Rain

The never-ending pain in my chest prevents me from thinking or breathing or… functioning. I want this agony to end. I want to close my eyes forever. I want for one moment to forget what he had done to me. Each night, I relive the moment Jordan rejected me. My pleas to be heard are never listened to. Jordan always turns his back on me, leaving me alone in the shadows, where the monsters lurk.

I step inside the shower and turn on the cold water. I feel so dirty…. The scent of the guards still clings to my skin, and I want—need—to remove it. Grabbing the soap, I start to wash myself, scrubbing my body hard to the point of pain. But no matter how much soap or water I use, I can still scent them… and it makes me gag.

I close my eyes and slide down along the cold tiled wall until I am crouched down, and I hug my legs with my arms, letting the water—now freezing—cascade down my back.

I see him on top of me, his weight pinning me to the ground, the guards hitting me as he…. Then that white wo