Paula POV "Oh please , she will look good in anything. Paula is a queen.”Olivia shouted. "I am not saying she’s not ;what is wrong with you Olivia? What is your problem?" Clara fired back. "You. you are the problem, my problem. She can attend the party with a bikini, its a pooool partyyyyyy" oliva stressed. I sighed watching the both of them go back and forth picking the clothes I'm going to wear to the party. Its exhausting, this past few days has been terrible. I have bags under my eyes. Literally. At home I had to deal with this two and at work I avoided Ethan like a plague but it still didn't help I wanted him in every way. "Okay okay, let's say she doesn't wear the bikini but then this sexy white dress should do" Olivia held up a dress she bought for me recently. Clara sighed in victory and nodded. Smirking Olivia picked up a black jacket she wanted me to wear " then she'll top it up with this" she wriggled her brows at me , earning a smile from me. Clara nodded in appro
Paula POV I don't know how my body did it but I slept despite the thunderous thoughts that plagued my mind. Last night was everything I never expected and more , it was still wrecking because I was still confused and battered. I rushed home after the confusing collision with Ethan. My cheeks heat up just thinking of what he did to me last night. I wanted more and it freaked me out! He is engaged for crying out loud. And a total jerk for messing with my head. If he does feel something like he hinted about then he wouldn't still be engaged. I'm so frustrated!Thank God Clara was asleep when I arrived yesterday, so I easily told Olivia the story. I would tell Clara but it would be so much stress explaining to her from the start. Olivia totally waited for me to arrive. She was however excited; saying he has feelings for me and I got a headstart but I just don't see it. Although she couldn't figure out why he was acting this way towards me; the kid bullied me before. Its clear I'm into h
Paula POVHe did it.He announced his engagement, I felt my heart skip a beat as soon as the question was asked, after he confirmed it tears welled up in my eyes causing my vision to go blurry. I felt my cheeks burn immediately he walked into the mall, I hurriedly joined the crowd as they rushed in controlling my tears, I knew they were engaged but knowing its official makes my lungs hurt. I had to control myself talking with some board members and Rex, I couldn't afford to break down in front of them.Now I'm in his car headed to his home and I was still clueless. What's wrong with him?, why are we going to his home?,I know I did nothing wrong , so why was I going to his place. I stared at him using the side of my eyes, he was looking straight ahead with his fist clenched on his laps. He was surprisingly calm with a dangerous aura around him, making me shiver. He looked like he was trying to restrain himself , I wanted to ask why I was going to his house but I stopped myself when
Ethan's POV " I still remember that day like it was yesterday. I was ten, We went camping with our mothers as a sport for extra credit and fun. I told my mom and she declined the offer saying; she had to work but after much persuading from me and a word from dad she agreed. We joined the other kids and their mothers for the sports when suddenly mom wanted to leave. She said she had to attend a meeting and my stupid childish school activity would not stop her. I followed her even after much protests, we drove off and it began to rain , she got a call saying she had to pick the foreign investors herself. She dropped me off in front of a book store telling me to wait for her without moving a muscle in the pouring rain with very little shade. It rained down on me as tears filled my eyes. I was cold hurt and shaking , I sat down rocking myself back and fort for over two hours. Till I was kidnapped and dragged by some men. I was beaten and tortured to tell my parents to pay the ransom w
Paula POV My eyes rolled back as he continued to please my whole being. He licked and sucked and pulled , he was dominant and aggressive. His grip on me was intoxicating ,painful making me whimper. I couldn't breathe as his hands grabbed my neck. I, I have to stop him. "E_Ethan s_s_stop" I gasped out. Immediately the words left my lips he stopped his sweet torture making my body miss his sweet touch. I felt tears stink my eyes. My emotions were all over the place."What's wrong " he asked as he lifted me up in his chest. "I'I can't be with you right now" I cracked out. "Why?" Was his cut reply. It was dry and acute. The rain increased making it harder to hear him. The lighting in the room was dim. It was hard to see his beautiful face. I traced my hands down his beautiful face. The face that hunted me right from highschool. I was naked leaning on his chest , he was wearing only his pants. His breath fanned my neck. "Everything I found out today is so hard to fathom. I just foun
Paula POV "Are you alright Paula? You seem totally absent" Anna asked as we made way into my apartment. "Of course I'm fine, I'm doing okay, why did you ask?" Of course I would play dumb. I've been silent all through the drive home. Ethan and Regina left in his car all lovey Dovey, it hurts so much. So very much. I almost cried and I'm sure I'll cry all through the night. How did he change over night? Just how? Was he lying to me about his feelings? I could feel my head spin.I opened the door leading the smiling Anna In the house, I don’t think she has had many sleepovers. She’s so happy. " they are here!" Olivia screamed as soon as we arrived in the kitchen. Clara side hugged me.The smell of hot sauce hit my nose. "Uhhm, yummy what are you guys making" my tummy grumbled and my eyes fucked the meal in front of me. "You girls really killed it huh" the whole counter was filled with cheese , spaghetti sauce , roasted chicken , salad , beef stew and of course chips. Oh beer to
Olivia POV After the crazy night with my girls , the tiredness started really kicking in on set. God I couldn't even get my script straight. Okay, to be fair. Its not really because of the long and tiring night , its because of the piercing blue eyes boring holes through me. Ever worked with a guy that you screwed and dumped, okay not really dump because we were never really together. Just screwed him and then thought, maybe we could move things on. but then you catch him making out with the lead role of the same movie you're in. What a director huh?. Michael kings , lion of the kingdom. Piercing blue eyes, hulk body, sexy Italian voice. Huge dick that can actually fuck. Bagged a lot of awards. He's just the dream. I thought we had chemistry you know. Well, any girl would think that, his gaze is just so intoxicating. But then I'm a bitch. I'm never going to let him know he affects me. As soon as I saw them kissing I got on the next flight back to new York. Fortunately for me,
Paula POV Damien pulled over at a small restaurant in a remote area as the weather began to change. its honestly crazy how he remembered all this places. It started to rain heavily so we literally ran from his car to the restaurant. Immediately we got in the restaurant; the smell of fresh sauce and wine hit me hard, hitting all the right taste buds in my mouth and it hasn't even gotten in my mouth. Damien kept staring at me in awe making my insides tickle , if only one jerk looked at me like this. Damien is all grown up now, he's tall totally towering over me, his beautiful brown hair jelled backwards, perfect blue eyes ,sexy body, he's totally the Edward Cullen. Where's I'm just me, old plain Paula. I had to break this staring contest we were having. "Why are you looking at me like that?" I blushed as he smirked at the end of my question. His whole face brightens up . ."I'm sorry, its weird I know. I'm just so shocked, you're just so beautiful and more Paula" he said smiling she
Ethan POV“I am not letting my trauma rule me!” I screamed for the third time. “Are you sure? You seem to angrily yell at any slight discomfort. You still have episodes.” My therapist adjusted her her glasses around her big brown eyes. “I must say; you are the slowest patient I have ever encountered.” I slammed my hands on her big mahogany desk. “Are you trying to piss me off?” I screamed running my hands through my hair. “You seem to be catching on mr Andreas.” She dropped her pen and book. “Do you see how easy it is? You haven’t been doing what I asked you to do. If you had, they would have been some improvements by now.” “Or maybe you’re not doing your job well. I payed you to fix me!” I snarled at her “Fix you? I can’t fix what doesn’t want to be fixed. You are hiding your trauma ethan.” She poured a cup of coffee and pushed it my way. “I signed up for this lady, it clear I need to fix whatever causes the episodes I have.” I said between clenched fists. “ then communica
Paula POV Never in my whole twenty two years of existence have I seen mom like this, she was so furious and so was Mrs Andreas. I stilled after hearing the voice, all turned to Ethan's sister Dorothy, I haven't met her in person neither have I had a conversation with her. I have only seen her in one of their family’s photo and her name on some documents in the office. Ethan calls her dolly which suits her as she looks innocent and cute. "What is going on here?" She asked tiredly. She looked exhausted with bags under her eyes and her hunched posture. The office is taking a toll on her, I mean she just graduated highschool. Ethan's job in the company is very vital and even with the help of a skilled secretary its still going to maim her. Everyone stilled returning to a more pleasant posture. She tilted her head to me and knotted her brows. "Paula?" I didn't know what to say , it sounded like a question so I simply nodded. I wasn't expecting the beautiful smile she gave me. "Hello, I'v
Paula POV The next day swung by so quickly I hated it. I was so nervous I didn't want to get out of bed. The thought of going to his parents scares the shit out of me, but mom came and made me go shower. Mom said it would be better to go in the evening that way the chances of meeting both parents will be higher. So here I am slumped on the couch watching N*****x. The series I was watching is so alluring and erotic ' Bridgerton' I find myself wishing I was fucked. I got more sexual cravings as the months go by___ and indeed I needed to be touched, loved and worshipped. Ethan is the only man I'll allow touch me especially in my state. He is the father so it's natural to allow him___ I would not allow other man close to me, violating me and my baby. After watching episode six my panties where so soaked I had to take another shower. I made lunch for dad because mom went to work. Dad owns a small bookstore and it was doing so good and I loved Esther his employee, she held it down when da
Paula POV Staring directly at an unapologetic Olivia was breathe taking. She wasn't sorry for what she did to Ethan and honestly I'm not mad. I would do the same for my friends but the crazy thing is, Ethan went through hell and I watched it all. Shivers went through my spine when I think of his bloody body, when he was being beaten. I forced Clara to tell me about it and on getting to the room Olivia didn't deny and wasn't sorry. "Its fine baby, thanks for sticking up for me" I smiled and her eyes lit up and she nodded like a cute little rascal. “I honestly didn’t mean to scare him, if he is man enough then he’ll come back.” “You and I know Ethan is every bit of a man” I said proudly before catching myself. Clara looked at me, she was smirking. I bit my lips. “We know, he got you pregnant didn’t he?” Clara said. “Only a man , a real strong man can” Olivia added I blushed at their indecent remark. “Stop it both of you!” They kept raising their brows and making faces. My face
Ethan POV I was running through the halls clueless as to where Paula was, I felt my body boil and the heat come up my skin. She has to be okay, i cant loose her and the baby or either of them!. I'd forever blame myself. I couldn't turn back to ask Olivia and Clara where she was, the fear made me run like a raging beast. I stopped a few nurses to ask and finally one directed me to her room. I stalked the room preparing myself for whatever news I was to hear. I couldn't help it as I badged into the room. I found a sleeping Paula. The machines where aiding her and she didn't seem to have woken up. I knotted my brows in confusion as realization dawned on me. Olivia! I turned and saw olivia watching me with venom in her eyes. "How does it feel huh?" She barked out. I stared blankly at her. "How does what feel?" I asked irritated."How does it feel to be helpless, does it feel good ? Tell me you sumbag! That's how she felt every time you called for her. She runs with no break, desperatel
Ethan POV My heart left my body when I saw what happened next...Regina fell from Paula's body while Paula raised her upper body and blood painted her face. I was scared was she the one hurt? I couldn’t really tell. Mr delvon let out a huge ugly cry running over to Regina's body on the floor who I just noticed isn't moving. "Wake up baby, common for daddy" he cried aloud. He continued shaking Regina while placing his head on her chest. Paula crawled away from them with her mouth opened wide. At least my baby is moving. Regina was bleeding from the mouth, Paula had a clean shot to her gut. "Shoot that girl!" Delvon screamed over to one of his men. What! I struggled with everything I had but it was useless. I was held down by four men and was already beaten to a pulp. I have never felt this helpless. I've never felt this way. Vulnerability is something I never felt till now. And like when I was kidnapped, my chest stopped moving, I was having a panic attack, not now! I scold myse
Ethan POV Panicking was something I never did, but with the gunshots and having Paula here;I panicked. She is trying so hard so avoid me and she keeps pushing me away with no emotions in her eyes. It scares me, I'm scared that she means everything she's said; about me just being only her baby father. I almost had to force her to stay the night in my room, I knew a time She would have quietly slept with me and moaned for me. She's too cold I could feel her cold stare on my back itching my skin even after the hot bath I just had. I dragged myself away from her after giving her a fore head night kiss. I wasn't fully happy but I was excited to have the woman I love and my baby beside me. I have to win her over before our child is born. I have to keep her safe but the gunshots had me panicking. I jerked from the bed and so did Paula with tears already streaming down her face. "Shuuu, its okay it going to be okay." I hugged her and quickly pulled her to her feet. I pushed her into my wa
Paula POV Ethan drove me to my studio. After hearing about Regina’s father my whole body shook with fear. I was a crying mess to drive. Leaning over to Ethan and sobbing on his shirt earlier made his cologne cloud my senses. It seems it's all I want to smell, it was like a craving and I know I shouldn't blame the baby hormones all the time, but this , this is totally the baby. I couldn't concentrate and I was scared. I haven’t been to the studio since it’s decoration, Olivia and Clara decorated the studio When we walked in the double glass doors. I stopped holding ethan and walked to the center of the studio. wow was the only word to describe it. I finally got it, my fashion studio. It was looking all perfect and I cried over it. It was finally here and I loved it. Clara and Olivia are indeed heaven sent. Red and white was the main color. It looked so sharp and mature. Ethan sat watching me as I checked out every detail in the studio. Clara and Olivia really did a number on th
Ethan POV Paula was avoiding me for weeks, and finally dropped a bomb on me that she is pregnant. There are no words to describe how shocked I was, I was on my way to the white house but hell I was too shocked and excited to keep going. I went to her apartment and her friends dismissed me rudely. I will see to it that olivia and her sharp mouth is dealt with. One passionate evening with her and I get a baby already. Incredible. I only find myself adoring her more and more each day.I thought she ran away from me, so i tracked her down to her parent's house. Paula the mother of my baby, I'm too excited it irritates me. I know right now she believes she can keep herself away from me, but I know a lot about pregnant women and having self control is something they don’t technically have; especially with their raging hormones. I chuckled just think about the irony of everything. I was currently in front of Paula's house, I don't want to miss a moment, I want to be with her every step of