I knew I would probably get Ronnie in trouble, but Trish would have to get over it. Surely, from one lesbian to another, she could appreciate the newness of the situation. "Hey, Giselle. Hang on. I'll get Veronica." I wondered why Trish answered her phone if she was so put off by people actually calling the person it belonged to, but I kept my mouth shut and waited. "So, how'd it go? Your lips still wet from your first muff?"Of course, my friend had to turn this into a locker room chat. "No, heifer. We had drinks. It was nice.""Then why do you sound so unsure?""She paid the bill.""She digs you. And if you let her, I assume you thought she was pretty kinky, too."I rolled my eyes. In the last two weeks, my best friend had gone from this well-put-together, gorgeous woman to a horny teenager with a crass mouth. "We're having dinner on Friday. She's cooking.""Wow." Here's where things got sticky. Since my divorce, I wasn't interested in relationships. I rarely saw
Work flew by surprisingly fast. Normally, an eight-hour day felt like twelve, but somehow, my nervous anticipation helped the clock tick faster on the wall instead of dragging it out. I'd been with Stearns and Wilkes since I got out of college. I have a degree in business from the state university, but I hadn't had a clue what I wanted to do with it when I graduated. I just knew I had to have one-a degree that is. The law firm was one of the largest on the East Coast, and I'd started as the receptionist. The guy who'd hired me hadn't even pretended it was based on my potential-he flat out told me I'd appeal to their male clientele. That was seventeen years ago, which still did not put me at forty-close only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades-and I still held that same special clout...appeal for the male clientele. Only now, I was the Executive Secretary for one of the firm's managing partners. That sounded fancy, but there were paralegals who did the actual paperwork and grun
By the time my knuckles met the wood at her entryway, I'd forgotten about the dude with the car, and his memory had been replaced by nervous butterflies threatening to take flight in my stomach. When Beck answered the door, my mouth fell open, and what had been an abundance of saliva, dried up into the Sahara Desert. Apparently, I hadn't understood what dinner meant or had missed the memo on just how casual this affair was. As I stood, jeans and a fancy T-shirt was overdressed. Clothes at all appeared to be optional. My eyebrows rose on my forehead, and I managed to snap my jaw shut when Beck giggled. Maybe I was early, and she hadn't finished dressing. I doubted she planned to cook in a silk robe that barely covered her ass, but maybe I'd caught her between preparing dinner and jeans. "Come on in.""I met your brother outside. He seemed...less than happy." I didn't have a clue what to say to a woman I barely knew standing in the doorway with nothing on but a thin piece of fabr
"You're such a bitch. Stop laughing." I was about to throw my wine in my best friend's face if she didn't quit making fun of me."You realize you just committed the worst dating faux pas possible. No woman wants to hear about her girlfriend's ex-lovers.""First of all, she's not my girlfriend. And secondly, she ate just as much ice cream as I did and had equally horrible stories to share.""Did she ever get dressed?""I mean, she tied the robe. Nobody wants ice cream on bare skin. But no. She didn't put any clothes on. Did I mention her brother's ride?""If you didn't have such a fine ass, Gizzy, I'd worry you might be a dude. What is with you and cars?""This wasn't just a car. This was a hundred thousand dollars' worth of beautifully crafted steel. And it wasn't an automatic.""Does it being a straight drive mean something I'm not aware of?""Um yeah. That he can harness the power of five hundred horses.""I'm sure that's impressive if you're sporting a dick, but wh
When I knocked, I was shocked to see the same guy I'd met in the driveway greeting me at the door. My back stiffened, preparing for his attack, but instead, the same mint-green eyes I'd admired on his sister softened, and his shoulders slumped. "Thank God. Maybe you can talk some sense into her." He opened the door and gestured me in. "Everything okay?""Fuck no. Bitches are bad enough when they're with men. Couple them with another woman, and it's emotional overload of the worst kind. She's upstairs."When I didn't move, he stared at me for a split second too long. He clearly didn't understand I didn't know where "upstairs" was. But before I could point that out, his eyes stared into mine and then slowly caressed my body from tip to toe, lingering on my breasts before he admired my legs, and then returned to my face. I cocked my head as though to ask if he'd just checked me out and furrowed my brow playfully. With squinted lids, I acknowledged the gesture without verbalizing
My life couldn't get any more high school. Coffee with Beck turned into coffee with Beck and a newly reunited Stella. Her girlfriend stared me down like I was the devil incarnate until she realized I wasn't as gay as she'd originally thought...and that I hadn't laid a finger on her lover. Beck started to feel more like a little sister, even though she was technically three months older than I was, and Stella was pretty chill once she took her knife out of my back. After two cups of espresso, I was bouncing off walls but seemed to have permission to continue hanging out with Beck. They'd agreed she would stay at Collier's house until they were sure they'd worked out the kinks...which included Beck getting a job and holding onto it for ninety days. I wondered if she had run that plan by Collier before agreeing to it or just assumed he'd be down for her becoming a permanent fixture in his home. I put the top down on the convertible and dialed my bestie, whose other half answered the ph
Roxie Porter. Holy hell, Roxie. Here's a woman who knew how to show a girl a good time. She wasn't much of a talker, and while dinner had been slightly awkward and spent primarily in silence, there was something about her that intrigued me. I found myself spending the idle time I had shoveling food in my mouth and taking in her exotic features. I'd been reading a lot online about how to connect with people. I'm not sure it was meant for the dating community, but I was applying the advice just the same, and researchers suggest the finite details-the ones most people miss-are what people value most about themselves. I doubted they were talking about the freckles on her nose or the way she tossed her long, thick, red hair over her shoulder, and I doubted any woman valued her breasts being noted as smaller-but it was sound advice I chose to apply in an unconventional manner. Couple that with Ronnie's recommendation to have a few drinks to loosen me up, and I was fast becoming a veritabl
I didn't have the courage to admit to her that I hadn't had any tongue action on either set of lips, yet. Instead, I nodded like I knew exactly what she meant."What about you? Worst date?" She wasn't asking about men, but I didn't really have anything to offer without outing myself, and that hadn't gone so well with Beck."Shannon Darby." Technically, Shannon was a dude I'd dated in my early twenties, but if I could keep from using pronouns, this wouldn't be a lie. "Notoriously would order the most expensive things on the menu but conveniently never had any money when the check came. Wallet was in the car or on the counter. Don't get me wrong, I have no problem taking turns paying the bill, but Shannon made scamming free shit off me a full-time job. That dragged on far too long before I called it quits."The waiter came back to the table for like the fifth time since we'd finished eating. We'd long since paid the bills-Dutch treat on this outing, which suited me just fine. We'd
We spent seven glorious days in Maui before returning home to our lives that were forever changed. When I'd gone to work the following week, my boss had made a wise crack about my being off the market and getting married because I was pregnant. Maybe I shouldn't have told Collier, but in hindsight, it was the best thing I ever did. He insisted I quit and that led me to be a stay-at-home wife until the baby came. I spent time helping Collier out at work, menial tasks like putting packages together or stuffing envelopes, but it gave me something to do, and I got to see my sister-in-law all the time-and my husband wasn't a bad consolation prize, either. Six months later, we welcomed Garrett Collier West to the world. I didn't have a clue what to do with a little boy and was completely lost with the parts that made him different from me. But together, Collier and I figured it out-even if it took us a couple years. Our friends adored him, and as the only child in the group, he was spoiled
It might have been an hour or thirty seconds, I didn't know, but when the song changed, my feet moved. I didn't know where I was going or what I was doing, I just knew that silver runner ended at my future. A cloud hid the sun perfectly, still providing a gorgeous day but shielding our guests from the heat of midday. I couldn't take in all the details in the short walk, but our friends were all gathered near the pergola to the side of the pool. There were so many flowers I wondered where they'd all come from, but then Collier came into view. And nothing else mattered. He stood in a black tux at the side of the minister with his hands clasped in front of him. The smile on his face radiated happiness, and I almost took off running to meet him, but I thought he might frown upon my wrapping my legs around his waist in a full-body hug at this particular moment. Everything about him was sheer perfection for me. I'd waited over thirty-nine years, but the man of my dreams had been well wor
Collier had been all kinds of secretive Friday night, and Saturday morning, he shipped me off to a spa for a couple of hours of pampering. I took my new bottle of OPI with me and enjoyed the royal treatment-manicure, pedicure, massage, hair, and makeup. As the girl finished setting my face with some mist to hold her work in place, my nerves set in. Or maybe it was morning sickness. Whichever it was sent me flying to the bathroom to empty my stomach. I wiped my mouth and dreaded looking in the mirror for fear of what my retching had done to the paint on my face. To my surprise, every bit of it held, including the mascara when my eyes watered. The only thing that needed a touch-up was my lips. This girl was good.She fixed my lipstick and seemed as pleased as I was. I'd opted for a more casual up-do and added fresh flowers to make it special. But with the natural appearance of my makeup, the high ponytail with large curls fit perfectly. I hadn't wanted to break the bank on a dress I'd w
"Hey, whore." Ronnie had been trying to catch me by phone for days, but I'd successfully managed to avoid her and pacified her with the occasional text message. She'd know instantly if I lied to her, and I couldn't risk her asking questions. She'd finally caught me and showed up just before lunch on Friday."What are you doing here?" Shit. Shit. Shit. I couldn't keep anything from her. She'd know just by looking at me that I didn't have just one secret but two. That was the problem with having a friend who knows you better than you knew yourself. And then there was the whole eye twitch thing she swore by."Playing detective." Her smirk reached her eyes, and they glimmered with mischief."I don't know what you're talking about." I tried to play coy, act like I had no clue what she referred to. At this rate, she'd have every bit of intel I had to offer in a matter of minutes. It was a good thing no one had ever given me a key to Fort Knox."What are you hiding, Gizzy?""I hate you."
Oddly, I hadn't been the one who'd had a difficult time keeping her mouth shut. Collier almost slipped just about every time we were with any of our friends. I'd made him agree not to share our news until after I'd made it past the first trimester. I was older, and there were more risks. I didn't want to have to break that news, too, so he had agreed to wait. Except that every time I turned around, he was gawking at a dad with a baby, or commenting on how cute a family was. And when he cut off pool time, our friends thought he was certifiably insane."They're going to know something's up...or think we hate them, West. You can't cut off the pool. They all live in our backyard.""Giselle, you said yourself that Ronnie has suspicions, and she and I both commented on the fact your body had already changed some. I know you don't want to hear this, but your tummy is a little rounded. It wouldn't be noticeable except you're normally flat as can be. You have better abs than most men I know.
Twenty-six. That's the number of pregnancy tests I took the following day when I called in to work after Collier left for the office. After three trips to three different drug stores to buy other brands, I'd ended up with twenty-six inaccurate sticks lying on our bathroom counter. Each arranged in neat rows and columns, and all screaming at me. I hurt for women who bought into the lies these companies propagated to hopeful mothers-to-be. There should be laws against faulty products.I rubbed my temples and closed my eyes, not wanting to acknowledge what was before me. Ignorance was bliss, and I could lie to myself for ages...or at least nine months until the pains of labor started. "Fuck, fuck, fuck." In my haste to repeat a string of explicative words under my breath, I apparently tuned out the house around me. And the man who'd entered our bedroom."Babe?"The sound of Collier's voice brought me out of my chant, and I waited to see if I'd really heard him or if it was my imagina
The driver remained silent, didn't leave me with instructions on what to do, nothing. He abandoned me amongst the headstones and mausoleums. Collier hadn't turned around, but I was sure he'd heard the limo pull up. There wasn't a car around, and the only sounds in the air were the birds chirping. The grass went on for miles, a thick, lush green I thought would be a perfect OPI color for St. Patrick's Day, and flowers dotted the markers with splashes of life. I took a deep breath and started on the path to Collier hoping I was meant to join him. My heels marked the walkway in time with my steps, and I worried foolishly about how loud I was being. It wasn't like I was in a library, these people were dead-the sound of my footsteps wasn't going to bother them. Just before I reached his side, Collier turned around.My breath hitched at the sight of the man I loved in a tuxedo holding two red roses in one hand and the other stuffed in his pocket. I had not a clue what was going on or why
The next day, I went back to my mind-numbing job where I spent another eight hours staring at the walls hoping someone would come in to entertain me...or possibly shoot me. When that hadn't happened by ten, I started messaging my friends, none of which responded because they all had jobs that required them to actually do something. I surfed Facebook but quickly grew tired of that as well. A girl can only read so many posts about politics and how great other peoples' lives are before wanting to clobber herself in the head with the heel of her shoe. I tried never to bother Collier at work. I still wasn't sure I fully understood what he did, but I knew he ran a huge company that required his attention, and if I sent him a text, he would stop to respond.Me: Are you busy?Collier: Never too busy for you, Elle. What's up?Me: I'm bored.Collier: Haha. I can hear your whining from here. Me: Not funny.Collier: Babe, why don't you find a job you actually enjoy? I didn't know how to s
I stole her flip-flops to keep from scalding my feet again-only Ronnie would have heels on pool shoes. Collier had gotten in the water, and his skin glistened when he broke the surface. Once I reached the steps, I kicked off my borrowed shoes and stepped into the shallow end. The cool feel of the water against my skin was refreshing and washed away the unease the discussion of money brought. I took a deep breath before going under and swimming between West and the wall. He stepped back to allow me room to maneuver my body into the narrow space, and his smile welcomed me when I stood in front of him."Hey, babe."The feel of his chest beneath my fingers spurred me on. His nipples were firm and masculine as my palms grazed them. While my touch continued north, he snaked his arms around my lower back. The moment I laced my fingers behind his neck, he took my mouth with his in an inappropriate kiss. My legs crawled up his like a monkey on a tree before settling around his waist."Get a