I had spent the last three weeks searching for my scumbag foster brother. I went to every possible place I thought he might be staying and visited all the people who might have known where he was. All for nothing. I was devastated, exhausted, and, above all, furious at myself for believing him.
"What did the police say?" Joy asked me as soon as I passed the threshold. When she saw tears gathering in my eyes, she handed me a mug of hot cocoa and led me to the sofa.
God, I loved her. She was the only person in that whole messed-up world I could count on. Sniffing, I took a sip of far-too-sweet liquid and faced her. "They said that Bram violated the pre-trial release limitations, so they sent an arrest warrant to other states… He is officially a wanted man, but that also means that my money is gone, and I will never get it back." I bit my lip, trying hard not to start crying.
Joy sighed and gave me a wry smile. "It could have been worse."
I groaned. "How? I lost all my money. I'm jobless, homeless, and I cannot even go back to school."
"At least what you've lost was your own money. What if he'd decided to borrow money from someone and then asked you to be his guarantor? Then you would have had loan sharks after you, trying to bite your ass," she reasoned.
I gave her a look and put away the mug of cocoa. "If you're trying to make me feel better, you're doing it wrong."
She shrugged. "You can also keep telling yourself that you saved his life that way."
My frustration reached its limit. I shook my head and a few tears fell down my cheeks. "No, I can't. His life was never in jeopardy. The detective running Bram's case told me that he was caught with a significant amount of drugs. Those drugs were confiscated, so now Bram owes someone a lot of money. That was why he escaped."
Joy sighed and stroked my hair. "Sweety, don't cry. At least that asshole is now a wanted man and will never be your problem again. That's not the end of the world."
I threw my hands up, growling. "It is the end of the world, Joy! I'm just so tired of all the guys around me trying to screw me over!" I wiped off my tears and frowned. "My foster dad was a drunkard who needed me to take care of him instead of the other way around. My foster brother is a liar and a wanted criminal. Nicholas lied and cheated on me. And even that Alex..." I trailed off and bit my lip as the images of my over ten hours of non-stop sex returned like a steamy flood. Then I shook my head, trying to chase away the heat from my cheeks. I lowered my gaze and murmured, "Maybe there's something wrong with me. Maybe I'm an asshole magnet."
Joy gave me a crooked smile. "It is not your fault; it's theirs. But yes, you have this disease called goodness, and you definitely need therapy. Luckily, it's quite treatable." She smirked before shifting in her seat and locking her eyes on me. "But first, you need to relax. Stay here and breathe deeply. I will get you something to improve the mood."
As she rose from the sofa and marched to the kitchen, I reached into my purse. Earlier that day, I stopped by the apartment I used to rent with Nicholas and collected my mail. I thought I changed my address information everywhere, but apparently, I missed something.
Letting out a slow exhale, I went through advertising leaflets until my gaze halted on one letter with a bird's wing in the logo and the name Ravenford Foundation. My breath caught in my throat. Why in the world would I receive a letter from them?
"That doesn't make any sense," I muttered just as Joy returned with wine and chocolate-mint ice cream.
"What doesn't make sense?" She cocked her head, glancing at the letter I held in my hand.
"It's from the Ravenford Foundation. Remember how I told you about the contest for young designers they organized? The main price was a full scholarship to the Royal College of Art in London," I said.
She chuckled and nodded, putting the wine and ice cream on the coffee table. "Yup, I remember. It was the contest you wanted to apply for but chickened out because you said you didn't want to leave Nicholas alone in New York." She stuck her fingers into her mouth, pretending to throw up.
"You don't need to remind me of that." I rolled my eyes and looked at the letter again. "But why would they contact me if I didn't participate?"
Joy gave me a thin-lipped smile and scratched her head. "That… may not necessarily be true."
I narrowed my eyes at her. "Which part?"
She sighed. "I might have pulled out your application from the trash can and sent it."
"You did what?!" I shrieked.
A mischievous smile curved her lips. "Say thank you, dear friend."
My mouth opened and stayed that way for several heartbeats. Then my hands started to shake. "So…" I swallowed hard. "It's the notification... the results of the contest…"
Joy rolled her eyes. "Just open that damn letter already!"
Sucking a ragged breath, I opened the envelope and pulled out the letter. Then I stopped breathing, and my heart might have stopped as well. I unfolded the notification, and a moment later, I was on my feet, screaming my lungs out. "I won! I won the full scholarship!"
A second passed, and my best friend joined my burst of happiness, clapping her hands and giving me her best Joy-like-joyful grin, which included curving her lips and stretching them more than half an inch. I was jumping and screaming until the neighbors began banging on the walls to shut us up. I couldn't believe it. Everything in my life was heading in the worst direction, but this? This was like a miracle—a big smile from the fate that used to have nothing but bad news for me.
I stopped jumping and grinned at Joy. "Thank you." My voice cracked, and tears resurfaced. "You did something that can change my life."
"You are so very welcome." She let out a short laugh. "And you know what? I think I grew tired of NYU. Changing my environment and studying in London suddenly started to sound like a good idea. Don't you think?"
My eyes widened. "Would you go there with me?"
She nodded. "Of course. You're like a walking disaster; I can't leave you alone there."
Without thinking, I threw my arms around her neck and started screaming, laughing, and jumping again. It lasted a minute or two, but then my head began to spin. I stumbled back and looked at Joy.
"Are you OK?" Her voice sounded oddly muffled.
I stared at her, but her image became blurry. "I… don't feel so good…"
Suddenly, the world around me closed, and everything went dark.
***
I heard a quite annoying beeping sound and slowly opened my eyes. The place where I was looked like a hospital room, and the annoying sound was coming from the equipment monitoring my pulse. I turned my head to the side and saw Joy sitting by my bed. She seemed paler than usual, but as our eyes met, her expression instantly filled with relief.
"Hey," she said softly. "You scared me. Don't do that again."
I smiled sheepishly. "I'm sorry." Then I started to remember what happened. "Did I faint?"
Joy nodded. "Actually, you looked like you were struck by invisible lighting and died."
My lips twisted wryly. "I didn't mean to."
She sighed and got up from her chair. "I'll call the doctor."
A moment later, she returned with a brown-haired man in his fifties wearing a white coat. The man leaned over me, focusing on my pupils before glancing at the monitoring machine. "Ms. Hill, you gave your friend quite a scare," he stated, shifting his eyes back to me.
"So I heard." I tried to chuckle, but what came out of me resembled more a wheeze than a laugh.
"Fortunately, it's nothing serious. You just need to take care of yourself better, eat regularly, and drink water," the doctor continued.
"I will," I promised. "It's just that... The past few weeks have been quite hectic for me. I felt like I was one big bundle of emotions."
The doctor nodded. "It's explainable and absolutely natural."
My brows rose. "It is?"
"Yes. You will need to get used to mood swings, Ms. Hill. I'm afraid it might become worse in the months to come." His lips twitched into a brief smile.
I frowned. "Wait… What do you mean by months to come? Am I… sick or something? I thought you said that there's nothing wrong with me."
There was a moment of silence. "I'm sorry." He cleared his throat and corrected his glasses. "I thought that you were aware."
I jerked up to a sitting position. "Aware of what?" I demanded.
He let out a slow exhale before leaning over me again with an awkward smile. "Congratulations. You're pregnant."
"What do you mean by pregnant?! I can't be pregnant!" The panic building inside me erupted like molten lava. I glanced at my belly and began to wonder if there truly was something growing inside me.Joy rushed to my bed and grabbed my hand while I sucked hectic breaths, acting as if I were already going into labor. "Sarah, you need to calm down and focus." I heard her serene and even voice. It didn't help.I shook my head. "It… It is impossible!" I burst out.The doctor shrugged slightly. "Unexpected pregnancies happen all the time.""You don't understand!" I panted, my eyes flickering between Joy and the doctor. "I can't be pregnant! I'm on pills!"The doctor blinked a few times before glancing at his tablet and swiping through my medical records. He frowned and then sighed. "The contraceptive pills you've been using have been withdrawn from the market recently due to leading to frequent, well… pregnancies."I felt like someone made holes in my lungs. I had been using the same pills
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SARAH"Aunty Joy!" Liam darted past me and threw his little arms up, wrapping them around Joy's waist."My favorite kid in the whole world has grown a few inches, I see." Smiling in Joy's way, she leaned over him and ruffled his hair."I'm a big boy now," he stated, causing me to snort.I stepped toward them and pulled Liam away, freeing Joy from his tight hug. "All right, big boy. It's time for you to go to sleep.""But I'm not tired"—he yawned—"Mommy. I can stay"—he yawned again—"a little longer."I crouched in front of him and smiled. "Your sleepy eyes prove something different."He pouted and lowered his gaze. "But Aunt Joy is here…""Yes, and I will stay here for a while so you can see me in the morning," she assured, giving him a little wink.His eyes widened and all but sparkled. "You will live with us here?"I chuckled. "Yes, your favorite Aunty decided to stay with us for a while."Liam sighed and nodded. "All right. If Aunty Joy is staying, then I think I can go to sleep now
ALEXSarah Hill… Fate must have had the weirdest sense of humor. Of course, the odds that the designer Sarah was actually MY Sarah—and the fact that I called her mine meant that there was definitely something wrong with me—were smaller than winning the national lottery twice in a row.Dragging my fingers through my hair, I let out a slow exhale. I needed to get my head in the game. I needed to stop chasing ghosts from my past. She should have forever remained nothing but a one-night stand without any significant meaning, but that was far from the position she actually held in my mind…I dreamed about her last night. Jeanette spent the night in my penthouse. I fell asleep, and I dreamed about screwing another woman. Could anything be more fucked up than this? I wish I could say that my vivid-as-hell dream was made of my memories, but it wasn't. My brain convinced me to believe that the woman I had seen at the airport was the Sarah from Nassau. Then it captured every detail of her body
SARAH I balanced on the chair placed on top of the table while painting a sunflower right below the ceiling of the orphanage's common room. I was in that freaking room alone because… well, the kids from art school decided not to show up. Since Sister Rita had already bought paints and brushes, and I didn't want the kids to be disappointed, I was currently playing Van Gough, minus all the craziness and cutting the ear. Dressed in sneakers, jeans shorts, a sweatshirt, a baseball cup on my head, and with no makeup on, I had already been mistaken for a high schooler three times, and the party for the donors was only just beginning. Of course, the real awkwardness began when Liam appeared and called me Mommy in front of confused guests… This was going to be a long day. I had finished painting the yellow and orange petals and needed to rearrange my fragile construction. I jumped down and slowly pushed the table with the chair, careful not to spill the paint standing on it all over the flo
ALEX Four and a half years later I opened my eyes to see Sarah's gorgeous sleeping face, and my lips instantly stretched into a wide smile. God, I would never have enough of watching her sleep. There were only two other faces I loved more: her face when she smiled and the blushing face that appeared shortly after she reached her climax. Actually, I would gladly work to see that blushing face right now, but I couldn't risk being late today. This day was going to be perfect. I dipped my head to brush my lips against hers. I did it carefully so as not to wake her up. Then I slid out of bed and quietly walked out of our bedroom. Of course, it was way easier to sneak out of our room than to pass Liam's bedroom, and passing the twins' bedroom without them waking up or noticing was nearly mission impossible. Fortunately, none of them decided to wake up at six in the morning on Saturday, and two minutes later, I successfully entered the kitchen. Usually, this place belonged to Sarah. It wa
I vaguely recalled what had happened in the last few hours. I remember Jun calling my name as he all but tore me away from Alex, taking over the reanimation until the paramedics appeared. Then the words “temporary stable” rang in my head as they transported Alex to the hospital in Nassau. I refused to leave his side. I held his hand almost until he had been taken to the operating room. Philip and Jun dragged me away so that doctors could patch me, even though I said I didn't need it. They insisted, and Jun might have even said something about knocking me out if I'd refused. The doctors asked me if I needed painkillers. When I said I wasn't sure, they asked me if I needed something to soothe my nerves. I took neither. I didn't want anything that could dull my senses as I waited for Alex's operation to be over. The surgeon said that the bullet vaguely missed the heart but also that removing it would be complicated. Still, there was a chance. There was hope that he would survive. He had
I heard two gunshots, yet there was no pain. Well, there was no new kind of pain, and I could feel the heart pounding in my chest… But dead people shouldn't have a heartbeat, should they? My mind was struggling to process what was happening. My eyes snapped open just in time to see two guards fall to the ground, exposing the one who stood on the threshold. Alex.My breath caught in my throat as our eyes met, but my relief lasted less than a second. In my peripheral vision, I saw Lucius reaching for his gun and shifting his stance to shoot. “No!” I screamed for a split second before he aimed his gun at Alex and pulled the trigger.Alex leaped into the corridor and hid behind the door. “Sarah, get down!” he thundered, and that was what I did. I jumped to the side before Lucius could grab me and use me as a shield, and I dove behind the bed, lying face-down on the floor. Lucius roared like a wild animal, and more shots came. “I'll kill you, Ravenford!” he bellowed.I flinched every time
SARAHThree days passed since I had woken up in my luxurious prison. My ribs still hurt, but at least I could move on my own… more or less. The bruises I found all over my body were slowly fading. The worst were those on my shoulder, which, according to Lucius, had been dislocated. Once the mass of sedatives and painkillers left my system, the pain had become almost unbearable, but now I learned to function despite it.Lucius had been showing up in my room at least three times a day. Each time, he brought me food or snacks. It might have been his twisted definition of caring about me. Never had he raised his voice on me, but I knew better than to trust his fragile kindness. The cold glow in his eyes remained, and the smiles he had often given me betrayed cruelty. I couldn't let my guard down around him. I had to put on my best act, even though his slightest touch filled me with sheer disgust. It terrified me that he became more daring. He enjoyed tracing every bruise on my neck and sh
ALEXI was sitting in my office and trying to focus my eyes on the screen. My current struggle had nothing to do with Ravenford Corporation. I was tracing the old metro plans, hoping to find that one place we had missed.“You shouldn't stay here all night again.” Grayson sighed before grabbing a chair and sitting in front of my desk. “Staring at those plans won't bring her back.”“She is not dead, Grayson,” I hissed.“You don't know that,” he argued but raised his hands in surrender as soon as he met my glare.“I know that because we haven't found her body.” Anger raised the volume of my voice, but that only made Grayson look at me with more pity.“If you're convinced that she's not dead, then why not call off the search inside the tunnels?” His brows rose. “It has been more than a week now. Even if she survived the fall, she must have been injured and lying there alone—”“Shut. The fuck. Up.” The knuckles in my fisted hands bleached.“I don't want to see you torture yourself,” he sai
SARAHI heard myself drawing a breath into my lungs. It was a wheezing sound, and the movement of my chest came with a great deal of pain. Then I heard something else—voices. I couldn't understand what they were saying… It was… Chinese?The realization triggered an alarm that spread throughout my aching body. Fear clung around me tightly, forming a thick, almost material cover, nearly as real as the sheets on my body. Then I heard one voice I recognized. The sound doubled the terror consuming me. Lucius. He and someone else were arguing about… something. Their voices were raised, their edges sharp, their tones cold…I opened my eyes and blinked, trying to adjust my sight, but it remained blurry no matter how hard I tried to focus. I struggled for another few seconds before I could see more clearly. Wherever I was, it looked like an enormous bedroom. The bed I was lying in was double the size I had in my penthouse. A huge window was several feet to the left of the bed, and the palm tre
The outer corridor had been completely annihilated by the explosives, and more than four of our men had lost their lives. Their bloodied bodies lay close enough for some of the guests to see, and the cries and screams became unstoppable in seconds. The alarms went off, and an automated steel shield quickly covered every glass wall. At the same time, the recorded voice announced that the main hall had been secured and separated until the situation was under control. That, of course, didn't lessen the panic devouring almost everyone inside.My eyes shifted to Sarah and Liam. They were still standing on the round podium in the middle of the hall while some of the terrified guests ran in every direction, ineptly trying to find the way out, as if it weren't obvious that they could get shot if they did. Sarah hugged Liam tightly, moving to the center of the dais, trying to stay away from the crowd of panicked people. My first instinct was to get them far away from that podium, but with the
ALEXI was sitting by my desk, rubbing my thumb over my still-swollen knuckles. Well, that's what you get after punching the wall hard enough to stain it with your blood. Let's just say that I hadn't taken the news about Natasha Collins well. Not only did she betray our family—the family she had been working for for years—but she had nearly killed my grandmother. Perhaps it was fortunate that it was Sarah and her bodyguards who exposed her. If it had been me, I would have snapped her neck before I could have willed myself to exhibit reasonable behavior.“I thought you would be celebrating.” Grayson eyed me as he entered my office. “With all the accusations, the Duncans will sure as hell end up in jail.”“They found Marisol Martinez dead this morning. Someone slit her throat,” I said, rubbing my knuckles again as I struggled to contain my rising anger. “It's obvious to think that someone did it to silence her, but I somehow doubt that Gregory Duncan was behind this. Her testimony would
“I still can't believe that I can officially meet with Alex without hiding,” I said softly, holding Eleonor's hand. “Of course, that doesn't mean that everything's OK between us, but I cannot deny that he's trying.” I couldn't stop the smile from parting my lips as I thought of all the roses he had sent to my apartment. I was probably blushing, and Eleonor would have laughed if she had seen me looking like this… I missed her laugh and her remarks. Every day, I prayed that she would finally wake up. My chest tightened at the thought that she might never—No. I couldn't think about it. She was going to wake up. I had to believe she would. I sucked in a shaky breath and cleared my throat. “Anyway,” I continued. “Alex officially announced that he and Jeanette Duncan are no longer engaged. He said that they parted due to insurmountable differences. That, of course, doesn't change the fact that Jeanette is pregnant and that the child is Alex's.” I sighed and brushed a strand of hair off Ele