Love, what's love when it comes to being ourselves? Love, what's that bittersweet sound of love when it comes to being just our sorrows? Love, what's love when it comes to struggling with our own heart that just knows how to cry out the name of the person who made us believe in love once?Not all seasons would be the same, not even months, not even days and hours would be lived as happily as those ones she shared with the man she thought would stay forever by her side. Many memories, many laughs, many blessed days she had lived by his side and, for the first time in her life, she had felt valued by a man. How come no one else could see her beauty? How come no one else was there for her as Gabriel was once? The birds didn't chirp anymore, the sunlight coming through her window didn't warm her just as his hugs did, that particular perfume that she swore life had was no longer breathed in by her because, at the end of the day, life didn't have perfume, life was not written in sceneries
THREE MONTHS LATER It had been three months from the day Gabriel started paying the price for his mistakes. There was no forgiveness for him, no matter how much he searched for it, because, in the end, the only person who could give him her forgiveness seemed not to live there anymore and not only that, she seemed to have disappeared from the world. It had been three months and she was no longer where he could see her. He still remembered that day when he received the not-expected news.As always, the guilt in his heart led him to go to that place where he could be healed again by the innocence of her gazes, those stolen glazes and the yearning in her eyes that made him aware how truly she was loving him.Adolescents make mistakes, sometimes more serious than adults. Sometimes adults make more serious mistakes than adolescents, but, what about that pain he had provoked her? Which group should it be labeled with?He had seen here and there how boyfriends were used to cheating on thei
With pain in her heart, with fears that came straight into her heart, she had won the first battle against Gabriel at least for some time, because in the end of the day, it was a matter of time for him to know the truth. There were so many things she didn’t want to remember, such as those days where she didn’t have the strength to climb the mountain where Gabriel had abandoned her heart, or those tears that fell from her eyes on the sleepless nights when she found herself with her son being her support. It was true that Gabriel had given the best gift in life, but that didn’t mean she was ready to get her heart stabbed as he had done once.She had lied to him as she never imagined doing, that baby of hers was his son too. It was true she had come back to say the truth, but since Ian appeared into her life, everything seemed to be a mirage. Maybe, maybe if Ian hadn’t appeared in her way, she had said the truth at that moment. Nothing ahead was clear, everything was clouded by the gaze
Instantly, as soon as Alice’s heart felt the presence of Joseph, she ran to her son without wondering about the person who had brought him to her. She needed to hug him and feel the danger he could be in was gone.If only her son could understand how worried to death she was, he would’ve regretted having escaped for a moment. All the people around Alice and Joseph couldn't help but smile at seeing the encounter between a mother and a son. She really loved that baby boy and everyone there had seen how she could have died without him in her life.And, what can we say about Ian? His world had fallen apart at seeing that scene. In the end of the day, Alice, Gabriel and Joseph were fated to meet again, they were fated to see themselves as a family and Ian from a corner, watching them being happy.It depended on Alice to forgive and forget all the pain he provoked in her little heart, because Ian knew, he knew even if the tried to come across as the heartless woman in front of the man who h
And Alice, what was going on in her heart and in her thoughts? Even if she didn’t want to realize, her feelings and her entire heart had revealed itself against her, she seemed not to be the owner of her inner world anymore, without realizing she was thinking about Ian. It was a mistake when she thought she could have had feelings for Gabriel, she knew that when she was close to him, such close to breathing his perfume. But, what about Ian? Seeing his smile was becoming her favorite hobbit in the same way as seeing her son in his arms. She was not ready to let her feelings speak for themselves, she was not ready to let herself be carried away by the energy given off by that man. She just wanted answers to the questions she didn’t dare to ask.Something she was sure of those emotions couldn’t turn into feelings. It was not healthy for him, it was not healthy for her. Ian would suffer so much, she couldn’t do that to the person who had brought magic to her son’s life. He didn’t deserve
The hours went by; some moments were busier than others for both of them, always with a smile on their faces doing what they loved the most. The encounters between them in the hallways of the hospital ended up in a smile. Ian enjoyed the vibes of positives given off of her after passing by his side, while Alice walked off with thousands of questions assaulting her mind. Why that smile on her face? What about those hidden words in his eyes? Why that shiny smile in his eyes? Stars hanging up from her sky in the world she built just for her son, stars that were from his world to decorate hers, because at the end, everyone has a world in their inner existence.At the moment she found herself alone just with her thoughts, she couldn’t help but think about the memories that Ian had brought to her life. She couldn’t help but remember that morning when Ian had called her in a different way.She took out the resignation letter from her pocket scrub. That day when she had finally made a decisio
Confessing what we feel, it's hard to accept, firstly for ourselves and then, learn to live with that while our heart feels like crying out those hidden feelings and secrets when looking into that person's eyes who stole our heart just with a smile to make it his or her own castle and do whatever change they want in it. Fear fills our heart in the mere instant we hear our hearts talking on their own, endless fears such as; the fear of being rejected by that lovely person, the fear of giving everything but getting nothing because that's love. Even the most genuine love is always going to ask for something. Even genuine love wants something, even a single gaze filled with love and care is enough to prolong the light of that cane called love. At that moment, Alice was so close to his heart, she feared. She just wanted to run away as her life depended on that, she just wished to be as strong and brave as he was to confess that. Those words sounded like a melody to her, but her fears made
It had been almost seven years since the day of his birth; it had been a little bit longer since she knew she was pregnant with Gabriel’s baby. So many lies, so much time had gone and she never came back to say a word to Alice’s son, who kept suffering day by day after his mistake. Alice did not deserve to be excused; Alice had nothing to say to back herself up. All she had done until that moment was a mistake. How come she dared to hide that baby that was not only hers but Nancy’s son as well? How come she could live like that for over six years? Her son, that little angel, just because he was too innocent to understand, she decided to decide for him? She could not be a good mom since she had done that t her own son.Nancy’s son made a mistake with the woman who loved him the most. Nancy was aware of that. She knew a woman can’t forget what a man did but that didn’t give the right to act like that. In the same way as Alice, Nancy had been cheated on too. Who was Alice after all to de
A DREAM COME TRUEIn life, thousands of decisions to make; in life, millions of different paths to follow; in life, just one lonely soul who struggles day by day, step by step, second by second to give the best when that person is not even the best version of oneself.What about the world? What about that world which expects the best of us? How wrong the people who say adolescents like to feel they owe the world. They can destroy it and build it as many times as we want.When we are adolescents we don't look for becoming a wrecking ball to destroy the world and build it our way. If people could just understand, we just look for that path, that way we can walk through and feel ourselves.We want to be loved, we want to feel we belong to one heart, we just want to stay in the heart that will become our home eventually for the rest of our lives. Because if something of what people think of a
In the end, there is no such medicine as time. Time heals wounds, time makes us better people, time makes us understand those things we could not understand before. The present hurts while the future sleeps and the past dies. No one knows the reasons of the events that we're going through at a given moment until later the threads of life came to be just one, giving meaning to all the things that didn't have in their moment. Everything is time, nothing comes if it's not by time which leads it to us. There is no answer that doesn't depend on time. If we, most of the time, don't have reasons for all our acts, how do we pretend to have the answers that life has just to the questions that make for the same life?The past and present beget the future, that one which we're more afraid of.Learning to love is part of life, waiting for the right one is knowing what we deserve.Alice had closed a very important cycle i
The seconds went by quickly, not even Alice expected what she had seen for the last time, because it was enough a long step from Gabriel to approach her and then, with no warning of his intentions, his hands behind her back head and their lips together again after seven years. If she was not in love with him, that kiss would speak for her. Alice didn't close her eyes, not even for a second, she wanted to get rid of him, but regrettably, she felt nothing compared to the manly strength he put forth.He had finally reached her lips, he was kissing how he had wished to do since the first moment he met her and Alice. She was about to lose who she loved the most as a consequence of that unwanted and undesired kiss.Alice's heart broke at the mere moment she saw Ian with teary eyes looking at them. Damn her fortune was, the man she loved the most, the man she thought about living the rest of her life with was staring at them with some t
Feeling the headache killing her, she couldn’t process what her friend was telling Alice.“Alice?” named Dayanna, as she hadn’t heard Gabriel’s voice.“Yes, Dayanna?” replied Alice, sitting up on the grim.“Congratulations, you're going to be a mom!”Her breath stopped, her mind stop sending messages to her body and suddenly, she just became a living body that acted by instinct. Those words that her friend said had come directly into her heart. She couldn't believe what she just heard, it couldn't be possible. Once again, she was pregnant, once again a life was inside her and suddenly, she felt the same inexperienced teenager that was pregnant with Gabriel’s baby but now, with the difference she didn't need that baby to cling to life. Now, she would be able to give him or her life not the other way around as happened at the day she gave birth to Jos
It'd been three days since the day Gabriel swore to get closer to Alice and then, have her heart again. He was convinced she was still in love with him, he was convinced she tried to have feelings for Ian just because she wanted to forget Gabriel. In his mind, Alice was still his, it was just a matter of time to make her believe in the world he was starting to build for her and his son. They were a family already, he just needed to get closer to her. He had changed and it was time for him to show Alice the new person he had become after the pain Gabriel had caused her.Gabriel just couldn’t stand the idea of Alice thinking about Ian all the time. Gabriel couldn’t stand the idea of Alice working not to let Ian down. If Alice could see into Ian’s eyes, everything would be different, she wouldn’t have to worry about being the perfect woman in front of him, because if Gabriel had to be aware of something that was, he had been the first one to make it
What happens when one color gets combined with another one? What happens when feelings come into the one person's heart and that person's feelings come into our hearts? What happens with the merger of water and earth? What happens when the sound and the words combine and make themselves one? What does it have to happen to exist the magic, the magic of love?Maybe all that needs to happen to exist magic, genuine feelings, colors that we don't see frequently is to hear the crying of a new born.“It's a boy!"There, where Alice felt she couldn't hold anymore what she was feeling and after having pushed for the third and last time, she could finally lean back her head at the same time her body seemed to lay down as well.It was done, all she feared one day, all she couldn't imagine because of her fears had ended there. It was over, one cycle had been ended when she felt how her body could lay down an
Once upon a time, there was a meaningless life waiting to be lived. Once upon a time, there was a meaningless life waiting to be cherished, because that is a life for, isn’t it?What about those people who spend their lives complaining about the things they had and they don’t have? What about that life that was given to them to be lived as they pleased but preferred to look into other people’s lives to see what theirs are lacking?Life is not only a process we have to live because, first of all, “have to” it’s not the phrase we should use when we refer to life. Life is a pleasure, life is seeing that hopeless world turning into a world full of magic, of colors, of wishes, of love.What happens when our lives get stained by the colors of negative feelings? What happens when negative feelings start growing in our hearts? The truth is nothing happens, the truth is everyone feels –at some point in their lives– tho
There were just ruins in the hearts of the people who were taking hands in that place where the truth had destroyed more than had healed. How long had they been waiting for that moment? Gabriel’s heart knew that, his heart always knew there was something else, something she had to be hiding. Those sleepless nights, those dreams, those screams in his heart and finally, that moment between his son and him.Stars, heaven, God and maybe, all of them at the same time had heard Joseph’s prayers before going to bed. Just heaven knew how much he had prayed for that moment, because not even his mother was aware of the pain she had caused him by running away from the person that hurt her but not her son. In the end, Joseph was not guilty, he had just been a victim there.Human beings make mistakes, some of them make bigger mistakes and others just make mistakes, but, what about those ones who mess up with their lives so that innocent ones make them pay for what they
It was still difficult to look back to those days where the sadness was all reigned in her life. It was still difficult to remember. There was no one else there but her baby and the family that took care of her. Yes, she was thankful to those people who were with her at the most difficult moment in her life, but that didn’t mean she didn’t want to give her son another life, the kind of life her son saw in his friends. We can’t have everything at once. That’s right but, why did her son have to pay the consequences of the mistakes of those people?It was hard to remember or even, to look back at those memories just for one second and see herself taking care of her son when she was giving up. Maybe, if Gabriel had been there, the present and the future would be different.But among the pain, among the sad moment, among the tears, the loneliness, the regret, the anger was Ian and the present, in that present where she had finally said everything. Th