“No, no, no….” I was seeing things. It couldn’t have been him, it would definitely not have been him. He had to leave to see his parents, he wouldn’t be here. I shook my head and turned to the bar. I asked for a glass of drink and gulped it all in the moment I got it, then I asked for another. I shook my head again just to clear up what I had imagined before. I must have truly been seeing things. why would I even think about Nate? He was far away and I was here, with Jordan where he shouldn’t be. This was all Tiana’s fault for reminding me of him. I was supposed to have called or checked on him myself but I had not. Maybe my guilt was getting in the way and it decided to come haunt me on the day I was having so much fun with Jordan. It was terrible. I got another drink from the waiter and this time, I gently took a sip. An alcohol would be better right now but I wanted to be sane enough for Jordan especially since everyone was complaining about my background.I sighed heavily and turn
The cars ran past the streets, buildings, trees giving it the blurry view that got me entranced within the space outside the car. My mind moved from one place to another in a daze and the wheel of my thoughts ran fast and wide, it made it hard for me to keep still. I could feel myself panicking from each thought but I held it in by making sure to breathe when I needed to breath and sigh heavily when I needed to.How could Nate suddenly show up? why did he have to show up now? Its was so unfair that he had to suddenly fall from the sky when I had only just found happiness, found Jordan, found a husband and there was finally a trace of what love could be like. I might be thinking ahead of myself especially since what I and Jordan had might not love, but I was hoping. I shook my head at that thought and tried to think of something else. No, I was indeed going too far. I turned my attention from the mirror to Jordan. The light from the street helped in casting a shadow on his face but I c
A sensual, slow and steady kiss soon enough turned into a rage and hungry one as neither of us could no longer hold on to what we were truly feeling anymore. I wanted Jordan by the minute and I was willing to go all the way out for this. There was no holding back, no panic, no fear that I was being touched by the wrong person, because it was him, it was simply just beautiful, too beautiful.His hands roamed my body frantically like he was searching for something while he suckled on my lower lips hungrier and pushed me to the very edge. I was dripping wet now, wishing to be touched by him and more. I reciprocated his kiss and ran my hand through his hair, breathing heavily too when his hand went down to my thighs. He ran his hand through it and made to touch me between my thighs, I sighed in anticipation when he moved upward and parted my legs for him, giving him access just like the owner of a house. But there was only some degree I could part my legs to especially since the gown was
Dejected, angry, frustrated, I walked back into the house, picked up my purse and dialed Jordan while a lot of thoughts ran through my head. Where could he have gone to? What could be so important that would make him leave that way without telling me? did I do something wrong? Is he alright?When I dialed his number, I waited for it to ring but it told me that the number I dialed could not be reached, my heart fell and tears burned the back of my eyes. It was such a beautiful night, everything was going so fine and as expected, even better. How could he just leave that way? Maybe I did something wrong? Maybe he was angry with me. I shouldn’t have left the car the way I did.I blinked back the tears that threatened to show how stupid I was and tried calling him again. It still did not go through, so I sent a text instead. There was not a single response from him. I became rather nervous and anxious. My heart was beating fiercely inside my heart and my thoughts were running wide with qu
JORDANI could hear voices around me. They were light but their words were heavy and their voices grew higher and higher by the second.“I never wanted you here.” Mom was yelling at someone.“I never wanted to be here,” Nathan’s voice followed. They were at it again, every time and they wouldn’t stop being like cat and dog under one roof.“Then go back to your mother,”“She is your sister as well. Don’t act like you are not a relation because you are,”“I cut all ties with your family. Don’t be so cocky and foolish to think that you can come here to steal from my son and wealth.”“I’m only here because your son wanted me to. Do you think I care about you? Or your stupid money? Jordan is the only reason why am here.”“Oh really? Is he?” Mother entered. For a long time, no one said a thing and I could bet that they were glaring at each other.“My only wish was that I knew who you were at the hospital or why you were there, you would have never been able to take her away from me,”“Your
GENESIS“Two weeks, it’s been two fucking weeks.” Tiana screamed at the top of her voice while she made to arrange my clothes into a box.“Don’t shout so much,” Tiffany snapped at her and they engaged in a fearsome glare immediately after. I stared at them for a while, then I looked away and turned back to staring right into space. It’s been two whole weeks since Jordan magical disappearance from my life and our home. He never called, he never texted and so did his family. I called them, texted them, visited Aiden and Alden in their fashion house since I did not know their house. I never found them there and they also didn’t respond to any thing that concerned me. Mom Leona never showed face, never replied my text, never called back. One whole week, I was going mad with the ignorance and lack of information.One minute, I was so angry, so pissed at him that I want to pack my things and simply leave the house, while the next am wondering if he was actually fine. If he was safe, and hea
The tears in my eyes ran down my cheeks none stop and my heart hammered inside my chest, while I stormed into the room that I had been sleeping for the past two weeks. The maids took my back inside, clearly relieved that I was not leaving just as Tiana wanted but, I was not sure of the move I was making. It was so stupid to remain in that house when I was not sure if Jordan was coming back to me or not. That thought sent goosebumps to run over my body and I shivered. I crossed my arms over my chest to push away the airy feeling and shook my head at that thought. Jordan was going to come back, nothing happened to him, he was going to come back to me. I fell on my bed the moment I got into the room and simply just remained there just as I had been doing all this while. It was both depressing and strange that I had to keep going through this. And it was more annoying that I was stupid enough to stay. All sensible thing to do was to leave, right? But how could I when Jordan had asked me c
JORDANTwo whole weeks, I had been out for two whole weeks and there was no time to take it all back. The time I had spent without her, the time I lost with her. The misery that she could have gone through. All the pain and chaos that I had put her through, the questions, the doubts that I was so sure she would have, made me agitated, panicked and even cranky.If my family had given her an explanation to my sudden disappearance, then I would not feel so terrible. But they didn’t, they said nothing to her till the very last minute. I didn’t want to imagine what she might have thought of me, of our relationship. And the fear of thinking that she might have woken up one morning and left during this two week made my heart ache so bitterly, it left a bitter feeling in my mouth and in the pit of my stomach.It was already so late into the night when I pulled up at the front of the house and with a jump, I rushed down from the car and towards the house. Ignoring the pain, I was in, ignoring
My phone rang again and I smiled as I picked up my husband call this time. “Miss me yet, wife,” he teased immediately and I groaned. “No, but the kids want you home.” “Too bad. My flight got delayed.” He sighed. “What?” I jerked up from where I sat. He chuckled. “Easy their wife. I just got to town and would be home soon,” he entered and I sighed. “Bye…” I ended the call abruptly, feeling angry at such expensive joke. I had everything ready already. After two hours, I was perfectly ready and had stepped out of the room and back down only to find out that I was a late host. Everyone was present. My parents, my sister, Tiana, Nate, Tiffany and her fiancée, Jordan’s cousins, their girlfriends, his mom, my p.a and Margaret. Yes her. she was a huge part of Jordan’s life for long and we could not let her to keep being a staff here so we freed her with a lot of money, a house, something to keep her going and a family. “I told you that she might be painting,” Julian’s loud mouth entere
FOUR YEARS AFTERI ran down the stairs, feeling completely exhausted and disheveled, not to add, disorganized and slightly angry. With my robe on, I decided to check if everything was set and ready. I couldn’t help it, it had to be perfect, it all had to be or I might lose it. Anna strolled into the house at that particular moment, and she stared at me with a wary look as I made my way to the kitchen.“Is everything alright?” she asked in her very sweet voice.“Go change and rest up,” I reprimanded. She had only just returned from college and shouldn’t be concerned by things like that, yet she was ever so humble and would in fact start on chores the moment she returns from college which was slight annoying. We made her go to college for a good reason, to better her life and not to turn out like a staff her entire life, yet she looked so dedicated to being one.“I would the moment you tell me what is wrong,” she followed behind me with dedication and became a nag that I didn’t want at
GENESISEven in my unconsciousness, I could feel that emptiness inside of me. I could feel the hole, the empty, painful hole that was once filled with life, I could feel the vacuum there. I knew that something was different and I feared what it was. When I opened my eyes, the first sight I wanted to behold was my beloved husband. His scent was the first thing I wanted to caress my nostrils, his warmth the next feel I wanted to feel against my cold skin. But he wasn’t there as I had hoped. And that had shattered whatever was left inside of me. He had threatened to leave me, maybe he did.The fear of such possibility had made me fear and panic especially when I didn’t see him around me. It scared me but the familiar faces gave me a little bit of comfort. They were family and ones I loved. They had such effect on me. Not till I recalled what happened, how I fell. My hands had voluntarily found its way to my stomach where I wanted to feel the life inside of me. I was in a hospital for sur
I could hear my baby crying in my ears. Screaming in pain and asking me why I did what I did. I could imagine the judging, hateful look those blue eyes would give to me once she opens her eyes and the pain that would show itself in those eyes of hers. The pain was enough to consume me, to burn me, to torment me. With heaviness in my chest, I looked away from her unconscious body, lying on the bed with families around her. I could not bare to look at her, I could not dare to even think of going close to her, not what after I had done.I should have been more patient, more careful, more tolerant, I should have attempted to listen to her. But I didn’t. It was not her fault and I would have accepted my own child. She came at a time that our world was dark and I was about to lose my life, she came way before I decided that I didn’t want to have a baby, and like a miracle, she survived. How I snuffed the life out of her.I would forever live with this pain, wouldn’t I? This guilt, the memor
JORDANThe scream….The screams…The scream of my wife and the staff was what it took me to stop. Fear engulfed me and swallowed me whole, leaving every anger, betrayal and pain I felt earlier. I snapped my gaze back to the direction I had come from, knowing that her scream came from there.“No…” I screamed, seeing her rolling down the stairs. I could feel life leaving me at the sight of her. My legs started towards her as fast as I could just as everyone else. She came to a halt at the edge of the step and my heart died at her position. Then the blood.“Oh God! No…no…no….”“Get the car,” I screamed, feeling tears burn my eyes while I slowly placed her head on my thighs. She was bleeding and still fucking naked with just that robe.“Get the car,” I cried at the top of my lungs, fearing for the worse. I immediately checked for her pulse, praying, hoping, wishing that it would not come to that. I might as well die if it did.We rushed her to the hospital and the doctors immediately plac
GENESISI took a longer time in the bathroom this time around. The heat and steam of the shower had become my comfort and I was scared of leaving it. I would only return to our bedroom that had turned to a hunting ground for me. Each place and thing smelt of my husband and with the feel of him reminded me of the anger he had against me and the secret I had adamantly been keeping away from him.I missed him, each part of me missed him. It was almost like life was leaving me slowly and gently, yet I couldn’t stop it. Not that I couldn’t, I still didn’t know how to. I looked down on my tummy to notice the slight bump that showed the life growing inside of me. It was still so small and with my present choice of clothing, no one could notice. But how long? He deserved to know, I had to tell him and explain to him how it all happened. I had to before I completely ruin our marriage.I sighed heavily, feeling a familiar burn in my chest area while my hand ran in a circular motion around my s
JORDANI ended the meeting and shook the hands of the Russian investors. In a polite tone and a business manner, I thanked them and watched them leave the restaurant before I left. I got to the car and thought of what was left for me to do before I returned home.The thought of home made me smile, yet it made my heart ache. I had been away for five days and things had still not changed between Genesis and I. she was hiding something from me and I was losing my mind. I picked up my phone and stared at my wallpaper for a while. It was a picture of her, sleeping, and it was the most beautiful I had seen her. But again, she was beautiful in all ways, especially when she had her blue eyes opened. My heart ached and still longed for her.Just in the nick of time, she called and my heart leaped inside my chest. I picked it up quickly because I had missed her, I missed her voice, her face, her warmth, I missed being close to her. I simply missed her.“When are you coming home?” her whinny voi
“What happened?” Tiffany pulled me into a hug the moment I walked into the house and once again, I broke down before her. She took me to the sitting room where I sat down and cried my eyes out while she soothed my hair and simply allowed me cry.I recalled the pain in my husband’s eyes when I told him that I could not tell him the truth. I recalled the hurt, the pain, the fear I saw within those gazes, it burned my chest. I had looked him in the face and told him that I could not tell him the truth. What kind of wife was I? I was breaking all the promises we made to each other and keeping this, this preciousness away from him.“What happened to her?” I heard Tiana voice as her footsteps followed too.“She came in this way,” Tiffany answered and rubbed my back gently. None of them said a thing and simply comforted me while I cried till, I could no longer do that anymore.I drank a cup of water after which and I relaxed into the couch with the heaviness of the world on me.“I still can’
Days went by with nothing much happening. Jordan was constantly busy with work or simply being a loving husband while I grew lazier by the day. It was a good thing I had subordinates to handle my business, I would have totally been thrown into the dust with the rate at which my laziness grew. I slept more, ate more, slept more again, ate even more. My taste buds were also acting different, making me want something entirely different and hating things I love too. Margaret would usually get me what I want no matter how it got and she paid even closer attention to me now.I suspect she knew exactly what was going on with me, but had not said a thing, so I was happy about it and relaxed with her. However, I tried to sleep less and control myself when my beloved husband was available.It was burdening and aching my heart as the day goes by. But what was I supposed to do? I still hadn’t found a way to tell him what it was that was going on and I still didn’t have the boldness to speak out l