EMBERAn eternity passed between the time I was in Kaden’s kitchen and my arrival at work. By the time I arrived in front of our mammoth building, I was dazed, confused, and half convinced there was something very wrong with my hearing. Or my head.Because there was absolutely no way I could have heard him right. No way could Kaden have told me he loved me. And the way he said it? God, it was like they were the easiest, most natural words he had ever spoken.I knew what had happened between us last night was intense and all, but for it to have caused him to say that, to bring me breakfast in bed, and draw me a bath that smelled like an expensive shop? I didn’t even know where to begin with figuring all that out.It was like I woke up next to an entirely different man than the one I’d fallen asleep next to. A man who believed in chocolates and wine, although to be honest I preferred tacos and tequila. Be that as it may, Kaden wasn’t like that.And the pancakes were made from scratch to
EmberHearing them from him was exactly what I’d been wishing for, a sign he wouldn’t run and write me off if I said them first. Hearing those words for the first time in earnest from any man who wasn’t related to me surely should have elicited a more appropriate response.There was only one conclusion to be drawn for all this. Something was wrong with me. Any other girl would have turned around, run to him, thrown her arms around the gorgeous, incredible man who said he loved her for the first time, and told him she loved him too.Only, I hadn’t done that. I had, in fact, reacted in the exact same way I was afraid he might have had I said it first. I turned and ran.I blamed my reaction on my overactive imagination. I was halfway to the street when I realized I hadn’t actually imagined what he said. By then, it was too late.Forgetting I meant to stop by my own office first, I marched straight to Mr. Marx’s office. I was so out of it, I didn't even realize I was still ten minutes ear
KADENAfter Ember practically ran out my door, I stayed in the kitchen for a long time. At first, I had half a mind to run after her. I decided against it only because she was an economically productive member of society and had a meeting with her boss.Her career trumped my slip of the tongue. Talk about inconvenient timing.Sighing, I eventually got up and padded to my bedroom. I wasn’t going to wallow in despair because she didn’t say anything.It wasn’t the kind of thing that anyone could be expected to deal with on the fly, literally on their way out to a meeting. Obsessing about her reaction, or lack thereof, wasn’t going to get me anywhere.What I needed was a plan.Hot water sprayed onto my shoulders in the shower as I tried to think of the logical next step. It might have slipped out, but that didn’t mean it wasn’t true. I did love her. I was serious about Ember and sure of what I wanted with her. If she didn’t feel the same way, I could be whoever and whatever she needed me
KadenI texted him on the way down to the parking garage to ask if he had time for a coffee. He replied almost immediately with a thumbs-up emoji, telling me he had taken the afternoon off.We met at a coffee shop near his office. I got there first since he was still wrapping up at work and snagged a table around the back corner. It was the most private table I could get, and we were going to need at least some semblance of privacy while having this conversation.Ryan arrived about twenty minutes after I did, his dark hair windswept and his cheeks tinged with red from the increasingly cold weather. Green eyes sparkling, he was grinning and undoubtedly relieved to have the day off work until he saw the expression on my face.Sliding into the seat across from mine, his eyebrows pushed together. “You look like shit, dude. What’s up? You can’t be jetlagged from a flight to Houston.”“I’m not jetlagged.” I just hadn’t gotten much sleep because I was up half the night making love to his sis
KADEN“Remind me again why we’re awake at the crack of dawn on a Saturday?” Lying in bed with my arms hooked behind my head, I watched Ember getting ready for the day with a lazy smile on my face.Ember bounced on the balls of her feet, tugging on a pair of skinny jeans she paired with one of my royal-purple dress shirts. She femmed it up by adding a chunky silver necklace and earrings that matched the color of the shirt. She looked hot. I loved her in my clothes.Shooting me a look, she fastened the button on her jeans. “I told you. I’ve got some things I have to take care of.”“Look at you, Ms. Successful CFO,” I teased, sitting up in bed and running a hand through my tousled hair. “Too busy to spend the day with your boyfriend.”She stilled, her hands hovering in midair as she lifted her hair out of the back of the shirt. “I’m not… It’s just...” Trailing off, her eyes found the floor, and her hair flopped down around her shoulders as she moved her hands to her sides.I frowned, rea
KadenShutting off the water in the shower, I reached for a towel and dried my hair before knotting it around my waist. There was something up with my girl, and I needed to find out what it was. There was a pit forming in my stomach that it was about her telling me she loved me too, that perhaps in the bright morning light, she was regretting saying words she didn’t really mean.The muscles in my jaw tensed, but I forced myself to loosen up. I refused to believe she didn’t mean them. It was just my mind playing tricks on me, projecting old insecurities about no woman ever loving me after my mom died onto an unrelated situation.Ember had been honest and sincere when she said she loved me. Her green eyes were open and expressive. I saw the emotion shining from them when she said it. Whatever was bothering her, it couldn’t be that.I dressed fast, hearing the news coming from the television in the living room and suddenly eager to make sure Ember was still even here. God, I didn’t know
EMBERHiding the truth from Kaden was going to kill me. My heart pounded too erratically in his presence now, and my brain kept misfiring. I couldn’t concentrate on anything else when I was around him than what I was keeping from him.Sitting on my couch on Sunday morning, I wrapped my fingers around my warm cup of coffee and stared out of the window across the room. I didn’t have much of a view, mostly of the building next door and a sliver of cityscape, but I wasn’t really seeing it anyway.I was too caught up in my head, thinking about everything going on. Leaving Kaden yesterday had been hard, especially since I wanted nothing more than to spend the day with him. I didn’t want him thinking I regretted telling him I loved him. I really did. More than anything.I just didn’t know how to look him in the eye now. I had been able to put it aside on Friday night, focusing only on him and me and letting him know what I felt about it. It had been easy then, the pressing need to tell him I
EmberObjectively speaking, though I didn’t think of him that way at all, he was good looking. He clearly had a great body. He was intelligent and funny and kind—at least, I thought he was. He was also a successful architect with a promising career ahead of him. He should’ve had girls lined up around the block, but it didn’t look like he did.There were no traces around his apartment suggesting he’d had a girl over last night or that there was one stashed in his bedroom. In fact, his apartment was surprisingly neat and orderly.It was the first time I was there, and I was shocked to see not only the apparent size of the place, but how impersonal it was. Aside from a framed picture of our parents with us at a fair when we were little, there was some sports memorabilia I could see, but that was it.The furniture looked like it had been picked out of a “Masculine living” catalog, all dark leather, wood, and steel with stainless appliances in the open-plan kitchen.It was jarring that my
KadenAs an adult, I’d always been too busy to spend too much time on hypotheticals like if I wanted to settle down and have a family someday. I used protection religiously to avoid conceiving a child with a woman I didn’t really know in my younger days, and after that, I kind of gave up on ever finding a woman I could imagine myself spending the rest of my life and having kids with.Until Ember.Everything I used to want, worry about, think, or believe changed the day she walked back into my life. She still teased me some about my previous life of being a jerk as a kid or a player, but I could hardly remember what that was like either. Just like with my apartment, those were vague memories I didn’t care to recall.All my life, I’d heard people say you couldn’t change. I was living proof those people were wrong. To be fair, I’d started making changes before I even met Ember, but the guy I used to be wouldn’t have taken the whole day off work to go to the doctor and then to stock up on
KADEN“Everything is looking good so far,” Doctor Kruger told us, holding the ultrasound wand still on Ember’s growing stomach. She was really starting to show now and thought she looked more and more like a whale every day. I couldn’t disagree with her more. “The baby is growing well, and everything looks the way it should at around twenty-four weeks.”Doctor Kruger was the gynecologist Ember chose. She came highly recommended by the girls at the office. She looked a little bit like Gollum from Lord of the Rings, with hair so thin you could see most of her scalp, but there was a whole wall of awards in her office speaking to her ability.Ember smiled up at her, squeezing my hand tightly. Her eyes were glued to the screen beside her though, as were mine. It was hard to believe the black and white smudges we saw was an actual baby growing in Ember, but now and then, we could make out a hand or a foot or something that drove the point home.The doctor moved the wand higher, squeezing ou
Ember“Have you felt it move yet?” Kaden asked, dragging his chair around to my side of the table so he would be next to me instead of across from me. “And should we be eating Mexican? Isn’t it too spicy?”“I ordered it mild,” I reminded him. “But I don’t think eating Mexican is a problem. Sushi is probably a no-no for me until the baby comes, though.”He nodded, and I could practically see him adding the information to some kind of mental checklist. “So, you didn’t tell me if you’d felt it move yet.”“Not yet,” I said honestly. “I would have told you immediately if I had.”That much was true. Despite my misgivings about his reaction, I wouldn’t have kept him from anything involving his child. Something as major as feeling it move for the first time especially.“When do you think you’ll feel it?” he asked, cocking his head and shifting back on his chair to make space for him to get his phone out of his pocket.I lifted my shoulders, shaking my head. “No idea, but it will probably be s
EMBERFor four weeks, I had been waiting to find the right time to talk to Kaden about this. There just never seemed to be enough time. Though we were practically living together and had adjoining offices now, we were also busy and running around for work.My heart hammered against my ribcage so hard it was almost painful as I leaned forward, forcing myself to look into Kaden’s eyes. I had no idea how he was going to take this news. We had so much on our plates as it was, and we’d never even come close to talking about anything like this.Every word I knew suddenly disappeared from my brain as I looked into his gorgeous eyes, questions darkening them while he waited for me to tell him what I’d been waiting for the right time to talk to him about.Grasping for words, any words at this point, I ended up just blurting it out. “I’m four months pregnant.”Kaden paled, his eyes going huge. His jaw loosened, and his throat worked. Oh crap.This was exactly the reaction I’d been afraid of. Me
KadenA faint line appeared between Carol’s eyebrows before she schooled her expression, shaking my free hand again. “We’ll be in touch soon, I assume? If you could email the paperwork to my assistant, the same one who set up this meeting, I’ll have the lawyers look it over and send it right back.”“It will be in your inbox before the end of the day tomorrow,” Ember promised. If I knew her, she was already planning on firing off a text to Scotty as soon as we were out of Carol’s sight.Ember and I were sharing Scotty as our main assistant now. We each had a second assistant working under Scotty, but he was our go-to guy and the one who organized our respective second assistants. It was a system that was working really well for us.Once we were settled in my car, I glanced at her before putting my hand on her headrest and backing out of the parking space. “Did you ask Scotty to send her the documents yet?”She smiled, holding up her phone to show me the text she was typing. “Just about
KADEN“If you consider we only started putting this together for you last week, I think you’ll appreciate the growth you would already have seen if we’d started making these moves only a few days ago.” I was speaking to our new potential client, an older woman with her dyed black hair pulled back in a severe bun.She was the CEO of a hotel group that was starting to pop up everywhere. The company was only a few years old, but they were expanding at an impressive rate, and Ember and I both really wanted to sign her.“We can do great things together, Carol,” Ember added, clicking a button on the remote in her hand to move onto the next slide we had prepared for her. “Both our companies have shown exponential growth over the last six months, and together, I think we can keep that trajectory going.”I could feel Ember’s excitement coming off her in waves from where she was sitting next to me at a mahogany conference table at one of Carol’s group’s hotels. The group had two new boutique ho
EMBERWhen Kaden’s lips crashed into mine, it was with such passion and fervor that a fresh wave of tears welled up behind my eyes. Different tears this time, happy tears. I couldn’t believe he was here, that he was in my arms and kissing me the way he was.An hour ago, I was convinced our relationship was toast. When I didn’t hear from Ryan, I thought the worst. I thought Kaden was so mad at me, he’d convinced Ryan he was right, and I was wrong. I thought Ryan wasn’t going to speak to me ever again either.I thought so many things, all of which were apparently wrong. It was hard to have faith in people when you felt as guilty and as badly as I did, though. In my defense, those weren’t feelings I had much experience with, and now that I’d felt them in their fullest glory, I had no intention of ever finding myself in a position like that ever again.From now on, I was going back to honesty. I still regretted the way I handled things with Mr. Marx, but I’d also learned from it. With Kad
KadenShit. I even made her promise to stop avoiding me. I shoved her even deeper into the impossible corner she was already in. I made her look me in the eyes and sleep in my bed, even when she couldn’t do it, and now I was pissed at her for doing exactly that?I groaned out loud, bringing my forehead to my desk.As if Ryan could tell what I was thinking, he said, “She loves you, Kaden. She loves you more than anything in the world. You’re everything to her. Trust me when I tell you she never meant to hurt you. She was stuck in purgatory about this for weeks.”Lifting my head only enough to catch a glimpse of his eyes, I frowned. “Is this a big brother talk? Because I don’t think I can stomach one of those right now.”I really couldn’t bear to hear him tell me how much she loved me after the way I acted. Sure, I was shocked, and she shouldn’t have done what she did, but I honestly didn’t know what else I could have expected her to do under the circumstances.Even if she did, would sh
KADENMy head was spinning. I felt nauseous, my stomach twisting and turning as I tried to focus on the screen in front of me. I was trying to get everything with Ember out of my head and get some work done, but it was proving to be harder than I thought it would be.Despite everything, I still didn’t want to let my dad down. Sure, he told my girl he was dying and not me, but—“Fuck,” I muttered, dragging my hands through my hair. Again. I shuddered to think what I looked like by now. At least no one was bothering me.Scotty was keeping his distance, and most people would probably be leaving soon. They were giving me the day to get settled in, which was a fucking blessing since I had no idea how I would be able to handle meetings or making any big decisions today.I’d been so damn optimistic just this morning, determined to make this work no matter what. I was so damn sure I had this under control, that I was going to walk in as CEO and things would just fall in place.I was prepared