We're fifteen minutes into Rickets' class, and Sam has barely spoken more than four words to me. Actually, more like three. Without meeting my gaze, he dropped down onto his usual seat and said-hey, what's up? I responded with-not much, and that was it.I'm not sure what I expected when shit hit the fan over that photograph, but this wasn't it. I'd thought he would eventually come around, and understand I made a mistake. That hasn't happened. Our relationship has shifted so dramatically in the course of a week that it is no longer recognizable.And I have no one to blame but myself.The loss of his friendship has been the most brutal part of it all. I never realized, even before we started going out, just how intertwined our lives were. Okay, yes, I did...but it's even more than I originally suspected.I miss Sam on so many levels. Without him, I feel empty and lonely. He's been a big part of my life over the last eight years. After I lost my parents and sister, Sam was
Unsure where to go, I stop at the front desk and explain why I'm there. I'm given directions to a waiting room. There are a few twists and turns down a sterile looking hallway before I spot my grandmother sitting in a chair, nursing a small cup of coffee.My heart spasms as I hurry toward her. "Gran? Have there been any updates?"Her gaze swings to mine before she shakes her head. She sets her coffee aside and rises to her feet before engulfing me in an embrace. Even though fear continues to pump through me, her thin arms have a way of offering comfort, just like they did when I was a child. After a few silent moments, we break apart. Our hands remain clasped as we sit down. Now that I'm here, I release a pent-up breath. "What happened?"Gran shakes her head as if she can't believe that we're sitting in the hospital waiting room, having this conversation. That a few hours ago they were at the breakfast table, starting their day just like they've done thousands of times
"Are you sure there's nothing else I can get for you before I take off?" I flutter around my grandfather like a high-strung butterfly, smoothing down blankets as I go. Even though he finds the attention unnecessary and most likely annoying, I'm powerless to standstill. I'm so relieved that he's back home again.He rolls his eyes and repeats his now standard refrain, "I'm fine, Violet. Stop fussing over me like I'm a child. It was just a little heart attack."I have to choke back a biting response.Just a little heart attack.Ha!The man needs to realize that he shaved a decade off my life with his little heart attack. Thank God, he's okay. For the most part. What happened could have been a lot worse. So yeah, I'm going to fuss around him a whole hell of a lot. Guess he'll have to suck it up because I won't be backing off anytime soon."And you don't need to stay at the house either. Your grandmother and I are perfectly capable of taking care of ourselves. We've been d
Mia pokes her head around the corner of the door and glances in my room. "Hey, how is your grandfather doing? It's been a few days since I've seen you.""He's better! It's a lot of resting right now, which is driving him crazy. I guess there's only so much CNN a person can watch." I open a drawer from my dresser to grab a few shirts to take with me. "There's no reason he shouldn't make a full recovery.""That's great." She moves further into the room and plops herself down on my bed. "Any plans to move back to the dorms?" There's a beat of silence. "I've missed having you around, Vi. It's way too quiet without you."My lips lift. "I'll be back in a few days. I want to make sure Gramps is doing all right."She nods. Mia understands how important my grandparents are to me. She's been invited over for a ton of dinners and has visited during summer breaks. "You can take my car back and forth if you want. It's not like I need it during the week."It probably would be e
"You've been awfully quiet lately," Gran comments. "Everything okay at school?"I throw a fleeting smile over my shoulder as I finish washing up the dishes in the sink. "Yup, everything's fine."Even though I've turned back toward the soapy water, I feel my grandmother's warm hazel gaze on me as if assessing my words for the truth. Last week, I casually broke the news that Sam and I had decided to part ways. She had looked surprised before asking a few questions about the demise of our relationship. Instead of being forthright, I'd shut down the conversation before it could spiral out of control. I realize that she's trying to help, but there is nothing that dulls the pain of this breakup. It's like a throbbing wound that refuses to heal. I expected after a solid week of moping, the ache would have subsided by now.It hasn't.It still feels raw and surprisingly tender, which is ridiculous. It's not like we were together for that long. Losing Sam shouldn't feel like such a
"Violet! Wait up!"I swing around and spot Allie trucking toward me from out of nowhere. When she's close enough, one hand snakes out and fastens around my upper arm. The way her fingers bite into my flesh has me wondering if everything is all right.She looks a little crazy.All right, maybe more than a little.A frenzied light fills her deep brown eyes.I'm tempted to retreat, but her grip is solid. For the time being, I'm stuck."Oh my God, have you seen the picture yet?" Not only are her eyes bulging from their sockets, but she's vibrating with pent-up excitement. I've never seen her like this before.Not that I know Allie all that well, but this isn't her normal demeanor. She's usually more chill. Clearly something big is going on.My belly nosedives ten stories as I notice the way she's clutching her phone. Dread rushes through my body as I wait for her to drop whatever bomb is about to roll off her tongue. Even though I know it's impossible for there to be anot
Mia polishes off her first bottle of beer before starting in on the second. Her alcohol consumption is turning out to be more of a sprint rather than a marathon. "You're just going to sit back and do absolutely nothing about this?"I give her a blank look because yeah-that's exactly what the plan is. For the time being, I'm going to lay low and ride this one out. What else does she expect me to do? Haven't I singlehandedly caused enough damage to my friendship with Sam?She scowls, looking frustrated by my lack of response before doling out more unsolicited advice. Alcohol, unfortunately, brings out the armchair therapist in Mia."For starters, you could pull on your big girl panties, and tell him how you really feel." When I remain stubbornly silent, her expression softens. "I can see how much the situation is tearing you apart. I get that you made a mistake. But it's not the end of the world, Violet. If you want Sam, then you need to be honest with him about your feelin
Thirty minutes slide by and the bar is packed to the gills. Several other football players have joined our group. They've pulled up chairs or stand around the table laughing and talking, swigging beer from their bottles.Where the college athletes go, the inevitable groupies who are looking for a little hookup action at the end of the night follow. They've found laps to hang out on in tiny skirts that barely cover their asses.Thankfully, none of them have planted themselves on Sam.I don't think I could bear that. The facade I've donned for the evening is fragile. To sit next to him and pretend that everything is normal is more difficult than I imagined. Even though I'm having a good time, I'm unbearably aware of Sam's presence beside me. The way his knee settles against mine. The subtle touches here and there. I'm wound up so tight that it feels like I could explode from the pressure building inside me.It's only when his fingers slip gently over mine and he drags me out