JORDANThe drive down to the office was like death to me. Nothing else could be seen, not the roads, not the drivers, not the cars or the buildings. Because I was lost in a dark place, in my dark thoughts and my hurting heart. It should not hurt so much, it should not feel so terrible because she was only my wife, a friend who I was trying to make good by. She had absolutely no place in my heart and simply should not affect me as much. But it did anyway and that was the anger I felt.I had thought of running back to her, calling her back or maybe following her back to her room when she had left mine. I had thought of taking back my words and telling her that I did not mean any of those things I said, not just because we were in a good place but because I could not afford to return to this dark abyss of mine that did nothing but remind me of my pain, my life and how it would end. But I did nothing of that sort and watched her go away leaving behind the emptiness and the gentle fragranc
JORDAN“Sir,” my secretary entered, confused.“Are you deaf?” I growled at her.“No sir,” she responded and walked away from the door without saying anything anymore.“Isn’t that too harsh?” Nate entered and I flashed him a glare.“She is trying to make up for whatever fight you both had,” he continued none the less. I relaxed into my chair and ran my hand through my hair as I pondered on the annoying words he said. Truly, she might be trying her best to make up for the things she had done earlier but words when spoken could never be taken back.“She doesn’t trust me,” I said to him and shut my eyes tightly as those words rang in my ears and her reaction to me replayed in my mind. I still wondered why it was hurting that way, I really did. But I had no reply for it myself, neither did I have an answer as to why I would feel hurt when I shouldn’t. I opened my eyes again, pushing away the angry feeling inside of me.“It shouldn’t, but it does. I don’t think she can make up for that,” I
GENESISBeing a romantic couple was no longer a bad idea, honestly speaking. All day, I had done everything to please him and to apologize for my wrong doings that I had not taken a time to rest. But now that he was with me, I realized that I missed him so much, it was funny. His scent, his very touch which I had always found strange and weird was no longer uncomfortable but the warmth of him was relaxing and soothing. My cheeks heated up when he said that he missed me too and I relaxed into his body, completely devouring the moment with shame that I never thought of anything else. We had completely forgotten that we were in the living room with staffs all looking at us.“Hmm hmmm,” one of them cleared their throat and I jerked away from Jordan’s arm. Turning around, I found that Margaret was grinning from ear to ear and she had this look on her face just like every other person did.“Would you still eat dinner?” she asked us and Jordan turned to me.“Yes, get it hot,” he responded
GENESISMy mood was like that of a bird soaring, roaring and flying so high, while it sang along other birds, chirping and being simply a bird. I ate, I took my bath and I read for a little while. My heart was dancing to a beautiful song and I thought of how pleasant it was going to be to tell someone about it, then I thought of my sister and my mom and dad. I quickly realized that I had not spoken to them in a while and I picked up my phone and dialed them. It rang for a while, and soon enough the very cheerful and excited voice of my sister came through the other end of the line as she shrieked.“Blue eyes…” she yelled and shrieked again, that I had to take the phone off my ear for a while till I was sure that she stopped.“Do you have to be that loud?” I teased.“Do you have to forget me so easily?” she snapped back and I frowned as a little guilt filled my heart.“I have asked you to stay away from my phone Ava,” my father’s voice came in.“Genesis,” his voice came through the oth
I remained frozen at the spot, unable to believe that Jordan had just said that to me or even Samantha. I shut my eyes and looked around to be sure that there was no hidden camera or reporters around. It might be why he was acting up in front of the woman he loved with all his life. But I found no other person except the chefs who were looking at the scene. I turned my gaze back to Jordan and still found that he was still staring at me with a lot of intensity and a smile at his lips. I gulped, still not believing that I had heard right and turned to the woman who was behind him. She had moved away from where she was behind him and was now at the side while she stared at him with wide eyes and open mouth. That look did it for me. It was the look that proved that it was not a movie neither was it a dream for Jordan had really said all that. I took my eyes away from her and turned to Jordan as I recuperated from his speech and his lips twitched as it widened with a smile. His eyes sparkl
Just as quickly as we had carried our matter outside, we turned back inside. Jordan held my hand tightly in his and ignored the eyes that stared at us while I felt a bit awkward. We walked back to the VVIP room and sat down on the table as we have done before while a chef walked up to us. He opened the wine bottle that was there before and poured it into a glass for the both of us. Jordan took his and gulped it in a goal while I stared at him.“Are you alright?” I asked him and he forced a smile. He dropped his now empty glass and stared at me with an intensity that made me uncomfortable in my sit.“I should be asking you that. She almost smashed your head with a glass,” he responded and I smiled.“But you didn’t let her,”“Just as I won’t let her cause any more harm,” he added strongly. I could tell that he was still at the edge, still very much annoyed by what happened and I thought of how to cheer him up. I had dressed up perfectly for a lunch date and I was not planning to let Sam
Pulling Jordan along with me to the door was like moving a rock. His body was steadily built and it was a lot of work because of his reluctance to go in. But after hearing what he had said, how he had been with other people compared to how he was with me, I wanted my family to see my husband already and know who he was. We finally got to the door and I lifted my hand against it to ring the doorbell only for the door to swing open and Tiffany shrieked so loudly, I had to close my eyes and winced at the loud sound that could come out of her throat.“She is here,” she yelled into the house and pulled me by my arm into the house. Tiana came out and crossed her hand over her chest as she stared at me grudgingly, like I had offended her in some way but I saw the little smile at the corner of her lips that proved she was happy to see me as I was happy to see them.“How have you been?” Tiffany started as she ran her eyes from my head to my toe so widely. It reminded me of how Jordan always lo
My heart skipped and my eyes instantly snapped to Tiana. She didn’t act like she cared though because she was eating her food casually. It went so silent in the table, I could feel my heart beating so loudly inside my chest.“Why y’all looking at me?” she looked up and smirked when she met my angry gaze.“What? Have you become so obsessed with money that you no longer have a conscience?”“Do you know that we never told him who you were married to so he wouldn’t create a fuss and ruin things. But even after so many months, have you called him once to apologize or say sorry?” she yelled.“Tiana,” my mother banged her hands against the table loudly. And like she realized what she had done, she flinched and went quiet. I wanted to tear her apart, not because what she said was wrong but because she was so stupid to have brought that up in front of Jordan. I only just told her that we were in a good place, why was she trying to ruin it? No one said a thing again, they all remained quiet and
My phone rang again and I smiled as I picked up my husband call this time. “Miss me yet, wife,” he teased immediately and I groaned. “No, but the kids want you home.” “Too bad. My flight got delayed.” He sighed. “What?” I jerked up from where I sat. He chuckled. “Easy their wife. I just got to town and would be home soon,” he entered and I sighed. “Bye…” I ended the call abruptly, feeling angry at such expensive joke. I had everything ready already. After two hours, I was perfectly ready and had stepped out of the room and back down only to find out that I was a late host. Everyone was present. My parents, my sister, Tiana, Nate, Tiffany and her fiancée, Jordan’s cousins, their girlfriends, his mom, my p.a and Margaret. Yes her. she was a huge part of Jordan’s life for long and we could not let her to keep being a staff here so we freed her with a lot of money, a house, something to keep her going and a family. “I told you that she might be painting,” Julian’s loud mouth entere
FOUR YEARS AFTERI ran down the stairs, feeling completely exhausted and disheveled, not to add, disorganized and slightly angry. With my robe on, I decided to check if everything was set and ready. I couldn’t help it, it had to be perfect, it all had to be or I might lose it. Anna strolled into the house at that particular moment, and she stared at me with a wary look as I made my way to the kitchen.“Is everything alright?” she asked in her very sweet voice.“Go change and rest up,” I reprimanded. She had only just returned from college and shouldn’t be concerned by things like that, yet she was ever so humble and would in fact start on chores the moment she returns from college which was slight annoying. We made her go to college for a good reason, to better her life and not to turn out like a staff her entire life, yet she looked so dedicated to being one.“I would the moment you tell me what is wrong,” she followed behind me with dedication and became a nag that I didn’t want at
GENESISEven in my unconsciousness, I could feel that emptiness inside of me. I could feel the hole, the empty, painful hole that was once filled with life, I could feel the vacuum there. I knew that something was different and I feared what it was. When I opened my eyes, the first sight I wanted to behold was my beloved husband. His scent was the first thing I wanted to caress my nostrils, his warmth the next feel I wanted to feel against my cold skin. But he wasn’t there as I had hoped. And that had shattered whatever was left inside of me. He had threatened to leave me, maybe he did.The fear of such possibility had made me fear and panic especially when I didn’t see him around me. It scared me but the familiar faces gave me a little bit of comfort. They were family and ones I loved. They had such effect on me. Not till I recalled what happened, how I fell. My hands had voluntarily found its way to my stomach where I wanted to feel the life inside of me. I was in a hospital for sur
I could hear my baby crying in my ears. Screaming in pain and asking me why I did what I did. I could imagine the judging, hateful look those blue eyes would give to me once she opens her eyes and the pain that would show itself in those eyes of hers. The pain was enough to consume me, to burn me, to torment me. With heaviness in my chest, I looked away from her unconscious body, lying on the bed with families around her. I could not bare to look at her, I could not dare to even think of going close to her, not what after I had done.I should have been more patient, more careful, more tolerant, I should have attempted to listen to her. But I didn’t. It was not her fault and I would have accepted my own child. She came at a time that our world was dark and I was about to lose my life, she came way before I decided that I didn’t want to have a baby, and like a miracle, she survived. How I snuffed the life out of her.I would forever live with this pain, wouldn’t I? This guilt, the memor
JORDANThe scream….The screams…The scream of my wife and the staff was what it took me to stop. Fear engulfed me and swallowed me whole, leaving every anger, betrayal and pain I felt earlier. I snapped my gaze back to the direction I had come from, knowing that her scream came from there.“No…” I screamed, seeing her rolling down the stairs. I could feel life leaving me at the sight of her. My legs started towards her as fast as I could just as everyone else. She came to a halt at the edge of the step and my heart died at her position. Then the blood.“Oh God! No…no…no….”“Get the car,” I screamed, feeling tears burn my eyes while I slowly placed her head on my thighs. She was bleeding and still fucking naked with just that robe.“Get the car,” I cried at the top of my lungs, fearing for the worse. I immediately checked for her pulse, praying, hoping, wishing that it would not come to that. I might as well die if it did.We rushed her to the hospital and the doctors immediately plac
GENESISI took a longer time in the bathroom this time around. The heat and steam of the shower had become my comfort and I was scared of leaving it. I would only return to our bedroom that had turned to a hunting ground for me. Each place and thing smelt of my husband and with the feel of him reminded me of the anger he had against me and the secret I had adamantly been keeping away from him.I missed him, each part of me missed him. It was almost like life was leaving me slowly and gently, yet I couldn’t stop it. Not that I couldn’t, I still didn’t know how to. I looked down on my tummy to notice the slight bump that showed the life growing inside of me. It was still so small and with my present choice of clothing, no one could notice. But how long? He deserved to know, I had to tell him and explain to him how it all happened. I had to before I completely ruin our marriage.I sighed heavily, feeling a familiar burn in my chest area while my hand ran in a circular motion around my s
JORDANI ended the meeting and shook the hands of the Russian investors. In a polite tone and a business manner, I thanked them and watched them leave the restaurant before I left. I got to the car and thought of what was left for me to do before I returned home.The thought of home made me smile, yet it made my heart ache. I had been away for five days and things had still not changed between Genesis and I. she was hiding something from me and I was losing my mind. I picked up my phone and stared at my wallpaper for a while. It was a picture of her, sleeping, and it was the most beautiful I had seen her. But again, she was beautiful in all ways, especially when she had her blue eyes opened. My heart ached and still longed for her.Just in the nick of time, she called and my heart leaped inside my chest. I picked it up quickly because I had missed her, I missed her voice, her face, her warmth, I missed being close to her. I simply missed her.“When are you coming home?” her whinny voi
“What happened?” Tiffany pulled me into a hug the moment I walked into the house and once again, I broke down before her. She took me to the sitting room where I sat down and cried my eyes out while she soothed my hair and simply allowed me cry.I recalled the pain in my husband’s eyes when I told him that I could not tell him the truth. I recalled the hurt, the pain, the fear I saw within those gazes, it burned my chest. I had looked him in the face and told him that I could not tell him the truth. What kind of wife was I? I was breaking all the promises we made to each other and keeping this, this preciousness away from him.“What happened to her?” I heard Tiana voice as her footsteps followed too.“She came in this way,” Tiffany answered and rubbed my back gently. None of them said a thing and simply comforted me while I cried till, I could no longer do that anymore.I drank a cup of water after which and I relaxed into the couch with the heaviness of the world on me.“I still can’
Days went by with nothing much happening. Jordan was constantly busy with work or simply being a loving husband while I grew lazier by the day. It was a good thing I had subordinates to handle my business, I would have totally been thrown into the dust with the rate at which my laziness grew. I slept more, ate more, slept more again, ate even more. My taste buds were also acting different, making me want something entirely different and hating things I love too. Margaret would usually get me what I want no matter how it got and she paid even closer attention to me now.I suspect she knew exactly what was going on with me, but had not said a thing, so I was happy about it and relaxed with her. However, I tried to sleep less and control myself when my beloved husband was available.It was burdening and aching my heart as the day goes by. But what was I supposed to do? I still hadn’t found a way to tell him what it was that was going on and I still didn’t have the boldness to speak out l