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2021-10-18 01:43:37Onika's POV........
Do I still love Agustin?
Do I still love Agustin?
Do I still love Agustin? I keep on chanting his words before I can completely process it.
Shouldn't I straight away say that I don't? Isn't that what I told myself again and again over two years. Then why is it so hard to push the world out of my mouth. It was as if I can hear it, analyse it but my brain was refusing to answer it and my heart started beating on its own accord.
It isn't supposed to hurt so much admitting that I don't love him anymore. It should be easy. Then why is my chest constricting in unbearable amount of pain.
Why do I feel like my heart will break into million pieces if I accept that same thing out loud when I have been convincing that to myself ever since I had left Agustin.
Does it even matter? I will love him again he will crush my love again b
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