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Emerson doesn't leave and he doesn't pull away. He continues to give gentle pats to my back with my head hanging on his shoulder. He doesn't say anything either, and I've never appreciated his silence as much as I do now. He lets me feel everything I need to feel with his embrace giving me the comfort I didn't know I would find in anyone. Especially not him.
"I'm done. " I whisper, pulling away from his embrace. Emerson meets my eyes and I give him a small smile as I lift my hand to my face, to wipe my tears– trying not to make myself more pathetic than I already look before him.
Emerson surprises me by lifting his hand with mine. Each harsh swipe of my fingers across my wet cheeks, gives a soothing, slow stroke of his.
I meet his eyes and they are closed off once more. I can't detect what he's thinking— or feeling. He's back to the Emerson Ford I know.
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We're at the end!!! Woohoo!Where do I begin? So far, Hatred turns out to be the most challenging book I've written. Not just with the trope and the content, but both emotionally and physically. There were a lot of challenges along the way, but I made it. WE made it, and I know you're probably tired of hearing me say this now, but I truly wouldn't be here without your support. Hatred isn't just a step out of the comfort zone for me, it's a book that I found myself so attached to along the way and one I learn a lot from, so thank you all, for letting me write Eva and Emerson's story, for believing in me and for staying with me until the very end. I still find it hard to believe at times when I look at how far I've come, and how many of you have travelled with me through this journey. I recognize some of you from my very first book, A Night With The Billionaire, and you have no idea how glad it warms my heart to see you up till now. Thank you very much for enduring and for staying. I
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