"You can do it Sandy",I encourage my reflection,"It's just Nikhil."
I grimace at myself, slapping my forehead.
I've decided to have the talk today.I'm going to sort out this thing between us.
I hum to myself, trying to be distracted.
Surprisingly,I don't see Nikhil even once,neither in the hospital nor outside.
I don't let it get to me. Maybe he's busy.
I am bewildered when Nikhil doesn't even try to start conversation with me during lunch. And the one time I tried ,he just gave me a vague reply.
Although i
I'm in the library, gathering material for my upcoming presentation,my concentration wavering when I feel movement beside me.I hide my surprise when I see Nikhil standing next to me."Oh,Hey Nikhil",I whisper."Hey",he gives me a tight lipped smile,"Can we talk?"My heart jerks in my chest."Um. I'm busy right now. I have to study",I say.I really have to study. I have my presentation tomorrow."Oh",his shoulders slump,"I can wait",he offers,"When will you be done?"I glance at my mobile.
"I'm fine",I sniff, pulling away,embarrassed that Nikhil had to see me crying.My lips quiver as I couldn't help replaying aparticularsentence in my head.Apparently,it shows on myface, as Nikhil pulls me into another hug,"I'm so Sorry Sandy. I shouldn't have shouted like that."I sniff. I am ready to sleep away the day,tired.Nikhil clenches his jaw as he wipes my tears away,"Ineverwanted to be the reason you cried."I nod.I am stronger than this,I affirm.Mere wordscannotbreak m
"Stop hugging me Anshu. I'm fine.""HowdareNikhil pounce on you that way, especially in myabsence!"I roll my eyes."You should have texted me,at least",Anshu exclaims,"I would have given him a piece of my mind.""I'm just so done dude. This istoo muchdrama for me to handle.""Sandy, I'msureNikhil didn't mean it,like he said. It was probably a slip of tongue."Anshu knowshow muchimportance I give to words. I take things at a face value,unless Iknowthe person like the back of my hand.
"Come with me Sandy",Anshu drags me across the stairs."Why did they have to shift the xerox machine to the freaking fifth floor",I grumble."I know right. This isnoway to make us walkjust becausethe hospital thinks they haveoverweightresidents. Howcanthe lift stop working too?",she says, annoyed.I gasp when I see Nikhil coming outside the Xerox room,sporting a black eye and a bruised jaw."Anshu",I hiss when he leaves,"You said you punched him once.""But I punched him only once", Anshu persists,"Avyukth had done the rest.""You are-"
"It's been some time since we met Sandy",she grins.I nod, feeling uneasy.Somebody rescue me,please."Yeah. It has",I smile."Nikhil is working here too. I'm sure you probably know though",Ananya shrugs."Yeah. We see each other quite often",I smile.I was surprised to see Ananya waiting for her brother outside the hospital. Though I was startled,I couldn't stop myself from greeting her.Even though the initial few minutes of conversation flowed quite smoothly,I feltawkwardnow.I'm talking to t
I dip my legs in the warm water, enjoying the sun on my head. I smile when a hear a squeal, followed by high pitched laughter."What are you doing here, sitting all by yourself?""Their mushiness makes me want to gag."Nikhil grins, looking at Anshu and Avyukth in the pool. We came to a resort to celebrate Avyukth's Birthday.I swing my legs,"Why did you agree to come?""You don't want me here?""Not like that",I shrug,"Iwouldn't have,if I were in your place.""I had no plans to. But",he presses his lips,"Anshu and Avyukth had somevalidpoin
Then I look at youAnd the world's alright with meJust one look at youAnd I know it's gonna beA lovely day (lovely day, lovely day, lovely day, lovely day)I groan,turning to the other side,placing a pillow over my head.A lovely day (lovely day, lovely day, lovely day, lovely day)"I think you should replace the word Day withNight, Anshu",I sit up, clutching my head."Oh shut up.""Why are you screeching like a harpy?""It's such a good day.""The day had just started,"I raise an eyebrow,"Y
"Hmm",Anshu hums,drawing patterns on the sand ,"Thiswas what you wanted to talk to Dhruv about?"I glare at Anshu,"I'm not an idiot. Why would I patch up with him?""You're a bit...ficklewhen it comes to Dhruv.""Thank you. That means a lot",I roll my eyes."Oh shut up",Anshu mumbles."I'm hungry. Should we go somewhere?""I think you should tell Nikhil what you spoke to Dhruv.""Anshu!""Yeah. Since you don't want Dhruv to come inbetweenyou and Nikhil",she snickers.
I give Nikhil a sheepish smile, mentally kicking myself as he gives me a teasing smile.I'm breathless when he places a kiss on my knuckles,the gesture making me swoon.So in Sandy style,I flip my hair behind, shrug,"I know. I'm just reminding you."Nikhil's face swirls with amusement,"You don't have to. But that's a nice remind-Ouch",he laughs when I punch his arm."So?"I raise an eyebrow."So?",Nikhil questions back, entwining our hands,the simple act makes me blush.I try not to show the nervousness on my face as I narrow my eyes,"You went to meet someone."
Nikhil's POVI'm restless as Prachi and I have our dessert.Being with another supposed-to-be a romantic female company seemedwrong. Even though it was just a lunch,it somehow felt like I am cheating on Sandy, inspite of her knowing it.I grin, shaking my head as I have the last bite of dessert,my cheese cake, heart full as I recall how displeased Sandy was when she came to know I was meeting someone.It obviously means she feelssomething.I let the feeling wash over me,the girl I like likes me back, however little or lot it maybe."Uh",I hear a clearing of throat.
"You guys didn't even kiss?""No.""Not even a peck?""No.""What about—""Shut up Anshu",I hiss."Who are you texting?", Anshu peeps into my mobile,"Show me."I tilt my mobile away from her deliberately, even though I'm just texting my sister.Anshu gasps,"You guys didn't even kiss yesterday, but you'resextingalready?""Anshu!",my cheeks turn red.The loon only grins, wiggling her eyebrows dramaticall
"Are you going somewhere?""Yes",I go through my cupboard,look down at whatever I'm already wearing."Where? Withwhom?"I give Anshu a you-know-who look."Where are you going?",she repeats."Dinner."She scans my attire,"You look fine,if it's just dinner, unless you haveotherplans,you know."I try hard to keep the blush out,as I roll my eyes, underplaying it even if my heart raced for a second,"Lol.""Are you returning?"I frown,"What?"
I pull away after a few seconds, acutely aware that we're on the road,inpublic.I sniff,my eyes dry."Okay?", Nikhil questions.I nod, unable to look at him.I sigh in relief when his mobile rings.Nikhil clenches his jaw,"Excuse me",he moves a few feet away."No. I don't want to. I've already told you",I hear Nikhil's side of the conversation.I'mtotallynot eavesdropping.He just happens to be inmyhearing range.Lol. Keep
I'm not sure if I have to be amused or horrified when Nikhil looks extremely uncomfortable,having been caught."Uh...Hi",He pockets his hands, looking at me for a second,and turning his head, although a smile plays on his lips.I recall the conversation with my mother,sighing in relief when I hadn't contributed much,it was mostly my mother talking after I had explained the situation to her.I wonder how long he'd been standing there.Did he... listen to my side of the story?"Hi",I nod,forcing a smile.Apparently, Nikhil didn't have anything to say as he merely stared at me.Anxiet
Things wereextremelydifferent from what I had anticipated.The day Nikhil had accompanied me to the hospital, thirty six hours ago,claiming he had somework,but actually turned out he wanted to give me company as he stayed with me for the majority of time I'd 'hosted' Niranjan uncle and Akhil, quietly monitoring as I let radiologists do their work.My heart felt oddly hopeful when he had even dropped me back at the hostel, giving me only an extremely heated look that had me blushing when I asked him why he had accompanied me.I had thought things had magically fallen into place.I expected us to be awkward for another day or two,and then kiss,and make up,literally.
Is the pain after a break (up) and the strength of a relationship proportional?I ponder at the question, painting my toe nails,three days after Nikhil decided we need to take a... break.There's a bitter aftertaste in my mouth.I letWhatever It TakesbyImagineDragonsplay in the background, conveniently ignoring the tap on my door.I hum to the lyrics,getting up to iron my clothes for the day, ignoring the way my best friend is yelling from the other side."I'm fine. I'm alive",I yell back.There's a pause, followed by a 'Fuck You'.Good.
"It's alright",I smile at a child,about five to six years old when she apologises for bumping into me,in the corridor.I hum to myself,taking a seat."Umm.""Where are we going?"The both of them look at each other.I scroll through my mobile, looking for new places to eat at,as I continue to hum."What do you think of— What?"Anshu looks at me worriedly,and then glances at her boyfriend,to which he just nods.I roll my eyes when Anshu pokes my arm, jumping back a good two feet when I don't respond.