Never leave him

The cars ran past the streets, buildings, trees giving it the blurry view that got me entranced within the space outside the car. My mind moved from one place to another in a daze and the wheel of my thoughts ran fast and wide, it made it hard for me to keep still. I could feel myself panicking from each thought but I held it in by making sure to breathe when I needed to breath and sigh heavily when I needed to.

How could Nate suddenly show up? why did he have to show up now? Its was so unfair that he had to suddenly fall from the sky when I had only just found happiness, found Jordan, found a husband and there was finally a trace of what love could be like. I might be thinking ahead of myself especially since what I and Jordan had might not love, but I was hoping. I shook my head at that thought and tried to think of something else. No, I was indeed going too far. I turned my attention from the mirror to Jordan. The light from the street helped in casting a shadow on his face but I c