AMBER.
“Everything is about you! I tried for so long, but this is where it all led me to! I regret that night! And I hate you!” Zach was growling, his hand continuously pounding on his thigh as blood soaked his pants.
“Stop! Please…” I slowly sank to my knees. “Please, Zach…”
“Get out! Or I won’t stop doing this!” His eyes dilated, and I knew he meant what he was saying.
I scampered to my feet, tears rolling down my cheeks as I stepped outside his room, closing the door before I ran to the nearest balcony.
I stood there, hands holding onto the railing as I looked up at the moon. She was the only witness to my misery tonight. I didn’t stop myself from crying to her.
“How much more pain will you give me?” I couldn’t breathe. The pain in my heart was unbearable. I thought I had felt all the pain possible that Zach could give me, but nothing compared to how I felt tonight.
I was hurting for myself, but I was hurting more for him. I just wanted the nightmare to end.
When my tears finally subsided, I walked back to the corridor. I thought I would just slip the room card in the gap under the door, and then I would leave.
Maybe this was the end of us. Maybe I should just give up. Maybe seeing me was a constant reminder that he lost his ability to walk.
I had no idea how I would move on, but I would walk away even if I didn’t want to.
I would do this for him. It didn’t matter anymore if I lived my whole life wanting him. If moving on and forgetting him would make him move forward, I would give it to him.
I would just learn to love him from afar.
I wiped my tears and removed my shoes before walking barefoot toward his room, not making any noise at all. I was almost there when I noticed the door was slightly open. My forehead creased because I was sure I shut it hard.
Did he leave?
I was about to push the door open, but my hand got stuck in the air. I was not prepared for what I heard.
Zach was crying. Not the loud kind of cry, but in a way that would cause your heart to bleed. I could tell he was trying to stifle his cries.
The strongest man I knew was crying on his own.
I lowered my body to the floor and sat just beside the door, resting my back against the wall. I didn’t mind that I was wearing an expensive dress, and it could end up dusty or dirty.
A part of me wanted to go to him and hug him, but I knew he would only push me away. So I just stayed there listening as he cried while I stifled my own sobs. In a way, even if he didn’t know, I wanted to share in his misery—even if I was miserable already on my own, even if his actions were already killing what was left of my heart.
I bent my knees and covered my mouth to avoid making any noise.
I didn’t know how long I stayed there—not moving, not minding that I was hungry and tired. I just let my tears fall until finally, his crying stopped, and I heard him snoring softly.
He fell asleep.
I waited for a few minutes before I slowly rose to my feet and carefully pushed the door just enough to see him. He was in bed and lying on top of the blanket.
He moved on his own. But I expected nothing less from him. He was, after all, Zachary Adams. I knew he would push himself to do things and move without any assistance, and he really did well after over a year.
I entered the room and closed the door. I went directly to the balcony and closed it as well, as it was cold. No wonder he didn’t scent me because the wind was blowing from the outside.
After that, I just stood there beside his bed, watching him as his chest went up and down.
And the tears came again.
Before I left the main balcony outside, I was so sure that this was it—that I would move on.
But how do you say goodbye to someone who has been your whole life? I didn’t know when I fell deeply in love with Zach, but I knew that by the time I was learning how to write and read, I would always force myself to write him a letter and read it out loud to him.
It was always us.
We were supposed to end up together. We were supposed to be the perfect couple. We never crossed the boundaries of our friendship and never stepped over the lines. We waited until we were both of age before we took a step further into what we had.
We waited our whole lives to be together, so I couldn’t understand why he didn’t want me anymore.
I couldn’t understand why us? We didn’t hurt anyone or cause any pain to anyone. I wish I had answers.
I told myself I should leave, but my body betrayed me.
Instead, I climbed to the bed and lay down beside him. My arm wrapped around his body as I scooted my head to his side, letting myself find solace in his warmth.
I knew I might get shouted at when he woke up. He might throw words again that will shatter my confidence, but at least I get to hug him—even for the last time.
AMBER.‘Amber?’ A voice dug into my head, waking me up from my sleep. ‘Hmmm…’ I mumbled, trying to wake my senses up. ‘Where are you?’ Eva asked before she continued talking in one breath. ‘They’re waiting for us at the packhouse for breakfast. I told them you were showering, and we were on the way there. I’ve been trying to wake you up for the last ten minutes.’ My eyes snapped open, and I stared at the ceiling when I remembered Zach and where I was. ‘I told Mom you were here with me. So hurry up!’ ‘Okay,’ I mumbled my reply, and the mindlink disconnected. My hands moved and crawled to my sides. The bed was empty, and the sheets were cold. It meant I was alone for a long time. I sat up and let my eyes roam around the room. There was no more wheelchair or any signs of another presence beside me. He left. He saw me beside him, and he left. My eyes watered again as I pushed myself to stand until I realized my shoes were nicely placed just beside the bed and that I had a bla
PRESENT TIME. This scene picks up from To Love The Female Alpha Chapter 163Zach - 23 years oldAmber - 20 years oldZACH.“So what’s stopping you?” I asked my father, Riley, the former Alpha of this pack. My eyes shifted between him and my mother, Luna Nadia.They just came back from the Dark Forest Pack, where they visited Nadine, my mother’s sister, who was around the same age as me. Also, at any moment, my Beta would be arriving with his fated mate, Mindy, who was also part of Nadine’s pack. He was taking her home to officially claim her as his mate. If there was anyone I wanted around me in the packhouse, it was my Beta, not my parents. At 23, I didn’t need them watching my every move. So, as soon as they returned to the territory, I asked to speak with them.Earlier, I got a call from Uncle Jake, the current Council Head. He informed me that Uncle Caspian and Aunt Andrea had moved to the Council territory yesterday, and he was also waiting for Dad and Mom to make their move
ZACH.“No, Dad! You listen! If you think I want to be stuck in this chair, I don’t, but I don’t have a choice. I have to live with that! But it’s supposed to be just me, and not you.”My eyes were stinging, but I did my best to blink back any tears forming. The last thing I wanted was for them to think I was still weak.“You need to be minding your own lives now. Just you and Mom! We’re all grown-ups here, maybe not Winter. Take her with you, but let me live as I see fit. I lost my ability to walk—just my feet. Don’t let me lose my confidence, too. You’re taking it away from me.”Mom’s eyes were watering, but she kept her tears at bay.“Don’t think like that. You are doing great these last two years. We don’t want you to feel we are abandoning you.”“I want you to abandon me... So I can grow from here.” I blurted out.“Did you remember in the hospital when they told you you wouldn’t be able to walk again? Dad said he’d be your feet…” Mom’s tears were already trickling down her face, an
AMBER.“I’m not sure why, at twenty years old, you are telling me that I can’t decide for myself while you, at the same age, can handle a whole pack! Am I that inferior to you that I can’t even make decisions for my own life?” I couldn’t stop my mouth from retorting. I went to my brother’s office and told him I had decided to take Nikka and Ara’s offer to stay with them for a couple of months. This was a day after our parents had relocated to the Council territory. “Amber, that’s not what I mean,” Cyrus grunted, brushing his palms against his face.“So what do you mean by your question asking if Mom agreed to this?”“I just don’t want to be the one blamed when they find out you’d left and gone to Zach.”“I’m of age, Cy. If they find out and become upset, it’s on me. Not you. I know you want to take care of everyone, but look at you. Do you even take care of yourself? Do you even sleep? You’ve been tracking her nonstop, plus managing all these pack-related problems. You have so many t
AMBER. I had no idea how the twins managed it, but I was granted entry to their territory without the men at the border needing to call Zach or anyone. But just looking at the expression of my grumpy but still handsome and sexy ex-fiancé, he didn’t like that I came here.“And here it goes…” I mumbled as I entered the driveway of their packhouse, preparing myself for the worst. I stopped the car and turned off the engine before removing the engagement ring I’d been wearing whenever I was out so men would stop hitting on me. I slid it to a secure spot in my handbag before taking out the golden bangle that Zach gave me when I was eight years old. Eva surprised me with it on my 20th birthday by having it adjusted. It was cut and connected with short gold chains so I could fit it around my wrist. I should have been upset that she had it altered, but I remembered how I could use it to my advantage against Zach, so I eventually forgave her. “Do not cry when he growls. Or do not run awa
ZACH.My heart thudded loudly as sweat formed on my palms and everywhere on my body. I didn’t like this. I didn’t like that at all. I kept myself from growling as I turned my chair around and rolled myself inside the house. I shut off everyone from my hearing because hearing my mother talk to Amber would make this harder for me. She had always liked her. She was the first to celebrate when I told them I wanted Amber as my Luna and would claim her at the Claiming. My mother surely knew how to play her game—either her or Amber. A tough choice because I wanted both of them out of this house.I slammed my office door closed and went to the biggest window overlooking our massive garden. I stared at nothing except the flowers and bushes. Everything on the other side was colorful and bright, unlike what I felt inside—dull, dark, and gray.I didn’t need a babysitter, and certainly not a female who thought she could tie up her life with me just because I saved her. Of course, she would. Amber
AMBER. Dinner was pleasant and welcoming, only because Zach didn’t join us. I didn’t mind at all. I didn’t want my first night to be ruined. Even if he didn’t want me here, the rest of his household did. It was enough to bring my confidence up. It was also the last dinner before Uncle Riley and Aunt Nadia would drive to the Council Territory. They would take Winter with them, which the latter didn’t like. She would rather stay here, but her parents were not bending on that despite the tears she shed. But all ended well.Mindy, on the other hand, was so timid that she would rarely raise her head to look at us. This bothered me because I had already heard from Hanna some things about her and what she went through from her previous Alpha. I was concerned that she was forced to be here. Only when I really looked into her and her interaction with Arlo did everything make sense.She was uncomfortable with this new place and everyone around her, but her face lit up whenever Arlo attended
BETA ARLO. It was Mindy’s first night here, so I wanted to retire to bed early. I left Gamma Drake at the training building before rushing home to where my mate was. She was in the kitchen, so I headed there directly, only to find Lady Amber with her. It was not an unusual sight because, before the accident, Amber was comfortable in every part of this house. She also had a good relationship with the Omegas, so she was often there with them if Zach was busy doing pack-related things or in a meeting. But what I heard caught me off guard. Zach met his fated mate, and he didn’t say anything to me. After Lady Amber arrived and it was decided she would stay, I went to his office and asked if he was okay. I found him deep in his thoughts. I thought it was a natural thing, as his ex-fiancée was here. He said he was fine and told me we should proceed with having Mindy join the pack as planned. So we did that. He swore Mindy in, but after that, we were dismissed immediately. Before I left
AMBER.I left his chair in the middle of the living room before returning to the door to close and lock it. When I turned around, he was already facing me and was locking his chair. “Come here…” He patted his thighs, and I wasted no time in sitting on his lap, straddling him. Zach cupped my face as he looked deeply into my eyes. “I don’t know what you heard, but I assume you heard about Estelle and Alpha Grant wanting me to take her as my Luna.”I nodded, and he continued. “I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want you to think about it. After all the pain I gave you, you don’t deserve these additional worries.”“But I wished you still told me…” I said while smoothing the collar of his shirt.He let out a sigh and removed his hands from my face. “I’m sorry. I meant well, but like what happened in the past two years, my lapse of judgment has been apparent with every decision I made.” “Like you said, you meant well. I could never hold that against you, but now, I want to know everythin
AMBER.“I should get going. Zach is still in the car, and I told him I was only here to convince you he didn’t want to claim Estelle.” Dad pressed a kiss on the top of my head as we walked toward the front door, our arms still around each other. “Don’t give him a hard time. I could tell he never wanted to.”“I know, Dad. That’s why I ran here instead of elsewhere. I want to speak with him first.”“This cabin is beautiful.”“He built this house for me,” I said proudly as we stood at the front door. I met his eyes while a broad smile was plastered on my face.“Did he?”I nodded, still smiling. “He said this was supposed to be his gift for me for our union, but the accident happened. But he kept it well maintained. I love it.”“He’s full of surprises, isn’t he?”I nodded, my eyes beaming with happiness.“I’m glad even with everything happening around you, Zach can still make you smile beautifully.”“He’s the only thing that keeps me going,” I told him until I realized my words. “I mean,
AMBER.“What’s another way out?”“You, with your wolf out,” Dad said, and the color drained from my face as I stared at him with my mouth open.“We checked the copy of Zach’s blood contract, and this part was not included in his but was on Grant’s or the Council’s copy. Zach also signed it, but maybe he didn’t notice this extra page. We assumed Grant also forgot this page.”“I don’t understand how Alpha Grant forgot this page.”“We could only assume he wanted to do this blood contract to power trip, and you were the first condition. Zach could not claim anyone except you, only if your wolf surfaced. Grant had always looked down upon females with no wolf. Same reason he never helped his own sister, Lexi’s mother, because she was wolfless. I was sure he thought of you as the way out to mock you and Zach. But eventually he remembered that he had a daughter whom he could put in a better place. So he scrapped you and changed it to her. But he forgot to change his contract to delete you. He
AMBER. I had no idea where to go. The cabin was the only place I could think of, but going there would take too much time, as I didn’t have a wolf, and I was already worn out from training. And with the pain in my chest, I didn’t think I could run any further. So I asked someone to drive me to the brook.I entered the cabin and stayed in the living room, sitting on the couch and watching as the fireplace began warming up the whole house. I had no idea how long I’d been there when I heard a car approaching, and I could only guess the warrior told Zach where I went, which was what I really wanted. I wanted to speak with him.I still had no idea what his plans were, but I wanted to believe he loved me and was choosing me. That was the reason he was giving up, the reason he wanted to step down as an Alpha and not push for it anymore. I didn’t know if I could live with him choosing me over his title. I never wanted to be the reason he stepped down as an Alpha, the same way I hated mysel
ZACH. After my conversation with Dad, Arlo told me Amber had asked someone to drive her to the brook where my cabin was. And it calmed my heart.I was worried she had run off somewhere or tried to leave the territory, but going to the cabin meant she wanted refuge in our own world. I had no idea what she heard, but I hoped this was a sign she was giving me a chance to explain.They were still eating dinner when I told them I would see Amber first, and Uncle Caspian volunteered to drive me there. He said he wanted a word with his daughter. And I knew I could not refuse it. While driving, he asked me if it would be okay if he asked Amber what she heard. He promised he would try to explain the best way he could, so she wouldn’t be upset with me once she faced me. I was grateful for that, as I didn’t want to argue with Amber, either. I knew I was wrong to hide it from her, but I did it because I didn’t want her to think about it. Although it was revealed now, at least I had her father
ZACH.By the time I was done telling them about our plans, Uncle Jake was smiling widely, and I was left confused. I was sure I didn’t say anything funny. Or did he think our plan was a big joke?My forehead creased the moment I stopped talking, and when I met his gaze, he flashed me a smug smirk. “You love her, don’t you?”I swallowed, and I felt my cheeks burning. Admitting to Amber that I love her was easier than saying it in a room full of older Alphas, including her father. “Your eyes twinkle, and your mouth twitches when you mention her name.” He added.“Like every sentence, you need to add her name to remind us it was her who gave you this idea. Or that she was with you.” Arlo added, and the smile on his face told me they were saying it in good faith, not to embarrass me. I dipped my head and gathered my hair, fixing the bun on my head. I didn’t know what to say, and I didn’t want to look at Uncle Caspian, as I knew I also owed him an apology. “Let’s not stress my boy here,”
ZACH. “Alpha,” Arlo called me, and I turned around to face him. He hadn’t answered the phone yet, but he was looking at the caller ID. “It’s Alpha Grant on the line.”I was right. This was not the first time he called. He would call from time to time to check on me, but I knew he wanted to remind me of the contract. I felt all eyes on me as the phone kept ringing. “I will answer it and put it on speaker,” I told them, and I saw some of them nod their heads. “But I want everyone to keep their silence.”There was nothing to hide anymore, so I might as well let them all in. ‘Can you order all borders not to allow Amber to leave?’ I mindlinked with Arlo as I rolled back toward my table. “Silver Moon Pack, this is Alpha Zach,” I said after I answered the call and put it on speaker. “I know Jacob is in there, together with his minions.” He said that without even greeting me. “Are you fucking watching me?” Uncle Jake answered, and I wanted to roll my eyes. What happened to keeping t
ZACH.“We can’t settle this if you keep shouting at each other.” Uncle Jake said at the exact moment a knock came and the door opened, revealing Arlo. I didn’t know if I would be grateful or annoyed at his disturbance, but all I knew was I didn’t want him in the office while Dad was pointing out all the wrong decisions I made—making me feel less of an Alpha than I already felt in the past two years. And then Mindy came and saw the pictures of Gray. She walked out and was followed by Arlo while the rest of us remained silent. I could already tell they were thinking the same thing as I was, but no one said anything about it, as if saying it out loud would make it a reality.But goddamn it, I wished I was wrong. I could only imagine what Mindy was feeling when she asked me if I was friends with Gray. The fuck, I was glad I wasn’t.Another Omega came to clean the spill and the shattered cup. Dad must have mindlinked someone, as I was frozen in my seat. After she left, Dad was calmer. H
ZACH.The moment Drake told me that the border advised him that Dad had entered the territory with three more Alphas, including Uncle Jake, I already knew something was off.I wanted to reach out to Amber and ask if she had told her father about the contract, but I didn’t want her to think I was accusing her of something. So, I just prepared myself for a confrontation because I was sure this was not just an ordinary visit. Uncle Jake, Aeon, and Caspian entered the room first. Although I could see their tensed shoulders, they offered me welcoming smiles before settling into the different areas of my office. Dad was the last one to enter.He came in with a dark expression, holding folders in his hand. He closed the door, almost slamming it, before walking forward and tossing the folders on my desk. They slid and stopped exactly in front of me.“What’s the meaning of that?” He asked in almost a growly tone.It had been too long since he was furious with me, and I could already tell why