Chapter Two

"Hey man, I thought you'll be late today. You're really changing ah." I didn't notice that Liam was already seated beside me. I just gave him a smile. I don't have the strength to talk, and knowing Liam, he's so talkative, I'll surely lose all my strength for the day. 

"So, what's up man? How's Aunt Leah?" Liam asked. 

"I didn't visit her yesterday," I replied. I went home straight from school. I was feeling sick at that time, that's why I chose to rest. I'll visit mom whenever I get some free time. 

"Huh? I thought you're going? You told us that, what happened?" I looked at him. I don't know if it's right thing to tell him what happened but keeping those in myself will probably make things worse. Also, I want to let these things out of me and maybe, this way will be better. 

"It's about me and James... Ahm, we broke up." I was expecting a glee sound , especially knowing that they're both waiting for this, but I didn't expect his reaction. He's silent and looks shocked. 

"T-tell me, what the hell happened?" You can tell that there's a hint of anger in his voice. He didn't know anything but he's acting like he does, this man. I stayed calm and told him everything. I breathe. 

"Let's break up." I looked at him with a smile. I thought I misheard what he just said so I asked again. There's no way he'll say things like that. He looked at me and stayed silent as if he's saying ' don't make me repeat  myself, I know you heard me '. I looked away. Yes, I heard you, but I don't want to. 

"No, I won't agree on that." We're both good, so why all of sudden? There must be an understanding between us. I think we should talk about it and figure out how to fix it rather than ending this. There's no way I'll let him do that. 

"Look Kevin, you don't understand it. I don't want to continue this relationship. So please, just accept the fact that I want to break up with you."

"Then tell me, give me a f*ck*ng reason why should I. I didn't spend half of the year just to end it this way. Give me reason, James! I deserve an explanation," I yelled at him. I really can't understand him. We're doing good and then suddenly, he'll burst out something like that. I mean just like that, he didn't explain to me so that at least I know what the hell is happening. I'm not even a fortune teller. 

"You want a reason? Fine, I don't love you. Here me, I said I don't love you. I didn't love you from the start." No, No, No, he's lying. This can't be true. This ain't a reason, g*dd*mm*t. I couldn't answer him. It feels like my tears will burst out if I ever tried to open my mouth to speak. No, this ain't real. 

"What, you can't speak now? Haha. How foolish of you to believe me, to believe everything I said? You know what, since you're already asking for a reason, I should give it all to you, right? You should listen then, MY LOVE." I just stay silent. I want to walk away. I don't want to hear what he's gonna say. I don't want to believe him. He's lying. But my body doesn't want to cooperate with me. I just stand there, rooted in the place. 

"Listen. I only asked you to be my boyfriend not because I love you. It's because you're fit to do work for me. Oh! By the way, I should thank you, if it's not because of you, I'll probably fail the semester. So Kevin, thank you so much. Haha." I can't believe this. How the hell can he keep it like this knowing he's hurting someone? How could he be senseless for everything? How could he do all of this without any hint of guilt and regret? This fucker. He even laughed as if it was a funny thing. 

"You obliged to everything I asked, from assignments, activities, projects, oh, even my thesis. Wow! I couldn't ask for more, you're all in one. It's a win-win, that's why I chose you. Actually, you  aren't supposed to be here but life really works mysteriously, so yeah, here you go. That's the reason why I asked you to be my boyfriend."

"And the reason for breaking up is that I don't need you anymore. I found someone better than you. He isn't clingy like you. He's not noisy like you. He's not demanding like you. Perfectly fit to be my toy. You're a piece of trash for me now. And do you know what I'm doing to every garbage I have? I dump them. Haha. Ciao." Up 'till now, I couldn't utter a word. I'm just stuck there, trying to comprehend that everything happened.I'm such an idiot to fall for that guy. I didn't even notice a thing and now I'm suffering from this shit. Argh!

"That jerk, how could he do this to you? He's lucky I'm not there, he's gonna have a free punch from me," Liam said. He really is furious about what I told him. I just stay silent, I don't know what to say. He looked at me with those sad eyes. I don't like them. It looks like he pity me for what happened to me. I'm not dead. 

"Then, how are you feeling today?" By that question of him, I just suddenly think of myself. How do I really feel? I didn't cry last night because of what happened. I thought I'd spend my whole night crying over that jerk but I was wrong. Instead, as I went home yesterday, I rested. When I woke up, it was already the other day. Well, I couldn't tell that it didn't hurt me because it is, it was so painful, but I know I shouldn't be affected by it. Do I feel okay about it? Probably, no. 

"I-I don't know. I don't know how I should feel about it. Should I be happy that we're over knowing he's just using me, or should I be in pain for losing him? I really don't know." He tapped my shoulders to calm me down. I didn't notice that I'm starting to lose my mind. I'm thinking too hard and if this continues, this will be the end of me. I need to refresh myself. With that thought, I breathe heavily. It is for me to release all those negative things inside my head. Afterwards, Liam and I went to the cafeteria to eat. 

As we arrived at the cafeteria, there were already lots of students. I don't know why but every Tuesday, students are always here. That's why the place is too crowded. Liam and I lined up to buy some food. Well, I only want cakes since I'm not that hungry even though I didn't eat breakfast earlier. This is not me. 

"Hey, where are you?" My mind was too occupied, that's why I didn't notice Liam was talking on the phone. Who is it? Oh, it's not my business anymore. He looked at me and said that he's talking to Katherine. Oh, I see. It's too unusual to see that those two ain't together now because they always do.

"Sure, we'll wait for you. We're here at the cafeteria." Liam's finally done talking to Katherine. We already ordered and then found a table to eat. Argh! I really don't like to be with lots of people. I prefer to be alone but being in a university, that's so impossible. 

As we are eating, I remember what happened earlier. The reaction that Liam gave me after I told him that me and James had already broken up. I don't want Katherine to know about my situation. That girl is too much in overreacting. It's better to keep silent than to tell her. Well, it's not like hiding it but that's it. 

"Ahm Liam, can you do me a favor?" He looked at me. He raised his right brow like asking me, "What is it?". I breathed deeply, I know he'll understand me. He's a man too after all.

"Can you not tell Katherine about what happened to me and James? Look, I'm not keeping it to her, it's just that, she loves to overreact things. She's too noisy, you know. That's why. Please, can we keep this on us even for the meantime?" He laughed at me. Why? I'm just telling the truth, Katherine is really noisy. Not exaggerating but she'll probably talk about it for a week or more, that's her. 

"Sure, well, it's not my business so I'll let you handle it. Just know that we are always willing to listen and help you. You got us, bud." I felt relieved. I know that this time, I have them. Not later than, Katherine arrived. I looked at her, she looked... hell. Pfft. 

"Can you stop laughing, Mr. Kevin Valencia? You're not any help." This woman is really a savage, pfft. I wonder what happened to her. I don't want to ask in this state, knowing she'll blast out of anger. But guess what, this man beside me doesn't seem to notice it. He literally asked her. Goodluck bro. 

"Why are you asking, Liam? Can't you see that I'm literally in a disaster? You're not doing anything to help me. Ah my dress, I'm not beautiful now." I looked at Liam, his face wasn't explainable. See? That goes when you ask a woman, well not as always but for Katherine, that goes everyday so yeah, pfft. 

Five minutes had passed, finally, Katherine already fixed herself. We are now busy eating when suddenly the bell rings. When the bell rings, it means... IT'S CLASS TIME. Sh*t, how could I forget about my schedule today? Oh f*ck, the bell already rang, I'll be late now. 

I stood up immediately and fixed all my things. My friends' eyes were on me. I don't mind it now. I'm going to be late, I should be going now. I ran towards the exit of the cafeteria. I forgot to say bid goodbyes but I know they'll understand it. How idiot of me to forget it? Argh!

I was close to the door when I suddenly bumped into someone. I saw that the man looked at me based on my peripheral but I didn't have time for that. 

"Sorry," I said quickly. "Wait, I- " I heard the man's reply. I didn't give him any chance to talk and I didn't turn my back to see him. I'm in a hurry, I don't have time to spend. I'm going to be late.