CHRISTY:Everette's forehead knotted, then laughed to cover the awkwardness in the air. "Love you? Why would I love you, kitten? I thought we already talked about your purpose in this marriage.""I love you, Everette," I confessed. “I love you, you hear me?”I wished the ground would swallow me whole when he only stared at me with a bewildered expression. Dammit. Was it a mistake that I confessed to him or not? Was it too soon? Everette and you had already known each other for a couple of months already. It was when we were in Swiped. My hands shook, and I wanted to run away from him and hide after this confession. But no. I won't be a coward and face him.My breathing labored. "Y-you love me? Kitten...why?"My feet went cold. That's the only thing that he could say? My explanation? "Why? You're asking me why I loved you? Isn't it obvious already? You're my ideal man. And you were right. You set a standard for me. So please don't tell me not to love someone else."I easily fel
CHRISTY:I held my breath as I continued to wait for Everette's reply. But as he continued staring at me intently, I could not help but feel shame. “Of course. Why would you date someone like me?” As he continued watching me with an intense stare, I couldn't help but back away and dropped my hand in the process. "I know I am not desirable," I continued and laughed. "But I just want to date you and get to know you even better. Y-you don't have to lie if you don't want to. I mean…I would completely understand.”And it wouldn't be that embarrassing if he told me that it was because he was busy and could not spend more time with me. I mean…I had no right to demand anything from him. He had been good to me. And that was already more than enough. It was my greed to be with him even more that was the reason for all of this. His eyes softened. "I don't want my wife to beg me to do something that I should be doing," he whispered. “I'm so sorry, kitten for not doing my job as your husban
CHRISTY:“You would be joining us?” I asked in disbelief. “Why?”My heart secretly swelled in happiness. The things Everetts and I could do while we were there. And I wanted to make sure that our wedding will be consummated. It was always long overdue. When I was already prepared to give him my body, would he accept me? Will he accept the fat me?“Everette does not have to answer your question, dear,” Clara interjected as if she did not want her son to change her mind. “We will inform everyone when the cruise will be. Thank you for all your warm acceptance of the invitation especially do my son, Everetts.” Clara raised her glasses for a toss. “I am already excited that my son is going to join us,” Clara squealed.Facing Everette, I asked, “Are you sure about this? Promise. I won’t take this against you.”“You don’t have to worry about anything, kitten. I will just finish everything.”“Are you sure?” I asked again. “Everette. You don’t have–”“Don’t change my son’s decision. And don’t
CHRISTY:Too bad my husband did not love me at all, and this was one of the saddest things that happened in my relationship.“I am certain that these feelings will fade away in a matter of months. Like how it happened to my previous boyfriends,” I muttered which was a lie of course. “Bear with me, husband.”Removing these feelings? Stopping a flood was much easier than making my feelings for Everette disappear.I was certain this would not disappear at all. My feelings for him had already rooted in my chest and they wouldn’t be uprooted just like that. I needed something. A big reason why I should stop loving him. And I could not find anything at all. Everette was almost perfect, except for loving Eden until now. Everette straightened himself and shifted his attention to the window.“You are an amazing woman, kitten. I wanted to teach myself to love you. Aside from Eden, but…I don’t know. The thought of me loving someone else causes my heart to bleed.”I heaved a sigh and closed my
CHRISTY:My heart was bleeding and if only the blood could be out in a basin and be weighed it would weigh a lot. Everette never even filtered his words. The truth was...when it came to Eden, he looked like he was another person. And it fucking hurt a lot when he never considered my feelings when it comes to Eden.Why did all the men I chose to love were so complex? Could I love someone with a less messy life?“I never said that I want your love or you should reciprocate your feelings to me, Everette,” I said quietly. “I want to be clear on that.”His touch which brought peace to my chest became acidic, burning my body, and causing me a lot of pain. Still, I never bothered to break away from his touch.He heaved a sigh. “Just don’t... don’t order me to forget about her. It makes me mad. I’m getting sick of hearing it from my family and I did not want to hear it from you either, kitten. I brought you here because I thought you would understand what I felt.”You brought me here to infli
CHRISTY:May I cry now? May I scream in anger after hearing what my dear husband had just said? Awesome how Everette did not want to divorce me right away, but when it comes to Eden, he would. Without a doubt.I looked up and stared at the blue sky. How could I have missed it? It turned out, Everette was not that perfect. He had his own set of flaws which I only realized now. And everything was about Eden.“You will divorce me?” I asked, in disbelief. “Are you sure, my husband?” My voice was full of sarcasm.What was painful was that he never thought about it a couple of times. Which also meant he would rather want to lose me than Eden.In the end, I was replaceable. Always. “I will if it means shutting your mouth. My family was already giving me a hard time, kitten. I brought you here because I trusted you. But what are you doing? You’re breaking my trust, kitten.”“And because of that, you’re going to divorce me even if you already know my feelings for you? Even if I want to di
CHRISTY:Raven looked at me with a weird expression before asking, “Christina. You already have a husband, yet you’re still jealous of some random woman? Don’t tell me you still have feelings for me.”I gasped. “Jealous? Why would I?” I stared at him as if he had grown some pair of horns. “Are you freaking kidding me, Raven? Did you forget I was the one who broke up with you?”“It was me who initiated the breakup.”My forehead knotted. “It was you?” And I did not remember. Wait. What happened to my memories? Was it messed up already? I really believed it was me who broke up with him.Raven gave me a blank look. “You were the jealous type. Before. You wouldn’t even let me text my female friends.”I bet my lower lip. “Did I do that?” He broke up because I was the jealous type? Raven pocketed his hands. “You were like that and because of you, I never had another woman scared that she would be as jealous as you.”I mentally counted the last time we broke up and my eyes bulged. “You mean
CHRISTY:The car was filled with tension while I was fuming inside. Damn him! How dare he!Did my husband believe I was also happy ordering him to forget about his beloved Eden? No! I did not want to be the antagonist in his life. This was also difficult for me! Why cannot he believe that?Why would he when he clearly believed you were the only one who would benefit if he would forget about his feelings with his beloved Eden? It was not true!“Hate me all you want, Everette but I won’t stop ordering you what you should be doing,” I answered. “I don’t care if you believe I am an antagonist in your life as long as I should be doing what should be right.”“I thought you would be the first one who would understand me, kitten.”“Don’t use my feelings, husband. For six months, I have the right to dictate to you since you are my husband,” I clarified.He smirked in the mirror. Glancing at me and back on the road, he said, “You were the one who kept on reminding me that this is nothing but