ice cream?” “Yeah ice cream.” I tugged on one of her bubble
“Come on Heidi, the flats are better! Just-“ I let out an exasperated sigh. “Do you want me to help you with your shoes?”“No.” Came her defiant reply. Everytime we had this visit we would deal with some kind of delay. Her shoes not being right, her braids not done properly, she suddenly didn’t like the outfit we had chosen together. Every visit. If not for her anticipation before the D-day, I would not believe she even wanted to visit her mum’s grave. “Give her a break, she’s doing her best to cope.” Angie said sympathetically beside me. “I know.” “Yesterday she asked me if she had to tell her mum that she called you mum.” A sad smile crept on my face, “what did you tell her?”“That her mum would be happy if she was happy.”That much was true. Finally Heidi stepped out of the room, the two bubble braids in her hair still secure, but a new dress and shoes on. I would take whatever win I could get. “You ready?” I asked. Heidi nodded “okay, we visit my mum’s grave first-“My phon
I grabbed the file like a junkie looking for a fix and opened it hurriedly. There it was, written on the faded piece of paper with frayed edges: Camilla Diogenes This was real. My eyes ran over the contents. There were two piece of paper attached to the main report.One that stated how Camilla had died; using a scapel to slice her own neck, and one that carried information of her baby. The child that was supposed to be me. I raised it and read the main document, her name, other information. Just another patient to the people in St John but to me, she was the woman who gave me life. The woman who planned for my birth to be the moment she turned her life around. Finally I moved to the corner I had been searching for. Four names were listed. Megan WalkerRachel TurnerAbigail HayesAnd mum I had three people who could help me. “This is it.” I told Pierce, my words trembling with a mix of fear and hope. “How do you get their numbers, is there a registery somwhere-“ “Yeah, I fo
I eyed the pile of boxes again. My alarm had already gone off and we should be getting back, but this was the first time I had any semblance at a direction. If I went home now I would be absolutely restless. Plus it would be harder for me if I waited that long with hope and it turned out to be futile. “Alright, let’s do this.” I said finally, and grabbed a box. Pierce joined me on the floor and we searched in silence. “Thank you for being here. Even if this turns out be a a wild goose chase, I’m glad you’re here helping me. It’s very nice.” “I didn’t do it to be nice, I did it because I care, this one just shows up being nice.” He answered. “Compared to you forcing me into a room with my raging mother.” I countered. Till this day, I wonder how different things would’ve been if it went wrong.“But it didn’t, and she was fine for a while.” “Yeah.” “How did you cope?” He asked, “after your mum died, couldn’t have been easy.”I read through the paper in my hand, before I shut it
“You-you want to tag along?” I asked, sure I had heard wrong in my Pierce fueled thoughts. He nodded impishly. “The house will feel empty when the both of you leave. All I’m gonna do is lay here and sleep till my body needs something else.” I don’t know what part I found the most fascinating. One-and a very big deal, he wanted to leave the house. For the first time in three months he wanted to leave the house. Two, he wanted to leave it with me, which, yes, was the whole point of me coming here, but for him to want to come WITH me while I visited the hospital… “It’s not gonna be a lot of fun. The room’s mostly dark and filled with boxes and boxes of files.” I warned. “That’s why Heidi has all that stuff to entertain her.” “I’m not coming there for fun, I’m coming to help you. Although I suppose if I got bored, Heidi can lend me a paper and an electric blue coloring pencil.” “Or you can show me how to draw people better.” Heidi added. I swallowed. “You really want to help.” “O