Nerthus“Ouch,” I groan, trying to lift the death weight off me. “You are heavier than you seem.”Danny wails with his head hanging. “I’m sorry, Ambaaa.”“Oh my God, Danny. Are you drunk?”He starts groaning and sobbing, and I try to calm him before he wakes up the entire house.“Shhh. Danny.” I finally get him to stand up, even if it seems hard for him to keep his balance.“Come on, let’s get you some water,” I whisper, closing the door and pushing him into the kitchen.Looking at the bar stools, I am pondering over whether I should better take him to the couch. “Can you sit…?”“Sure,” He answers full of pride as he hops onto the kitchen island. “I learned that a long time ago.”I laugh, turning to take a bottle of water out of the fridge.As I hand him the bottle, he sighs deeply, letting his arms slump into his lap. “I’m sorry Amber. I didn’t know where to go.”“It’s okay, baby. You can come over whenever you need to. Now drink!” I cross my arms, gesturing to the bottle in his hand
Nerthus There are a few moments in my life where I could say that I nearly had a heart attack. But I guess the moment I jolt awake because of the sound of a horn will definitely make it to my top three. “What the fuck?!” I screech, hearing Danny cussing as he turns to bury his face into a pillow. “Nice couch you have here.” My heart skips a beat at hearing Arawn’s voice even before my eyes can find him. “Are you insane? You woke up the entire house with that thing!” He is just standing there with his phone in his hand, looking at me disparagingly as I hiss at him. Pulling my blanket up to my chest, I look over to Danny. “He was just feeling lonely. Why are you like that?” Danny groans about not telling him once again as Arawn clicks his tongue. “Sure, there is nothing better to cure loneliness than a pair of big boobs.” “Wouldn’t you know?!” I don’t get to gasp in time as he is already standing at my bed, tearing my warming blankets off me. “Out. I have things to do. Don’t l
Arawn Thank you for the flowers.I laugh at my own simping as I knock on the door. “Danny, open up!”He doesn’t respond, and I knock against it once more.“Come on! Open this door.”Turning at the door handle, I click my tongue. “You surely don’t want Amber to have a broken door, don’t you?”This bait works, as I hear a low click, and can finally open the door fully.Disclosing a teenager sulking while sitting on a small couch, I nearly have to laugh but I keep it in.I urgently need to leave here.“Danny! What are you doing?” I ask him as I close the door behind me.The room is a small library mixed with an office space. It is cozy, even if it fits the sterile style of Nerthus’ taste in interior design.Sitting down in an office chair, I roll to sit next to Danny. “Are you still feeling unwell?”He shakes his head, still avoiding my gaze.“How much did you drink last night?”I get another non-verbal answer as he shrugs.“Danny!” I lean forward, propping my elbows on my knees. “Were
Nerthus It’s official.I’m going to die.Right here and on the spot.Just because my heart can’t take it anymore.“Amber!” Danny’s voice tears me away from staring at the lights and decorations in awe as he and Arawn seem to have moved through the crowd.“Sorry,” I mumble more to myself as he is too far away to hear it as I reach Danny, who is waving for me.This afternoon and evening have been so much fun but also quite depressing.Don’t get me wrong.I’m certainly used to having fun, and Jenna and Gigi surely are the best friends a girl could ever desire. But this is just different.I had spent some time on my own in the arcades as I was in my teens after I had come to New York.But Coney Island?!The afternoon at the arcade has already been much more fun than I had imagined, as it is different from being there alone.Danny and I had raced each other on the race car simulators and threw a few baskets on the basketball machines.We even won some tickets that we could exchange for fu
Nerthus “Relax,” Arawn says annoyed, taking his cigarette package out of the inside pocket of his coat. “I got your message loud and clear. I just needed him away as long as possible because my head is killing me.” Taking a pull of his cigarette, he looks into the distance. My heart squeezes in my chest as this isn’t the message I intended for him to get. Yet, I was never the type to give such messages. I wouldn’t deserve to be this type of woman, and he surely is better off without me troubling him with all my emotional baggage. It’s shoved deeply down, and this is where it should stay. I really can’t risk having it spilled just because I can’t seem to keep my emotions in check with him. And still, my tongue itches to ask him about his card and his text. About what he meant exactly. I know that I’m being stupid, and I’m continuing to convince myself that I’m interpreting it wrong, as I’m just acting like a love-sick teenage girl. So unprofessional. Men would do anything fo
Nerthus Feeling the urge to pant for air, I squirm in my seat.The little voice in my head is screaming how I should recognize that this isn’t about work. He can’t say such things or do certain gestures if he wasn’t into me on an entirely other basis.But I drown it in my doubt immediately, shutting it up.And I surely have enough material to do it, as he had treated me badly enough to never get her to re-emerge to gasp for air.Clearing my throat, I fight hard to keep my voice from trembling as I try to get the conversation going in another direction.And without those breathtaking words of his.“What about me falling for you and you threatening to drop me?”“I’m sorry if I acted like this. But you have to know that this is all new to me as well.” He shakes his head, capturing my gaze with his intense one.“I was just doing my job,” I whisper, and he smirks.Lowering his voice as well, he leans in even more. “But you liked being with me, didn’t you? You had feelings for me.”Had…“Y
Nerthus “Why don’t you take your brother as well? We will just not give him any candy.” I ask him, and he rolls his eyes.“No way. He is a total pain and such a crybaby. All a mama’s boy. Ugh, I was closer to my dad. Just like Arawn was.” He smiles proudly, and I squint at Arawn as he scoffs.“Danny…” Arawn warns, putting out his cigarette.Danny sways his head from side to side. “We have many things in common. Both our fathers came from Wales.”“Oh, wow!” I say, listening as he continues to explain something geographically to me that I don’t quite understand.“But I can talk Welsh, but he never learned.” He turns to me, leaning in while lowering his voice as if he were to tell me a secret. “But it isn’t his fault. He did take him in too late.”“Danny!” Arawn barks, making us flinch, and I fear that even the fisherman sitting on the rails next to us was about to fall into the water because of the scare.Danny starts talking what could be gibberish from what I know as I don’t understan
Nerthus I’m leaning against the seat of the fancy limousine Arawn drove us to the amusement park in. With a deep sigh, I watch the city pass by my window, the smell of the leather and the constant rumbling of the motor lulling me to sleep.After having brought Danny home, who left the car under strong protest, we didn’t speak once.My heart is beating so strongly in my chest that I fear that he can hear it.After another few minutes of painful silence, his deep baritone disrupts it, making my heart jump in my chest. “Are you alright?”Turning my head to look at him, I see him staring at the street forcefully while he clenches the steering wheel. His exhaustion is dominant in his traits, even if another emotion seems to push through.It could be uncomfortable nervousness, but I could be wrong.Maybe because of what he said to me.He might sense something as he usually reads me like a bluff.“Yes,” I say, sighing again. “Will you promise me not to freak out if I take a bit to answer yo
Thank you so much, my lovelies for reading, your amazing support and for your patience as I had to take several breaks to finish this one. I hope you loved Nerthus' and Arawn's love story and will be following me for the sequel. XoXo, Shelagh
Lenore Her high-pitched giggles sound like razor blades in my ears as my gaze is fixed on the huge diamond sparkling on her finger. “Well, you will surely understand, right?” Jason asks with a stupid grin as he shoves the hand of his new fiancée under my nose. “We weren’t compatible anyway.” I force up a smile, caressing my arms as I hug myself against the cold. “Of course, you are so cute together.” “Thank you so much,” Gina squeals in her fake happy voice, putting her hand on her chest. “It was so important for me that you would understand.” This scene is so telling. Also, because I’m standing in the open, freezing to death in my cute dress while the snowflakes fall on me, sticking to my hair and melting into my already freezing skin.My best friend and my ex-boyfriend, on the other hand, are standing beneath the roof of the entrance to his house, smiling at me like it’s about to be Christmas.And luckily it is. I gave the best days of my life to this man, my high-school love,
Danny “Is this thing on?” I clear my throat as I tap on the microphone, smiling uncomfortably. “Hey everyone.” The guests are staring up at me and I squirm on my feet as I push out a deep breath. I have never spoken in front of so many people and my throat feels raspy. “As my brother asked me to be his best man, I felt honored, but the first thing I asked him was, ‘Don’t you have any friends?’” A low chuckle goes through the crowd, and I wet my lips with my tongue. “Of course, I know that he has a lot of friends, but he wanted me as his brother to do it. And thank God, Bernie was not too offended about it to help me with the planning of the bachelor party.” “Hear, hear!” Bernard lifts his glass, cheering loudly, getting other guests to join him. I play with my notes, my nervousness increasing as I feel my throat close. “Well, the bachelor party was great. Sorry, Amber, but there were a lot of beautiful girls.” Amber laughs, the diamond pins holding up her hair sparkling in th
Arawn“This is not fair! You can’t treat me like this.” Amanda screams at the top of her lungs, making me close my eyes exhausted.“Well, why don’t you go ahead and sue me?”Her theatrical gasp must cost her so much air that I’m surprised she doesn’t faint.“I hate you!” She screams even louder. “I never want to see you ever again!”So dramatic.It has been quite a while and I still struggle to adjust to this ‘love topic’.All because of that woman.Fifteen years have passed since I asked Nerthus to be my wife, and claimed she just said yes because of her job.I might have her punished for this.But she made me pay severely anyway.“Well, what a shame that you are stuck with me, isn’t it, Amanda?”“I hate you! I hate you!”Groaning, I pinch the bridge of my nose. “You keep repeating yourself. We already figured it out that far, didn’t we, my love?”The shrill scream that she is used to producing during her tantrums risks bursting my eardrums.Well, my fucking fault for thinking I coul
NerthusMy birthday was more than memorable. Especially because after getting proposed to by the love of my life, I got to party my entry into a new life-year with my friends. I drank way too much, fearing I would have spoiled my chance of a tasty breakfast. “I’m out!” I hear Danny shout before the door slams close. Groaning, I fight myself out of bed, desperately needing a cup of coffee. As I reach the kitchen, a strange sensation rises in me. I notice that there is no staff around whatsoever. Not even the usual bodyguard is scurrying around my feet and I guess that Danny left with Goldie to go to the dog school, making the house awfully silent. I tie my morning gown tighter around my waist, concentrating on refilling the water tank of my coffee machine. My heart drops as I hear footsteps nearing, but I don’t turn around. Pressing the button to get the coffee to start flowing, I ignore my body shivering in anticipation as Arawn puts his hands on the counter, caging me in. “I
Nerthus - Six months later I take a sip of my coffee, hugging my denim jacket closer as I watch the children run around the statue of Alice in Wonderland. Thinking about how my life has changed in the last year, I nearly can’t believe my luck and I push down the urge to ask myself how I deserved this kind of life. So many things have happened in these six months and it is just crazy how I’m just living my days with a partner in crime, an adopted boy and a stolen dog. As they had liquidated my uncle’s and aunt’s assets, and as they couldn’t get hold of my cousin, I got nominated as their heir. First, I didn’t want to have nothing to do with it, but with Arawn’s and Danny’s support, I got to the house where I lived before I came to New York and we searched for something that I would want to keep before he arranged for the clean-up and the sale of the house. Naturally, I didn’t want to keep anything. But as we searched the house, Danny found a hidden safe where there were various docu
Nerthus It takes my lungs a few seconds to fill with enough air to push out a horrified scream. But it actually feels like it takes an eternity. Lizzy looks at us with a blank look before she sinks to the floor, collapsing in her own pool of blood. Arawn steps towards her with his gun still pointed and picks her gun up. “Are you alright?” he asks in our direction as he pushes the gun into the belt in the back of his pants. Danny nods, exhaling a deep breath, and I loop my arm around his, hugging him closer. “Let’s sit down. Shall we?” He slumps to the ground nearly immediately, tearing me with him. Nodding once again, he lets his shoulders slump and I turn my head to watch Arawn crouch down before me. Cupping my chin gently, he turns my head to inspect my face. “The ambulance is already on its way. I called Detective Ramirez. Are you feeling well enough to wait for them? Or shall I drive you to the ER?” “I’m fine,” I say, my voice nearly failing me as sobs rise in my throat.
Nerthus The first thing I feel as I wake up is the cold surface I’m lying on. Turning my head to the side, I wait for my sight to focus while I notice that I can’t move. I seem to be constricted by ropes that are tying me to the table and I suddenly feel like I can’t breathe. My clothes are missing, my body shaking as I’m only dressed in my lingerie and I dread the moment when we will find out why we are in this shitty situation. My panic is crushing my throat, my breathing getting heavy as I try to pull at the ropes constricting me on the shiny surface. Checking the room, I see Danny lying next to me. He is bound to a table as well but seems to be still knocked out, and for a moment, I’m glad as I couldn’t take his desperation which would be adding to my panic. The gas must have been inducted into the room on purpose to knock us out and I fight hard not to faint at the thought. I groan, turning my head to the other side as I hope it will reduce the pulsating pain in my skull.
Nerthus “Get him off me!” I scream pushing the dead body from me but failing miserably. Danny scurries around him a few times before he decides on what to do and how to get hold of the body the best way. With a groan, he pushes him off me, making me take a deep breath. “Oh, my God.” He remains standing, staring at the dead man with a void look while I drag myself over the ground to get to the gun he had kicked out of my hand. “Are you alright?” I ask as I sit up with a pained groan, and Danny nods. Laying the gun into my lap, I massage my hand as I take another deep breath. “I think he might broke my hand too.” Sighing, I look up while I let my shoulders slump. I watch Danny while my desperation still streams through me, and I can’t seem to be able to push it down. I know exactly that there is more where he came from. Danny has his gaze still directed to the dead man, his look is flowing into the void, and I gulp as I think about how I must get him out of this dark place as s