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Hatred With Benefits S I X T Y - S I X
ALIYA. How does one love? How do you fall in love with that person and decide you want to keep that moment forever? How does one stay in love without wanting to leave? These are the thoughts that are always on my mind ever since that day. Ever since she ran out of my room with tears in her eyes and I watch her leave, because I know going after her will do nothing but worsen the pain that I've caused. The pain that I couldn't hold back building. My name is Aliya Collins and I have a problem. I do not know how to love and stay in love. At first, I thought maybe it was because I've never been in a relationship, but after being and breaking out of love – I realised that never was the problem. It was vice versa. It isn't that I couldn't love because I wasn't in a relationship; I wasn't in a relationship because I couldn't love. But things changed from that moment I met her. Have you ever looked into someone's eyes, and thought: oh, I do want to know this person more than this. I
Hatred With Benefits S I X T Y - S E V E N
EVA. "I might be home late tonight, are you alright with that?" Emerson asks as I unfasten my seatbelt. I turn to him and say, "Why not? Are you leaving campus early?""Yes. I have to head over to Jaxon for some things. " He tells me and I nod, tearing my gaze away from his to grab my bag. "Is that okay with you?" Emerson inquires when I drop my gaze back to him and I nod, "Of course. Gives me more alone time to myself without you sniffing your face into my ass. ""Oh, babe, " he chuckles as he leans over the divider to grab my chin. "Have I ever mentioned how adorable you sound when you try to hide the truth from me?""I don't think I need to hide if it's—" Emerson's lips on mine shut me up and he stays for five seconds before he pulls back, "Make me dinner before I get back, yeah?""What am I? Your wife?" I snort out a laugh as I slap his hand from my chin and he sinks back in his seat with a knowing smile on his face. "No, you're something more. That sounds too low in comparison.
Hatred With Benefits S I X T Y - E I G H T
EVA. The air between us has altered and my fists are folded as a measure to not slip over the edge with my nose flaring in irritation as I stare at Emerson, who stands two steps away from me with frustration clear in his eyes– no doubt that it comes nowhere as close to mine. "I can't believe you, Eva. What is it that you want to hear from me?" He speaks and I say, "What is it that you're hiding?""I'm not hiding anything—" He starts, but I cut in, my voice loud as I part my lips. "Stop fucking lying! You don't get to do that, Emerson. You don't get to lie right to my fucking face! You're keeping something from me. It's visible and I want to know it!""So you think I'm hiding something from you because I don't want you using my phone behind my back or because I didn't take a call in your presence? Can you hear yourself, Eva? You're calling me a liar because I want my privacy?" Disbelief laced through his voice as he scoffs. "No. Don't. Don't do that. Don't turn this on me. This isn'
Hatred With Benefits S I X T Y - N I N E
SAGE. Whoever said love is the greatest emotion of all and the best thing that could ever happen to anyone in their lifetime has got a fucked up viewpoint, because love is in fact the worst thing that could ever happen to anyone. We've all been taught to know the promising sides of love; the happiness and fulfilment it could bring. We've been forced to seek it out in our lives, when we should be staying away from it. Everyone says the good things about love, but no one said the horrible sides. The pain? The heartache? The way it easily fucks your entire being, messing with your mentality and your health? No one taught us about that. No one taught us that love would give us a slice of heaven, and a whole tide of hell. No one taught us that love will turn out to be your biggest catastrophe. Love doesn't heal; It hurts. It doesn't put you back together, it breaks you into pieces and leaves you to remain in that state. Being in love is one of the biggest regrets that I've ever had
Hatred With Benefits S E V E N T Y
ALIYA. "Easy. " I warn Sage as I press her head to my shoulder while trying to open my door with the other hand. I manage to successfully get her inside the room without stumbling, guiding her to the bed and carefully lowering her. "Come on. Let's get you out of these. " I mumble as I bend forward and hook my fingers around her pants button, only for Sage to hoist her leg and I lose my balance as I fall on top of her. She hooks her arms around me when I try to get up and I drop my hands to her sides, lifting my face to look at her. "Let go of me. "She giggles and tightens her hold, "I don't think I want to do that. "Her eyes are half-opened as she meets my eyes and I take a gulp. "Sage—" she's close. She's too fucking close and I can feel each breath she takes and let out. One slight slip will be my mouth on hers and that's far from what I want– far from what should happen. She averts her gaze from my eyes, and they're lowered; staring at a place they shouldn't be. "Stop. " I t
Hatred With Benefits S E V E N T Y - O N E
EVA. Emerson is moving off my lap with wide eyes. "You want to what?" "Talk to our parents about us. " I repeat my words and he says, "Eva, are you sure about that? I mean, I don't think it'd be that—" "I know how it'd be, Emerson but I'm willing to take that step with you. I don't want to wait for something bad to happen to us or having to take terrible decisions later before we let them know about our feelings. We have the chance to prevent those from happening, so why not take it?" "I understand you. " He sighs. "I mean I do, but still— are you sure you're ready to do this? You have to understand that your father won't easily give into this. " "And that's why we'll have to try together. " I tell him and he smiles. "We will. When do you have in mind?" "I'm thinking tomorrow. " I say and he exclaims, "Tomorrow?" "Yes, tomorrow. We can leave for my place after lectures. " "Do you want to meet your parents first?" He raises a brow and I nod, "I think my father is still more sof
Hatred With Benefits S E V E N T Y - T W O
EVA. They are both staring at me with mistrust shining through their eyes and the temperature of the room has turned a lot hotter. I try to control my breath and fold my trembling hands into fists as I say, "My roommate. My roommate wasn't a girl like I was told when I got to my apartment; it was Emerson and we've been living together for—""Enough. I don't want to hear any more. You'll move out of that house and you'll stay away from him. " Dad orders and I shake my head, "I can't. I'm sorry, dad but I can't listen to you. Not this time. "He rises from his seat, eyes challenging me as they meet mine. "I'm instructing you and you're refusing?""Dad, please. " I stand up to move in front of him. "I understand how you feel, but you can't blame me for this. ""Yes, I can and I fucking do! Why the hell didn't you tell me about this the second you found out he's your roommate? Why did you stay there? And why the hell did you lie to us about it?" Because I already had sex with him before
Hatred With Benefits S E V E N T Y - T H R E E
EVA. "Emerson. "My eyes open to the while ceiling and my hand move on its own across the bed, but end up with nothing. My chest drops as I sit up on the bed, my eyes glancing at the clock by the side which reads almost ten. And Emerson is yet to be back. I lift my body to grab my phone, and there are no new notifications from him. "Where did you go?" I mumble as I stare at the numerous messages I've left him before I climb off the bed and head out of his room. The uncomfortable silence in the house swims around me as I stride to the kitchen to get a glass of water. After having a sip, I take the glass with me and pace to the living room, dropping on the couch as I place the glass in front of me. Silence. A drop. A swallow. A heartbeat– the cycle goes on and on with my feet tapping against the floor and my phone in my hand, and when my thoughts go to the point of almost driving me insane, I move from the couch and place a call to Aliya, chewing on my lips as the line rings once a
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Hatred With Benefits CRAVE
Hey, Sweethearts!(^^) I'm back! Who've missed me and my daily notifications? Haha. So this is the announcement I promised to make last Friday. CRAVE is now out for your reading. There are currently three chapters available, and you can click on my author's icon to read or simply search for it. And while you're at that, please remember this is a new book and will be needing your support in terms of gems, comments and reviews. I hope you'll be willing to give that:-) That will be all, and this will possibly the last notification on Hatred. I'll see you guys on CRAVE. Btw, how many have reread while waiting for the new book? Haha.
Hatred With Benefits Final Author's Note
We're at the end!!! Woohoo!Where do I begin? So far, Hatred turns out to be the most challenging book I've written. Not just with the trope and the content, but both emotionally and physically. There were a lot of challenges along the way, but I made it. WE made it, and I know you're probably tired of hearing me say this now, but I truly wouldn't be here without your support. Hatred isn't just a step out of the comfort zone for me, it's a book that I found myself so attached to along the way and one I learn a lot from, so thank you all, for letting me write Eva and Emerson's story, for believing in me and for staying with me until the very end. I still find it hard to believe at times when I look at how far I've come, and how many of you have travelled with me through this journey. I recognize some of you from my very first book, A Night With The Billionaire, and you have no idea how glad it warms my heart to see you up till now. Thank you very much for enduring and for staying. I
Hatred With Benefits N I N E T Y - F O U R
EVA. Emerson holds my hand as I stand in front of her grave, and I smile at him before I drop the flower I have in hand. Straightening up, I say, "Today is our birthday. Though, physically you aren't here to celebrate it with me. I know you're watching me with a smile, and I just want to thank you for being such an amazing sister. And for taking care of me the best way you could have ever. I've always thought it's selfish to celebrate and be happy on this day without you, but recently, I've found out that what's truly selfish is refusing to celebrate this day with beautiful memories of you, so I promise to never do that from now on. " With a heavy sigh, I speak my last words, "Thank you, sister. For your sacrifice; I'll never forget all that you did for me, and I'll always love you, Lena. Always. " I rest my head against him when Emerson moves to my side and slides a hand around my shoulder. "You did amazing, baby. " He whispers, and I hum, letting him stroke my hair before I g
Hatred With Benefits N I N E T Y - T H R E E
ALIYA. "Hey!" I flinch at the loud sound behind me and Eva laughs as she moves around me to my side, holding me by my arm. "You're such a coward. " "Shut up, bitch. You scared me. " I throw her a frown, adjusting the strap of my bag and she wiggles her head as she straightens against me, "Why were you lost in thoughts?" "I was not. " I roll my eyes and she narrows hers at me, "Yes, you were. Were you thinking about Friday? You don't have to come up with something heavy, you know. " I smirk at her at the mention of her birthday. "No chance in hell, bitch. Everyone is coming. " She furrows her brows, "Aliya, what do you mean by that? Please tell me you didn't go overboard with this. " When I don't give her a response and keep the smirk on my face, she screams, "Aliya!" "Fuck sake, we're on campus. Tone it down for later. " I hiss as my eyes move across us to see people are barely paying us any attention. When I look back at her, I say, "I was just fucking with you. There's no one
Hatred With Benefits N I N E T Y - T W O
EMERSON. "Give me that!" Eva whines as she strides inside the living room, and I laugh as I dodge her attempt to grab the plate from me. "Emerson. Give it to me. " She insists and I shake my head, "I let you have the two other slices; I'm not giving you the last one. "She frowns. "I thought you don't love cakes. You wouldn't have bought it if I didn't insist. ""But we did, and I'm having this one now. I'm not giving it to you, babe. " I state firmly and she drops next to me, "You're so petty. ""Not any lesser than you, Carson. " I tease her as she grabs the remote in front of her, and she shoves her middle finger in my face. Chuckling, I take my attention back to the plate and lift the fork to my mouth. I don't see it coming when Eva suddenly grabs my jaw, turning my head to her and biting the cake out of my mouth. She wipes the corner of my mouth with her forefinger, and slips it inside her mouth as she leans back with a grin on her face, "I told you I'd get it. ""That's chea
Hatred With Benefits N I N E T Y - O N E
EMERSON. "Hey, " I whisper as she drops her head on my chest. "Hey. "Adjusting against my body, she says, "How do you feel?""Happy?" I say more of a question than an answer, then I settle with. "Happy. You're in my arms. "A smile crosses her face. "Emerson Ford. " She lifts her hands to my face. "You know how to make a girl feel good just at the brink of slumber. "I show a proud smile. "You. Just you. "She hums and drops her chin to brush her lips against my chest. Then she tips it again to meet my eyes, "But I meant the other way. ""I know, baby. " I say, circling my hands around her waist. "And I'm happy. Maybe it's because you're here. Maybe it's because I've finally come to accept that, and the fact that she'll always be with me, or maybe it's because everything else seems perfect. ""You have no idea how pleased I am to hear that. " She murmurs, pauses for the pass of a heartbeat, then adds, "Do you want me to come with you?"I groan loudly. "I'll very much like that, Eva.
Hatred With Benefits N I N E T Y
EMERSON. I stand in front of the restroom as I pound on the door, calling out her name. "Eva!" It isn't until a few minutes of yelling and pounding with almost coming close to kicking the door down that she finally opens up, ducking her head through. "What do you think you're doing?" She whispers, and I yank her out of the room, steadying her in front of me as my eyes roam across her body. "Are you okay? What happened in there? Why did you scream?" "I'm fine, Em. " She says, and I slide my hands to her face, cupping her cheeks. "Are you sure? " I glance back at the door before I look back at her, "I heard a scream and thought—" "It wasn't mine. " She interrupts me and when I arch my brows, she says, "The scream wasn't mine. There's someone else in there. Having a moment, it seems. " "Oh, thank heavens. " I let out a breath of relief and snatch her to my chest, lowering one hand to her back with the one to the back of her head. "You were taking long, and I thought something happe
Hatred With Benefits E I G H T Y - N I N E
EMERSON. "Paige?" Eva repeats and I nod my head to the redhead who stands in front of our apartment, with her head turned to us now at the sound of the car. "She's here. " Eva says and I hum, unfastening my seatbelt. "I'm just as surprised as you are. I didn't expect to see her anytime soon. " Eva doesn't respond as we both get out of the car, and walk to her. "Hey, you both. I was just about to leave. " Paige says as we stop in front of her, and I slide my hand around Eva. She's looking more held up than the last time I saw her, with a smile complementing her features. "Eva. " She calls. "Paige. " Eva responds, letting my hands fall from her as they both hug, patting each other's back for a while before they pull away. "You look... Well, you look like you, blondie. " Paige remarks and Eva says, "I can say the same thing about you, redhead. " And they both laugh. A smile stretches to my face as I watch them converse without wanting to throw hands at each other. "Is everything a
Hatred With Benefits E I G H T Y - E I G H T
EVA. "Baby. " Emerson whispers in the dark and I groan as I turn my ear away from him. He chuckles, "Are you still asleep?" "Yes. " I respond, gripping the pillow I'm pressed to without opening my eyes. "What time is it?" "It's late now. " His voice is closer as he answers and I force my eyes open, twisting my head to meet his eyes and he's leaning over my body from behind. "Hey, beautiful. " He smiles as he moves his head closer to press his lips to my nose and I hum, my eyes moving down his body when he pulls away and he's still naked. "Why are you up?" I ask him when I meet his eyes again and he collapses next to me, wrapping his arms around me. I remove my hands from the pillow to push back against him, moaning at the press of his cock to my ass. "I went to the bathroom, and realized it's dark. I've been awake for a while. Watching you. " His voice sends chills through my body as he sticks his face in the curve of my neck, inhaling my scent; no doubt I smell of him and I mi
