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I Refuse to Accept It

Author: Elizra Down
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“Reject you, Rafael Crane, as my fated mate.”

Rafe silently drops to his knees, hand clenched over his heart. Pain darkens his eyes and furrows his brows, but he doesn’t make a sound. A single tear trails down his cheek, and that is all I allow myself to see.

Turning on my heels, I race from the trailer and disappear into the trees.

My chest’s burning and aching. I feel like I’m dying. Milla rages within me, thrashing wildly about in pain and fury.

“Why?! Why did you do this? Why did you reject him? Our mate! Our perfect mate!” she snarls, wincing in agony.

“It’s better this way.” I don’t believe my own words, but that doesn’t matter.

“Liar! You liar! You know we are best with him. We are strong with him!” Milla whines, “He was our freedom.”

“He’ll make us weak. We’ll grow to rely on him, and he’ll turn on us, just like everyone else does when they find out about Nemora.”

“That’s not true!” Milla’s fury blinds me temporarily, and she struggles to the surface, trying to take co
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