Four bedrooms, two and a half baths with a large kitchen, a living room, a dining room and a laundry room. There was no denying it at this point. Hendrix bought this house. I did not even know how to react, just struck and not sure how or when I would recover. The house was furnished, but with just the basics, no deco. It was gorgeous though.I could not stop myself from seeing the potential after decoration. The rooms were spacious and charming with iron bed frames and white sheets. I was in awe, as if they bought everything from antique stores. I found myself absorbed in the tour, even pulling from Hendrix, running my hand through everything. The house was cleaned, no single spec of dust, not that I was checking. Everything was warm and cozy. I tried to listen as they told us the history of the house but found myself spacing out in awe. “Ma’am, is it okay if I hold onto Blue while we walk around?” The younger woman suddenly asked, shocking me out of my daze. I stopped, lookin
I won't lie, I was very anxious as we walked through the grocery store with Blue in Samantha’s arms. It did not help that she acted as if he was a toddler, pointing things and telling him what they were. Did she know he was only one and a few months old? It did not bother her at all that Blue seemed less interested, staring at anywhere but where Samantha had pointed. Should I have felt guilty for the thoughts and emotions I was feeling? I still could not decide. We moved on in the large store, sure I would have gotten confused and lost long ago if I had been alone. The shop seemed to have everything and some of the items were even in bulk. A young man was assisting us, pushing a large trolley which was already full. Maggie was taking charge of this shopping adventure. While the men were out shopping for Javier’s tools, we were doing grocery and supplies. I did not know what Hendrix had said to Maggie before we split apart but I guessed it was the spending budget because Maggie was g
“You can use this card. Here’s the pin,” Hendrix said, holding it out. “Buy anything you will need; clothes, toiletries, hair, and makeup staff.” I took the card into my sweaty palms. “But…” He trailed away, staring at me intensely, which made me more nervous. “This card doesn’t have millions in it.” With each word I felt as if he was watching my reaction. “ I will give you a spending limit. For now…..” He swallowed his words, blinking as if nervous himself now. “I will not buy much, I promise,” I saved him from whatever he had not wanted to say out loud. He nodded his head. “I know it’s not much but for now I would appreciate it if you did not exceed twenty thousand at most.” “Thank you,” I said back. I had never gone shopping and spent less than a hundred thousand. I was not sure I could pull it off but I was definitely cutting makeup out. My make up alone would not fit in the twenty thousand. I did not need it anyway. Just some toiletries. I had seen a very cheap lotion at
The silence in the car nearly killed me and I kept beating myself up on why I had hopped on the back seat with Samantha. Hendrix had just looked so angry that I had been afraid of the confrontation but at this point I preferred it than the deafening silence. “Just there,” Samantha pointed, Hendrix turning the car to the restaurant Samantha had recommended. He parked in the parking lot and Samantha soon hopped out. I wanted to say something to diffuse the situation but found my brain blank of words. Was he angry because we kept him waiting or did he think I spent so much because of all the paper bags filling the car? The money spent would shock him, very low compared to what I had thought. But we had been wrong to keep him waiting for so long in the parking lot. I was sure he had other things to do. I closed the door and followed Samantha who was already leading the way to the shops lining the street. People turned as we passed, most greeting Samantha with smiles. I had already esta
In a million years I never thought this would happen. Well, there are so many things I had never thought would ever happen to me so this was just a new addition to the list. I took the chance to steal a glance before fixing my eyes back on the road. Being dumped in a country house and left to your own devices was a husband’s punishment to older wives they nolonger wanted but could not divorce or women who had done unspeakable things.I had done unspeakable things and Hendrix was saving me. I was happy and grateful yet that did not stop this from feeling like a punishment, not from Hendrix, but from the universe for what I had done. The car was filled with silence and it had me check on Hendrix now and again. I don’t know why he had decided to sit at the back. Did he not trust my driving? It was one of the very few things I was good at. Stealing a glance at the review mirror told me he was asleep. I could not take my eyes away but I had to. He looked so peaceful though, watching h
For the first month, besides being a mother, my life had no meaning. Samantha was always with Blue. She daunted on him, showered him with love, and devotion. They played, she sang, she read, she bathed him, dressed him, slept with him in the nursery, took walks, fed him, the list was endless. I tagged along in all the activities but it soon seemed as if I was a third party, like I was a leech to Samantha, as if I was monitoring or keeping an eye on her. It made us rigid with each other and the easygoing conversations and friendship turned sour. The jealousy I felt did not help at all because I realized it was showing on my face every time Blue clung to Samantha, how he always looked for her with his eyes and soon wanted no one else but Samantha. It was like a knife to the heart. How crazy was it to inwardly blackmail a baby? I just couldn’t help the thoughts. After everything we went through together, he just turned on me like that. I was losing my mind, I knew it. Everyone had so
School wasn’t all rainbows and sunshine but who cared, I was there to learn and I was doing just that. Being the oldest person there, married too just left me an outcast and a cause for ridicule. I was just happy they did not have the balls to say it to my face or try stupid bullying tactics because I was not beneath smacking little spoilt brats and teaching them respect. I would crush them like insects. All my spare time was spent studying. I studied as if my life depended on it. There was a lot I had to learn. All my previous grades from my old school were bought so I knew basically nothing. I got myself a laptop and an ipad which helped a lot as I was doing a lot of note taking. I watched teaching videos online, set tests for myself every week and just went hard on it. Maths was my worst nightmare so I got a tutor who was really helping me through it. All this left little time to spend with Blue. I told myself we would have a lifetime together but as of then I was building our fu
Fifteen dresses were lined up for me and I had to try all of them. He was seated on the couch directly facing the dressing room in the backroom of the designer shop. It was when I slipped the dress that I realised why these dresses were so expensive. The material definitely wasn’t the same and they just made you feel as if you were on top of the word. But the cost of living in the two lives were just drastic to me. Pulling the curtain away and walking out in each dress, my heart drummed as my eyes fell on my husband who had decided to give all his attention to me and my dress fittings. The way his eyes would move from my very feet and slowly up until they held my eyes. The decision on the dresses was completely taken out of my hands and I did not mind at all. He would stare for long minutes before pointing to another. The way he took charge did something to me. So, as if we had all the time in the world, I wore each dress for him, even finding myself dizzily anticipating what he
I could not get my husband out of my head the whole day. It helped drown out the whole prom thing going on. The whole school had been turned to ribbons and balloons in preparation for that friday. Every corner you turned it was prom this, prom that, while I was bouncing around in my head like a little girl.Somehow I got through the day and made my way home to daydream some more. For the millionth time I touched my lips thinking of the moment once again. I shook my head, trying to force the memory away because I had to study. It was nine at night. Sam and Blue were tucked in and probably watching a movie in their room while I lay on the bed I had shared with my husband just a few hours ago. My feet couldn't help swinging back and forth, the pen ending up stuck between my teeth. The words on the textbook might as well have been flying in the air as I stared at them with dreamy eyes. I couldn’t afford this, I had to keep studying. After a whole ten minutes of scolding myself I ende
I shot up straight from bed, my head turning with my eyes wide. Somehow I knew I was late. I grabbed my phone which I had failed to charge and set the alarm. I was late! I rolled out of bed, hitting the ground with a thud. I pulled the covers, I would make the bed when I came back from school. As of then I just made it presentable then rushed to the bathroom. The door was thrown wide, stopping in my tracks, eyes wide open as I realized I was not alone and Hendrix was in the shower. The shock quickly wore off as I gave him a wide smile which I was not sure he could see with the wet shower door. “Morning. I will just hop in the tub.” I ran for the sink, scrubbing my teeth clean. I gurgled and scrapped my tongue before running to the tub to fill it. The bus was definitely going to leave me behind. I cursed, jumping in. I scrubbed down as quickly as I could. Hendrix stepped out of the shower and I froze, foam was all over my body. I didn’t even know where to cover; my boobs, my ass,
In a day spent surrounded by people I had begun to see as my family, for a second I found myself alone with my husband. I looked around, Samantha in the pool with Blue. Ryan had gone to take a business call in his room. Javier had left saying he was going to check on something, he was probably running away because he was so shy. Maggie did not want to leave the kitchen, wanting to feed us with every passing hour. I could not believe this, turning to my side on the fleece blankets we had lain next to the pool where both Hendrix and I lay soaking in the sun. His shirt had been taken off, leaving his shorts. He hadn’t gotten in the pool and I was still wearing my shorts over the one piece swimming suit. He looked peaceful, I debated whether to even disturb him but I did not want to miss the chance. I lowered back down, decided to let it be. “How are you doing?” The words I had been wanting to ask him since I saw him the previous day suddenly escaped. My chest eased, the weight flew of
Hendrix was in the shower, him having taken Blue to Samantha after them greeting me. My baby had been wide-eyed, probably wondering what had just happened to him so early in the morning. But Hendrix had swore Blue hadn’t cried while they ran through town then back. I could still remember how sweaty and hot his skin had been, my fingertips still buzzing where I had touched him. I couldn’t bear through this, quickly dashing out of the bedroom before I went to the bathroom again to get something that did not even exist. First I went to Samantha and found that she was done bathing Blue and was about to hop into the shower. I picked up Blue and left so she could relax and enjoy her bath. “Hi Maggie,” I greeted walking into the kitchen. I lowered Blue into his kitchen chair. He was being so good to me that day. Maggie glared at me, having me chuckle. “I was thinking that we have breakfast outside today. Do you need any help, I am hands in?” I asked, moving to wash my hands. “No Ma’am,
Hendrix had taken a shower first and I had followed. “I wonder if Ryan has everything he needs,” It was a random thought but very valid. “I am sure he does, I asked Maggie to prepare the room a few days ago.” Hendrix said, flipping over the covers and sliding through.” My mouth turned into an 'O'. But why had Ryan come? It seemed they had planned the trip days ago. I wanted to ask but sealed my lips instead. I pulled the cover back from my side of the bed and slid in. A sigh escaped me as the exhaustion whisked away. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the calm that fell over me. Finals were just a few weeks away and I was pulling all-nighters nearly every night. I just wanted to do my best. “It was nice of him to come though,” I said, turning to my side, my eyes opening only to gasp because this bed was queen-sized which left no space between Hendrix and I. My breath caught in my throat, just a few inches from touching him. Hendrix decided to also turn until he was sleeping on his sid
Everyone left with a large piece of cake. Even the catering staff, all left with a box carrying a large piece of cake. The cake had been a mixture between vanilla, chocolate, red velvet and carrot cake. Each flavor was delicious and I was so full of cake. “Let me get this big guy cleaned up then straight to bed.” Samantha said.Blue was covered in cake icing. He had mashed a large piece with his bare hands, and surely he had eaten very little of it. It seemed he loved mashing it with his hands more than actually eating it. Seeing him excitedly smashing it had been one of my highlights. “Okay, come say night night to mommy.” I held out my hands and Samantha placed him in my arms. Blue was too tired to fight me. I flooded him with a million kisses and was finally able to hug him tightly to me. “I love you my angel, so so much. Happy birthday my little prince.” Once again I was getting emotional. I held him so tightly and did not want to let go as I buried my face in his hair. He was
Two younger teenage girls came and stole Blue away just as Hendrix finished feeding him. They rushed away to the swing where they sat and began carefully swinging with him on one’s lap. Hendrix and I stared for a few minutes before looking away. He was then able to eat his food and I could also start eating mine. I could not stop myself from stealing glances of him as he listened to the conversation going around the table. My husband was so handsome, his hair having been trimmed with the beard I had last seen him spotting gone.The dark under eyes were still there. He was not sleeping and I wondered why. I wanted to ask him how he had been but decided to table it for later. Was he going to stay over or leave? He had never spent a night in the house so I guessed he would be leaving after the party especially because he had come with Ryan. “I heard you are in High school?” A question came and somehow I just knew it had been posed to me. My head picked up, eyes falling on the woman
I ran out of class.The teacher had added twenty minutes stating that he wanted to finish the chapter we were on. I groaned out as I breezed through the corridors. I heard the second the bus arrived and now it was going to leave me behind. I cursed, thinking that I should have taken the car today. But I hated doing that in case something happened to Blue and they needed to take him to the hospital or something. Turning the corner, I caught the back of the bus as it drove away. I continued running, waving my arms drastically. Laughter echoed from behind me and when there was no hope of catching up to the bus I turned and flicked the laughing students off. I groaned out, catching my breath, and combing my hair back with my fingers. I couldn’t be late, not today.I pulled out my phone and quickly dialed Samantha. “Hi Sam, I need your help. The bus left me. Please take the car to collect the cake from the baker’s shop?” “Okay. Will do. Should I get you after?”“No, it’s okay. Please
The ride back was silent and awkward. The music playing did not help at all.I couldn’t stare at him, I barely even ate because of the horror of it all. My throat was all clogged up. “I didn…” I trailed away, my voice shaking, staring at my hands. “What?” Hendrix asked, turning to me. “I didn’t….I …..I wasn…” just rumbling off, fumbling all over my words. “It’s okay, it’s natural.” Natural! Was it possible to get more embarrassed? My head was shaking. “I don…I don’t do that.” Hendrix turned to me and I could see the questions on his face. I did have a baby, I wasn’t innocent of course but I just wanted him to know that I wasn’t like that. I don’t know why I wanted to clarify because there was nothing wrong with pleasuring yourself but I just….I huffed out. “I never…touched myself before.” This was getting worse, my face getting redder. “And it only happened once.” I pushed the rest of the words out, turning to stare outside the window, my nails digging into my palm. The te