ALPHA XANDER’S POV
I’m not sure Adriana hears all of the things I said and somehow that makes me happy. When I tell her I love her, I want her to be wide awake, and this might be hoping for much but I want her to say it back too. That might not happen soon, I’ll be patient enough to wait. It is the least I can do after all I have made her go through.
I don’t move from the position. I love her warmth. There is nothing sexual about this even though she is straddling me and I can easily slip into her heat, there is just a different kind of intimacy with her like this. Being completely relaxed around me
ALPHA XANDER’S POVNavigating where Donovan and a few other pack warriors followed is an easy task for me. I grew up here, I helped build this pack and most of the construction was either run by me or I’d been the one to propose that. They are at the further part of the pack, a little close to the border on the south part.It follows a backdoor from one of the few abandoned buildings I haven’t thought of renovating yet. It leads a path toward the woods, where we sometimes go for pack runs, and into the deeper denser woods. Unless we have something to do, no one really ventures into this part. It is not on
ADRIANA’S POVI’m not surprised when I wake up to an empty bed, for a very different reason than the past few days, I'm happy Xander isn’t here because it means he has gone out to help in finding Daciana. I’m still hoping she only went out. All of that aside, I feel great. For some weird reason, I also feel different. I narrow that down to the man whose scent is still in every corner of the room. He might not have left long ago.“Hi, you’re awake.” Candace comments as she walks in, carrying a tray in one hand and a black bag in the order. I nod at her and stifle a yawn as she keeps
ADRIANA’S POVI stagger and almost trip as I move back, scared by my own reflection that is staring back at me. I can’t even think of what might be happening. For a brief second I thought, finally, it was my wolf but that thought immediately left my head when I stared back at the black iris staring back at me. If it was my wolf, my eyes would have turned gold. I have no idea what is going on.“Adriana,” Candace’s voice sounds far away. I’m unable to turn to and face her, as much as the image in the mirror scares me, I can’t bring myself to look away. This is absolutely crazy. I mus
ALPHA XANDER’S POVThe skies darken to a deadly shade of gray, I look toward it in confusion. Wondering just what the hell is going on. The pain in my head hasn’t lessened one bit and I’m still in my wolf form. That isn’t fully my doing either. I didn’t need a scientist to tell me what the hell is going, I think it is pretty damn obvious and that annoys the fuck out of me. Magic outside of my pack, not my business, but in my pack and aimed directly at me. Then that fucking makes me lose my mind.I circle the area I’m standing in like I’m studying my prey. I’ll be damned if I’m the prey. If Dreaya wants to fuck with me then she should know very well I won’t easily back down and she needs to show her fucking face.I’m slightly worried about Daciana being with her, she wouldn’t do anything to her. Her problem was, and will always be men. I have no idea what shit they did to her but she hasn’t forgiven the entire species till date.“Fucking show yourself Dreaya,” I don’t care that I’m spe
ALPHA XANDER’S POV“What happened to her?” I move to bed immediately and take my mate’s hand. She feels cold to the touch, and though her face looks calm as usual, there is a stillness to her that I don’t like. How pale she looks isn’t helping either.Candace’s eyes are unfocused so I know I won’t get anything from her, Zara’s eyes are also filled with fear but at least she is more composed than the maid.“We don’t really know alpha, but I was outside when I heard them screaming and then I came here to see what was going on. She told me the luna threw up a snake.” I shake the thoughts I’m having and chuckle lowly, then I ask her to repeat herself. She does and that makes me sit up, Adriana’s hand slips from mine as I stand to my feet.“What are you talking about? What snake? What does that mean?” Zara takes a frightened step back but that isn’t my problem.“I don’t know, alpha. Only Candace saw and she told me but I looked everywhere and there was nothing.”“Call the pack doctor,” I c
ALPHA XANDEER’S POVI don’t have an answer to that question and from the look on Donovan’s face, neither does he. It is beyond frustrating at this point, how we keep looking for answers but only come up with more questions. There is a realm of possibility that Adriana is not his biological daughter. That would bring more inconsistencies in why he does most of the things he does. I know he is smart enough to figure out if she is not his, and there is no way he would let her stay in his pack if she wasn’t his. His mate died because of her discovery.I know Jameson is a piece of shit but even he can only stoop so low, and you can’t treat your mate as nothing to that extent. She fucking lost her life.“What are we going to do now? Daciana is still missing.” Donovan points out and I hum in response.Logic would suggest I leave Dreaya to play her stupid games and focus on more important things. How to stop her from getting into my pack and killing more of my pack members. Khai wasn’t a pack
ADRIANA’S POVI know he is there, even before I fully open my eyes, I feel his presence. My body feels heavy on the bed, my weight ten times heavier than what I‘m used to. That doesn't bother me, at least not now. Not when I can smell him, feel him. Everything feels right when he is close.“How the fuck am I supposed to know that?” Xander snaps at whoever he is in the room with. I don’t care about any other person, I just know he is here and that is enough for me.With that knowledge, I force my eyes open, that alone is a lot of work but after multiple attempts, I finally feel my lids shutter open.“She is awake,” the other voice says, the same time I feel Xander’s presence enveloping me. He doesn’t waste time rushing to my side, he sits on the bed beside me and my heart is so full a small sob breaks out from my throat. I don’t know why, a lot of things are happening, I’m scared, I’m confused, I’m just lost. I’m lost and in the midst of this, I only find solace in his presence.“It’s
ALPHA XANDER’S POVI give Adriana a confused look, trying to be sure I heard her right. I did, although I didn’t want to believe it.“No, that’s not a good idea.” I try to ignore the pang I feel in my chest at telling her no, but what she is asking for is something I can't do. Something I won’t do.“It is our best bet,” the ache in her voice makes me almost cave. I shake my head, not letting the sweetness of her voice make me change my mind.I found time to tell her about her Dreaya, I found myself telling her about it even before she asked. She had taken it all good, the fact that my father’s stepsister has always wanted to kill me, have tried to kill me but haven’t succeeded, and that she helped in killing him. That wasn’t really a problem, he was a heartless bastard.“She is only going to bring more problems, Daciana is strong.” I say the last part, trying to convince both myself and her.“I know she is, but that doesn’t mean she should allow her to be out there, wherever she is.”
ALPHA XANDER’S POV “How do you know?” I’m not sure that is the right thing to ask but the question comes out either way. “I saw him,” he swallows. The tears fell this time, full of guilt. I know I’m a heartless monster but I still reach out and pat his shoulder in what I hope is a comforting touch. “I used to have trouble sleeping so I usually sneak into her room and sleep on her bed, she leaves the door open for me but he didn’t like that, he said I wasn’t man enough,” he frowns, his eyes hardening. He was just four, Jameson is a sick bastard and he deserves to die a slow and painful death. I vow to deliver that to him, in whatever hell he is hiding. “He had a pillow over her head and he didn’t stop until he was sure she was dead, I was too shocked to move. I ran to my room after, scared he would do the same to me and I never told anyone. I don’t know how he found out but he punished me and threatened to do the same to me if I said anything about it.” His throat bobs as he swallo
ALPHA XANDER’S POV“I know where he is,” Carlson says out of the blue. He has been quiet for about five minutes and I was reveling in it but that gives me a pause. I look up at him, his eyes are fixed on the ceiling like he is seeing a prophesy or some shit up there.“What?” I ask, because I can’t be sure what he said is right. If he knew where his father was all this while, why is he just telling me? I sit up and push the papers that are littered on my desk out of the way.“Jameson,
ALPHA XANDER’S POVDonovan suggested we cremate Adriana’s body, the look I gave him made him never mention that again.It has been three weeks, five days, three hours, twenty-one minutes and five seconds since I watched Dreaya slit her throat, and like I have been doing since it happened, I replayed every part of it. Every excruciating second of it. I try to analyze all that has happened, think of what I could have done to make the end happen differently. Burning Dreaya’s body was very easy but I made sure I left a mark.In whatever dumpster her ashes remain,
ALPHA XANDER’S POVMy entire world stops when she pushes the dagger deeper, a small raspy sound leaves my mate’s throat. That is the only thing I can hear is the drip of Adriana’s blood, I can hear every single gurgle from her throat.I try to force my legs to move but it feels like I’m rooted to the spot. No! This can’t fucking happen!Unlike the first time, I feel our connection sever. It is like my heart is being ripped from my chest, painfully slow, every vein being cut at an extremely slow pace. This seriously can’t be!“No.” I go to scream but it comes out in a small moan.Dreaya stands back and twirls the bloody dagger in her hand, she holds it to her face then brings it to her lips and juts her tongue out. I don’t feel disgust at her licking her daughter’s blood right off it. I’m in too much shock to do anything except stand there and watch all of this crazy shit. A part of me is praying this is just some type of messed up hallucination and I will snap out of it.I will give e
ADRIANA’S POVI’ve thought I felt what an out of body experience is before, but what I’m feeling now, I realize, is exactly what it means to have an out of body experience. I’m here, I hear things, I see things but I feel absent. In my body. I know this isn’t just my wolf taking control and pushing me back, it is more than just that.“What did you want to say again?” Xander asks, sounding bored.The woman—my mother—it feels weird calling her that because I didn’t feel any of the things I thought I would feel if I saw her. No joy, not even disappointment or anger. I just feel numb, and she could as well be anyone at this point. She hasn’t turned or spared me a glance since she came and that is probably adding to how I feel about her presence.I’d known it was her the moment I caught sight of the long blond almost whitish hair, so much like mine, and her eyes, I have a feeling they are the same color. Even our statures are quite similar. It is like I got all my genes from her and not Ja
ALPHA XANDER’S POVThe hairs on the back of my neck stand at attention, I don’t turn immediately. Letting the shock wear off my face first.My first instinct had been to get my mate out of there, then on second thought I didn’t move, knowing she was playing a game I have no idea how to. If she gets an inkling of my affections towards her daughter, this will just be a million times worse. I already have a lot to lose as it is. Any more and I would be left with nothing.“Hello Xander,” her slightly raspy voice says. This time I spin and face her, my eyes flicker to the bed, where Adriana is sitting still like a sculpture or something inanimate. I make sure the look is as brief as humanly possible, a blink is slower than that.Beside the bed, standing in her full glory is the woman I had hoped I wouldn’t have to face since the last time we tried to kill each other, a century ago.I feel the darkness that has been hibernating in me all these months, probably even years, the main reason wh
ALPHA XANDER’S POVThe most unlikely place for me to think is when I’m in between Adriana’s legs, or on the verge of cumming from how good she was riding me. If I wasn’t so sure about her being innocent, I would have been worried about how she knew how to do that.Wolves and lycans know the natural instinct of mating and since she is more wolf than human now, it makes sense that she would want to mate, completing the mate bond on another different level. If I was thinking straight, I would have stopped her knowing what would come after this. She would want to mark me and it won’t stop that way, her wolf, now linked to me and feeling my lycan aura would want to shift. That would be disastrous seeing the state the manor is in. The first shift is always horrendous.I’m lost in the sweet world of ecstasy that only involves my mate and me, and the pleasure and high we’re chasing.Everything goes well and I try to soothe her while she transitions into her true self and submit to her natural
ADRIANA’S POVI can admit one thing, I’d thought of taking control from Xander just to see how he would react, and because I was thinking with the throbbing between my thighs and not my brain.What I can’t agree with is what I did after, or what my body did. I’m feeling more confused than ever now.Xander’s eyes are widened into slits as he looks up from beneath me, the fire in his eyes makes my insides burn and they travel down my body and finally settle where I need him most. I’m sitting right above his crotch and I feel his excitement, it takes a lot of effort for me to not further move down and just end this torture.“Fuck,” He groans throwing his head back, he closes his eyes for the briefest of seconds. “You look beautiful on top baby, that is where you belong, above everyone else.” He says in a deep sexy drawl, I feel the need to clench my thighs but it is impossible because of the way i’m sitting. Xander places his hands behind his head, making his muscles flex and. He adjusts
ALPHA XANDER’S POVI almost decline his offer, then I stop when something comes to my mind.“You can help with something, but first, I need to make sure I can trust you.” Telling him is not the best thing, but it is not like it is something we don’t know. He knows I don’t trust him, not even a little bit, and the feeling is mutual. I’ve just grown a little liking toward him after interacting with him.“What do you want?” he looks a bit cautious asking that, as he should.“For you to answer a few questions for me too.” I haul his words back at him. The sides of his lips tip up in an almost smile.“Do I have to sit through a lie detector test?” he asks, it sounds like a joke but there is a hint of seriousness to it.“I have more effective ways of getting the truth out of people.” I smirk and point to the door. “Feel free to make yourself at home. Ring a maid or something if you need anything.” I’m going to see Adriana and hopefully try to work through her wolf issues with her.“Yeah sur