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Zayden's POV

It's been a while since I felt this way. The last time I was like this was when Lisa died. I felt guilty because I felt responsible for her death.

I felt if I had acted differently, she wouldn't have died or if I hadn't been so scared of reporting Damien to the school authorities as a witness, her death would have been avenged. But I did nothing. And the guilt ate me up for years until Paige came along and I forgot every single detail of what Lisa and I shared.

This morning, I woke up feeling guilty for making Belle cry. Even if I don't like her as a wife, I feel I should treat her right as my baby mama. My conscience kept judging me till dawn. I never thought I was going to regret my actions but here I am regretting every bit of it.

I feel like going to tell her I did not mean what I said to her last night and she can go ahead to date whoever she wants, no matter how many they are, but something keeps holding me back. I still don't want her to date anyone.

Why? I have n