I didn’t even want to hear the word floating through the grapevines.
What had I been thinking?
Why had I even called for him? Why?
Every hour of the night I burned in shame.
I kept playing the scene over and over again and hell, it didn’t get better which was why I locked myself in my office.
It was why I never went to the house even though I had planned to.
My mind was nowhere but that reception hall. It was one of my worst moments ever.
I didn’t even dare sleep, just working away with the hope that since it was Friday I could go home for the day. Surely my husband wouldn&rsq
“It’s fifteen minutes to nine!”It was the only greeting I would get. Sweat beads rolled down my forehead from running and panicking.I threw my bags everywhere, throwing my shoes off and pulling clothing as I went.I shut the bathroom door.My hands were shaking as I moved as fast as I could.It felt as if I had eight hands as I took the shortest shower I ever would in my whole life.I had planned to soak and shave but who was I kidding. I sneaked in a two minutes shave of my legs and armpits.“ Come on woman!”I jumped out, if not in my di
My husband and I were making memories, just not the ones you would think.I was as straight as a board.Walking, well, it was just the strut of the legs like a Barbie doll forced to catwalk.The shoes which I had bought at the very same shop were never meant to be worn in my belief.So much pain at the point I couldn’t even pinpoint where the poison was. My husband had marched away three minutes ago to the car. I had slowly walked after him thinking I would die.I could not even bend my neck. At that point I was moving by God’s grace.Each breath taken brought immense pain. The push and fall of my chest stirred something in my stomach which was surely cur
My whole centre burned intensely.“Uhm…” I tried to think of an answer but all my brain could do was concentrate on the pain. It hit like a wrecking ball.I shook my head trying to clear my head with no luck.Eyes stared still, waiting.“Are you okay sweety?”All I could do was nod my head and force a smile.My posture bent a little, thinking that would ease the pain but nope.Just a few more hours, I told myself. The conversation continued without me then I felt something else snap and shit I couldn’t take it anymore.I turned so fas
Silence. I was not sure if it was awkward. Footfalls echoed in our little room, the curtain hiding us away from the rest of the floor. My husband pushed up, his arms on his chest before they lowered and he began pacing again. Never mind that I had three plastic hard wires just hanging from my belly. Never mind the fact that I was only in my underwear, my breast wrapped in a bandeau top they had made for me from bandages. Beside that I was peachy, real peachy. The curtain flew open. “Miss Madroi, sorry for the delay, your doctor is a few minutes away. I will be the assisting nurse.” The woman said, wearing pink scrubs. She wrote on my chart then walked out to push in what I would was an ultrasound and set it up. I was just happy that after thirty minutes of being there, they were finally going to pull out the freaking wires and I could go die in my bed. Surely I had lost interest in speaking, needing to be done for the night. Most calls went unanswered by my husband and th
It was security I never realized I craved. The curve of my fingers on his shirt. His warmth sifted through the hospital sweats I had been gifted. It was his scent flowing through my nostrils and somehow I could feel it’s effect down to my toes. I picked it apart ingredient by ingredient as if I were suddenly an expert on scents. It was the feel of his muscles just fabrics away. It was always romantic when a guy carried a woman in the movies and I had always scoffed because I was convinced no man would carry me. Storm held me to him even in the car. I lay on him fighting the clouds of fatigue with exhaustion wilting me away. It was just after midnight, the day finally gone with a new one upon us. The date would be marked in my journal because of how eventful it was. I held on as if he was my life line. I won’t lie, for me it was magical breathing his scent in, held like a baby by my husband. “You want to get food?” Food was the very reason we were in the predicament we wer
STORMA devil. A sly wicked devil. My eyes narrowed at Amar who drove us home. Our eyes met at the review mirror and he quickly looked away. I could see that smirk on his face, he found this funny. The cars were all filled with groceries, be sure my wife bought everything the store could offer. And the world would have to drown in hell before I ate anything Brandy cooked. I was sure her only experience in the kitchen was washing dishes. There was no way she was cooking anything I would eat. My head snapped to find her head having fallen on my shoulder. In her hand she clenched the fast food paper bags. I shook my head, not even sure how I felt. I should have been fuming. She made me late then pulled me from negotiating a very important deal for the Gambino cartel. That woman. She could just walk in the mist of deadly men and drag me out. I doubt she knew who I stood with, I doubt she even cared. I threw my arm around her shoulders to steady her. She turned, snuggling into my s
BRANDYDid I do anything productive during the weekend? Nope. Did I get rest? Nope. It was one movie after another all day and night long. I could do with more rest but I was ready to kick ass Monday morning.. I even put effort on wearing more makeup and did something other than a ponytail with my hair. Well, when it came to clothes I gave up after an hour of coordinating. It was a good thing Storm had his own driver because he could not stand me taking a whole hour finding an outfit for the day. A new week and nothing had changed. Somehow I got more stern faces and the disbelief inched on every face I came across. What did I do? I closed my office door, it clean and fresh. It was a bit sunny so I opened the windows, letting the sounds of the city greet me. A knock sent me jumping, eyes wide as I turned to the unexpected sound.“Come in.” The click of the heels and wow, legs, such gorgeous legs so early in the morning. I felt like a creep, shaking the thought from my head.
Three days and I still couldn’t get the conversation out of my head. He didn’t need to call, why did he? It was not as if we were really a couple. My heart couldn’t handle such things. My head was way fast, already creating a whole fantasy world and fooling my heart. I hadn’t heard from Storm since he called to let me know he was leaving and I hadn’t been to the house with all the work I had. Somehow I could day dream and work at the same time. I had too much to prove and too much to lose if I failed at this. Something big was waiting for me and I wouldn’t disappoint. An email alert drew my attention from the meeting I was in. I clicked on it while Ben blabbed away on the tiny display. “Mhh..” I nervously clicked on it, eyebrows furrowed. Somehow I couldn’t believe it, so I maximized it on the screen. Dear Miss Madroi,Twenty- three colleagues have reported their inability to do their work. This has been brought by the uneasiness in their work environment brought by behavior
I shot up straight from bed, my head turning with my eyes wide. Somehow I knew I was late. I grabbed my phone which I had failed to charge and set the alarm. I was late! I rolled out of bed, hitting the ground with a thud. I pulled the covers, I would make the bed when I came back from school. As of then I just made it presentable then rushed to the bathroom. The door was thrown wide, stopping in my tracks, eyes wide open as I realized I was not alone and Hendrix was in the shower. The shock quickly wore off as I gave him a wide smile which I was not sure he could see with the wet shower door. “Morning. I will just hop in the tub.” I ran for the sink, scrubbing my teeth clean. I gurgled and scrapped my tongue before running to the tub to fill it. The bus was definitely going to leave me behind. I cursed, jumping in. I scrubbed down as quickly as I could. Hendrix stepped out of the shower and I froze, foam was all over my body. I didn’t even know where to cover; my boobs, my ass,
In a day spent surrounded by people I had begun to see as my family, for a second I found myself alone with my husband. I looked around, Samantha in the pool with Blue. Ryan had gone to take a business call in his room. Javier had left saying he was going to check on something, he was probably running away because he was so shy. Maggie did not want to leave the kitchen, wanting to feed us with every passing hour. I could not believe this, turning to my side on the fleece blankets we had lain next to the pool where both Hendrix and I lay soaking in the sun. His shirt had been taken off, leaving his shorts. He hadn’t gotten in the pool and I was still wearing my shorts over the one piece swimming suit. He looked peaceful, I debated whether to even disturb him but I did not want to miss the chance. I lowered back down, decided to let it be. “How are you doing?” The words I had been wanting to ask him since I saw him the previous day suddenly escaped. My chest eased, the weight flew of
Hendrix was in the shower, him having taken Blue to Samantha after them greeting me. My baby had been wide-eyed, probably wondering what had just happened to him so early in the morning. But Hendrix had swore Blue hadn’t cried while they ran through town then back. I could still remember how sweaty and hot his skin had been, my fingertips still buzzing where I had touched him. I couldn’t bear through this, quickly dashing out of the bedroom before I went to the bathroom again to get something that did not even exist. First I went to Samantha and found that she was done bathing Blue and was about to hop into the shower. I picked up Blue and left so she could relax and enjoy her bath. “Hi Maggie,” I greeted walking into the kitchen. I lowered Blue into his kitchen chair. He was being so good to me that day. Maggie glared at me, having me chuckle. “I was thinking that we have breakfast outside today. Do you need any help, I am hands in?” I asked, moving to wash my hands. “No Ma’am,
Hendrix had taken a shower first and I had followed. “I wonder if Ryan has everything he needs,” It was a random thought but very valid. “I am sure he does, I asked Maggie to prepare the room a few days ago.” Hendrix said, flipping over the covers and sliding through.” My mouth turned into an 'O'. But why had Ryan come? It seemed they had planned the trip days ago. I wanted to ask but sealed my lips instead. I pulled the cover back from my side of the bed and slid in. A sigh escaped me as the exhaustion whisked away. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the calm that fell over me. Finals were just a few weeks away and I was pulling all-nighters nearly every night. I just wanted to do my best. “It was nice of him to come though,” I said, turning to my side, my eyes opening only to gasp because this bed was queen-sized which left no space between Hendrix and I. My breath caught in my throat, just a few inches from touching him. Hendrix decided to also turn until he was sleeping on his sid
Everyone left with a large piece of cake. Even the catering staff, all left with a box carrying a large piece of cake. The cake had been a mixture between vanilla, chocolate, red velvet and carrot cake. Each flavor was delicious and I was so full of cake. “Let me get this big guy cleaned up then straight to bed.” Samantha said.Blue was covered in cake icing. He had mashed a large piece with his bare hands, and surely he had eaten very little of it. It seemed he loved mashing it with his hands more than actually eating it. Seeing him excitedly smashing it had been one of my highlights. “Okay, come say night night to mommy.” I held out my hands and Samantha placed him in my arms. Blue was too tired to fight me. I flooded him with a million kisses and was finally able to hug him tightly to me. “I love you my angel, so so much. Happy birthday my little prince.” Once again I was getting emotional. I held him so tightly and did not want to let go as I buried my face in his hair. He was
Two younger teenage girls came and stole Blue away just as Hendrix finished feeding him. They rushed away to the swing where they sat and began carefully swinging with him on one’s lap. Hendrix and I stared for a few minutes before looking away. He was then able to eat his food and I could also start eating mine. I could not stop myself from stealing glances of him as he listened to the conversation going around the table. My husband was so handsome, his hair having been trimmed with the beard I had last seen him spotting gone.The dark under eyes were still there. He was not sleeping and I wondered why. I wanted to ask him how he had been but decided to table it for later. Was he going to stay over or leave? He had never spent a night in the house so I guessed he would be leaving after the party especially because he had come with Ryan. “I heard you are in High school?” A question came and somehow I just knew it had been posed to me. My head picked up, eyes falling on the woman
I ran out of class.The teacher had added twenty minutes stating that he wanted to finish the chapter we were on. I groaned out as I breezed through the corridors. I heard the second the bus arrived and now it was going to leave me behind. I cursed, thinking that I should have taken the car today. But I hated doing that in case something happened to Blue and they needed to take him to the hospital or something. Turning the corner, I caught the back of the bus as it drove away. I continued running, waving my arms drastically. Laughter echoed from behind me and when there was no hope of catching up to the bus I turned and flicked the laughing students off. I groaned out, catching my breath, and combing my hair back with my fingers. I couldn’t be late, not today.I pulled out my phone and quickly dialed Samantha. “Hi Sam, I need your help. The bus left me. Please take the car to collect the cake from the baker’s shop?” “Okay. Will do. Should I get you after?”“No, it’s okay. Please
The ride back was silent and awkward. The music playing did not help at all.I couldn’t stare at him, I barely even ate because of the horror of it all. My throat was all clogged up. “I didn…” I trailed away, my voice shaking, staring at my hands. “What?” Hendrix asked, turning to me. “I didn’t….I …..I wasn…” just rumbling off, fumbling all over my words. “It’s okay, it’s natural.” Natural! Was it possible to get more embarrassed? My head was shaking. “I don…I don’t do that.” Hendrix turned to me and I could see the questions on his face. I did have a baby, I wasn’t innocent of course but I just wanted him to know that I wasn’t like that. I don’t know why I wanted to clarify because there was nothing wrong with pleasuring yourself but I just….I huffed out. “I never…touched myself before.” This was getting worse, my face getting redder. “And it only happened once.” I pushed the rest of the words out, turning to stare outside the window, my nails digging into my palm. The te
My husband was in the shower, just a glass away, naked, and washing his body. I nearly choked on the toothpaste, my face burning red. He had walked in while I had been in the shower to brush his teeth. When I stepped out, he had walked into the shower, not caring that I could see his naked body. I had only gotten a glimpse of his body and that was enough for me. I quickly rinsed my mouth and scurried away to get ready for bed, then I slipped in. I found myself clutching the covers up to my chin, knowing he would soon join me. But the bed was big enough, we probably would not even touch. I turned to my side, closing my eyes. The day had taken its toll on me, and I was exhausted. It had been a good day despite the morning.Just as I felt sleep claw the surface, the bathroom door opened and once again I was wide awake. On me, I wore Hendrix’s t-shirt. The friends had rooms in each other’s houses. Hendrix had a whole wardrobe here, and I would soon get mine too. The lights were turned