Chapter 36: Why Am I Even Guilty
Time flies peacefully and everything seems great for everyone, except for the awkward air and bloody aura between the two people with their glazed eyes that was all over each other’s face but other than that, they never spoke nor argued which is kinda bizarre and extraordinary sight for everyone, although some don’t get it, they sensed that something is definitely up between them.
The time passed and their behavior suddenly turned into a wave of silent treatment and that’s kinda worrying. They couldn’t help but approached Yenn and Jiwoon to ask about the problem but both of them won’t even say a word.
Over the past few weeks, wrongful stares and worried looks was gifted to Yenn and it really pissed him off and decided to make amends with them, saying that he just don’t want to talk about it and bluntly refused to open up the topic. He’d rather keep quiet than dragging everyone to their own issue.
 
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Chapter 37: I Can’t Believe I’m Such A Piece of Trash “A month, only three more days left and I should be able to talk to him again.” Jiwoon sighed in his seat, marking X’s in his calendar. He was readying himself for the upcoming day, he already made up his mind that— He’ll chased Yenn, asked for his forgiveness again and maybe help him to move on because of what happened back then. It might pissed him off or maybe start another feud between them but he want to at least cope with Yenn’s personality and maybe have a bit of understanding how worse himself is, he need to change and help him, after all, he’s the one at fault and he have to correct it. He scribbled something in his notebook then write another word as he scribbled it again, repeating the cycle of marking it X and writing another one until he finally tear the piece of paper in his notebook and unceremoniously throwing it away again and again. He stand up and slammed his
Chapter 38: Finally Talk Again It was a lovely afternoon, Yenn didn’t expect that he and Jiwoon could have a casual talk and a very simple conversation that was… really weird and quite remarkable. It was unbelievable but it feels great. He don’t scare him that much anymore unlike then. He sat at the counter watching Jiwoon move around the oven, he was currently pouring the mixture in the cupcake pan. ‘So, he could bake…' he thought, he stared at him when he finally put the pan in the oven. Jiwoon turned his head meeting his gaze, jolting his body in a sense of panic. He caught him staring but so what, he shoot him a scrutinizing glare that made Jiwoon chuckle at his flunky attempt of cover up. “Stop glaring, your face is cuter when you smile” he smiled at him as he sat in the countertop too, inching a bit farther so he wouldn’t feel uncomfortable. “How can you say so?” “Well, I’ve seen it when you talked to Karin. Perhaps you li
Chapter 39 Camping A pile of dried leaves was scattered all over the wilderness, fluttering playfully in the wind as it fell silently to the ground heaving another stack of leaves as the crackling and crunching of feet stepping amicably in the hill of leaves resound way too loud, disturbing the quietness of the whole forest. The group went straightly at the center of the woods seeing a huge space for them to set up tents. They all gather around cleaning the field of dried leaves and surrounding grasses. Everyone went out for a forest camp. It was their weekend activity and they want to at least have a change of pace given that they’ve been staying for too long in the house they’ve gotten bored and want a new exploration, so they all agreed to go out camp in the forest for a weeknights stay. They all sweep the leaves on the corner as the other set up the tents and those in charge of the fire gather some woods across the forest. Yenn and Ji
Chapter 40 Do You Want Me to Teach You Yenn sprint away in a rabbit speed, he couldn’t believe himself that he totally kissed Jiwoon impulsively. It was a spur of the moment and he was acting cutely but still— That was embarrassing and really unbelievable! He ran back slowly when he almost reach their camp, he didn’t realized that he really left Jiwoon in a big distance. He panted and sit at the nearby rock, waiting for his figure to come closer before he walk again. Well, you never know maybe he would get lost and he don’t want to be blamed for that. After a few minutes, He finally saw Jiwoon carrying a heavy load of firewood in his back. He really made him carry more and that’s kinda harsh. He assisted him with the loads but Jiwoon put all his firewood into his own and they walk back with him the only one carrying everything. He sighed in defeat and just let him do the deed. They reach the camp at dusk and everyone scolded them for
Chapter 41: Hallucination Jiwoon went back to their designated tent, scooting himself inside and waiting patiently for his roommate. He fix his blankets and pillows then he also did Yenn’s bed so when he went in he just had to lie down. He lay himself down to his own space and leaned his head to a soft pillow since the tent was a medium size, they fit perfectly enough for two persons. He looked at Yenn’s supposed-to-be space and noticed a bunch of pillows and a squishy palm-sized stuff toy? He reached out and grab the purple octopus-like ball and gently squeeze it. A stress relief toy… he must be too stressed since they’ve start being together. Is that the reason why he always reached out to his pocket when he was fuming mad? He chuckled, that’s cute, he’s been holding it in with this huh. So that’s why. He squeezed the toy tight, clenching and opening his fists repeatedly as he heard a squeaky sound. He grinned, enjoying himself with the squeezy toy
Chapter 42: Kiss When you like someone you have to kiss them and surely you’ll feel the sparks. Although Yenn had tried it many times in his head, he still couldn’t grasp the exact meaning of the kiss. He looked at Jiwoon who was still sleeping in his side. He saw him sleep first last night and it’s still early that time. He thought he would wake up earlier than him but here he is. Still asleep like a log. He inched his face near Jiwoon’s, examining his sharp features, he really had that fancy jawline and a pointy nose although he don’t get how they kissed many times with their faces slammed to each other without him getting hurt because of his sharp features... He chuckled at the idea in his head. Maybe it wasn’t like what he thought. He look at Jiwoon’s mouth, brushing his thumb to his thin cherry-colored lips. He sighed and envisioned the scenes he had in his head this past few hours, and after a few mi
Chapter 43: Back to The House Jiwoon woke up with a bit of drowsiness, this must be the longest sleep that he had in his entire stay in the island. He glanced at his side seeing the blankets and pillows already fixed on the corner. He also folded his own and put them aside on the corner before he finally went out of the tent. Everyone was already awake and busying themselves on lighting a fire, chopping vegetables and chattering about stuffs. He glanced around and didn’t saw Yenn amongst the crowd. 'Where is he?’ he furrowed his brows and glanced over everyone again but he’s really not there. It’s still early, where did he go? He didn’t went missing right? He shook his head since that may not be the case and he just went out for a bit so—he scanned the place again and saw Byul. He approached Byul who’s loitering around the corner of their camp and speaking to someone in the bush. It might be Yenn… “Byu—” He paused heari
Chapter 44: Indirect Kiss Jiwoon and Yenn was currently in Yenn’s room. Jiwoon was sitting on the swivel chair next to Yenn’s desk while Yenn was near the bed busying himself in tearing a plastic wrap in the folded wrappers they’ve sneaked off from the kitchen. They’re just borrowing it for a bit. “Are you sure this is gonna work?” Yenn arched his brow while holding the plastic wrapper in front of Jiwoon. He really want to test things out and determine to find the reason of his current dilemma. He needs to find the exact point of his sudden change of feelings over Jiwoon. He must be bewitched by this guy, if not he won’t be suffering with his feelings like this. Right now, they’re testing a kiss and skinship with each other. Ahem, he was really cringed out by this but it was the only way he could confirm his demise too so they’re both in this kind of cranky situation. “Yeah, It should be. Byul suggested we used some
After the confession... It means, they are to do it right? Jiwoon and Yenn went up to their rooms, holding hands. Yenn never felt so nervous before, he's actually shaking when he held his hands. Jiwoon wasn't any better, he was sweating a lot as if both of them is about to be sent on the gates of hell. Yenn gripped his hand to his, calming himself down. We'll do it properly... He thought deep and unknowingly they reach the seventh floor. Yenn stared at their holding hands then he was suddenly pulled towards the direction of Jiwoon's room. Jiwoon grabbed him inside and closed the door hastily as he started to slam his lips into his. Yenn flinched as his lips met his. He felt like he's going to be a goner because of his rough kisses. Jiwoon cupped his cheeks as he started to deepen their kisses. "Mmh~" Jiwoon kisses his neck and playfully give his ear a naughty lick. The two of them finally had time to spend their
Chapter 60 Say that Word “Say that you like me” Again, he’s acting so weird again that Jiwoon became a bit awkward to do what he always requested. It’s been a month that they spent together—learning and understanding each other, gaining pain and affection as the days flew by—they’ve become closer than lovers would yet, they aren’t one. Not even a bit of the label of being in a relationship. What even are they? Friends? No, Fuck buddies? No, they were intimate but not to that extent. They were slow and progressive but Jiwoon was now beginning to be unsure what Yenn even felt for him. Was he toying with him? No. Then what? He was really confused and overwhelmed about their current state. Is it time to— “Hey” Yenn grinned for the first time. Jiwoon really don’t know what he should say that moment but he suddenly forgot what he was even thinking of—and one thing for sure… He would say the words Yenn wanted to hear no matter how man
Chapter 59 I Still Like Him ThoughJiwoon froze up in that moment. He just stared at Yenn dumbfounded as he listened to him explaining and making up excuses that he really couldn’t hear right now. The only thing running repeatedly in his head and the only words that caught him off guard— blocked his senses of hearing and understanding was—you don’t hate it right?You don’t hate it right…That simple and astounding question have been clogging everything and ultimately made his system dysfunction in that spot. Yenn glanced at him and saw his current state. Jiwoon was blushing. Definitely red from head to toe and he was frozen stiff on his position. What the fuck?! Did he just lost his breath?!Yenn panicked and became paranoid. Is he sick? Fuck why does he look so red like the blood would burst any moment. Yenn gasped and instinctively hold his arm and pulse. God! Is it hard to took that words in? Was it too much? Did he
Chapter 58 Culprit and VictimJiwoon’s POVI woke up in the sight of Yenn dashing away in a lightning speed and also, I found my shirt disheveled and my pants were pulled down the sheets. I was astonished and dumbfounded but one thing that I recognize was the wet part of the seams—an evidence of the crime he had done. At first, I was stunned by the sight of it but then at that very moment, I sniffed out a familiar smell. It was his and was combined with the smell of mine and that very fact was what made me dumbstruck and amazed of what he did.He…Did he just…Did he just j—jerk.. me off in my s-sleep??!I didn’t know what came into my senses that moment but my heart was shouting in joy and my brain was starting to rationalize everything although something felt amiss, for some reason I started celebrat—no debating why did he did that? Did he missed our sessions of skinship or was he trying to take
Chapter 57 This Particular MorningJiwoon stared at Yenn, he’s been silent the whole time and he hasn’t even flinched when he took the notebook away. Was he tired? He’s been dumbfounded over something but he couldn’t read his thoughts nor understand why he was in that state. Jiwoon pursed his lips and shook Yenn’s shoulder blades. Yenn then look at him with an equal amount of shock and guilt. What is he thinking of? Did something on the notebook put him off perhaps?His face was now filled with dread and he too—was staring back at Yenn with guilt. They quietly watched each other and then Yenn let out a long sigh.“Why can’t I understand a thing in that notes?”“Ah?”Jiwoon jerked on his seat and then he scoot himself to the sheets with Yenn. They both leaned over the headboard and quietly gaze in front of them. Jiwoon then looked into Yenn’s side profile and couldn’t help
Chapter 56 NotebookJiwoon sighed in the kitchen. He start running the water and soaked the plates. He then start squeezing the sponge and washes the plates.‘Why does he look like that?’He let it another long sigh and reminiscence about yesterday.Yenn stayed silent, he wasn’t shock or did he froze in his spot. He just stared at him quietly and study his facial expression. It was hella awkward and he don’t know what to say. Should he take that back? Maybe he should’ve make an excuse but he don’t seems to find a way to berate or refute his words.He looked back into Yenn’s golden eyes and it was just there—gleaming as he stared at him quietly. He scratched the back of his neck and then slowly massage it. It was embarrassing and he really don’t get why Yenn was still not talking. He’s beginning to become fidgety and weird inside. Silent treatment was damn scary and right now he’s rec
Chapter 55 I Just Like You Perhaps“Wow..?”“You two made up?”Byul crossed-arms and looked at Yenn and Jiwoon. He then glanced at their holding hands and gazed at Jiwoon’s eyes fixatedly. If they were together and parading another series of PDA again then that means they fucking did. He rolled his eyes when Jiwoon confirmed his speculations in his head. He looked at Yenn then to Jiwoon and sighed. He then knitted his brows and look at Jiwoon intently. He really couldn’t stomach the sight when he would see other people happy.Wait are they even happy? Did they finally hit it off?He widen his eyes as the passing thought came into his brain. He sneered at the two and then shook his head. Yenn tilt his head in confusion and he could really see the question mark near his head. His expression suddenly turned—from amusement then into disappointment.Hyung still hasn’t say it?Why the fuck Yen
Chapter 54 Let’s Start Off AgainYenn stared at Jiwoon and waited for him to say something. He wanted to talk to him again not like last time when they were in a grudge or a reason that keep them together. He want to start off as friends, slowly understand how Jiwoon felt and convey what he want to say too. Yenn pursed his lips and explained.“Let’s start things off again. We can be together with no grudge against each other. Stay with me please. I don’t want to lost you too. I know how numb I am and how slow I could be but without you I can’t continue being happy. I know I hurt you in some ways but that’s because I thought that if I do that too, I’ll feel better but when you walked away that day…”Yenn look away and inhaled deeply then he look into Jiwoon’s eyes again. Jiwoon silently stood there and waited for him to speak.“That day you walk away. I realized how shitty I treated you. I
Chapter 53 JiwoonJiwoon sighed and look at Yenn who’s been staring at him for a while now. He didn’t even react or approach him this past few days so why is he here now—and staring at him too. It’s uncomfortable when he doesn’t have anything to say. He glanced at Yenn and he was welcome with an intense stare.A stare that send shivers into his spine.It felt like a hunter was staring at his prey— And he was that prey. It feels like he was being watch by a wolf and if he moved he would be bitten by it. It’s a feeling that really made him uncomfortable.‘What does he want now?’He glanced at Yenn and he saw him widen his eyes and turned away. He agapes when he caught the sight of it. Does Yenn felt embarrassed when he caught him staring?He shook his head and went back to playing with the Rubik’s cube. He paused and thought maybe he was staring at him because he was hol