The hallways are empty, everyone else is in class and the privacy gives me the opportunity and freedom to cry ugly, sobbing, loud, gut wrenching tears. I would balk at my dramatics but the tears I’ve been withholding for weeks all chose to come out to play today for some reason and I have no choice but to just let it out.“I’m so sad, Roman…” I sob out the words like he can fix it. He stays silent but I still feel his big palm gliding over my body. He doesn’t need to say a word, his presence is more than fine. His nearness alone is more comfort that anyone else could offer me. How and when did I get this addicted to him? I don’t know how long we remain like this, me lightly sobbing and him holding me. It could have been mere seconds, or minutes or even an hour but I’m not so good with time when he is near, usually hours go by like seconds when I have him with me. This time is no different. Finally, we break apart from the tight hold we have on each other. I keep my gaze down,
Roman’s POV I turn the corner leaving Lindsey, a part of me warns me not to, to bring her along with me but I can’t. I don’t want her being privy to what I’m doing or about to do. It’s crazy. It shows quite obviously the lengths I’m willing to go to make her happy and I don’t want her knowing how far the hold she has on me stretches, it’s pretty damn long. I take all the corners that leads me to the office of the principal of Rixon high. When I step into the archway I’m greeted first by his secretary, Gretchen. “Mr Masters” She startles out at seeing me suddenly appear here. I don’t make a habit at coming here and only do when I decide, since I’ve never been summoned to the principal office, he wouldn’t dare. “Is he inside?” I ask her impatiently, nodding to the principal’s office. Then I add, “Good afternoon by the way” just because I’m not a rude little shit and she’s is old enough to give birth to me. “Good afternoon dear, she responds. Then she hesitates before including,
On Wednesday evening, every senior year student of Rixon High is sent a general email from our principal informing us that the school trip to Connecticut is happening after all. Supposedly, the school board were able to squeeze out some money to fund the trip after all. The day before the d-day, our mom takes Leo and I out for lunch at one of the fancy restaurants in Rixon hills. Surprisingly, she is being rather emotional at the thought of us going away for a few days. “It’s only going to be for a few days, mom” I tell her to console and ease her worries. I hear her release an exhale with a worried expression still on her face, “I know. But I can’t help it. My babies are traveling without me for the first time” she responds. Uncaring as always, Leo scoffs out a short laugh which he quickly hides with the guise of a cough after I give him a subtle kick under the table of the restaurant where we are eating at. I give him a glare and he shrugs. “It’s not like we are not used
We all pile up in a queue to enter the fancy bus that has been made available by our school to take us to the airport. The drive to the airport is brief. I sat with Robyn since Cassie opted to sit with Case. I just know she won’t have time for me, she intends to spend as much of the two days alone with Case. Cassie’s parents are strict and she is not allowed nights away so it’s very difficult for her to get to spend much time with Case. I hope they both have a fun time, I for one will be busy getting myself acquainted with the history and arts in Connecticut.When we get to the airport, we are ushered in the direction we should go to for our flight by Nr Kevin. We draw so much attention and many passerby are staring at us. I don’t blame them, nearly one hundred teens walking together will merit attention. I look around, noticing familiar faces but I can’t find my brother, Leo. I have been discreetly searching for him since we got to the bus but haven’t caught so much of a glance o
“Oh shit…” I whisper as I close my eyes and brace myself for the pain. Halfway to the ground, something grabs at the thin material of my crop top, stopping my fall. However it must not be my lucky day because in the course of my being pulled back up with the hold on my top, the fabric of the thin material slackens and tears sending me back to the floor. “Lindsey!” I hear Leo yell out with fright. So he does care about me… good to know. I’m a hairs breadth away from kissing the ground when the hold on my torn shirt goes round my ribcage and lifts me back up. I can suddenly feel both my feet stable on the pavement, I open my eyes and come in contact with the bright blue eyes that has been plaguing my dreams for weeks. Roman. It’s like everything else ceases to exit at that point, I don’t want to go over myself, but the way he stares at me right now contradicts how he spoke to me last week. While his words had conveyed that he wanted nothing more to do with me, his eyes now te
To everyone’s delight we are told by Mr Kevin that each of us can partner up or solo explore Connecticut on our own for the first day. So after settling into the hotel suites, it empties out again within minutes. “You’re leaving as well?” I ask Cassie casually. She stuffs her phone and wallet into her tiny purse. “Yeah, I am. Case is showing me around the town” She responds. I raise a brow in question at that, “He is? I never knew he was familiar enough with Connecticut to show anyone around” Cassie pauses from fluffing her ponytail and gives me a look, “Are you jealous, Lin? You can go hang out with Robyn in her room. I’m just so desperate to spend time alone with Case” she explainsI snort, I’m not bothered by her leaving anyway. “I’m just curious, have fun” I conclude and wave at her as she grins and leaves. I hadn’t planned to do anything our first day here because I had thought today would be the day we toured the Connecticut Museum of History and Culture but now that plans
After I leave the coffee shop, my stomach is filled from the apple pie and latte and my strength renewed from the rest. It is a little after five pm now and I decide to tour for an hour more before going back to the hotel. I walk around the town and even visit a pawn shop, a junk shop and spend five minutes listening to a street musician sing Another love by Tom Odell, it was a beautiful rendition and I loved every second of it. I’m trekking back to the hotel when a teenage boy around fourteen or so bumps into me nearly knocking me down the floor. “Shit” I grab the wall me to stable myself and by the time I am back in my feet, I notice I’m missing my purse. I look around me and at the ground, thinking it might have fallen when the boy bumped into me but the ground is empty safe for a wrapper of a chocolate bar carelessly tossed. I turn around just in time to see the teenage boy that knocked into me round the corner with my white handbag in his fisted grip as he runs like the flash
Here we go… He runs his eyes through me, noting the lack of pockets on my loungewear. “Cookie” His voice has a compelling warning tone. “Roman drop it, please” I beg Rather than do as I have asked, he leans even closer as if to read me properly. “Did you forget your phone at the hotel? No you wouldn’t. Did you lose it?” Frustrated, I pour it all out. “No, I didn’t lose it or forget it. It was stolen” I mutter with embarrassment. “Why were you so careless!?” Roman scolds me so abruptly I startle and my fork slips from my grip and falls to the floor below me. I blink up at him. “Why are you yelling at me? It’s not my fault a little badly raised kid nearly knocked me down and robbed me of my purse. I’m the victim here” I reply defensively. I expected pity or sympathy not a lecture. Roman looks downright frustrated with me. “You shouldn’t have gone out on your own. You don’t know this place or how people here act” He continues with his lecture. I glare at him, I’m n
Roman’s POVI have decided to have the talk with my father today. No more postponing, no more hesitating. I’m damn tired of not being able to bring my girl over to my house because she is afraid of my father.I walk over to my father’s office and knock once, then twice. I’ll knock a million times until he lets me in, I know he is inside.“Come in, son” I hear him call out.I chuckle as I twist the handle and step in. He knows it was me just because no one else would ever interrupt him in his office. No one but me.My father sits behind his expensive mahogany desk in his huge as hell office. I hardly come here unless when absolutely necessary, like today. It reminds me of my future, that one day I will likely become a workaholic like him, spending nearly every hour, alone and working.“Father” I say in greeting. I always call him father, never dad for many years and we’re both used to it now.He points at the chair in front of his desk for me to take a seat and I do.I don’t waste a mom
Roman’s POVI search for Lindsey all around and everywhere on school grounds but I can’t find her. I ask our friends and her brother but none has seen her since classes before lunch and because I don’t want anyone being privy to our private business and I know how private Lindsey is, I don’t tell them what’s happened.I want to go straight to her house and console her and fix this problem but there is still one last thing for me to settle.It is time for Rixon High athletes to train so I know where he must be at, being captain of the basketball team. I walk straight to the basketball court and when I open the double doors and enter inside, I see him. Going about his life like he didn’t just play a major role in a pathetic plan to ruin my relationship. Like hell if I’ll let him get away with it.I walk over to Collins who doesn’t see me but is focused bouncing a basketball on the courts smooth floor while going over plays with our teammates.I ignore our coach calling my name.“Roman,
CHAPTERRoman’s POVI’m on my way to the cafeteria after class to meet up with Lindsey when one of the janitors walks up to me and tells me that my girlfriend instructed him to find me and tell me to come help her out in the library because she is not feeling well.I give him a look of suspicion but consider his words, although I texted Lindsey to meet me at the cafeteria after her test she never responded. While I had concluded it was because she was in class it could be something else.Maybe something went wrong and she went to the library instead.I’m filled with worry that I don’t interrogate the janitor further but instead take a different turn to lead me to the library.When I get to the library, I realize I don’t even know exactly where Lindsey is at because the library is so huge. I consider calling her to ask but decide to check the literature section first, she is likely to be there because it is her favorite section in the library.I get there and in fact there is a girl th
Lindsey’s POVI am walking to the cafeteria alone after writing one of the most difficult tests I’ve ever written when Collins approaches me.“Hey pretty” He greets with his signature boyish smile.I smile back but my smile is a bit restrained. I know how Roman feels about Collins and I together, even though I don’t know why as I consider Collins a good friend, but I don’t want to do anything that’ll annoy Roman so I keep my distance.“Hey Collins” I respond and he comes and stands in front of me.“I need your help with something” He tells me.I’m confused as I don’t know what I could possibly help him with but I nod, urging him to go ahead and ask.He does, “I’ve been searching for an important textbook in the library for a while now and I’ve not been able to find it, can you come and help me check?”What? I give him a look of confusion. Is he joking? He must be. I laugh a bit just in case then reply, “There are librarians in the library, Collins” I mention the obvious.He grins but
On Monday after Christmas break, I drive my new new car to school. For the first time in months, I’m alone in a car. I’m driving myself rather than getting driven around like an invalid and it’s all thanks to Roman.Just like he had told me, he spoke to my mom and yesterday she even took me to shop for car accessories for my new car. Since I no longer have to worry about her feeling some type of way about Roman buying me a car, I enjoy the feeling of driving the sleekest car I have ever been in, except for Roman’s cars.When I get to school, I park my car and from the tinted glass of the windshield and windows, I can already see the students of Rixon High surrounding me, wondering who is in the car. Nearly everyone knows what everyone drives and so, a brand new expensive car such as this is bound to draw some attention.I should’ve made Roman come with me for the first day but I’m a big girl and I thought I could handle all the looks and whispers on my own.When I open my door and exi
My hand holding my phone shakes as I find Roman’s contact to call him. As my finger rests about an inch away from dialing Roman, I hesitate.I don’t know how to do it, not call him but tell him I’m refusing his gift. Even though I told mom that I’m not rejecting the gift because of her, I think I was lying. A brand new Mercedes Benz car that looks like that must cost a lot, too much. But, the thought of finally owning my own car after always having to beg Leo and ask Cassie for rides all the time feels so good. Sadly I can’t keep it. I harden my mind and call Roman. He answers on the first ring as if he has been waiting for me to call. “Do you like your car?” Is the first thing he says to me. He sounds so anxious like he can’t wait for my answer and hopes I say yes. “I… I do” I answer after a moment of hesitation. I hear Roman breath out with relief. “Thank God. I was getting worried that you didn’t like it, babe” My throat hurts as I force out the words I know he wouldn’t li
Lindsey’s POVOn the morning of my birthday, I wake up feeling all sorts of special. The night before, I had gotten both Christmas and birthday gifts from my mom, Leo and my friends. Leo had gotten his as well but I’m already used to sharing my birthdays with him. I gave him his gift as well. Last night, after I had unwrapped all my gifts, Roman had taken me out to dinner and while he didn’t say specifically that he was taking me out because of my birthday, I assume it was my birthday present. I loved it because the food was awesome and the company, his presence, was even better. I rise from my bed and do a little twirling on the floor, I’m just so happy. My mom yells my name from downstairs and when I quickly rush down, I see mine and Leo’s birthday cake ready with candles on the dinning table.I smile at the sight. It has always been a tradition for as long as I can remember. Mom always bakes a blue and a pink cake for Leo and I for our birthdays, the pink one for me and the blu
I turn to my cousin with a frustrated and doubt filled look. Damon raises an eyebrow at my facial expression. “Do you want my help or not?” I grunt, “Yeah I do. What type of car do you think I should get for her?” I ask him hopelessly. Damon shrugs, “A lambo or something” He replies. My jaw drops in shock, “A Lamborghini? Are you insane!?” My cousin snorts, “Don’t tell me you think it’s too expensive, she is your girlfriend whom I know you love so don’t tell me you’re deciding to be stingy with her gift” I ignore him saying I’m in love with Lindsey, I am but I’ve never told him or anyone, I haven’t even said the word to Lindsey and I should, I plan to tell her on her birthday, but that is not the point of my conversation with Damon right now. A lambo? I’m groan out, “Please where is Cassie and Robyn? I need them back.” I shake my head in exhaustion. Damon gives me a glare for doubting the reasonability of his idea which is an absolutely ridiculous idea. “Call Cassie and ask h
Roman’s POVIt is a few days to Christmas and even fewer to Lindsey’s eighteenth birthday. I have been in a bind all week contemplating a birthday gift for her. I have even brought in Damon, Robyn and Cassie to help me out with ideas and while they have tried by presenting me with numerous options, I’m not satisfied. I’m not very good at gift giving. Having so much money usually means I buy the most expensive things for my friends and family as gifts, but with Lindsey I can not exercise the same level of indifference or carefree attitude. I want to get her a birthday gift that… has meaning. Being with Lindsey Jordan has changed me. She has shown me that money isn’t everything, I mean I always knew that but now I have lived it. The picnic date she had organized for me the night before my birthday as my birthday gift sure didn’t cost anything close to a thousand dollars if I were to wager a guess, but I wasn’t lying when I told her it was the best birthday gift I’ve ever gotten. The