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Chapter 47. I want this
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2024-10-29 19:42:56After 3 long years of studying, Sarah applied like a crazy woman to every company she could find advertising. It was not that she was unhappy, it was because she needed a new , fresh start.
Sarah dressed in a pencil skirt, black stockings, a crisp white shirt and a sleeveless coat. Tying her hair up in a bun, leaving tendrils around her face so she didn;t look like an air hostess, she applied light make up.
She decided to go with a small heel closed tipped shoe, shiny red ro break up the black and white she had going on.
Looking at herself in the mirror, she applied a red lipstick.
''Pluck,pluck'', she puckered her lips together making sure it was evenly spread.
''Good day, I am Sarah White'', She said, reaching out her hand to the mirror.
''No, no, no. I sound like a dead beat'',She muttered under her breath.
Looking at the red and silver clock hanging in the far end of the room, she read the time,''9h30am''.
''I still have an
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As Sarah watched the receptionist look at her like a wench, she stood up straight. trying to raiate some confidence and authority.The entire waiting room was full of applicants. Sarah began to wonder , what made her different from the rest?She took a seat, scoping the room for her competition. There where a few blonde girls. They looked as if they were auditioning for Hannah Montana.There was a black guy, he looked like his suit was swallowing him.Two red hair guys, One was awefully short with big bushy hair, like eep from the croods, but a male version, while the other was tall and tarzan looking. Sarah had to take a few deep breats and look out the window, incase she burst out in laughter.It was clear the receptionists were digging that look.There was going to be alot of competition. All these people in this room looked serious.Watching a few other people now join the bunch, there were a total of fifteen people here for the same inte
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Sarah White acquired the job she so much wanted. It was a dream come true. She worked all her life for this. She longed to have a job that would pay for all her necessities and luxuries. Sarah went home smiling. She celebrated that night with a glass of wine and a bottle of champagne. Her kids were over the moon. Sarah worked all year round at this job. It took most of her energy but she loved it. It kept her busy most of the day. Her thoughts were never given the chance to wonder if she was truly happy.Sarah smiled as she looked at the seventy five thousand Rands provident fund pay out from her previous employer. She wanted to save it or invest it. She had goals and dreams. A dream to study supply chain management. "Did you get the money?", Jacob asked that afternoon. Sarah wanted to say no but she could not bring herself to speak a lie. She nodded. Jacob jumped up and down with excitement, "I have been seeing a few vehicles for us to purchase." Jessica looked at him in surpri
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The next few weeks jessica looked at vehicles online with Jacob. It was something she found uninteresting but she did it to see the smile on his face.There was one in particular he had set his mind on. Although Sarah did not agree, she went with him anyway to see it.The moment she layed eyes on it, her heart was disgusted.It was old and rusty. She tried so hard to see the dream her husband was seeing but her eyes hurt and so did her brain by just trying.It was silver with spots of brown rust. A side mirror was missing and when it started up, clouds of smoke came through the exhaust.She hated it. She hated it so much. She tried to express her concerns but couldn't.She didn't want to ignite a fire of fury.She needed her peace.She spent her hard earned thirty two thousand Rands on this junk. It made her heart sore but Jacob gleamed with joy.She looked at the balance in her account and started asking for quotes for studying.Getting the information she required to enroll, Jacob a
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Sarah had bought the house of her dreams. She had never thought that one day she would finally be a home owner.Things were great in the beginning. They started a new routine, saying grace before dinner, bathtime, learning time and so forth.Sarah enjoyed coming home to her own home. With her two lovely fur babies, her kids that she loved so much and Jacob.Although money was now tight because the bond was higher than the rent they paid previously, they still enjoyed the little things in life.The neighborhood was quiet and the night sky was clear. The air was crisp and unpolluted.Sarah's sister, Cheryl whose husband was a cheating pig, finally decided to leave him. She had put through a divorce.The ironic thing was that Mark Molt and Jacob were good friends.Sarah did not want to involve herself with this family issue, however Jacob started inviting Mark over.Until he finally wormed himself back into Cheryl's life.Life seemed different to Sarah now. She was no longer feeling the j
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Night before wedding, I don't know why and whose, but I attended. It was one of Jacob's family members. Jacob and I were off and on dating. I saw him standing across me and my pulse quickened, my mouth went dry and I was giddy. It was that feeling I always got when I saw him. A feeling of longing. A feeling of wanting. Music started to play and a love song came on. Couples took to the floor, holding each other tightly and dancing closely. Jacob walked towards me, my head felt light as I watched him get closer. He approached and with one swift motion he grabbed my friend next to me and led her to the dance floor. My heart felt as if it had burst. My heart cried in pain as I watched them dance closely together. His family members looked at me, synical grins on their faces, as if I was a joke. I felt so embarrassed but I couldn't do anything about it except stand their like a wounded animal. I forced a smile on my face trying to hide the pain I felt within. My heart yet again ha
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Sarah wiped a stray tear. She looked at the time and sipped a long sip of wine. It was still early. She wasn't hungry yet.2005Jacob was no longer in school and was working odd jobs. He had very little time for me. As usual the year went by with us being off and on.2006Wow. This was an enlightening year. I played club cricket and my saterdays were spent playing against other teams, other people from other areas, suburbs, towns and provinces. It was my passion and hobby. I simply loved it.Jacob had come to see me once. I was with my team mates watching the game as it was our turn to bat. Jacob walked up to me and tried to lure me away from the game. I declined him more than once. He didnt take it lightly and grabbed my arm, tugging me ruthlessly. The embarrassment I felt was unbearable. He was being like a beast. He eventually backed off angrily. Screaming like a crazy person. I did not ask him to come. Why blame me?, why make it seem like I called you. It was another red flag
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It was hard to go back and feel what she felt then. Somehow it felt more painful now. It felt as if those scars never healed.2008 continued.As I lay on my seat thinking about the times I went on a date with Jacob, I could only count two. Two whole dates where we just went the cinema, watched a movie and had lunch.After those two dates, we went to a cheap hotel to have sex.That's all we did throughout the year until the day I married him.That should have been a red flag but as usual, my heart betrayed me. My heart let me get used to being treated this way.As I waited one afternoon for my mum, Jacob approached me. He used to live across the road. After a small argument he swung his arms frantically trying to make contact with my face. I dodged it, but the anger in his voice made me shudder.It was another red flag.2009January thirty first I moved out with Jacob to a small one bedroom basement. It was so amazing at first. We both woke up around the same time, had a shower, change
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2009Jacob.New job. New behavior. New life. I was now just an option.The disappearing acts became frequent. I did not know where he was going. All that he told me was that he was going to purchase a loaf of bread on a Friday afternoon and would be gone for the entire night with my second sister's husband. It's funny how the story comes out of where they had gone, months and years later. I asked him about it and he denied every word. Saying it was just a bunch of lies. He had never been to teasers that night, he had never gone to Chatsworth that night. It had become a sequence of excuses and lies. The truth stared me in the face and I chose to believe the lies. My heart never wanted to feel the pain. It was easier that way, to believe his lies and block out the hard truth. Now when I look back, the red flags were there. I ignored it. I was stupid. I chose to love. I still choose to love. I chose to make it work. He would always say that no one wants to see us happy together. Th
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