Jânio
" We have lived here for a few years. I, for example, have been here for five years, it varies a lot. We are, as they say, a select group of people and we try to be as discreet as possible. We work, some study, and we share the place.
" Is this why you said you live in several places? " Clara asked Megan.
" Yes, we don't have a fixed residence. We have the big house, which is what we call it. I think when it was created, they gave it that name. They must have used it for family reunions, parties and the like. You will get to know it later.”
" What about the party?
" For me it's a party to finally bring you here, my dear, I've been wanting to bring you here for years.”
" And why didn't you bring me here before? " Clara looked at her in disbelief.
" It's like Jânio said, we are a select group of friends and imagine how many people would want to live here.”
" There's even a long queue waiting, I doubt anyone would want to move here. " Jânio said, getting up and going to take a shower. Hanna came out as soon as he entered and was wearing a beautiful transparent beige sweater that allowed her to see everything and she wore only the tiniest piece.
" Come," Megan called, "do you want to change your clothes? If so, let's see what you want to wear so we can go to the big house.”
" I'm fine, let's go.”
The two left the house for the night. They met Lipe on the way, already dressed in a yellow T"shirt and sneakers. There were a few houses, not all alike along the way, some with the lights on and movement inside, others with no movement at all and the lights off. Walking slowly, Clara found some dogs loose, as well as cats too.
Lipe and Megan stopped to pet the animals, who waved their tails and the cats ran their bodies along her legs in a sign of recognition.
" Whose animals do they belong to? " asked Clara, also crouching down and playing with them.
" This big boy here is Cilmo's," said Lipe, referring to the little mongrel dog that was on his back getting caresses on his tummy. " That little squirrel running is from Nica. You will see some more here and the birds that are sleeping now. In time you will get to know all the animals in Paradise.
Clara then learned that it was called Paradise, and the name did justice, because it looked like a real paradise. She would love to see it when the day was clear, but the little she had seen so far pleased her.
The big house was what the name said, what they called it; it was at the end of the road, the only house in that position, it faced the street at the end, behind it, there seemed to be only a bush. It was a typical farmhouse. It reminded Clara of the museum she went to a lot in her childhood, all white in Tudor style, tall and wide, and all with a balcony. The floor at the entrance was red tile, and the four steps up to the entrance were marble. Nothing exotic or fancy, just a simple big house that was pleasing to the eye.
Clara followed her friends into the house and there the movement was great. At least ten people were in the gigantic room. Clara looked around and up. The high ceiling was vaulted. Many sofas, puffs and couches were arranged, a stereo on a panel was on low and lively music was playing, even a chandelier of bright lights was spinning, giving the room a disco feel. Expensive carpets and even one that imitated " Clara hoped " a bear with its head open and its teeth showing, stood in the center of one of the rooms.
Everyone screamed when they entered and came to greet them with claps and cheers.
Megan was lifted from the floor and started to be carried by them. Clara stood there not knowing what to do. She smelled of cigarettes and many bottles of various drinks were empty, scattered around the room.
Someone turned down the music and after shouting at the top of her lungs, Megan was placed on the floor with a bottle of tequila in her hand.
" Let me introduce you to Clara, you assholes.
" You're the only one who's here to make things brighter! " shouted one of them to Megan, and Clara smiled at how friendly they all were. A bottle of a small drink was in her hands and she didn't even see when they picked it up or put it in her hand.
One by one, everyone was introduced to her and it would take her a while to remember everyone's names.
She was invited by a girl, Cilmo, to see the rest of the house and it was really big and if she went alone she would surely get lost and would have to be guided by the voices to find her way around again.
Clara was a little weak on drink and was already feeling a little dizzy when she returned to the living room. Couples were dancing to a song played by a young man sitting on a step separating the room from a second room, and Clara sat on a divan, her head resting on the soft, firm reel that served as her pillow, and sipped her drink as she became acquainted with Megan's friends, who would become her own as well.
" Let's dance, mister hair! " A young man held out his hand, inviting her. Clara more than quickly jumped up and danced with him.
" Why mister hair? " she asked, finding the nickname amusing.
" Because your hair is divine! You'll notice that everyone here has a nickname, my dear, we literally suffer bullying and apply it too, and if you don't like it, the more the nickname will stick, I warn you.
He spun her around and they didn't follow the rhythm of the music at all, but not a bit worried.
She laughed as she remembered Megan pulling her across the salon from her work, angry that she had said that something had come up and she had to meet a client and couldn't go out with her today. She had shouted in the middle of the salon and even with the dozens of hair dryers, it was possible to hear:
" How many decades have you not fucked for?!"
Her boss more than quickly asked her to let someone else attend to the client and off they went, both of them leaving the salon under the stars of many awestruck clients. Luckily, Ligia, her boss, knew Megan very well, who was a regular customer. And Clara was a great employee too, well liked by everyone at work and would not be fired.
Later, while taking a shower, obviously with Megan sitting on the toilet waiting for her, an audio message came in from Ligia:
"Please, aim like there is no tomorrow, huh? Calm down that little pussy of yours there and crazy Megan too, by God!"
OTÁVIOTo which Megan read " of course " and looked scornfully at her as she washed her hair:" You see, even your boss wants you to have sex. And you have to lose your ass, huh?"That was Megan, her best friend. Direct. They had met when Clara was just starting in the profession, six years ago, and Megan had been one of her clients, in the beginning, still in another salon where she worked, all insecure, and Megan noticed her insecurity and chose to upgrade her hair. It was there that she decided to change the color of her full, brown hair to purple.Of course Clara loved doing this for the first time. She sweated profusely as she bleached her thick strands, cut them off more than four fingers and dyed it. After that, many, many other colors were swapped by her friend. At the moment she was wearing an outrageous green. The whole time she was working on her hair, her boss, at the time, would not leave her side so that if she couldn't handle it, she would take it herself and finish it
OTÁVIO He was not a handsome guy. He didn't have the attractions that qualify as a big man like that. He must have been six feet tall, slim and not muscular at all, not skinny, just had everything in place, didn't even seem to care about weight lifting. He was a handsome young man. The beret gave him an added bonus, gave him a nice exclusivity, and fit him very well. " I was about to say my name again," she laughed, taking his outstretched hand and noticing his strong grip. Strong handshake. " Well, I've already forgotten your name, can you believe it? " he asked seriously, still holding her hand. " Clara.” " Gotcha.” The bastard was making fun of her. But his face didn't look like he was teasing. He seemed very serious, his eyes were fixed and didn't seem to move. " Score one for you, Mr. Funny Guy.” " I confess I'm terrible at jokes, I never know when I can or can't joke, and I've tried a few times and it never works, as you yourself noted.” He sat down next to her on the sa
PARTY IN PARADISE Clara stood by the pool relaxing with a bottle of sparkling water that she was drinking. She thought it was better to take it easy with the alcohol that was going on there, she had always been weak when it came to alcoholic drinks. She was a little embarrassed at first, because even in the dim light of the streetlamps, she could see that many people were making out in the pool. Straight and gay, and she decided to mess with her cell phone, relieved that she had given in and come to this party. She was enjoying it and Megan was absolutely right, she really should start going out more, she was becoming antisocial. " Hey, don't you want to get one of my bikinis and go in the water for a while? " Megan towered over her, splashing all over her. " Damn, Meg, you almost got my cell phone wet! " she complained, using one end of her blouse to dry the splashes on her phone. " Maybe in the morning I'll go to the pool, thanks. " What do you think so far, are you enjoying your
CHILD'S PLAY They all watched as the couple walked across the tiles under a nearby tree, laughing and talking to each other in conspiracy. Even in the distance, everyone saw when Cilmo attacked Lipe. In a black swimsuit, full of curves, she slipped one of her plump thighs over Lipe's slender waist and grabbed him by the neck with both arms, and you could see both their tongues, the kiss was voracious, Lipe's hands traveled up Cilmo's thighs and then hysterically and boldly went up. Cilmo was heard moaning and pushing himself against his body. Leaning against the tree, they darted between kissing and groping. " That's enough! My turn! " shouted Hanna to the two of them, and they pulled apart and returned with smiles and Cilmo left Lipe's mouth and chin red from the lipstick, just as his was smeared. " Agatha, could you cover your eyes a little? " asked Hanna, and the girl who was sitting in an armchair got up and took Hanna's place, who sat down in her seat next to all the others. C
WHERE TO SLEEP? Clara didn't know why she asked him if he wanted her to stay, nor why he said yes, much less why he did, but she did. She took a book from the coffee table and sat down next to him on the sofa, getting comfortable and started reading. The day dawned without the two of them speaking a single word. From time to time she heard the shouts of her friends in the pool or outside the house, but none came to call her anymore and she stayed there reading next to Otávio. Once in a while she glanced to the side and the boy continued to read. She was curious to know what he did for a living, but didn't want to break the silence. At half past six in the morning Megay entered the movie theater and seemed to be quite drunk. “ Clara, what are you doing here, you crazy girl? You missed a lot of nice things, what are you reading?” Megay sat down between the two of them, squeezing herself to fit in the exiguous space, putting one leg over each of them, and Clara was embarrassed to not
OTÁVIOHe was not a handsome guy. He didn't have the attractions that qualify as a big man like that. He must have been six feet tall, slim and not muscular at all, not skinny, just had everything in place, didn't even seem to care about weight lifting. He was a handsome young man. The beret gave him an added bonus, gave him a nice exclusivity, and fit him very well." I was about to say my name again," she laughed, taking his outstretched hand and noticing his strong grip. Strong handshake." Well, I've already forgotten your name, can you believe it? " he asked seriously, still holding her hand." Clara.”" Gotcha.”The bastard was making fun of her. But his face didn't look like he was teasing. He seemed very serious, his eyes were fixed and didn't seem to move." Score one for you, Mr. Funny Guy.”" I confess I'm terrible at jokes, I never know when I can or can't joke, and I've tried a few times and it never works, as you yourself noted.”He sat down next to her on the same couch
SALLY, THE DERCY GONÇALVES OF THE GROUPThe hours went by and more friends woke up, some went to their own houses right there inside the condominium, others to the big house. Soon the pool and leisure areas were crowded with people and Clara walked around, getting to know them and getting to know each other." Is there a river around here? " Clara asked Nica as she and the young woman prepared the charcoal to spread on a barbecue grill." Yes, mister hair, then ask someone to take you there while I take care of the meat here. It's more like a little pond, really.”Clara helped her fill the grill and light it, and went in search of someone to show her the lake. He had wet, luminous black hair and had changed clothes, now wearing fluorescent green tactel shorts and a black tank top that made him look younger. He wore strappy slippers and seemed much more relaxed." Did you get some sleep? " she asked him with a smile." A couple of hours and that was enough.”" Wow. So, do you know the
THE LAKEThe boy's expression remained the same for some time, he seemed to dwell on what she had said, and she bitterly regretted having said it. It was none of her business how he was, for heaven's sake. He had just arrived there. Crouching beside the pond, he seemed lost in his own thoughts, and Clara, who was staring at the stream, stooped down beside him to apologize once again, put a hand on his shoulder, and felt him stiffen at the touch.“Can you forgive me for saying what I said? I had no business telling you what I said, I like the way you are and in fact, it's my way of being that's wrong, you only say what you think, how could that be wrong?”Otávio turned around and, being so close, she could see right down to his pores, he was really a beautiful boy. His full, plump lips were so red that it looked like he was wearing lipstick, and his clear eyes stood out against his black hair. His face was oval, his beard shaved and well done, he didn't seem to wear perfume, but he exu
TWO YEARS LATER"It may seem like many people say that, but I'm being completely sincere when I say you are the most beautiful pregnant woman I have ever seen!" Clara exclaimed as Megan entered her apartment."I hope she believes you, Clara, because I tell her the same thing every day and she doesn't believe me," Gregory said, entering behind his eight-month pregnant wife, who waddled with her pregnant swagger."I believe you, Greg, but when his godmother says it, I'm happy too," Megan said, sitting down with some effort and with Gregory's help. The two had been married for a year and seemed to be in a constant honeymoon phase. "Friend, I also never tire of saying that your apartment is the most beautiful I have ever seen.""I'm obliged to agree, and Dália helped me furnish it.""Dália has incredible taste, doesn't she?""Yes, look at this painting!" Clara pointed to the wall where a beautiful landscape canvas was hanging. It was exactly the painting of Paradise – she says it's for me
SO MUCH OLDER.When they left, Dália and Linda were buzzing with excitement, practically ready to take flight. Linda made calls to catering services, wanting everything to be perfect, and sent messages in the group, warning everyone and threatening anyone who thought about leaving tonight, as she wanted everyone present.Lara sent an audio message, saying she was heading to Márcia's house right now and promised to drag her along by her hair if she had to. Everyone responded with laughing and laughing emojis.Clara was practically dragged to the main house by Linda and Dália. Priscilla was already there with her boyfriend and their daughters, busy cleaning and organizing the house for the party later.Frank tried to help as much as he could, Jânio had left work to assist everyone, and Megan pulled Clara aside to tell her that this party would be good to get them out of the slump they were in. It was Clara's father's call that reminded her that she was supposed to be on her way to his h
RESCUEShe locked the living room door, trembling at the thought of him showing up, knowing she would hit him if he appeared there now. She paced around the room like a caged lioness. Hurt, devastated, and feeling dirty. She felt like the dirtiest woman on the face of the earth.Dália must have seen the lights on in her living room because minutes later she knocked on her door. And she only opened it because she recognized her friend's voice."Why was your door locked?" Dália asked as soon as she entered. "I couldn't sleep thinking about Jaqueline and Márcia, can you believe it? I'm going to make some coffee."Her friend didn't look at her and didn't notice how bad she was feeling. Clara thought it was better that way and shouted from the living room."Okay, I'll get ready and take a shower, and then I'll come to the kitchen."She really needed a shower and took a long one, hoping that the water would wash away some of her pain and anguish down the drain, and that her eyes wouldn't be
THERE ARE OTHER PLEASURES IN LIFE.And that's exactly how it went. Clara had a sleepless night. It was past midnight, and she was still stressed, thinking about how casually he had mentioned talking to her father, solving the problem, just like that. But by one in the morning, her feelings had changed, and she felt like a fool for getting upset and kicking him out of her house simply because he had said he would never have sex with her, ever! What kind of woman was she, getting rid of a man just because he said he would never sleep with her?But at two in the morning, she reconsidered. No, it wasn't about sex! The harsh reality of her situation with Otavio was that it was messy and strange. Perhaps deep down, she knew that it would have to come to an end someday. It wasn't about sex, it wasn't a relationship, it wasn't what they had. She knew that one day it would have to end, and now seemed just as good a time as any. A breaking point could come at any moment, even now.Reality final
I AM AT MY LIMITDália messaged her shortly after, and she thought it was Dália who was turning the doorknob."Hi, my dear. Is something wrong?""Was it you at my bedroom door?" she asked."No, I'm already in bed, but I was there about twenty minutes ago, and Otávio was mopping the living room. Is everything okay?""No. We had an argument, Dália.""I understand.""I don't want him in my house anymore. Please let him know that he needs to go back to his own house.""I will, don't worry."After a sleepless night, she left her room and saw that the living room was sterile clean, but he wasn't there. Thank goodness for that. But his mother was there because the smell of fresh coffee was coming from the kitchen."Good morning," she greeted her friend, who along with Linda, was sitting at the table having breakfast."Good morning. Are you feeling better?" Dália asked, concerned."Yes. I'm feeling better now.""Was it one of his quirks?" Linda asked."No, Linda. I got upset when I joked with
YOU DON'T SLEEP HERE ANYMORE!"I still can't believe it," she said, lying on his chest in the morning. "I don't even feel the urge to drink.""God, that's the best thing I've heard in centuries," Lipe said, his voice husky and smiling."I didn't sleep with Murilo, Lipe. I know I've said it already, but I want to emphasize it.""It's okay, love. I believe you, okay?""Especially because I could only think of you since I left the hospital, and my mind was filled with thoughts of you all the time.""Lara, I'm so happy, and it's so unbelievable to me that I feel like I might be dreaming, you here with me, telling me that you love me." He propped himself up on his elbows and looked at her with shining eyes."I don't understand why it's so hard to believe. I'd be crazy not to love you, love. I may be dependent, but I'm not insane. You're the most incredible guy who has come into my life, and it would be me not believing that you could love me. I just have to be grateful to the universe for
I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO SURE IN MY LIFE"Are you not going to visit her at the farmhouse?" Clara probed."I'm not that evolved," he replied, smiling to the side."I don't understand," she said."She stayed at my house the day she was discharged from the hospital, Clara, and left in the morning without saying goodbye, just leaving me a note on the fridge saying she would spend a few days at the farmhouse. I could have taken her there, but she called Murilo. They're together at the farmhouse now, and my concern is that he and she, well... they degrade themselves sexually. I'm sorry for telling you this, but you've gone out with her to Jânio's parties and you've seen how she uses sex to vent," he explained."Oh my God, Lipe. I'm so sorry," Clara wanted to cry upon hearing that, imagining how much the young man was suffering."I guess deep down, I worry that she will resort to old habits that will lead her to relapse, you know, and she has struggled so much to get clean," he confided."You a
LIGHTNING STORMMegan was thinking about Gregory even more now. She had stopped stalking him on social media a long time ago. It was too much suffering, why continue to do that, to hurt herself even more?Talking to Clara was always wonderful. It brought her relief and made her feel calm. But when she was alone, the thoughts assaulted her again. No matter how much she tried to convince herself that it might be her ego screaming, that her longing for him was because she couldn't have him, that it was the desire for the forbidden, deep down she knew it wasn't just that. It wasn't a matter of ego; it was love in its most painful and absurd form. It was the love for someone who was already committed, and if he were single, they would be together, end of story. She wouldn't be the mistress for quick encounters, the other woman who patiently or anxiously waits for the married and committed man. She had self-respect and wouldn't lower herself to be the lover who regrets being with the husban
YOU DID THE RIGHT THING!When his plump, warm lips touched hers, the sound of the door being opened concealed her moan. Finally, a woman who valued her bladder!"Let's go to my place," Gregory whispered in her ear, intertwining his finger with hers, and she followed him outside. The woman who entered didn't even notice them there, nor did she notice that there was a man present. Megan walked with him, their fingers still entwined. It was only when they were going down the escalator that it hit her. One: she was walking hand in hand with a married man in the middle of a shopping mall. Two: he said they were going to his house?But she didn't want to ask anything. She feared that if she asked any questions, the enchantment would break, he would change his mind, see reason, and by God, the self-proclaimed moralist feared that. She mentally kicked herself. Rolled her eyes internally at knowing that she was falling for it as well, and this time, fully aware! She was aware that she was acco