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Hatred With Benefits S E V E N T Y - F I V E
ALIYA. She's shaking. She's shaking too fucking much from all over and my heart is jumping in my chest in fear for her. In fear of what might happen to her. "Deep breathes, Eva. Deep breathes. " I try my best to calm her down, but the sobs don't stop and the trembles only increase, till a point where I'm fucking scared she has no control over it either. "Please, Eva. You need to take deep breaths. " I tell her again, rubbing her back to try to provide some warmth and her head only presses harder against my shoulder, her grip on me getting tighter as no words fall from her mouth other than cries, and my heart both hurts and shakes for her. I know the extent of Eva's love for Emerson, and I'd have thought of everything, but this. They might have misunderstandings and fight when the time comes for it to happen, but never would I have thought that Emerson Ford would take the big step of leaving her. Not this way. Not with her like this. We remain in the position and after several minu
Last Updated : 2022-05-10Hatred With Benefits S E V E N T Y - S I X
EMERSON. "This place still looks the same. " I say to Eli as I walk inside the house and he lets out a chuckle as he closes the door. "You know I hate having different things often. ""Except women. " I mumble as I turn back to meet his eyes and he's loosening the button by his wrist. "Now come on, brother. Just because you got lucky to find one woman you love doesn't mean you weren't once like me. "I smile and look away from him, my eyes moving across the couch, and I see myself walking inside my living room with Eva sitting right there. My smile drops and I look away. Elias notices the change in my mood and he furrows his brows at me, "What's wrong?" "Nothing. I just remembered something. " I tell him and he hums before he strides into his kitchen while I follow behind him. He opens the fridge and what I see is her in her shorts with a smile on her face as she opens the refrigerator to get one of her favourite flavours of ice cream. She's here. She's everywhere. Every small actio
Last Updated : 2022-05-11Hatred With Benefits S E V E N T Y - S E V E N
EVA. "Baby. " The voice echoes around me and a groan leave my lips as I turn my head to the side, only for it to come again. "Eva. " My chest drops and I slowly open my eyes to see him hovering over me with a smile on his face. "Hey, babe. " He grins at me, lifting his hand to my face to tuck a strand of my hair away and I shake my head, struggling to believe the sight of him. "You're here. How can you be here?""I'm here for you, baby. " He whispers, leaning forward to brush his lips against my temple and the familiar shudder rushes through my body. A breath of relief leaves my lips as I speak, "You're here. You're really here. You're here with me. ""That's right, Eva; I'll always be here with you. " He responds and a small smile graces my lips as I raise my hand and let it cover his. "I can feel you. You're here. ""I'm here. " He repeats, and I hum. "Kiss me. ""You need to go back to sleep, baby. " He says instead and I shake my head, "No, I don't want to. I want you to kiss me
Last Updated : 2022-05-11Hatred With Benefits S E V E N T Y - E I G H T
EVA. "You're awake. " She smiles at me as she stands with her back to the door and I move up on the bed, pressing my palms into the soft mattress with a groan leaving my mouth. The instant headache and coldness kick in; reminding me of the struggles from the previous night and I shut my eyes for a brief second to pull back together. "Are you feeling better?" I open my eyes to her voice and raise my head to her. I don't give her a response as my eyes move across the room before I open my mouth, "Where's Aliya?""She had to go home. " Mom informs me and I hum, looking away from her. Silence takes its residence around us before she speaks again, her voice drawing closer and I know she's coming near me. "Baby. " True to my instincts, she's right above me and I still as she settles at the edge of the bed, her hand moving across the sheets to cover mine. "Please talk to me. "I angle my head to the other side and gently remove my hand from under hers. "Eva please, " her soft voice floats
Last Updated : 2022-05-12Hatred With Benefits S E V E N T Y - N I N E
EVA. "Hanna?" I call out her name and she sighs. "Eva, I'm so glad you're here. " I step to the side and she hurriedly walks inside.When I turn to her, I say, "What are you doing here and–" I don't get to finish my words before Hanna closes the distance between us and wraps her arms around me, her head moving against me as she whispers, "You're fine. You're fine, aren't you, Eva?"I pull her away to stare into her eyes, my voice breaking as I let out the words. "Did he ask you to come here?""Emerson?" She calls it out for me and she shakes her head when I hum. "No, he didn't. I– I just wanted to make sure you're alright. ""So you know he's gone?" I ask her and she takes a step away, guilt covering her expression as she looks down. She raises her head again after a while and starts to speak, "I can assure you that he didn't tell me. I only know because El—""I don't want to hear it. " I whisper and she closes her mouth, a sad expression covering her face as she bends a little to gr
Last Updated : 2022-05-13Hatred With Benefits E I G H T Y
EMERSON. "Why did you leave?" I let out a groan at the sound of her voice and when I turn around, Hanna is standing in front of me with a glare attached to her face and her arms crossed to her chest. "What did I say about coming into my room without my approval?" I raise my brows at her, ignoring her previous question and she drops her hands as she steps closer to me, not removing her eyes from me. "Why did you do that, Emerson?""Since when do I have to explain myself to you?" I ask and she says, "Since it includes you leaving the damn state without notifying anyone. ""Don't raise your voice at me. " I warn her before I turn to the side and stalk towards my bed. "I don't have to give you reasons for my actions, and you shouldn't expect any from me either. "A scoff leaves her lips as she follows after me. "Really, Emery? Are we still playing the cold big brother game?""Hanna, please, " I sigh. "I really don't have it in me to argue with you right now. I left because I needed to;
Last Updated : 2022-05-14Hatred With Benefits E I G H T Y - O N E
EVA. "I can't let you hurt me again, Emerson. I can't handle you breaking my heart again. " I whisper to him and he shakes his head several times before he opens his mouth, "I won't. I promise you I won't, baby. I— I love you, Eva. Baby, please. ""You said those same words once, and look where we are. " I remind him of his once made promise and he says, "I told you, Eva. You'd never be in the pain alone. Look at me, baby. Does it seem like I find joy in this? " "I can't, Emerson. I just can't. ""Yes, you can. " He persists, his head falling against my thigh again, and he buries his face in it. "You can, baby. You have to forgive me. You have to give me a chance to make it right again. You— you have to. Please. This will never repeat itself. I promise you that every decision I make for the both of us will be by the both of us. I'm willing to do anything, Eva. Just don't take this away from me. Don't take this away from us. "I bite down on my lips to stop the sobs that urge to brea
Last Updated : 2022-05-15Hatred With Benefits E I G H T Y - T W O
EVA. "Hey, why did you want me to come meet you here?" I call out to Aliya as I stroll toward her and she smiles when our eyes meet. "Hey, you. Why are you dressed that way?" She asks when I stop in front of her. "Because it's cold, Lia. Why didn't you want to come in?" I ask her my previous question and she throws me a wink before she steps to the side, revealing a new presence to me. My furrowed brows drop when my eyes catch Josh's gaze, along with Sage by his side. "Um... Hi, guys. What are you two doing here?" I ask awkwardly as they move forward and Sage is the first to speak, "We were worried about you. Since you and your boyfriend decided to disappear without notice, we thought we'd come to you, if you wouldn't come to us. This guy here especially refused to stop disturbing me about you. "I let out a small laugh. "Sorry about that. The last time we saw, you— " Sage doesn't let me finish my words before she closes the gap between us and wraps her arms around me, her head res
Last Updated : 2022-05-15
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Hatred With Benefits Final Author's Note
We're at the end!!! Woohoo!Where do I begin? So far, Hatred turns out to be the most challenging book I've written. Not just with the trope and the content, but both emotionally and physically. There were a lot of challenges along the way, but I made it. WE made it, and I know you're probably tired of hearing me say this now, but I truly wouldn't be here without your support. Hatred isn't just a step out of the comfort zone for me, it's a book that I found myself so attached to along the way and one I learn a lot from, so thank you all, for letting me write Eva and Emerson's story, for believing in me and for staying with me until the very end. I still find it hard to believe at times when I look at how far I've come, and how many of you have travelled with me through this journey. I recognize some of you from my very first book, A Night With The Billionaire, and you have no idea how glad it warms my heart to see you up till now. Thank you very much for enduring and for staying. I
Hatred With Benefits N I N E T Y - F O U R
EVA. Emerson holds my hand as I stand in front of her grave, and I smile at him before I drop the flower I have in hand. Straightening up, I say, "Today is our birthday. Though, physically you aren't here to celebrate it with me. I know you're watching me with a smile, and I just want to thank you for being such an amazing sister. And for taking care of me the best way you could have ever. I've always thought it's selfish to celebrate and be happy on this day without you, but recently, I've found out that what's truly selfish is refusing to celebrate this day with beautiful memories of you, so I promise to never do that from now on. " With a heavy sigh, I speak my last words, "Thank you, sister. For your sacrifice; I'll never forget all that you did for me, and I'll always love you, Lena. Always. " I rest my head against him when Emerson moves to my side and slides a hand around my shoulder. "You did amazing, baby. " He whispers, and I hum, letting him stroke my hair before I g
Hatred With Benefits N I N E T Y - T H R E E
ALIYA. "Hey!" I flinch at the loud sound behind me and Eva laughs as she moves around me to my side, holding me by my arm. "You're such a coward. " "Shut up, bitch. You scared me. " I throw her a frown, adjusting the strap of my bag and she wiggles her head as she straightens against me, "Why were you lost in thoughts?" "I was not. " I roll my eyes and she narrows hers at me, "Yes, you were. Were you thinking about Friday? You don't have to come up with something heavy, you know. " I smirk at her at the mention of her birthday. "No chance in hell, bitch. Everyone is coming. " She furrows her brows, "Aliya, what do you mean by that? Please tell me you didn't go overboard with this. " When I don't give her a response and keep the smirk on my face, she screams, "Aliya!" "Fuck sake, we're on campus. Tone it down for later. " I hiss as my eyes move across us to see people are barely paying us any attention. When I look back at her, I say, "I was just fucking with you. There's no one
Hatred With Benefits N I N E T Y - T W O
EMERSON. "Give me that!" Eva whines as she strides inside the living room, and I laugh as I dodge her attempt to grab the plate from me. "Emerson. Give it to me. " She insists and I shake my head, "I let you have the two other slices; I'm not giving you the last one. "She frowns. "I thought you don't love cakes. You wouldn't have bought it if I didn't insist. ""But we did, and I'm having this one now. I'm not giving it to you, babe. " I state firmly and she drops next to me, "You're so petty. ""Not any lesser than you, Carson. " I tease her as she grabs the remote in front of her, and she shoves her middle finger in my face. Chuckling, I take my attention back to the plate and lift the fork to my mouth. I don't see it coming when Eva suddenly grabs my jaw, turning my head to her and biting the cake out of my mouth. She wipes the corner of my mouth with her forefinger, and slips it inside her mouth as she leans back with a grin on her face, "I told you I'd get it. ""That's chea
Hatred With Benefits N I N E T Y - O N E
EMERSON. "Hey, " I whisper as she drops her head on my chest. "Hey. "Adjusting against my body, she says, "How do you feel?""Happy?" I say more of a question than an answer, then I settle with. "Happy. You're in my arms. "A smile crosses her face. "Emerson Ford. " She lifts her hands to my face. "You know how to make a girl feel good just at the brink of slumber. "I show a proud smile. "You. Just you. "She hums and drops her chin to brush her lips against my chest. Then she tips it again to meet my eyes, "But I meant the other way. ""I know, baby. " I say, circling my hands around her waist. "And I'm happy. Maybe it's because you're here. Maybe it's because I've finally come to accept that, and the fact that she'll always be with me, or maybe it's because everything else seems perfect. ""You have no idea how pleased I am to hear that. " She murmurs, pauses for the pass of a heartbeat, then adds, "Do you want me to come with you?"I groan loudly. "I'll very much like that, Eva.
Hatred With Benefits N I N E T Y
EMERSON. I stand in front of the restroom as I pound on the door, calling out her name. "Eva!" It isn't until a few minutes of yelling and pounding with almost coming close to kicking the door down that she finally opens up, ducking her head through. "What do you think you're doing?" She whispers, and I yank her out of the room, steadying her in front of me as my eyes roam across her body. "Are you okay? What happened in there? Why did you scream?" "I'm fine, Em. " She says, and I slide my hands to her face, cupping her cheeks. "Are you sure? " I glance back at the door before I look back at her, "I heard a scream and thought—" "It wasn't mine. " She interrupts me and when I arch my brows, she says, "The scream wasn't mine. There's someone else in there. Having a moment, it seems. " "Oh, thank heavens. " I let out a breath of relief and snatch her to my chest, lowering one hand to her back with the one to the back of her head. "You were taking long, and I thought something happe
Hatred With Benefits E I G H T Y - N I N E
EMERSON. "Paige?" Eva repeats and I nod my head to the redhead who stands in front of our apartment, with her head turned to us now at the sound of the car. "She's here. " Eva says and I hum, unfastening my seatbelt. "I'm just as surprised as you are. I didn't expect to see her anytime soon. " Eva doesn't respond as we both get out of the car, and walk to her. "Hey, you both. I was just about to leave. " Paige says as we stop in front of her, and I slide my hand around Eva. She's looking more held up than the last time I saw her, with a smile complementing her features. "Eva. " She calls. "Paige. " Eva responds, letting my hands fall from her as they both hug, patting each other's back for a while before they pull away. "You look... Well, you look like you, blondie. " Paige remarks and Eva says, "I can say the same thing about you, redhead. " And they both laugh. A smile stretches to my face as I watch them converse without wanting to throw hands at each other. "Is everything a
Hatred With Benefits E I G H T Y - E I G H T
EVA. "Baby. " Emerson whispers in the dark and I groan as I turn my ear away from him. He chuckles, "Are you still asleep?" "Yes. " I respond, gripping the pillow I'm pressed to without opening my eyes. "What time is it?" "It's late now. " His voice is closer as he answers and I force my eyes open, twisting my head to meet his eyes and he's leaning over my body from behind. "Hey, beautiful. " He smiles as he moves his head closer to press his lips to my nose and I hum, my eyes moving down his body when he pulls away and he's still naked. "Why are you up?" I ask him when I meet his eyes again and he collapses next to me, wrapping his arms around me. I remove my hands from the pillow to push back against him, moaning at the press of his cock to my ass. "I went to the bathroom, and realized it's dark. I've been awake for a while. Watching you. " His voice sends chills through my body as he sticks his face in the curve of my neck, inhaling my scent; no doubt I smell of him and I mi
