Once again, I could not sleep, no matter how much I tried. My thoughts were running wide and fear was killing me. I was worried about my husband, my marriage and what would happen the moment a beautiful news comes into our life. It didn’t even have to be good news, it didn’t have to be that I was truly pregnant, though I would love that so much, my husband might not and I sure heard him. He was willing to let me adopt just to have his way, just to maintain his stand of not having kids. Would I be able to tell him that I was pregnant if it eventually turned out that I was pregnant. I shivered and yet again, I could feel dread settle at the pit of my stomach at the thought of what he would do.But again, would not being pregnant help my situation? Of course, it wouldn’t because I still wanted a kid. He had made it clear what he wanted and I was not ready to accept that without attempting to convince him, so it would not be okay, but would I be able to convince him to consider having a c
My body felt extremely hot so suddenly. My heart skipped by a mile and started beating faster. I could no longer feel my knees but I knew that they were there. Tears blurred my vision and soon started pouring down my eyes as the possibility of what I always wanted shun before my eyes. Joy flooded me, it danced around me, it penetrated my heart, my skin, my mind and flowed through my veins with the blood within. It tingled my skin and filled my heart with warmth of gratitude and thanks. It was the best news of my life and I wanted to dance. I wanted to scream, to jump, to spin, I wanted to yell to the world that I had Jordan’s baby in my womb and that I would be a proud mother. Then it suddenly hit me. Jordan.All the amazing feelings I had in my heart disappeared almost instantly and my heart tightened. Pain sprang from it and the heat around me simply intensified. Jordan, what would he think? What would he do? He would make me abort the baby and I could not afford to do that.Oh my G
Jordan didn’t speak to me all the way back home and no matter how I tried, I also could not find the perfect words that could tell how sorry I was. The tension in the car was suffocating and the fact that he was constantly getting angry at me was beginning to get to me too. However, after many failed attempts to speak, I decided to keep shut. He had to calm down for a bit first before I could speak to him, so that was what I had to do. Wait in apprehension.The car came to a halt at the house and I thought, okay, it was time.“Jordan,” I turned so I could look at him. But he ignored me completely and stepped down from the car. My heart fell and something hard pierced it. He had never ignored me like that before and having to experience it hurt way more than I imagined.I slowly got down from the car and walked into the house. Most of the lights were off and it was very quiet. The staffs were probably asleep already and that had to explain how late I was. Jordan didn’t turn around or s
I could feel Jordan breath out heavily after my words and guilt struck my heart. Did I understand? Of course, I did and if I was not pregnant already, I would have probably agreed to his decision and opted for an adoption. But I had a baby now and I felt like I betrayed him by saying those words and also lied to his father. My life was turning to a mess that should be cleaned up soon and till that time, I guess I had to keep lying.Jordan hugged me tighter and buried his face in my neck. His hot breath against my skin was intoxicating and it brought a lot of thoughts into my head. But I was tired, weak and definitely not in the right frame of mind for such. Finding myself in a better position, other than the couch, I had been in earlier, I found sleep again beside my husband and this time it was more peaceful and worth it.***I opened my eyes sharply, and jerked at the pressure in my bladder. I jumped from the bed and ran to the bathroom to ease myself and almost peed on my body. Whe
JORDANI stared at my wife for a while and I must say, I was blessed. She looked so much like an angel when she was sleeping and I could spend all of my days watching her sleep like that. My eyes travelled her body and that uneasiness returned. It had been a while since I started feeling this way. And it was not the first time I noticed that my wife was different. The first time we made love after my return from the hospital, I had thought she felt different too. Not hyper horny as she was today, but she was different. But I said nothing, believing that it was because it had been so long since we had each other like that, but today, it was more visible. I could feel every inch of her and it all felt different, and it was making me even more uneasy.She groaned in her sleep and the duvet slide down her body, but I covered her up immediately before she would catch a cold then I kissed her shoulders and watched her shudder in want. That was exactly what I was talking about and in as much
Days went by with nothing much happening. Jordan was constantly busy with work or simply being a loving husband while I grew lazier by the day. It was a good thing I had subordinates to handle my business, I would have totally been thrown into the dust with the rate at which my laziness grew. I slept more, ate more, slept more again, ate even more. My taste buds were also acting different, making me want something entirely different and hating things I love too. Margaret would usually get me what I want no matter how it got and she paid even closer attention to me now.I suspect she knew exactly what was going on with me, but had not said a thing, so I was happy about it and relaxed with her. However, I tried to sleep less and control myself when my beloved husband was available.It was burdening and aching my heart as the day goes by. But what was I supposed to do? I still hadn’t found a way to tell him what it was that was going on and I still didn’t have the boldness to speak out l
“What happened?” Tiffany pulled me into a hug the moment I walked into the house and once again, I broke down before her. She took me to the sitting room where I sat down and cried my eyes out while she soothed my hair and simply allowed me cry.I recalled the pain in my husband’s eyes when I told him that I could not tell him the truth. I recalled the hurt, the pain, the fear I saw within those gazes, it burned my chest. I had looked him in the face and told him that I could not tell him the truth. What kind of wife was I? I was breaking all the promises we made to each other and keeping this, this preciousness away from him.“What happened to her?” I heard Tiana voice as her footsteps followed too.“She came in this way,” Tiffany answered and rubbed my back gently. None of them said a thing and simply comforted me while I cried till, I could no longer do that anymore.I drank a cup of water after which and I relaxed into the couch with the heaviness of the world on me.“I still can’
JORDANI ended the meeting and shook the hands of the Russian investors. In a polite tone and a business manner, I thanked them and watched them leave the restaurant before I left. I got to the car and thought of what was left for me to do before I returned home.The thought of home made me smile, yet it made my heart ache. I had been away for five days and things had still not changed between Genesis and I. she was hiding something from me and I was losing my mind. I picked up my phone and stared at my wallpaper for a while. It was a picture of her, sleeping, and it was the most beautiful I had seen her. But again, she was beautiful in all ways, especially when she had her blue eyes opened. My heart ached and still longed for her.Just in the nick of time, she called and my heart leaped inside my chest. I picked it up quickly because I had missed her, I missed her voice, her face, her warmth, I missed being close to her. I simply missed her.“When are you coming home?” her whinny voi