JORDAN
I took a hot shower and prepared myself for the day. I left work very early the previous day and by doing that I had left a lot of things undone. I simply wanted to go back to continue what I had started. I was almost done when the sound of knocking came on my door and I resisted the urge to groan at the disturbance. But I said nothing nor made any attempt to open the door and just continued with what I was doing. I buttoned my shirt from down to up and picked up my jacket when the door opened on its own and I swiftly turned around to rain fire and who it might be. My eyes fell on Margaret and I glared at her, while she openly grinned at me. Then I look away, knowing that I could not do anything to her. She was more like a guardian than a maid to me and I had respect for her no matter what the case was.
“You should atleast have said nothing, I was standing at that door for a long time, Jordan,” she star
GENESISThe words which I wanted to spit out of my mouth suddenly ran back into my throat and I could only gaped at the man in front of me with annoyance, confliction and surprise. Who was this man in front of me and where is the Jordan that I had learned to live with? Was he really the same Jordan that left me at the alter on our wedding day? The same Jordan who never returned for days and when he did, he came back with a woman by his side. The woman he loved with his whole being, the one he claimed I had pretended to be. Was this the same Jordan or this was a different man.I still found it hard to connect this two Jordan as one. One time I had been so scared of this man, I never went close to him and every time I accidentally did that, he had hurt me. That Jordan never wanted to protect me, he wanted to hurt me and he wanted me out of his life in all possible way. Whereas this Jordan was caring, he made sure I ate, applied o
GENESIS Jordan stared at me with his brows furrowed like he did not understand a thing I said to him and it only got me angrier. “What are you talking about?” he questioned immediately after and took a few steps towards me. The questions I wanted to ask suddenly ran back inside my throat while my eyes suddenly became conscious of his looks. His scent immediately clouded my thoughts and I found myself wanting him to come closer. I shook my head instantly and looked away from him, while I mentally slapped myself for being so stupid. Turning to mom Leona, I saw the look she gave me and the questions with that look. “Genesis,” came Jordan’s voice and I turned to him again. The anger and words I wanted to say suddenly disappeared and I quickly lost the boldness to speak. “Can we go shopping now?” I turned to mom Leona and forced a smile. There was no need to speak to Jordan when he clearly knew what he was doing to me. This was his plan all
GENESISThe ride back home was the complete opposite of the ride we had earlier. There was no tension in the air, no bad feelings between us and no conflict or confusion in my heart. It was the perfect feeling, the perfect feeling of peace that I had been craving for such a long time. My heart felt joyful and happy and I could not have honestly asked for anything more.Turning to the other side, my eyes fell on Jordan and my cheek heated up as a smile appeared on my lips. I looked away from him, embarrassed at my childish behaviour and turned back to the window through which I could view the entire city as it drove past large buildings, scenario and a lot more. It did not look so glum as it had looked earlier, there was a beauty to it that I did not notice as well or maybe my heart had been the glum one. The peaceful atmosphere was interrupted by the loud ring of my phone and I picked up, jerking away from the win
JORDANPeace had never sounded so perfect, neither had it ever felt so perfect in my heart. I got the fresh start that I needed and I got an opportunity to make things right again. My heart had never felt so whole, not even when Samantha was with me. Maybe because this was not Samantha. It was Genesis and maybe it was because her forgiveness was from the purest of her heart and my guilt and need to be forgiven was deeper than most of the precious feelings I had ever felt. Whatever the case maybe, I liked this feeling, I like the joy and happiness I felt and I was willing to do anything to keep it.I smiled to myself and once again I got distracted from work when the event of the day played in my head. My thoughts and mind have not been able to let go of the things she said, it had not been able to forget the tears that came out from her eyes and it had not been able to forget the way she forgave me. The lingering feel of her ar
GENESIS Coming back to the house, I went up to my room without paying a lot of attention to any one even when I noticed that Margaret and the rest had questions in their eyes. I ignored all the taunting looks, all the scared looks and was still in my own little world where I could afford to hope for a better day. I could live my life now in peace and not be scared that a supposed mistress with the help of my husband would want to kill me. I could live now and enjoy the life in which I was forced to live. But most importantly, this hope, this new feeling came with a new life. Every girl’s dream was to be happy, no matter their goals and ambition. Money minded or not, every one of us want to have that fairy tale wedding, we want to have that loving husband who would shield us, protect us, care and love us like no other person would. We want a man who we could call our own, we want that fairy tale prince that would swe
GENESIS Sleep was far from me, no matter how hard I tried to. I kept rolling from one side of the bed to the other, forcing myself to close my eyes but no matter how tightly I shut my eyes, sleep never came. So, I gave up and just decided to read a book. I still had some that I had not finished and since I was completely jobless at that point, I picked a book. Flipping to the page I stopped at my last read, I continued. The mansion was very quiet, just like it always was during the night and for some reason my thoughts went back to terrible nights I had. Flashes of a man with a knife walking into my room popped into my mind and I quickly shut the book. I stared at the door and got up from where I had sat. Turning towards it, I made sure the door was locked, then I went back to the bed. I picked up the book again and continued from where I stopped. The lines seemed to be smaller and the sentenc
GENESIS I glared at Jordan, completely spooked by the piece of information he just gave me. If he noticed my glaring, he didn’t show it, because he was busy getting cereal from the cupboard. He dropped it on the table, stole a glance at me and went ahead to get some plates. Then he came back to the table and helped himself with the cereal while I simply glared at him. When he was done, he passed me a plate but food was no longer important to me anymore. We were going to have dinner with his parents, not just Leona but his dad. Liam did not like me, the way he stares at me, the way he hates me, his cold expression, his scaring demeanor and the last time he had seen me. No, I could not have dinner with them and he knew about this, he knew that I could not sit and have dinner with him and that was why he saved me from his mother earlier, how could suddenly have accepted. “Come on, eat,” he pushed the plate towards me and handed me a spoon.
GENESISOf course, I agreed to go shopping with Jordan because he asked me again but the honest truth of it all was that I was not all in neither was I as excited as I was earlier. And with Jordan’s expression, I could tell that he was not as excited as well. He had a horrible frown on his face and he looked conflicted and in thought as well. He was gloomy and I did not need a seer to tell that he was thinking about Samantha. It kind of made me feel like shit. Just the mention of her name totally made me feel like a girl stealing another girl’s man. I was legally married to Jordan, yes, but his heart and soul belonged to that wretch that was why his mood changed when her name was mentioned.I stole a glance at him, probably for the hundredth time, he was looking out the window with his hand to his chin and in deep thought. Shopping no longer felt good and I realized that I made a mistake.&ldquo
My phone rang again and I smiled as I picked up my husband call this time. “Miss me yet, wife,” he teased immediately and I groaned. “No, but the kids want you home.” “Too bad. My flight got delayed.” He sighed. “What?” I jerked up from where I sat. He chuckled. “Easy their wife. I just got to town and would be home soon,” he entered and I sighed. “Bye…” I ended the call abruptly, feeling angry at such expensive joke. I had everything ready already. After two hours, I was perfectly ready and had stepped out of the room and back down only to find out that I was a late host. Everyone was present. My parents, my sister, Tiana, Nate, Tiffany and her fiancée, Jordan’s cousins, their girlfriends, his mom, my p.a and Margaret. Yes her. she was a huge part of Jordan’s life for long and we could not let her to keep being a staff here so we freed her with a lot of money, a house, something to keep her going and a family. “I told you that she might be painting,” Julian’s loud mouth entere
FOUR YEARS AFTERI ran down the stairs, feeling completely exhausted and disheveled, not to add, disorganized and slightly angry. With my robe on, I decided to check if everything was set and ready. I couldn’t help it, it had to be perfect, it all had to be or I might lose it. Anna strolled into the house at that particular moment, and she stared at me with a wary look as I made my way to the kitchen.“Is everything alright?” she asked in her very sweet voice.“Go change and rest up,” I reprimanded. She had only just returned from college and shouldn’t be concerned by things like that, yet she was ever so humble and would in fact start on chores the moment she returns from college which was slight annoying. We made her go to college for a good reason, to better her life and not to turn out like a staff her entire life, yet she looked so dedicated to being one.“I would the moment you tell me what is wrong,” she followed behind me with dedication and became a nag that I didn’t want at
GENESISEven in my unconsciousness, I could feel that emptiness inside of me. I could feel the hole, the empty, painful hole that was once filled with life, I could feel the vacuum there. I knew that something was different and I feared what it was. When I opened my eyes, the first sight I wanted to behold was my beloved husband. His scent was the first thing I wanted to caress my nostrils, his warmth the next feel I wanted to feel against my cold skin. But he wasn’t there as I had hoped. And that had shattered whatever was left inside of me. He had threatened to leave me, maybe he did.The fear of such possibility had made me fear and panic especially when I didn’t see him around me. It scared me but the familiar faces gave me a little bit of comfort. They were family and ones I loved. They had such effect on me. Not till I recalled what happened, how I fell. My hands had voluntarily found its way to my stomach where I wanted to feel the life inside of me. I was in a hospital for sur
I could hear my baby crying in my ears. Screaming in pain and asking me why I did what I did. I could imagine the judging, hateful look those blue eyes would give to me once she opens her eyes and the pain that would show itself in those eyes of hers. The pain was enough to consume me, to burn me, to torment me. With heaviness in my chest, I looked away from her unconscious body, lying on the bed with families around her. I could not bare to look at her, I could not dare to even think of going close to her, not what after I had done.I should have been more patient, more careful, more tolerant, I should have attempted to listen to her. But I didn’t. It was not her fault and I would have accepted my own child. She came at a time that our world was dark and I was about to lose my life, she came way before I decided that I didn’t want to have a baby, and like a miracle, she survived. How I snuffed the life out of her.I would forever live with this pain, wouldn’t I? This guilt, the memor
JORDANThe scream….The screams…The scream of my wife and the staff was what it took me to stop. Fear engulfed me and swallowed me whole, leaving every anger, betrayal and pain I felt earlier. I snapped my gaze back to the direction I had come from, knowing that her scream came from there.“No…” I screamed, seeing her rolling down the stairs. I could feel life leaving me at the sight of her. My legs started towards her as fast as I could just as everyone else. She came to a halt at the edge of the step and my heart died at her position. Then the blood.“Oh God! No…no…no….”“Get the car,” I screamed, feeling tears burn my eyes while I slowly placed her head on my thighs. She was bleeding and still fucking naked with just that robe.“Get the car,” I cried at the top of my lungs, fearing for the worse. I immediately checked for her pulse, praying, hoping, wishing that it would not come to that. I might as well die if it did.We rushed her to the hospital and the doctors immediately plac
GENESISI took a longer time in the bathroom this time around. The heat and steam of the shower had become my comfort and I was scared of leaving it. I would only return to our bedroom that had turned to a hunting ground for me. Each place and thing smelt of my husband and with the feel of him reminded me of the anger he had against me and the secret I had adamantly been keeping away from him.I missed him, each part of me missed him. It was almost like life was leaving me slowly and gently, yet I couldn’t stop it. Not that I couldn’t, I still didn’t know how to. I looked down on my tummy to notice the slight bump that showed the life growing inside of me. It was still so small and with my present choice of clothing, no one could notice. But how long? He deserved to know, I had to tell him and explain to him how it all happened. I had to before I completely ruin our marriage.I sighed heavily, feeling a familiar burn in my chest area while my hand ran in a circular motion around my s
JORDANI ended the meeting and shook the hands of the Russian investors. In a polite tone and a business manner, I thanked them and watched them leave the restaurant before I left. I got to the car and thought of what was left for me to do before I returned home.The thought of home made me smile, yet it made my heart ache. I had been away for five days and things had still not changed between Genesis and I. she was hiding something from me and I was losing my mind. I picked up my phone and stared at my wallpaper for a while. It was a picture of her, sleeping, and it was the most beautiful I had seen her. But again, she was beautiful in all ways, especially when she had her blue eyes opened. My heart ached and still longed for her.Just in the nick of time, she called and my heart leaped inside my chest. I picked it up quickly because I had missed her, I missed her voice, her face, her warmth, I missed being close to her. I simply missed her.“When are you coming home?” her whinny voi
“What happened?” Tiffany pulled me into a hug the moment I walked into the house and once again, I broke down before her. She took me to the sitting room where I sat down and cried my eyes out while she soothed my hair and simply allowed me cry.I recalled the pain in my husband’s eyes when I told him that I could not tell him the truth. I recalled the hurt, the pain, the fear I saw within those gazes, it burned my chest. I had looked him in the face and told him that I could not tell him the truth. What kind of wife was I? I was breaking all the promises we made to each other and keeping this, this preciousness away from him.“What happened to her?” I heard Tiana voice as her footsteps followed too.“She came in this way,” Tiffany answered and rubbed my back gently. None of them said a thing and simply comforted me while I cried till, I could no longer do that anymore.I drank a cup of water after which and I relaxed into the couch with the heaviness of the world on me.“I still can’
Days went by with nothing much happening. Jordan was constantly busy with work or simply being a loving husband while I grew lazier by the day. It was a good thing I had subordinates to handle my business, I would have totally been thrown into the dust with the rate at which my laziness grew. I slept more, ate more, slept more again, ate even more. My taste buds were also acting different, making me want something entirely different and hating things I love too. Margaret would usually get me what I want no matter how it got and she paid even closer attention to me now.I suspect she knew exactly what was going on with me, but had not said a thing, so I was happy about it and relaxed with her. However, I tried to sleep less and control myself when my beloved husband was available.It was burdening and aching my heart as the day goes by. But what was I supposed to do? I still hadn’t found a way to tell him what it was that was going on and I still didn’t have the boldness to speak out l